The self-cultivation of the female supporting role of the evil party

Shen Shuxue can also use ignorance of world affairs to explain it, Jing Cheng can also say that he is mentally retarded, but Jing An Yao is really unreasonable.

But what about the facts?The contact information was given at the first meeting, but the second meeting also produced a strange feeling...

It's like just reading a text message, and then fantasizing about a heart-to-heart connection, what kind of shyness... I can't explain it.

Apart from the charm of the protagonist who has no place to hide, which can be called Jiangzhi's halo, otherwise Jingcheng really doesn't know how to explain it.

In short, in the original plot, Jing Anyao really developed a good impression of Ouyang Shaoye, and it was extended to the following plot, which started tonight.

But strictly speaking, the premise for the normal development of the plot is gone. After all, the change of Jingcheng happened. What she did that night made Ouyang Shaoye lose his soul, let alone get to know Jing Anyao.

Since there is no contact information, Ouyang Shaoye naturally can no longer send greetings to Jing Anyao, so will the plot still happen?

Jingcheng wanted to verify it.

If the plot doesn't happen, that's of course a good thing.

But if the plot still happens because of some kind of accident, then in a way, it's a bit subtle.

But now, she has already seen Jing An Yao's figure.

On the dimly lit booth on the third floor, Jing Cheng in a red dress raised her legs slightly. From her angle, she could just see through the glass guardrail the conspicuous girl sitting alone in a certain position on the second floor.

Waiting patiently for the next development will determine whether her guess is true.

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On the second floor, in the booth a little near the corner, Jing An Yao couldn't help but close her eyes and feel a little annoyed when she heard the accent accompanied by strong drumbeats.

She is very quiet, but she is actually not used to this kind of environment. She has never been to this kind of place since junior high school because of curiosity.

It's just that she is depressed tonight, and her heart is extremely complicated. Some want to vent, so she can't help but think of this environment.

The noisy atmosphere, the shouting crowd, the deafening sound, although it is noisy, it has to be said that it can really make people forget their troubles for a short time.

On the table in front of her, there were no wine bottles or snacks piled up, but a single medicine bottle.

On the bottle, the word estazolam is marked.

Jing An Yao lowered her eyebrows, and there was a rare trance on her cold face.

"Suicide..."

32. Two Upheavals

Jing An Yao, who had never been so angry that day, originally planned to go upstairs to question Jing Cheng again.

Whether it was the slap in the face, or Jing Cheng's words that would make up for her mistakes, she lost her mind a little bit.

But a phone call immediately woke her up.

Her bodyguard found a bottle of sleeping pills on the floor of the bathroom at the party.

As for who left it behind, there is no need to say more.

After all, in the first half of the party, Jing Cheng was the only one who went in and out of the bathroom.

Hearing this, Jing Anyao was stunned.

The first thing she thought of was whether Jingcheng had symptoms of insomnia?

But the bodyguard explained to her that according to the dose, it doesn't seem to be used for insomnia, and even if it is insomnia, you shouldn't carry the medicine bottle with you. in two days ago.

So Jing An Yao naturally had another guess in her heart.

suicide?

At the same time that this thought arose, Jing Anyao herself laughed.

People like Jingcheng commit suicide?She who committed such a wrong thing never thought of dying in the past, and even fled to Tianhai to live in order to avoid responsibility, would she commit suicide?

Jing Anyao didn't believe that a person like Jing Cheng, who loves vanity and exaggeration, would have the courage to commit suicide.

But this question has always been stuck in her mind and needs to be solved.

So she launched an investigation immediately, but neither from Jingcheng's usual doctor nor from her previous physical examination showed that she had symptoms of insomnia.

Although it is also possible that this was deliberately concealed by Jing Cheng, Jing Anyao really couldn't figure out why it was necessary to conceal it if it was just insomnia.

So it's not insomnia.. What can sleeping pills be used for?

Jing Anyao thought back to the time at the party, when Jing Cheng confessed to Ouyang Shaoye, but was ruthlessly rejected, her expression of pain and collapse that didn't seem fake, and her appearance of fleeing to the bathroom in despair.

