You're not a serious magical girl, are you?

Either sincerely apologize to Yakumo Yuhun, and try my best to restore her reputation-whether it can be done or not is one thing, but the attitude is correct, this is an apology.

But that person created a C option - I apologize, but not completely.

That person first betrayed Yakumo Yuhun's friendship, and then when he appeared in front of Yakumo Yuhun again with the cheek, he gave Yakumo Yuhun a reply that made her blood pressure soar.

Fortunately, half a year has passed since the incident, and Yakumo Yuhun himself is also a civilized person. Unless he is extremely angry, he will not usually beat someone.

"I didn't forgive her, and I made it clear to her word for word - there was no way I could forgive her."

Yakumo Yuhun looked at the surface of the East Lake expressionlessly, his cold face was somewhat inhumane.

But she is not indifferent, even she is an extroverted child, but she is forced to look like this.

Want to use this attitude to get forgiveness from her?

Impossible, don't even think about it in this life.

"I've had times when malice abounded, and I wanted to bring down destruction on those people—not just those who framed me, but also those who took the lead in making trouble and venting anger...I wanted them to pay for their actions .”

"It doesn't matter if you die, kneel on the ground and beg for forgiveness, or kowtow until your head is bleeding..."

Make them kneel with fear, make them howl with despair.

The indifferent and even creepy words spit out from the mouth of Yakumo Yuhun. This kind of topic has nothing to do with the label of magical girl, and it is even far from the friendly and polite image of the girl in daily life. People intuitively feel the resentment in Yakumo Yuhun's heart.

Of course she hated it, she was not a natural kind person with pink hair, she wished they would kneel in front of her and admit their mistakes until their heads were bleeding, and she would sneer at them and let them die without dignity.

When she closed herself in the room before, the thoughts of the dark side in her heart would quietly grow, and these words were her most true thoughts ever and now.

She never forgave anyone, and that hatred haunted her forever.

She wanted revenge, so she made a wish to "be the one who destroys Kamihama" - the core of this wish is "the person who destroys Kamihama" rather than "destroys Kamihama". The people in the city, and this matter must be done by her to make sense.

When she made a wish, she was really dazzled by hatred, and planned to raise the knife to bring down destruction to those obscene bugs like frogs pissing.

Before she was a righteous magical girl, she was first of all a person with clear love and hate.

Ueno Kita lowered his head, holding the girl's soul gem tightly in his hand, as if he wanted to transfer his body temperature to the girl's soul.

The soul can't feel the warmth and coldness, let alone her soul has solidified into a gem?

The boy's voice slowly drifted away with the gentle night wind, reaching the girl's ears.

"Yakumo, you said that you only want to destroy, you want to bring down those who betrayed you and those who hurt you..."

But is it really all that?

Yakumo Yuhun really has nothing but destruction in his heart?

Wrong, incorrect.

Yakumo Yuhun will not show her complicated heart hoarsely, to remind others that she is fragile and wandering.

she...

The gleam of the Soul Gem was held in his palm, not revealing the slightest—it was faint, but it did exist.

While longing to bring destruction to others, I also long to receive a heartfelt apology from others.

The friend who hurt her was the closest person to this truth, and Yakumo Yuhun was willing to see him again, just hoping for hope to come.

But she just hurt Yakumo Yuhun again, hurting her heart even more thoroughly.

Yakumo Yuhun is a contradiction, she has two thoughts at the same time - she wants to receive a sincere apology from those who hurt her, and at the same time she wants to punish her so that those people can also taste the taste of despair.

So, the reason for wanting an apology from others...what is it?

"You hate them, but you also want to forgive them, right?"

Ueno Kita helped her open the juice, she didn't want to drink it for the time being, so he put the can of juice behind the two of them,

He wasn't doing anything special, just trying to understand other people's feelings, as he always did before.

Understand, and then understand her heart.

Yakumo Yuhun stared at him blankly, and didn't come back to his senses for a long time.

