Longmen Memoirs

She works hard, but she's not working hard enough. She needs to learn a lot, and she already has to face challenges. 【#-

The doctor naturally thought of this.

"I'm very happy that you can have this idea, Amiya, but I don't think so. I don't know what Kelsey thinks of you, but in my eyes, you are already outstanding enough, and few people can do it. You should be proud of the fact that you have achieved the same thing as you at your age. This is a responsibility and a right."

The doctor calmly replied: "You have to learn to put yourself in the right position, Amiya. Only in this way can every order you give be consistent with reality."

"But doctor... I don't know. I'm not mature enough. If casualties occur that shouldn't occur because of my order, if my order is wrong..."

The girl asked confusedly.

"Such an order..."

"Would it make you feel regretful and unacceptable, right?" the doctor asked.

Amiya nodded.

"Amiya, no one is immune to making mistakes, and no one is sure that he will always win. Everyone will make mistakes, and everyone will face failure. The possible consequences of failure are a kind of responsibility. Perhaps this responsibility is important to the current situation. The price is too high for you, but you have to learn to accept it." The doctor said:

"Failure is not terrible. What is terrible is being unable to move forward because of failure. As the leader of Rhode Island, if you think your order is correct and someone loses his life because of your order, Amiya, don't regret it. , because sacrifice is inevitable, you are the leader, the leader, everyone is watching you, there is only one thing you have to do and must do well to make the sacrifice worthwhile."

Amiya was still a little hesitant. She was a kind-hearted girl next door. She was not afraid of difficulties or tiredness, but precisely because she was kind, conscientious and lucky, she was not cold-blooded enough.

She needs time to adapt, and she needs to experience blood to grow.

What others say always sounds easy. Even if they know it is the truth, people who have not experienced it cannot agree with it anyway.

Amiya was distracted.

The doctor didn't urge him. He watched the elevator rise slowly, leaving behind him the panoramic view of the lower building. The slight weightlessness was accompanied by slight vibrations, and the numbers representing the floors jumped little by little.

The doctor didn't hear Amiya's answer until the elevator door opened.

The Doctor was not disappointed in the slightest.

The sound of the elevator door opening seemed to wake up the distracted Amiya. When the doctor walked out of the elevator, Amiya suddenly raised her head.

"Doctor, I know what you just said is correct."

The doctor stopped, and Amiya's eyes gradually became firmer. The doctor's back was reflected in those blue pupils. She thought of the dream that day. In the dream, the doctor walked away, and she desperately wanted to chase him. He followed in this man's footsteps, but he never looked back or stopped.

Amiya felt more and more frightened.

"But I can't agree." Amiya took a deep breath and clenched her hands.

"I can't agree with your idea, Doctor. Maybe it's because I'm not mature enough. I'm not sure I can remember the name and appearance of everyone in Rhode Island, but even so, no one should be sacrificed. No one should sacrifice their lives for my order. Even if the order is correct, if the dispute can be avoided, then we should choose silence, but if fighting is necessary, we should fight to the end, and as Rhodes As the leader of the island, I must be the first to stand up.”

The corners of the mouth under the hood raised slightly after these words.

The doctor seemed to feel the eyes staring at him from behind, so unwavering, so... gratifying to him.

But the doctor still didn't turn around.

He wanted to know whether it was a momentary impulse or a fantasy that had not yet been extinguished in a girl's nature.

Naive and unrealistic fantasy.

"I have met many people, Amiya, and I have also experienced many wars. Unimaginable wars, accompanied by failure, pain, struggle, intrigues, desperation, and the joy of surviving in desperate situations. Many people died. , some died spectacularly, and some died in obscurity.”

Amiya suddenly became nervous. She seemed to have guessed what the doctor wanted to tell her.

"Can you imagine? With a pair of eyes slowly fading in front of you, you can feel that his heartbeat is failing little by little. His body has stopped breathing without losing its temperature. You try your best to hold him back and stretch out your hand. But nothing can be done." The doctor said:

"Every choice you make indicates one life after another that is about to be lost, but you can't think about it because the situation will not give you a chance to think. All you can do is choose who to sacrifice or who to replace. You die, but you must live. This is not called cowardice, Amiya. Sometimes living is more painful than death, because it will be repeated over and over again until you are numb, until you forget what regret feels like. You don’t even have the time or energy to be sad about it.”

The doctor raised his head. In the corridor in the upper part of Rhode Island, through the wide glass, he saw the sunset gradually setting at the end of the wasteland, filling the entire corridor. He stood in the remaining light, and the sunset stretched the length of the doctor. The figure fell all the way to Amiya's feet.

"I once heard someone say that once a general succeeds, ten thousand bones will wither. So are we generals... or are we withered?"

Amiya subconsciously wanted to retort, but when she opened her mouth, she couldn't say a word.

