Evetrona's old stories

"Meaning is what makes sense," said the man.

Is this an answer?Eve frowned.What is he trying to say?Is he really me?If yes, then why can't I follow his train of thought?

"Tell me specifically." The woman was not annoyed and continued to ask.

"When a person realizes the question of whether life is meaningful, the meaning has already begun to be produced." The man said: "A child is curious about everything. He wants to discover most things in the world. The future is for him. In other words, there are immeasurable possibilities; he has been busy exploring the world, so he will not really consider the meaning of life, and he also lacks understanding of life now. Later, at a certain age, he knows what the world is roughly like He always follows his own preferences and habits in doing things; he knows that he is like this now, and he may not make much progress in ten years; he feels that his body is aging, and the pain is beginning to find him, so he starts to worry. I started to suffer, and started to think about why I want to live.” He saw that the other party was still listening carefully, and then continued: “But in the end, you may find that living is meaningless; because no matter what you do, you will end up Will die, if there is no world after death, then in the end, all that is left to a dead person is darkness and nothingness, and everything in life will be of no help to him.”

What freedom can exist in the fullest sense without the guarantee of eternity?

"You talked for a long time, but you came to a completely opposite conclusion. Life is meaningless?" the woman asked him.

"It's still meaningful, listen to me continue." The man straightened his body, "This is the absurdity. The first point - life is meaningless, and the second point - but people have to live. Many people think of the first point, and then instinctively fulfill the second point, so they can perceive the inconsistency between their behavior and thoughts. This is the first time they feel the irreconcilable contradictions appearing in their seemingly harmonious lives. It is probably at this stage that ideals are disillusioned. People see and accept contradictions, and people fall to the bottom There are contradictory realities everywhere.”

The woman nodded slightly upon hearing this.

"That is, from this time, people have ushered in the beginning of life. This is a process of re -discovery, like a child, re -understand the world with curiosity; at this time he will find that he is actually not as limited by his own preference as he thinks about this world as he imagined. In the end, he was tedious and bored about the world he chose, and the nicknant mentality was mainly caused by himself.

"But it is not their fault that such a result is caused. Some people say that suicides are not worthy of sympathy, but what I want to say is that this sentence cannot be judged as right or wrong, because it is unnecessary. Have suicides come to their own answer, that is, life is meaningless? They use death to escape, or choose to fight against the absurdity and meaninglessness of life, and die together with it, embracing death, but they do not know that there are more people who are fighting against death, and accept the absurdity of life for this. unacceptable?

"But the truly deadly abyss is an abyss where the edge cannot be seen, and it is impossible to judge which step makes people fall into it. Therefore, people need to understand each other and recognize the existence of others. Whether a person is wandering on the edge of the abyss, others can see it most clearly."

"So, what is the meaning of life?" The woman's expression was like that of a calm and reticent interviewer.

"A theorem has a lengthy proof process. If you show one of the formulas in front of you, it is difficult for you to guess what it is used for. All you can think about is where it might be used. The same is true for life. Whether life is meaningful or not is not important, what is important is the process. The meaning of life lies in finding meaning, which is what I said at the beginning—the meaning of life lies in meaning." The man breathed a sigh of relief when he said this.

He didn't finish this long passage at once, and there were many pauses during the period, but fortunately he didn't lose his train of thought.

Is this the original image when you speak?Eve felt a little embarrassed seeing him now.

Sometimes, people are always so harsh when observing themselves.

The woman didn't speak, but stood up, walked slowly to his side, and put one hand on the balcony railing.

"If I said, you will get a more meaningful life by jumping from here, would you jump?"

When Eve heard these words, all the hairs on her body stood on end, her body seemed to be in the twelfth winter, and she couldn't stop shaking.She hurriedly followed the woman to the railing, and looked down.Also at the same time, the man also stood up and glanced under the railing.

The three of them stood side by side in front of the railing, leaving only two tall and one short backs. The man was on the left, the woman was on the right, and Eve stood in the middle.

Below the railing is an extremely turbulent blue vortex. The vortex is spinning rapidly and making a roar like sea waves. Just looking at it makes Eve feel a little dizzy.

