Longmen Memoirs

"I said, I don't want to."

"I said if."

"If that doesn't work either." She didn't let go of her hand: "This is the second time, you liar, don't...leave me there alone again."

There was a prayer in her words.

She had already lost it once.

She had watched the person in front of her die with her own eyes, and had also sent her into the abyss with her own hands. Now, it was up to her to make up for it and bring him back, even if now, their future is no longer what they thought it would be. of that future.

He made up for all the blood debts and regrets that should have been left by her, but no one has ever come to make up for his regrets. He doesn't owe anyone, but he has been paying off debts that should not be his for others.

"..."

"So, Chernobog was your plan from the beginning." Tallulah suddenly asked.

Chen Mo, who was looking at her, was about to retort when he suddenly thought of the weird Chen and Tallulah who shouldn't have appeared in front of him.

The words spoken inevitably changed.

"I met Witte, the president of the Ursus Council, in Longmen, representing the reformists and Feodor." Chen Mo said: "We made a deal, a deal that both parties are happy to see."

"About the Third Army and the military faction?"

"It's also about the infected and you, time, and a place where you can rest temporarily." He did not hide anything: "After all, the old man is only one person. You young people and the soldiers have not yet grown up. You need and lack too much. Things, but the iron cavalry and torrent of Ursus will not give you time, nor will the restless and chaotic political situation give you time. Ursus is not a dying giant. It and its people have not reached that point yet, and it is still There is power left to easily tear you apart and preach it as a warning of victory and domination.”

"I can't think of any other way to ease and break this deadlock. If this is all destined, Tallulah, then it's up to me to complete this step for you. From the time we met, from the time we left Longmen, to the time we traveled to various places, to Return to Great Flame." He said: "Only city walls can fight against city walls, only iron armor can face sharp swords, and only monsters can defeat monsters."

"You are not a monster."

"……I could be the one."

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The little girl curiously turned her head and asked Chen beside her.

"Mommy, what monkey is Xiaota's mother talking about?"

Chen looked back and lowered his head.

"A person in a story."

"Is it great?"

"Great."

"Why I never heard you tell me."

"...Because I haven't finished listening to this story either." Chen said softly.

Amiya lowered her eyelids slightly, clenched her fingers slightly and moved them behind her.

"What's wrong? Amiya." He noticed her strange glance and asked with concern.

"Well, it's nothing." Amiya whispered.

She just remembered some vague memories. A long time ago, there was a man who was rejected and disliked by everyone. There was a man that many people didn't want to have contact with.

a certain night.

In the office, someone told a story to a little girl who was lying on the sofa and refused to leave.

When he told it, his appearance was not gentle, and his words were not very gentle. He just told the expectant little Carters a story about monks, monkeys, pigs and monsters in a plain and slightly boring tone.

Very interesting story.

"Why are you still not sleeping?"

"Can't sleep anymore?"

"Don't look at me like that, okay, okay, for Theresia's sake, that last paragraph, Amiya, after listening to it, I want to see you with your eyes closed and the monkey holding an iron rod in place. I drew a circle on the ground and said to the monk..."

Amiya has forgotten this past, just like many people in Sakaz, they have also forgotten that such a person existed.

He never belonged in the Tower of Babel.

He never belonged to this land called Terra.

He came from a far, far away place, bid farewell to his hometown, and came to this strange land, spanning countless years and time.

He left all his warmth to the people hurt by this land, and he brought all the original sufferings of the people on this land to himself.

Amiya's cyan eyes gradually revealed a sparkle.

She raised the back of her hand and wiped the corners of her eyes.

Linguang noticed and gently put his hand on the girl's shoulder.

"I'm fine, I just..."

"I know, Amiya, it's just that I will inevitably think of some past things." Linguang said warmly: "Although I don't know him, I believe you, I believe Rhode Island, if he has done anything for you , then he is worthy of your tears for him, this is not cowardice, absolutely not."

Linguang's words were so certain, and there was no hint of hesitation in them.

She said slowly: "I will help you, Amiya. You are not alone. There is Rhode Island behind you, and there are many people. You can rest assured to rely on us. It doesn't matter. We will go there sometimes too." Just as dependent on you.”

Chen looked at all this, looked at Amiya, Linguang turned his head and nodded slightly to her.