She suddenly thought of something. The doctor's back made Amiya think of a title, a title she heard from elsewhere - the undead of the Tower of Babel.

His hands were bloody.

Dr. Kelsey said that if the doctor is still the same doctor, then the rescue plan must be abandoned immediately the first time he sees him.

But Amiya could feel that the doctor had changed. She saw the doctor's eyes when he opened his eyes in the sarcophagus. They were blank, plain, and gentle. They were not the eyes that a cold-blooded and cruel person should have.

Amiya felt a burst of unreasonable sadness in her heart. The doctor's figure fell under the remaining sunset, looking thin and lonely.

His body emerges from the sarcophagus, but his memories remain in the past.

Amiya stepped out of the elevator.

The fragment of that dream flashed through her mind again, with the Doctor walking further and further away. She failed to notice that there was always a person beside the Doctor.

"Doctor...this is Rhode Island." Amiya repeated softly. "You've gone home."

The doctor suddenly paused, and it took several seconds for Amiya to hear the doctor's voice.

"I remember the first time I saw you, you were only a few years old and had lost your left eye and right hand. You followed His Highness tightly and pulled His Highness's clothes tightly, as if His Highness was everything to you. At that time, you were already very mature. Sensible, very quiet, unable to talk or cry."

The doctor's voice was calm.

"Later I learned that you lost your parents in the attack of the infected, but you did not hold any hatred towards the infected because of this. Your Highness is also an infected. You grew up in such an environment. See Most of the people who arrive are infected, and they don't hate you either."

"Everyone is fine. Infected people are also human beings. There will be good people and bad people. They become like that just because they are afraid."

The doctor turned around.

"Doctor..." Amiya murmured in a low voice. She seemed to see the doctor's smile under his hood. In the shadow of the setting sun, the smile seemed like an illusion.

"You have grown up, Amiya." The doctor repeated this sentence for the second time: "I regret that I was not able to accompany you through the years when you grew up."

"It's okay, Doctor." Amiya shook her head: "I feel very happy to see you again."

"Sorry, Amiya."

"Doctor..." Amiya took courage: "I know there is a long road under our feet... Maybe this is a journey with no end, but I hope... I hope I can go on with you in the future, okay? ?PhD."

The doctor didn't answer, he waved, and Amiya walked up to the doctor. She saw that the doctor was really smiling, a gentle smile.

"In Rhode Island, I saw many unfamiliar faces, Amiya. Each of them looked at you with trust in their eyes. I seemed to see the former His Highness."

The doctor looked down at the Custer girl in front of him.

"Your Highness does not hate you, Doctor."

"I know Your Highness will not hate me. Your Highness will never hate anyone."

The doctor's eyes glanced at the ring on Amiya's finger without trace.

"Then why don't you want to go back..."

Amiya hesitated for a moment. She remembered the doctor's previous answer, what the doctor said to her while looking at the night in Chicheng.

Amiya was a little unbelievable and asked:

"Doctor, do you... hate yourself?"

The doctor was silent.

The girl lowered her eyelids, and the ears on her head were slightly lowered.

"You are right, Amiya. This is Rhode Island. No one should sacrifice their life for anyone, even if it is right." The doctor said: "You have the opportunity to choose, and you can do what you want." Better yet, save those lives that shouldn’t have been lost, and save those mistakes that shouldn’t have happened.”

April 5

The attack occurred at around 5:25 on May 10. The enemy laid an ambush and engineered explosives on the Rhode Island operation route, causing damage to the track structure on the left side of the Rhode Island land speeder and some operators in the nearby area. After being injured, the Rhode Island's power system output decreased, and it had to resist the attack while dispatching operators from the engineering team to conduct emergency repairs.

Shuangxing met Huang at this time. The two people who came out of the medical room at the same time met at the door. Huang, as an old employee of Rhode Island, led Shuangxing to familiarize himself with Rhode Island's internal routes. After the attack, he wanted to After confirming the situation, Huang was pulled by Shuangxing. Under Huang's leadership, the two came to the bridge.

Froststar then voluntarily accepted Rhode Island's temporary treatment plan for him.

April 5

After three hours of emergency repairs, the engineering team cut off part of the energy supply to the left power structure, barely maintaining the Rhode Island's ability to move.

The engineering team leader of the emergency maintenance team made it clear that if the current situation in Rhode Island continues to maintain the current output, the left frame may disintegrate due to instability at any time, causing a high probability of irreparable damage to the power furnace. In other words, Everyone is now sitting on a giant bomb.

Four hours later, the Rhode Island escaped enemy pursuit.

The temporarily mobilized A3 and A4 action groups completed their alert mission and returned to the main ship Rhode Island. PRTS suggested modifying the expected action route and heading to the gantry for repairs. After emergency approval by the command, the action route for Rhode Island was changed.

April 5

13 hours after the attack.

