life in the world

Feeling the strength of Xuanxia's subconscious resistance, he directly pushed away the hands on his shoulders, and hugged the girl.

"The kissing scene on the Ferris wheel is a bit too old-fashioned. I think we should find a more suitable and romantic place."

As he spoke, he pressed his right cheek against Ayaka's left cheek.

"Let's just use the common dislocation method when shooting film and television dramas to practice."

chirp.

"...Stupid Harutaki...doesn't it make me look ignorant!"

She, Ayaka Hoshikawa turned around and looked out the window, after seeing Harutaki's stunned expression from the corner of her eyes, she couldn't help biting her lower lip which seemed to have some residual smell and raised the corners of her mouth.

Idiot—Idiot Idiot Idiot Idiot Idiot!

He is a complete idiot!fool!Big idiot!

"Just thinking about other people's thoughts and moods, can you read minds? Where have you put yourself? Stupid... Occasionally, it's okay to be a little willful..."

Chapter 86--Chiyoda Daiichi Affection

Is it okay to be a little willful?

Leaving Korakuen, taking the tram, walking out of the station, and following the hustle and bustle of people into the park——

Until he arrived at the next meeting place, he, Harutaki Hoshikawa, was still thinking about the situation when his younger sister Ayaka Hoshikawa questioned him on the Ferris wheel.

He is not a master of psychology, nor is he a legendary mind-reader. Even when he gets along with Senior Bailu, he is more like a suspect who is interrogated by FBI agents.

"After wearing the mask for a long time, I always feel short of breath, as if I am no longer myself..."——

This is what he said that night when he unlocked Sifang Diezi.

In fact, isn't this an unintentional criticism of myself?

In order to avoid the disappointment of disappointing expectations on the face of anyone who values ​​​​the person, habitually take responsibility, and habitually work hard...

[The greater the ability, the greater the responsibility. 】

He hates this famous saying that is close to moral kidnapping, but in the eyes of his parents, teachers, classmates, relatives and friends, as a person with talent, as an outstanding person with outstanding abilities, he should be expected and longed for. figure.

In other words, for him, Harutaki Xingchuan, this sentence should be [The greater the ability, the greater the expectations and expectations, so that the greater the responsibility. 】

When learning English with the tape repeater and flipping the abacus, wouldn't he want to watch Ultraman and Doraemon playing on TV?

When he is practicing piano in the piano room and learning Chinese painting in the studio, doesn't he want to learn and exercise basketball and computer, which he really likes and is interested in?

"It's all for your own good."

It is indeed for his own good. He understands that when he walks on the street, his parents will point at the old man with handicapped legs and feet who sweep the street, at the worker with gray face and wearing a work cap, and at the man who keeps shaking the rice bowl. The begging homeless man, when he was warned and reminded like that, of course he understood how much favor he had received since he was a child——

The teachers in school often said that if you don’t study hard, you will lose at the starting line, but when he saw those people on the street when he was a child, he knew the crueler truth is that most people have already lost at the starting line since they were born.

Even some people's starting point is farther away than some people's end point.

He doesn't know what other people think, he only knows to respond to the expectations and longings of those who give him everything.

But it is precisely because of this that, as a person who knows how heavy expectations and longings are, he understands how painful disappointing feelings and encounters are. A person whose longing is imposed on the other party.

Facing Nogami at the beginning, the two of them were just hostile bullies and revengers, they could take advantage of each other unscrupulously, and hurt each other a little recklessly... But when the girl showed her soft side that was hidden deeply to him When it was time, he discovered that the relationship between the two parties could no longer be described simply by the word "enemy".

But for him at that time, compared to the delicate and strong Izumi Nogami, he undoubtedly preferred the gentle, quiet, and generous Quartet Diezi——

He can neither respond to Nogami's affection for him, nor is he willing to impose his vision on the other party without authorization.

This meant that there was no further possibility between him and Nogami-san... At least that's what he thought at the time.