"What's down there?" the man turned his head and asked the woman.

"Don't you know when you go down?" the woman said.

"I'm alive and well, why do I have to dance?"

"It's just a dream."

"Even if it's a dream, I don't want to wake up in the end."

"So you don't dance?"

"Of course not. By the way—" the man suddenly remembered something, "You just said that there is a reward for answering the question. What about the reward?"

"The reward is below." When the woman said this, she suddenly covered her mouth and smiled.Is this a joke?Eve was dumbfounded.

The man raised his eyebrows, pointed to the whirlpool below and asked, "Is this a reward?"

The wind seemed to be getting stronger and stronger, and Eve felt that the railings of the balcony were shaking, and they were as precarious as if they were standing on a deck in a storm.

"Let me ask you—are the words you answered me just now, what you think in your heart, what you agree with, and are they clear?"

The man hesitated, but nodded anyway.

"Then, this can be regarded as a reward for you, and it is a reward you agree with."

Is this the truth of the matter?Eve felt a little tired, so she sat on the chair the man had just made and listened quietly to their argument.

Rewards, the rewards that pretty women mean are turning into a teenage girl and waking up in the freezing snow-capped mountains... So, why me?Eve sighed, and suddenly felt that she had worked really hard in the past five years. She had learned so much. Although she had a positive attitude, from the perspective of others, it might be more tiring than going to work.

But also very happy.After all, it is a chance to live again. A not-so-successful ordinary person may eventually perish without doing anything, without leaving any marks in history. The ending of the story is at the end of the straight road, and you can see it at a glance. to it.All one can do is wait with hope, for the coming of the never-expected end.

At the end of the debate, the man was still unwilling to jump.

"There is no time, so it can only be you." The woman said, pushing him down.The iron railing behind the man seemed to be made of tofu, and it was cracked by him. When he fell, he was still asking the woman: "Hey! Will I see you again in the future?"

Soon, the man fell into the abyss with screams, the wind howled between the heaven and the earth, and everything was crumbling.

"Look, this is the truth you've been wanting to know for the past few years." The woman turned her head and looked at Eve who was sitting on the chair, "The you just now, the you now. It seems that your personality has changed a lot."

"Are you Evetrona?" Eve looked up and asked her.

"Yes, I am. For you, this should be the second time you have met me, but for me, it is still the first time." The woman glanced at the broken railing beside her.

"Why do I have no impression of this memory?" Eve asked again.

"I did something to make you unable to remember what happened during this time."

"why?"

"What was your mood when you woke up from there? Were you confused and frightened? If you went there with this memory, would you feel cheated and angry?"

Eve thought for a moment, and felt that what she said made sense.

"I can't let you contact Harvey with such emotions, and those people you met later. If a person is confident, he can't accept others without reservation, and he can't observe a new world without prejudice, and cherish the kindness that others give you from the bottom of his heart-this can be regarded as my protection for you." The woman walked in front of Eve, and a chair appeared behind her out of nowhere. Act later. It’s the same for you, you lived there for a while, and it’s time for you to understand this memory. Look at your past, and think about your present. If you feel offended, then I can say ‘sorry’ to you. Are you still angry with me now?”

Although Eve had a straight face now, she still shook her head, and the woman smiled when she saw this.

This woman is so beautiful when she smiles.

"Then why did I become like this?" Eve asked.

"Isn't this look good?" After the woman finished speaking, she covered her mouth and smiled - which made Eve feel that her calmness and calmness all this time seemed to be a deliberate act.

The woman held her hand, and the two looked at each other, and Eve was a little dazed by her stare.

"Leave that aside, why did you choose me? What kind of place is this place? And..."

The woman raised her hand in a silent gesture, so Eve stopped talking.

The wind is getting stronger and stronger, and the feet are trembling. The blue world is weird and treacherous, as if it is about to collapse.

The two sat quietly like this for a while, and then the woman spoke: "You must have a lot to know, but these questions are actually irrelevant. Even if I don't tell you, you will understand one day. What I want to say is, whether it is the world here or the world over there, both are real, and you only have one you, which is the current you."

"Can I come back? Back here? Like now..." Eve still couldn't help asking her.