The debate in the bridge command area gradually ended. Kelsey reluctantly agreed to Amiya's request, but she still maintained her original opinions on the handling of Frost Star.

The Doctor felt embarrassed.

Amiya's pleading look made people helpless. Although he had taken back the management rights of PTRS, Kelsey's cold eyes blocked the doctor's words that he wanted to ask for mercy.

The doctor personally believes that Kelsey's eyes are undoubtedly a naked threat, but in Rhode Island today, the doctor is a strange existence to most people.

Whether it's Du Bin or Huang, even ACE and Linguang are obviously more inclined to Kelsey's choice.

And the only one who gave Amiya hope, Lucille, well, this guy was standing in the huge gap caused by the explosion, looking at the empty night sky outside and howling.

The doctor finally understood why Amiya was so unsure and lacked courage.

All eyes were on the doctor.

The doctor was one of the three top managers present, and his opinion determined the direction of this impromptu meeting.

To be honest, the doctor is actually more inclined to Kelsey, not because he is afraid, but because he is discussing the matter.

Rhode Island's action route is very secretive. It is kept secret except for Qicheng and Shuangxing who are on the ship. Of course, the existence of spies within Rhode Island cannot be ruled out, but this possibility is undoubtedly higher than Qicheng's. Much smaller.

As the liaison officer of the Integration Movement, Shuangxing is highly suspicious. Although her attitude is questionable for a while, it is also very possible that it is because she is not informed.

Tallulah Atrias, the leader of the Integration Movement, Kelsey was very suspicious of this person's attitude. When they entered the city, the Rhode Island operators had already noticed that the other party was following their own. There were traces, but due to the positions of both parties at the time, both parties chose to ignore this point.

Of course, the doctor does not think that an infected leader who can accept military assistance from Kazdare and Victoria and has the ability to rise in Ursus will be an ordinary person.

But Amiya believes that Rhode Island has just signed a commercial order with the Integration Movement, and some Rhode Island operators are staying in Chernobog to assist the Integration Movement in establishing a medical system. The Integration Movement lacks a legitimate reason to attack Rhode Island. , if there is a rift in the contract between the two parties due to Frost Star, or even the latter, the operators staying in Qicheng will be in danger.

Amiya, who is weak and weak, fights alone, which is pitiful, but the doctor is unable to do what she wants.

"Amiya, as the leader of Rhode Island, I respect and support every choice you make."

Kelsey snorted coldly.

The doctor shut his mouth and pretended to be silent.

Chapter 69 Creditors

[I am Snake. From now on, I will be responsible for teaching you all the codes of conduct and order that BSW needs to abide by in the next two weeks. 】

The past is like a recent dream. I vaguely remember every scene in the dream, but I have forgotten how to recall it after waking up from the dream.

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Rhode Island Land Cruiser Third Restaurant

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At this time, someone lamented that Black Steel International is indeed an internationally renowned PMC. Their business level is definitely among the top in the industry. But it is a pity that Razer herself is not satisfied with this, although she can see that Rhode Island The operators of the action team have maintained a normal level of response to emergencies, and some of them even showed quite good response measures, but most of them still can't find what they should do in the face of an attack. .

The only thing that is gratifying and surprising for Razer is that compared to the operators of Black Steel, this group of people in Rhode Island grew and adapted surprisingly quickly.

This is by no means the normal level that an ordinary medical institution should have. Although Rhode Island has emphasized in its external claims that they have considerable experience and experience in dealing with disputes caused by Originium, in Razer's view, even if Just the reaction of the operators caused by this apparent attack is worthy of Razer's attention and deep thought.

She saw in quite a few operators that their abilities were not inferior to those of Black Steel International's senior operators, and she also saw in some of the young operators their amazing potential.

This is enough to trigger Razer’s deep attention to Rhode Island.

What is the purpose of this mercenary company under the banner of a medical company? Razer thought of their external propaganda and sought ways to treat infected people.

She is now very hesitant about this promotion.

But compared to her, the woman sitting across from her didn't seem to have thought about this issue at all. The Volper woman crossed her legs leisurely, and her long and full legs were stretched out by her long socks. Curved, with a silver stabbing sword wrapped in a scabbard lying across her thigh, and smooth brown hair, she undoubtedly has a face that is so beautiful that it can even be said to be charming, and there is a hint of vagueness in every movement. The charm, combined with the plump figure and the towering breasts, are enough to trigger every man's fantasy.

The heels of her high heels tapped lightly on the floor of the ship's restaurant. She blinked her right eye at a passing operator, who immediately looked away with a blush on her face.

"You look bad. What happened?"

Franca glanced sideways at the honor student sitting opposite her holding a dinner plate. After seeing the lackluster dishes on her plate, she lost the idea of ​​taking action.

There was visible heaviness and exhaustion on Razer's face, and Franka's smiling gaze made her raise her head. She undoubtedly noticed Franka's actions just now.