Later, in the continuous in-depth contact and understanding with Sifang Diezi, he suddenly discovered that the girl's true heart is quite different from the "Sifang Diezi" he had longed for.However, during the two "date" exchanges, he also gradually noticed that he was not only interested in "Sifang Diezi", but also the lively and playful Sifang Diezi who was suppressed deep in his heart.

Having experienced and seen many people, Hoshikawa Harutaki knows very well that not everyone can bear heavy expectations and longings like him.

The Ligou trumpet to vent the pressure and the selfie in the private message are the precursors that Sifang Diezi is on the verge of collapse.

People who can withstand the high-pressure test may achieve a career, but the most people in the world are still people who cannot bear the pressure and gradually distort their personalities and hearts.

Sympathy or pity.

All in all, he felt that it was no big deal even if it was just for sex——

It's like even though he kept a distance from Nogami-san, he didn't draw a clear line between them.

People can not escape from doing wrong.

He, Harutaki Xingchuan is essentially an extremely selfish guy, a scumbag who cannot give up another girl while falling in love with one girl because of his own possessiveness.

Just like Sanada Minako, when Sanada-san took off his tangled fig leaf, what he was thinking...

He couldn't accept Izumi Nogami who showed his soft side to himself, and treated other boys tenderly.

Classmate Nogami or Sifang and other boys, holding hands, kissing, touching each other's skin, and even sleeping on the same bed as he did with him before - this kind of future is totally, completely, and totally unacceptable to him.

However, Nogami Izumi and Sifang Butterfly are one thing, and the three younger sisters Ayaka, Chiaki, and Toyono are another thing——

Even if he is called "Brother Stupid" ten thousand times, he is not an idiot, he is not an idiot, he can clearly understand Xuanxia's feelings for him.

However, the girl's feelings are not only for the "stupid big brother", but also for the opposite sex... although he also has no right to judge the other party.

bang bang.

"It's time to get back to God!"

The sound of sister Hoshikawa Ayaka slapping the box sounded beside him, interrupting his thinking.

When he came back to his senses, he looked around and found that he was standing on a wide lawn with Ayaka, under the dotted cherry trees, there were all kinds of picnic cloths, and there were couples dating or sitting on it. A combination of dinner parties.

May is already the end of the cherry blossom viewing season in Dongguk, and everyone basically takes advantage of the Golden Week holiday to go to various parks with family, friends or girlfriends.

Cherry blossom viewing picnics are a spring tradition.

"Uh, here is...?"

"Kitanomaru Park!"

Ayaka took out a picnic cloth from her WN ZANDL light blue square bag, shook it out and spread it on the ground.

"Couldn't you have been... thinking about the past all the way!?"

Even if she took the initiative to send the kiss, she would still feel extremely shy when thinking about it afterwards.

Human beings are such wonderful creatures, and they often do things that are unimaginable by themselves.

"Hmm... I just kept reminiscing about the lemon flavor back then."

Before going out, he actually ate mouth-freshening candy, he thought to himself, this girl is really shrewd enough.

Xuanxia was afraid that she had been prepared, but in the end she caught him by surprise.

"You actually said it... Harutaki, you are really evil..."

Xuanxia glanced at him in disgust, and then thought of something, the corners of her slumped mouth instantly raised a slight arc.

"Harutaki, don't you think it's still your first kiss? It doesn't matter, I can understand, after all, virgins are like this—"

It sounds like you are very experienced!

"Isn't it your first time, Ayaka?"

He directly interrupted the girl's sarcasm and threw the question back, just like she did to him on the Ferris wheel.

"I... I, I, of course it's the first time...!"

Xuan Xia immediately retorted like a cat with frowning hair, but soon noticed the strange eyes cast by the people around her, and her face flushed instantly.

She, Xingchuan Xuanxia really wants to slap herself hard now... Of course, the idiot brother also has to give him two punches!

What, it's really obscene to ask a girl such a question.

While complaining about Harutaki in her heart, she took out the bento box from her square bag and placed it in the center of the red and white checked picnic cloth.