"Miss Chen..."

"Needless to say, I think since Rhode Island has the ability, they will not only think about the worst ending. I will wait and see what you are capable of."

If it were Chen in the past, he would probably say at this time that it is up to you to choose whether you want to go or not, but I will handle my affairs myself.

She did change a lot.

It's hard for people not to change.

The red in the sheath ([-]) is brilliant: for now

A young leader, she has too many possibilities, is full of vigor and high-spirited, and she dominates the future of a country and its people. It is precisely because of her youth that her people have the greatest expectations for the future.

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They have reason to believe that their young master still needs time to grow up, and they have reason to believe that the monarch's eagerness for quick success will lead to disaster.

You should have respect for older people. They may be stubborn and pedantic, but they have their reasons.

You should stick to your own will, because older people tend to think too much and it's hard for them to give it away easily.

It is extremely difficult to become a qualified monarch. It is always much easier than letting down the crown on your head. Power sometimes blinds a person's eyes, and no one can stay awake throughout his life.

The Carters in front of Chen Mo is such a young leader. She now represents Rhode Island, and one day in the future, she will take over the crown of the entire Kazdale.

She is the future that Theresia has chosen for herself and for Sakaz. She carries too many of Theresia's expectations, but the girl in front of Chen Mo who looks a little embarrassed or even uneasy doesn't seem to realize this. point.

"Amiya?"

The semi-puzzling words woke up the young Carters, and she was obviously stunned. Her somewhat immature face flashed with panic for a moment, and then quickly calmed down.

She looked up at the man sitting opposite her.

This is the military camp of Dayan, surrounded by the most elite warriors and warships from the north of Dayan, and there is a forest of military armor. But I, a foreign Custer girl, is facing the leader and commander of the entire army.

"If I remember the name correctly, you were only this old when I first met you. You were often with His Highness, and you were quite shy." He raised his hand to indicate a height.

"I didn't expect it to be so big now."

"Your Majesty, I was only six years old when Dr. Kelsey brought me back to the Tower of Babel from Rem Billiton when I met you."

"When did that year come?"

"1088."

"So it's been so long."

"Yeah." Amiya nodded, she gently spread her fingers on her thighs, and her heart slowly calmed down, "I remember that there had just been changes in Grai that year, and you were sent there as the person in charge. Later, It was the first time I met you in His Highness's office when you came back from Grai."

"If I remember correctly, His Highness should be teaching you something at that time."

"Violin." Amiya answered, and added: "You came in from the outside, and I saw Sister Askaron at the door. I remember it very clearly. His Highness smiled when he saw you, Kelsey. The lady later told me that you had served as His Highness’s bodyguard, but I know that in His Highness’s eyes, you are more than just her bodyguard.”

"His Highness treats every soldier of the Tower of Babel like this." He said: "But I have indeed done a lot of evil things, evil things for the Tower of Babel or Kazdaele."

Amiya hesitated for a moment, then she spoke in a low voice.

"I know they call you the Butcher."

"An outsider usurped Theresia's rights and raised the sword against her people, but Theresia and the Tower of Babel turned a blind eye and allowed a murderer to show off his cruelty." He asked: "Who are they? That’s how it spread, right? After I took action against the parliament, they publicized my...evil deeds like this.”

Amiya was stunned. She nodded with difficulty, her eyes a little complicated. The little girl clenched her fingers gently, as if she couldn't tolerate this.

"Since you know everything, why, why don't you stand up and refute them loudly?" She asked, as if she mustered up the courage, with some unbearable eyes in her indigo eyes: "You obviously can, you know they are slandering..."

"So, you think I should refute them, or prove to them that what I did is right, let them realize their mistakes, and severely punish those who wantonly spread slander for their evil deeds." He said: "But Ami Ya, if I do this, it will make them more excited, make them think that I am afraid, and confirm what I have done."

"But you just let them slander you and carry charges that don't belong to you. I think..." The little girl said firmly: "This is obviously very unfair to you."

"Because what I need is not fairness, Amiya." He looked at Castor in front of him: "Fairness is a very cheap word. What you should ask is not fairness, but whether it is worth it. You who are with His Highness It should also be seen that those soldiers who went to the front line from the Tower of Babel and died on the battlefield for this purpose were an injustice to those who survived and escaped the war. The civil war consumed There is not much heritage left in Kazdaele. That battlefield is an injustice to the people living on the land. The war destroyed their villages and fields, displaced them, and left them with nothing to gain."