"Now? Everything you see now is just a pre-designed image, including me, and judging from the situation, it is almost reaching the limit." The woman seemed to be a little anxious at this time, she will Putting her hands on Eve's shoulders, she said earnestly, "If you see Lord again next time, talk to him more, but don't mention my name."

Eve nodded, and wanted to say something more, but suddenly her eyes went dark, and the deafening roar stopped abruptly.When she opened her eyes again, her cousin's chubby face suddenly occupied most of her field of vision, with an expression of extreme surprise on that face, both hands were raised up, and a pair of small eyes almost bent into crescent moons with a smile.

"Little beauty, how do you feel?" The cousin handed a glass of water to Eve.

Eve wanted to sit up, but her limbs were limp and she had no strength, so the cousin supported her head and fed her water.

"Come on Nanfen! Little beauty is awake!" She shouted loudly, her voice was so confident that Eve almost choked on water, so her cousin rubbed her back again, saying sorry repeatedly.

"How long have I been asleep? What's the date?" Eve asked her.

"Today is NO.15, February NO.15." My cousin replied immediately.

When Eve heard this, she was so anxious that she was about to get out of bed—today was the day when the Logos Academy organized students to set off for Benlong Castle in Ikerin Province.

"Okay, don't move, just lie down obediently." The cousin pushed her down on the bed, "I've been dizzy for so many days, so don't think about what's there, Maoqi will definitely help you Arranged."

At this time, Nanfen rushed over from downstairs, her footsteps were heavy, Eve watched her stumbling over, and couldn't help sweating for her.As soon as she came in, she hugged Eve tightly, put another hand on her forehead, and said, "It's great, it's not so hot...Eve, what's wrong with you now?"

"I'm fine." Eve was a little suffocated by her hug, her voice was almost squeezed out of her lungs: "I'm just a little hungry."

"Oh, yes." Nanfen let go of her arms and wanted to get up, but her cousin took a step ahead: "I'll get it, you are here with her, in the kitchen, right? I know, I know..." She ran out of the room in a hurry, and Eve was a little surprised at her flexibility.

"Why did you suddenly have a fever?" Nan Fen held her hand, her eyes were red, "What happened to you that day? Did you not have any symptoms before you fainted? Did you feel any discomfort at that time?"

"I'm fine." Eve didn't know how to explain this to her. "It may be because I've been tired in the past few days. I will pay attention to it in the future."

"Eve, why don't you go to school, once something like this happens to you over there..."

"This situation will definitely not happen again in the future. This time it was an accident."

"Illness is something you can control?" Nanfen wiped away her tears, "You don't have to say such words to comfort me, if you want to go then go, I just say that because I don't want to...it's up to you."

Eve was relieved to hear her say that.

The cousin rushed back quickly, holding a large porcelain bowl in her hand, and put it on Eve's lap through the quilt. It contained a large bowl of yellow egg custard, mixed with shrimps and spinach, As well as chopped thyme, dug down with a spoon, it is trembling, the mouth is slightly hot, the taste is delicate, and it tastes fresh and tender.

"Nanfen will make you a bowl every day, hoping that you can eat it as soon as you wake up." said the cousin.

Eve was still admiring Nanfen's craftsmanship at first, but before she could be moved by her cousin's words, her nose started to feel sore, and tears just fell into the bowl like this.

"Okay, don't listen to her nonsense." Nan Fen took out a handkerchief and wiped her face, "You were in a coma for five days, and she ate five bowls. She ate more than you, and she was ashamed to say so."

Eve was crying and laughing at what the two said, holding a big bowl in her hand, her heart was extremely warm.

The Snow Peak Blessed by the Sun (attached)

The part about Kriging is roughly the same, but there are still some directions worth mentioning. It may be a bit boring to put it here now, so Iftrona recommends that you skip it...or try to take a look before skipping.

A lot of content about the world cannot be told when following Eve's perspective, and can only be taken out separately. These contents may be irrelevant, but they are also a small piece of the truth of the world.

[ParT.1-Appendix 1] Kedral and the Complicated Four Seasons

Obviously, in most parts of this world, there are also four seasons, and even the phenomenon of polar day and polar night will appear, but this does not mean that the structure of this world is exactly the same as that of another world.