At that time, maybe everyone present was laughing at Jing Cheng's ugly appearance in their hearts. After all, Jing Cheng was too arrogant and domineering on weekdays. Now that he can see her like this, he will naturally feel relieved.

But Jing An Yao is different.

Seeing Jing Cheng's distraught appearance, she didn't know why, but felt a little heartbroken, but most of all she was angry!

Although this was indeed Jing Cheng's own fault, he did not pay the bill but escaped to Tianhai. If you see it, it's for the sake of the family's face, so you shouldn't just sit idly by.

After all, no matter how much you hate her, no matter how much you hate her, Jing Cheng is still her blood relative no matter what.

So there was indeed a moment when she wanted to catch up with Jingcheng, but when she thought about what Jingcheng did on weekdays, she felt lonely again.

Because even if she catches up with her, she won't appreciate it, and there is a high probability that she will scold her for meddling afterwards...

There is no other reason. Jingcheng is such a person. There were elders in the family who tried to comfort her before they were completely disappointed in her, but they were all rejected by her with the reason of not being nosy, which eventually led to concern. Her whole heart was broken.

I don't know what came to mind, Jing An Yao, who was very disappointed at the time, gave up the idea of ​​catching up,

But thinking about it now, could it be that the purpose of Jingcheng running to the bathroom...is to commit suicide?

why?Even though that kind of thing happened, she didn't even think about committing suicide.

Could it be that Ouyang Shaoye's rejection of her confession brought such a huge blow to her?

Jing An Yao didn't understand.

But what made her even more incomprehensible was that since they all came out of the bathroom and discarded the sleeping pill bottle, they obviously gave up their suicide plan.

So why is the change so dramatic?Especially for Ouyang Shaoye's attitude, didn't she have suicidal thoughts just because she was rejected by Ouyang Shaoye?Doesn't this just prove that Ouyang Shaoye is extremely important to her?

A lot of doubts are like dense balls of thread, entangled in Jing An Yao's heart, making her even temporarily forget the anger of being slapped by Jing Cheng, and want to solve this doubt.

As for such matters, it is definitely not possible to ask the person directly, so Jing Anyao started from another direction.

Since there are suicidal thoughts, it must be some psychological problems.

That night, she made an appointment with the most authoritative psychologist in Tianhai City.

She didn't mention the matter of Jingcheng, but asked tactfully from other aspects, such as what are the reasons for most people to have suicidal thoughts and so on.

The psychiatrist's answer is yes.

"When a person commits suicide, the reasons behind it must be extremely complicated, and are often the result of a combination of many aspects, so it is difficult to explain the specific reasons that can lead to suicide. I can only name a few common ones. kind."

Hearing this, Jing An Yao said again.

"Then what if this person finally gave up suicide, but his personality changed drastically?"

Just after finishing speaking, Jing An Yao seemed to think of something again, and continued to add.

"And this is actually the second time that this person has had a drastic change in personality. Many years ago, due to the impact of something, her temperament has changed drastically, and she can't see her previous appearance at all."

"The second time, that is, this time, the change is still very drastic, like a sudden change of person, but for some reason, after this drastic change, the personality tends to be a bit like before the first big change in temperament. The way she was."

Jing An Yao frowned, thinking of Jing Cheng's cold and aloof expression when she saw Jing Cheng in the villa that day, she couldn't help but say so.

The same is true of Jingcheng 5 years ago. If there is any difference, it is that Jingcheng is more indifferent and domineering than she used to be.

Hearing this, the psychiatrist, who was only thinking about answering doubts, suddenly froze for a moment.

"Are you sure the person's condition is consistent with what you describe?"

Although she didn't understand why the psychiatrist was suddenly agitated, but after all, the matter was about Jingcheng, so she said after serious thinking.

"There shouldn't be much difference."

Now the psychiatrist's face was filled with extreme excitement and joy visible to the naked eye.

twice!It turned out to be two personality remodelings!Such a rare case!I actually let myself meet!