She whispered:

"Yeah, but why..."

Why are you so stupid to even think about forgiving them?

I don't know whether to laugh at myself or cry.

The girl closed her eyes, and after a long time, her lips twitched a few times, choking with sobs in a low voice.

"I didn't do anything well, whether it was hatred or protection, I even got Mi to become a magical girl."

In the dark of night, this girl who had been trapped in self-struggling and internal friction for half a year broke down and shed tears in front of her friends for the first time.

It's humiliating, but once you start you can't stop.

She hates others, and she hates herself.

Chapter 258 Younger Sister Will Be The Boss in Seconds [Complicated]

Once you start crying, it's up to you when to stop.

Yakumo Yuhun doesn't like to cry very much, and she doesn't cry often.

What did she need to cry for?

She has been a well-known talented woman since she was a child. She grew up surrounded by everyone. She has parents who love each other and a lovely sister who makes people want to care for her life. She has a happy family and a happy life.

With her like this, what else does she need to cry about?

"Woooo..."

Besides, even if you do encounter difficulties, is there any problem that can be solved by crying?

There is no such statement. Crying is just a sign of weakness, or even shame. It is a result of people being crushed by external forces, subconsciously sad to the point of losing self-control, and tears are born from this.

So, she didn't want to cry, especially in front of others, it didn't match her perfect external image, so why should she take such a pathetic way?

But only when she really cried did she realize that sometimes personal willpower is not enough to control emotions.

While talking, she was sobbing, and the words she said were not connected together intermittently, and the time spent crying was more than the time she spoke, so that she looked more like a murmur of mourning mixed with crying.

Yakumo Yuhun even felt that even she didn't know what she wanted to say, as if she had lost the ability to express herself fluently in an instant, and what she said was just a cross-section of her soul at a certain moment, reflecting a certain thought or idea of ​​hers , was hastily thrown out after being soaked in emotion.

She was overwhelmed by emotions, and the only way to vent was to cry.

Yakumo Yuhun said sorry, the person she felt most sorry for was Yakumo Mikage.

Ueno Kita caressed Yakumo Yuhun's back, she didn't care about anything at this time, the greatest sadness was this.

She was at first caught up in conflicting self-pulls, longing for apologies and craving punishment, but Ueno Kita is putting those things aside for now.

There are priorities, and all knots should have a happy ending, but now Yakumo Yuhun actually has no time to take care of so many misfortunes, she just deeply...cannot forgive herself.

Forgive others, punish others... these things are casually swept aside for the time being.

What really destroyed her like this was her inability to forgive herself who was incompetent and kept implicating others.

Get that, and be good.

Just like Yakumo Yuhun is doing now-crying hard, it will be much better in the future.

"I have never experienced what happened to you, Yakumo, so I can't say something like empathy, but I still hope to talk to you."

He has also experienced misfortune, but misfortune cannot be compared with misfortune, and this is not a misfortune conference, so he does not intend to use his unfortunate past to win sympathy or find empathy.

Ueno Kita held the soul gem with one hand, and after the girl's shoulder stopped shaking with the slight sobbing, the other hand also left her back in time.

"Yakumo, are you planning to die?"

Ueno Kita asked a crucial question. After experiencing such a cruel blow, Yakumo Yuhun, who escaped from home, did she already have a death wish in her heart?

Looking at the colorful East Lake at night, what is the world in her eyes like?

Ueno Kita didn't spy on it, knowing that it must be a gray world with no color at all.

Yakumo Yuhun didn't answer either, or maybe this was her answer. She had no intention of committing suicide, but she also lost the reason to purify the soul gem.

If Ueno Kita hadn't taken her soul gem, she would have allowed this sea blue soul gem to be contaminated by filth until the flower of death blossomed from her body.

Ueno Kita shook his head, without a hippie smile, but said quite seriously:

"You're not going to die."

The determined tone attracted the attention of the person concerned. She stared at Ueno Kita as if she wanted to ask him—why did you say that?