It is the sea water and the wind that bring the alternation of cold and warm-this is the currently accepted conclusion, but it may not be quite correct.If we take the vast west coast of Klickin as an example, when autumn comes, the mushy cold sea water will spread from the west coast to the interior of the mainland, and at the same time bring the cold westerly wind. During this time period, the west coast will continue to have heavy rains, and the huge waves will carry the ice-covered sea water to the land until hundreds of kilometers away, turning part of the land into a continental shelf submerged in the sea. In the coldest north, the waves will even push icebergs deep into the continent. The icebergs that have existed since the third era eventually formed glaciers stretching for hundreds of miles, and even invaded the colder west of the Infinity Mountains. Most of these glaciers are in the territory of Lomingo and Mokoto, shaping the local climate and terrain more complicated. On the one hand, the glaciers provide a large amount of abundant freshwater resources and are the source of several large and medium-sized rivers.And whenever summer comes, the melting of glaciers will bring flood disasters, and there is a passage in Luo Mingge's nursery rhymes: There is a Banbai Mountain in the southeast, some people are sad and some are happy, the floods gather into a bay, yesterday's village is today's sail.Its content is about a glacial flood event about two centuries ago, and the final number of victims may exceed 3, which eventually led to the permanent formation of the ice lake in Yushan City.

The west coast changes in autumn and winter in Haneji, and the same is true on the east coast, but the opposite happens - the water recedes towards the sea in autumn, revealing the land.Also because of these complex and changeable terrains, geographically, there is a distinction between the first and second grade continental shelves and the first and second grade continental slopes, as well as the seasonally lowest shorelines and spoiler dam warning lines in navigation. A term in which the world does not exist.In terms of seasonal influence, the geographical advantage of the west coast of Hanechi is much lower than that of the east coast.

The spoiler dam is generally built in the port area of ​​the coastline. The port is usually in the south with a high terrain, and generally seldom freezes or does not freeze. The spoiler dam is a dam line built along the coastline with a length of tens or even hundreds of kilometers. The intrusion of waves is not a magical effect, but only relies on the understanding and application of turbulence mechanics by humans in the third era. Some of these dam lines were built in the previous era, and some were imitated or repaired in modern times. There are wide gaps in some positions. When the sea water does not pass through the spoiler dam in autumn and winter, local navigators need to guide ships through these gaps safely. In this sense, this design has also become a very effective coastal fortification building.But in contrast, the maintenance of the spoiler dam is also a labor-intensive task—there are holes at the bottom of these huge walls, which are used to prevent sand from accumulating on the back of the dam, and can also slow down the sand loss of the second-level shelf to a certain extent. When barnacles, oysters, mussels and other organisms parasitize in the bottom cavity, human beings cannot turn a blind eye and must be eliminated as soon as possible. The way to deal with it is nothing more than shovels, picks and antifouling paint.Although Klicking does not have the death penalty today, a more cruel punishment than the death penalty may be to be exiled here to maintain the dark dam.

The composition of the sea water in this world is not much different from that of the other world, and the temperature of its flowing conditions is as low as minus two or three degrees. However, due to the influence of seasonal hurricanes/typhoons, even when the temperature reaches minus 30 degrees, the sea can blow up waves with icicles (like a large bowl of thick oatmeal). When this cold air rushes all the way to the inland, autumn and winter will come one after another. ... everything, and in historical records, there is even a tragic situation in which the army encountered pouring freezing rain while marching, and the men and horses were wrapped in rime into white ice sculptures, and the entire army was wiped out without a fight.

"This world"... why don't we call it "Kedral" first. As for how this name came about, I may have a chance to explain it later.

The above is just the tip of the iceberg of the four seasons in the world of Kedral, whether it is the columnar sunken mountain formed by the accumulation of discus, or the pyrocumulus tiankeng that is constantly spraying thunder and light, or the black fog that devours light. Coniferous forests, these unknown terrains make the world's climate more and more unpredictable, and in these strange climates, life and wisdom different from human beings are born - it can be said that Kedral The world is not exclusive to human beings.