"Where is that person you speak of? Can I meet you! Please! This is very important to me!"

She was so excited that she even subconsciously forgot Jing An Yao's identity, she almost stood up and grabbed Jing An Yao's shoulders and shook them.

After all, this is what she is researching, and there are too few cases for reference!

I didn't expect to take the initiative to send one to my door!

Is there really a schizophrenia!But a person who has undergone two personality remodelings!

Unfortunately, her request was rejected.

Seeing her overly excited, even leading to a somewhat overreaching attitude, Jing An Yao's eyes were just cold and without any emotion.

Seeing this, the psychiatrist thought of Jing An Yao's identity, and forcibly calmed down, but said with a slightly excited and trembling tone.

"Miss Jing! The person you mentioned probably had two suicidal thoughts under the stimulation of a major stressor, and then... had two personality remodelings."

33. Personality remodeling

"Reinvention? Twice?"

Jing An Yao's indifferent Liu eyebrows naturally frowned, very puzzled.

The psychiatrist also forcibly suppressed his excitement and spoke.

"Yes, according to your description, Ms. Jing, this is probably the case."

Hearing this, Jing An Yao Shuanghua Ningxue's face could not tell what she was thinking about.

"Tell me in detail."

The psychiatrist nodded. For some reason, his posture and expression were obviously much more professional than before, as if he was deliberately sunken.

"From your dictation, Ms. Jing, we can learn that the second major change in temperament of the person you mentioned occurred after he had suicidal thoughts, but finally gave up the actual suicide act."

"From this, we can preliminarily guess that the person had suicidal thoughts under the influence of some kind of severe stressor."

Perhaps this explanation would involve too many academic terms, so the psychiatrist hesitated for a moment, then changed the term.

"To put it simply, each of us actually lives in a special environment of self-construction, such as you, Miss Jing."

"Cognition, education and self-awareness from childhood to adulthood have enabled you to form your current external worldview and internal self."

"And every time a new perception comes along, you have two choices, either incorporate it into your worldview, or let your worldview change with it."

"For example, now someone tells you that there is actually a god in this world. If this is confirmed, it will inevitably usher in the reconstruction of multiple elements in your worldview."

Hearing this, Jing Anyao probably understood the meaning of the psychiatrist's description, but what does this have to do with what happened in Jingcheng?

But then the psychiatrist began to answer.

"But the internal self is not the same as the world view. It represents a person's self-awareness, and it is difficult to change it, especially for mature adults, it is basically impossible to reverse it, unless something is enough to completely collapse the internal self. irritation or pain."

The psychiatrist's hands and fingers were crossed, and the eyes under the rimless glasses were full of inexplicable thoughts.

"Miss Jing, you also said that this person seems to have changed suddenly, and her personality and past have completely and once gone to another extreme. This can no longer be described as a change, so I suspect that there has been a remodeling of her internally. And rebuild."

"Combined with the fact that the person had suicidal tendencies before he changed, so I have the above preliminary guess."

"The person must have encountered some unimaginable major stimulus, which led to the idea of ​​suicide, but after the failure, the internal remodeling ushered in."

"After all, it is impossible for this kind of reconstruction to appear out of thin air without a reason. The above words also mentioned that unless there is a stimulus that is enough to collapse the inside, it is basically impossible to reverse the inside of a mature adult."

"And the person's suicidal tendencies are absolutely strong evidence for my guess."

The psychiatrist said word by word, but affirmatively.

"It's not a big change of temperament, it's a personality reshaping in academic terms."

Hearing this, Jing An Yao was stunned, even more incomprehensible in her heart.

Although she doesn't understand psychology, she also understands what the psychiatrist means.

Jingcheng was extremely stimulated, or unbearable pain led to such a drastic change.

Why?Was Ouyang Shaoye's refusal to deal such a blow to her?Even the personality has been recreated?

At this time, the psychiatrist was about to speak again, and what she said next was the reason why she was so excited just now.

"Miss Jing, you said just now that this person had a change of temperament many years ago, right?"

Jing An Yao nodded lightly.

The psychiatrist said again.