"Huh? Is this for lunch?"

Looking at Harutaki who showed a puzzled expression, she couldn't help but sighed slightly.

You guys are only reacting now?

"Of course I have to eat."

"It's only after eleven o'clock...?"

Harutaki took out his phone and turned on the screen to check the time.

"11:21, it's always a bit early for lunch at this time, and—" he hesitated for a moment, then continued: "—shouldn't the date go to a western restaurant, coffee shop or a better restaurant?"

That's right to say so...

"It's not impossible to have a picnic! You can see that many people around have already started to eat!"

Of course she knew that she would go to a western restaurant, coffee shop, or restaurant with a good atmosphere and a reasonable price, but... this is her own date, Ayaka Hoshikawa and him are dating, it's okay to be a little willful, right?

Like a brother and sister, like a couple who have been together for a long time, like a close family——

Sitting under the cherry blossom tree in full bloom in spring, with the pink and white cherry petals falling, cuddling together, holding a cup and drinking, feeding each other...

Even if it's just as a family member, she has long wanted to have a cherry blossom picnic like in the TV series.

However, she thought with some guilt, I'm sorry, Chiaki and Fuyuno.

She sacrificed so much in the past, now it is only natural for her to have more possession of Chun Taki!

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Squeak.

Rubbing his stomach, Fuyuno opened the refrigerator to look for food, and immediately found the bento box placed in the most conspicuous position.

With some difficulty, she tiptoed and carried the bento box to the kitchen counter, then lifted the lid curiously——

"It's over, the miscellaneous fish Chuntaki will definitely be eaten up by Xuanjiang..."

Looking at the unprecedented exquisite dishes in the bento box, and thinking of the incident where her sister Ayaka and her elder brother Harutaki went out together, she immediately thought of many possible developments.

"Sister Qianqiu, come to the restaurant for dinner!"

After putting the luxurious bento carefully prepared by Xuanxia into the microwave oven for a bit, she stuffed the food in her mouth depressedly, while complaining in her heart that her sister Xuanxia stole the food first.

Obviously she did it first!

She should be the one who snatched the miscellaneous fish Harutaki for the first time!

The one who made Zayu Harutaki fall must be her, Hoshikawa Touno!

Otherwise... the happiness when her revenge plan is successful will be much less...

Fortunately, looking at the relatively ordinary bento dishes, she felt a little relieved. If there was red bean rice, she would definitely rush out to destroy the "good thing" of those two "dogs and men".

"Woooo..."

too delicious!It was the first time in several years that she had eaten such a delicious dish made by Xuanjiang.

Xuanjiang's cooking level is obviously not bad, she thought dissatisfiedly, why did she only have curry and udon noodles in the past?

?

Emerald-green wakame salad; classic and lovely octopus sausage; four triangular rice balls wrapped in seaweed; slightly burnt surface, cut surface reveals light pink beef cubes; golden fried prawn tempura and The okra tempura is placed vertically together; the tamagoyaki with slightly wrinkled skin is covered with two rolls of darker bean skin, and the dark juice of teriyaki sauce or soy sauce is poured on it...

"this is?"

He, Harutaki Xingchuan swallowed his saliva, resisting the urge to satiate his appetite, and wanted to take this bento carefully prepared by his sister Xuanxia seriously.

It's like high-end restaurants and even Michelin restaurants will introduce the dishes to the diners when they serve them. He feels that understanding and savoring the dishes carefully is the respect and respect for the cooks.

"Cold tofu."

"what about this?"

"Vinegar pickled radish."

"This is... salted cucumber?"

"Well... there are chopped onions in it."

Saying that, Xuanxia grabbed the edges on both sides of the bento with both hands, lifted it up, and divided the box into two layers.

"Because I'm worried that you, Harutaki, won't be able to eat enough, so there's beef donburi below."

"Oh, this kindness really deserves to be Asuma. But just worry that I don't have enough to eat. The word "meat bucket" is superfluous."