"There has always been no fairness in this land. Amiya, what you should be obsessed with is not fairness, nor should you get equal rewards for everything you pay. Most of the time, we work in vain. But we have to do it, and we have to try, because we also made this choice for the sake of fairness.”

Amiya fell silent. Chen Mo's words were too cruel for such a little girl. She couldn't accept it for a while, but she couldn't find the words to refute.

Amiya still couldn't agree.

Chen Mo seemed to see the shadow of Theresia and Tallulah in the girl in front of him. They were somewhat similar, but they were paradoxical. This young girl was once brought back by Kelsey from Rem Billiton as one of the options. , but Theresa did not choose this. She chose to give this child a future of her own. Although her future may not be smooth sailing because of herself, she made this child endure many things that should not belong to her. suffering.

Chen Mo seemed to see Amiya's confusion.

"You are still young, Amiya. You have many opportunities and time to confirm your inner thoughts. I think His Highness also hopes that you will do the same. If you want, you hope, and you are willing to pay for it, you can always find it, maybe The result is not as good as you thought, it may be contrary to your imagination, or it may be because of one of your choices that innocent people or your comrades and companions lose their lives, and you will lose them." He said: "You will gradually understand some truths in the process. Some truths told to you by others are far less profound than what you have experienced yourself. These truths will remind you what you should do in the future. If you still refuse to give up, you can hold on. If you go down, you will be able to see what you want to see. Of course, you may also fall on this road. After all, no one can see the ending and the future."

"Then they should be better than me. She is very good at this, and Kelsey is indeed a strict but responsible teacher."

"I remember...thank you."

"Thank yourself." He shook his head: "Or thank those behind you who are willing to follow you, instead of thanking me, a person who only talks a few empty words, because I can't do anything for you, so they He is the one who supports and accompanies you as you go on.”

"Your Highness has been telling me that she said she made a mistake, and I know that this mistake is related to you..." Amiya said, but she could not finish her words.

She looked into Chen Mo's eyes.

"Kazdale has abandoned you. At least I think His Highness has always felt guilty for you." She said: "Before leaving Kazdale, His Highness held me in his arms in the heavy snow. I could hear His Highness's heartbeat, strong and strong. Powerful, just like Kazdaele now, His Highness said, that does not belong to her."

"..."

He didn't answer.

"I, I hope you can go back, even just once, to Kazdale. I know you have paid a lot for that land, but it only brought you disappointment and betrayal." Amiya looked at With that calm face, he took courage: "I'm not asking you to do anything, it's just... I hope you can see His Highness again."

Amiya's voice became smaller and smaller, and until she finished speaking, there was still no response from the other party.

After all, it was just her own wishful thinking. After all, Amiya couldn't ask him to continue to do more for Sakaz. That would make this little girl feel despicable and shameless.

"Wait until later, wait until we resolve the matter here." Just when Amiya thought he wouldn't answer, she heard him say: "I think Tallulah, Chen, and your sudden appearance should Not just for this matter, we can solve it piece by piece.”

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In the camp, in the barracks prepared by the guards for those who come.

This was not the first time Linguang saw Huang walking around in front of him.

"Can you stop for a moment? I feel like you're going to knock me out by walking around."

Huang stopped and looked back at Lin Guang calmly.

"I'm so anxious that I can't calm down. Aren't you worried that it's been so long and why are you still not back?"

The big cat frowned deeply, and after a few seconds she seemed to have made a decision.

"No, I have to go take a look." She walked to the door and opened the tent.

"I advise you not to." Linguang suddenly said: "You have lived in Yan Country for a period of time. You know what this place is better than me. Huang, don't cause any accidents because of your eagerness."

"Then I'll go without weapons."

"You should believe Amiya. The current situation is that we know nothing about this place or the person we just met. We have already come in. If something is really going to be done to us here, you know that even if you add me, There’s nothing you can do to change the status quo.”

He raised and lowered his hand on the door curtain. After repeating it several times, Huang finally turned around and sat down opposite Linguang.

"Have you thought about it?"