"I don't want you to die, and there are many more people who don't want you to die."

Her parents, her sister, her friends.

She has lost many things, but some things are lost when they are lost, or rather lost well, and only when they are lost can they recognize the characteristics that are easy to lose.

But oh, there are some things she'll never lose.

Even after decades, those who touched her are gone, and even she herself is not in the world, but the touch she received will still exist.

Ueno Bei paused, stared into her eyes, and slowly explained a truth to her.

"Don't always think about death... a dead person has no dignity."

Ueno Kita opened his arms, and it was the first time that he took this girl into his arms out of the ordinary, letting her rest on his shoulder and lean on him.

She seemed to be struggling at first, but after all, that gentle smile shone into her pupils. The moonlight filled his eyes, and the black pupils were even clearer than this glimmering lake.

He took out the tissue like magic and put it in her palm.

Her tears were still wet, and even her sobs hadn't completely subsided. From time to time, her shoulders would shake as she inhaled.

"Death is the greatest tragedy. Whether it is a tragic accident with blood and flesh flying, or a peaceful death at the end of life, both are in essence the same-the essence of nothingness has not changed, even if you want to find a quiet corner So is passing away quietly."

"There is no dignity in any way of dying, because there is no dignity in death itself."

He patted the girl on the shoulder, and what came to mind was the death of many girls.

He has witnessed enough deaths, and the fresh life just passed away, and the literary point of view is that the flowers are withering, but when the false veil is lifted, the essence underneath is so cruel and cold that it is unbearable to describe.

To die is to die, there is no difference between the death of a man and the death of a dog.

Death is the last thing to be romanticized.

Death has no meaning, no romance, and no sacredness.

"The heart stopped beating, and the body gradually became cold. From a jumping and jumping person to a cold and silent corpse, it became a talking point in his mouth, was manipulated at will, and was finally burned by the fire. From then on, the handful of people The powder in the box proves you ever existed."

Such is death, it is heavy and solemn, absolutely just and merciless.

People are afraid of death, and it is precisely because of fear that they desperately give meaning to death, and even sing about death, so as to reduce the fear of death.

"Yakumo Yuhun, have you ever thought about how the world will change if you die?"

The answer is definitely no.

She leaned against Ueno North, it was night, and the temperature outside gradually dropped, so that when she was suddenly pulled into his arms, she could even feel a warmth that was completely different from the cold outside.

"Let me tell you the answer. Your parents will be sad. They lost a daughter. No amount of time spent in the future can make up for this eternal loss. Even when they are old, when When they think of your death, they will still mourn and cry."

"The same is true for your sister. She will lose her beloved sister forever, and even your death will be closely related to her... Have you ever thought about why you are crying now, and why you are crying in her eyes? . . . what would she think of the cause of your death?"

——I must have killed my sister, right?

This kind of thought will follow Yakumo Mikage like a gangrene, and become her psychological shadow for the rest of her life.

The girl's sorrow fermented in wordless silence, but the wall of sighs was finally broken by her beloved sister.

Her will to die originated from this.

"No one will be happy about your death, neither will the people you care about, nor will the people you hate-when you die, everything about you disappears, the meaning of existence, and the dignity of being a human being , which no longer exist.”

These words may also be said to him five months ago.

Ueno Kita raised his palm and lowered it lightly. He patted the girl's shoulder repeatedly, like an elder comforting a child.

"Yakumo, you said that you hate yourself and can't forgive yourself... But you are so arrogant, why? Don't you want to hear what Mikage thinks?"

He paused, then continued:

"If you die, you can't communicate. No matter how much she wants to say to you, if you don't want to listen, she won't be able to pass on her voice to you. Until you die, her miss will become a lifetime regret, and you You'll never know what your beloved sister was trying to say to you when you grieved over her decision, when you paranoidly ignored her."

"Death...that's just using your life to arrogantly deny everything Mikage has done."