[ParT.1-Appendix 2] Kedral and the World in the Egg

From centuries of exploration and mapping by navigators, humans have gradually realized that the world may be a big disk.

The center of the disk is Sun Island, and Heiyu Island, Tianyi Island, and Qiyang Island are separated in three directions (9 o'clock, 12 o'clock, and 4 o'clock) of Sun Island. Outside the disk is an endless ocean. This ocean is connected to the cold and dark ether space, so the ocean outside the domain is so cold.The disk is constantly rotating in this ocean, but because its surface is not uniform, it always sways periodically, rising and falling. This change of height makes the sea water sometimes flow towards the land, and sometimes recede far away, so This results in different changes in temperature in the four seasons—if not, why does the compass pointer always point to the direction of Sun Island?

They were more convinced at first, but later, the results of archaeological excavations shook them again. The ancestors of the second era and the third era told them: the world is an egg, and people are inside the eggshell. On the surface of each layer of the egg shell, the air filled in it is the egg white, and the ether suspended in the center is the egg yolk.

Such a conclusion is not only difficult for people in the world of Kedral to accept, but also for Eve. Even if she doesn't believe that Kedral is a planet, she is more willing to believe that it is a disc than the absurd statement of the world in an egg.

How to explain the "world in the egg" is not only a headache for contemporary people, but even the texts of the second and third eras are usually vague, and it seems that they themselves do not understand.

If the world is in an egg, how would the sun and the moon work?The land can stick to the surface of the eggshell, but what about the sea water, why won't it fall off?Is it because the eggshell is always spinning?Moreover, according to this statement, with a telescope with a high enough magnification, it should be possible to observe other lands and oceans obliquely from the sky, but no one has seen them. Could the blue sky be the ocean?Obviously not.

People have a lot of doubts about this, but in the end they also accept this theory of the world in the egg, and the reason is ridiculous at first glance-just because it is a conclusion from the old era, and everything in the old era is right.

But in the first few years at Boyun Manor, the tutor who came here to teach Eve had already taught the world in the egg as the truth. In that class, Eve didn't listen to anything, but just stared at the half-eggshell-shaped world model in a daze.

[ParT.1-Appendix 3] Anken Rose Gold

Anken Meijin was actually a place name at the beginning. In her era, this place was a small island in the countries on the west coast of Haneji. Later, Krigin unified most of the small countries in the central and northern parts, so Anken Meijin was included in Klikin’s name. within the territory.

As for why this female general is mentioned, that’s because——her experience is very typical, which just reflects the relatively common concept of the superiority and inferiority of men and women in the fourth era of Kedral, as well as the west coast countries (that is, before the founding of the Kriging state). ) some past events.

General Anken Meijin was born in Anken Meijin. He was born with purple-gold curly hair and lake blue eyes. His miraculous beauty is always unforgettable at a glance.She has shown amazing magical talents since she was four or five years old. She was admitted by "Clear Water Castle" when she was less than ten years old. At the age of 14, she joined the ruins expedition team and became the team leader. At the age of 21, the second war broke out among the countries. She was hired as a magic consultant and helped the Allies at the time to fight the huge Moyedissa Empire (the predecessor of Mokoto). Commander-in-Chief, therefore, after the war, she became a general among the voices of the soldiers and the people—a rare female general in history.

In this world, it was found that women's magical talent was slightly better than men's on the whole, as if God was trying to make up for women's lack of physical ability.Because of this, the idea that men are superior to women is not a common idea in this world.Since the beginning of primitive society, part of magic has appeared with people. At that time, male groups and female groups have already begun to compete for the dominant position of the population. Competition is not only reflected between species, but also between the same kind. In that era of survival of the fittest, the price of failure is self-evident.In this competition, sometimes force defeats magic, so men may snatch or trade women as reproductive resources; sometimes magic suppresses force, then women will use men as coolies or animals to drive slavery, Of course, it doesn’t mean that men and women at that time could not live in peace. The above are just the extreme means used to deal with alien races when tribes were fighting each other—killing or eating strong members of the same sex, confiscating the opposite sex as trophies, the society at that time That's how it developed.

And later, with the rise of agricultural civilization, men still had a slight upper hand after all, and the increasingly perfect moral system consolidated the status of patriarchy. question.Kimiros once recommended a book to Eve called "Public Magic and Reason", which mentioned this point. By implementing measures such as prohibiting the use of magic in public, it can effectively strengthen the relationship between people. A sense of trust, preventing the spread of large-scale magic, protecting the rights and interests of the nobility/national authority, and minimizing the threat of rebellion/uprising, and among these many advantages, it seems that there are hidden factors that are unfavorable to the status of women. When this norm gradually becomes a generally recognized morality, the invisible shackles are already unstoppable.

After Anken Meijin became a general, she was both beautiful and kind, and soon became a household name in the west coast countries. There was a painter who was able to save enough money to buy and build a manor in three years just by painting her portrait. The huge sum of money shows how respected and popular Anken Meijin was at that time.

In fact, at that time, some people noticed some rumors and persuaded her to resign and return to her hometown, or marry herself out. In short, this general cannot be made.But she just smiled and ignored it.

Anken Meijin's position in the Northern Confederacy at that time was somewhat similar to Maoqi's position in Klikin today. He was usually regarded as an idle nobleman.Since she was born as a commoner and was not good at courting the powerful, in the eyes of the aristocracy, she was really a different kind.

Five years after the end of the Second War, new disturbances appeared in the Allies, that is, the forces in the Northeast colluded with external forces in an attempt to break away from the Allies, and Anken Meijin was sent to fight again at that time.It was almost the same time at that time—in the north, Anken Meijin was responsible for expelling the relic hunting troops stationed on the Mochesk Plain, but was deadlocked because of distorted information; During the winter sea landing, they raided the important port town of Nankwithingborg, and held on for nearly three years. Nankwithingborg has piled up a large amount of frontline supplies, which is also one of the important logistics nodes. A surprise attack brought the allies, which had a chance to win, into desperation in a short period of time. Under such circumstances, the frontline troops had to withdraw, but due to the serious problem of party disputes within the allies, the team led by Anken Meijin was not recalled in the end , instead let her continue to chase, Anken Meijin led the hungry soldiers to play a cat-and-mouse game with the safari, and the result can be imagined-she was finally killed by the defecting soldiers (some say it was arranged by the nobles of the allies) An assassin lurking in the army) killed her in her sleep (some say it was poisoned), and two daggers were stabbed in her neck and heart respectively. .

These relic hunters belonged to seventeen tribes. They came from different countries in Yudi, different races, and had different beliefs. There were more than a thousand people in total. They finally defeated the expulsion forces of the allies.The seventeen chiefs decided to build a new city on the Mochesk Plain, known as the Ocean of Relics, and named it Bomen City.In the next ten years or so, they united the Sidoran people and the Modessa people, and disintegrated all the northern confederacy countries.

The Klickins did not hate Anken Makin, but pitied her, missed her, and felt that she was just a victim of the decaying lair of the Northern Allies.

[ParT.1-Appendix 4] Barn Barrow Ross

Klikin is a multi-ethnic country, and from the name, it seems to be able to tell which nationality a person belongs to by feeling, for example-Maoqi, Nanfen, Luge, Minxi, Yefei, Anfa, Linxin, Binmo... These simple-sounding names probably come from the people of the West Coast or Sidauron, and-Domenke, Erlugin, Fanbijiu, Siheliu, Guo Kekai, Sion... These are another category, which seem to come from Kyle, and others-Comino, Belikin, Digen , Fahn, Risk, Shiryl... These clueless names make it difficult to judge their ethnicity intuitively. In contrast, the names of the Modesans are very distinctive-Kimiros, Bowen Ross, Barnbaros, Kregev, Gorusido, Haruroba...Of course, there are Wenzina and Trina. In fact, the name Iftrona is also a common name in Modesa, but obviously this beautiful woman has nothing to do with the tall Modesans.

The names of the Modesas are a bit difficult to remember and recognize, but there is still a certain logic. For example, Bowen Ross means the grandson of Bowen Ino, and Barn Barros is the same.

Farewell Gift (Part [-])