Mygo, this is not the ending I want!

She didn't say anything, but her mood became increasingly depressed.

She was already harboring a sense of sorrow in her heart, and coupled with the self-blame she felt, her emotions reached an extremely low point.

She began to doubt herself constantly.

A terrible person like me would only be a drag on the band, right?

It was clearly me who wanted to form a band for life, but I was the one who hindered the band's development.

Gao Songdeng's heart became very confused and painful.

Seeing that Gao Songdeng didn't say anything, everyone was afraid that their words would irritate her, so they all chose to remain silent.

Until finally we left the program crew and prepared to go home.

Shiina Riki did not walk with Suzuki Suke but walked next to Takamatsu Deng to send her home.

When Takamatsu Deng arrived at the door of her house, she looked at Shiina Riki. She nodded and whispered, "Thank you."

Shiina Riki's lips trembled slightly, and she actually heard a sense of alienation in this thank you.

Gao Songdeng opened the door and walked in.

The door closed with a bang, and Shiina Riki looked at the closed door.

"Maybe the light is just too sad..."

Shiina Riki didn't think much about it, just stayed there for a moment and then turned and left.

You didn't go to the band for a while after that.

Although no one is blaming you, you know that this show is very important to the band. Not every band gets the chance to be on the show, and if you fail on the show, it won't be so easy to get on next time.

[At the same time, you can't let go of your feelings for Suzuki Suke, and you think that these feelings will sooner or later hinder the development of the band.]

You try to forget your feelings for Suzuki, but you can't.

You haven't been in a band for a long time.

In the training room, Chihaya Aine looked at Suzuki Suke and Shiina Tatsuki worriedly.

"The lights are not in good condition anymore... She hasn't been to the band for a long time..."

"Let's go see her?" suggested Shiina Riki.

"it is good."

So everyone in the band brought some small gifts and came to Takamatsu Deng's house.

These gifts include penguin stuffed animals, stuffed bears, and other things that Takamatsu Deng might like.

Gao Songdeng was sitting in the room, staring blankly at the scenery outside the window.

The weather is very nice today and the sunlight shines through the windows and fills the whole house.

But Gao Songdeng always had a dazed feeling, as if he was out of tune with this world.

Suddenly she heard the doorbell ringing outside.

Then she came to her senses, walked out of the room and opened the door.

"Deng!" Chihaya Aine was the first to greet.

"We came to see you." Chihaya Aine had a friendly smile on her face.

"Please...come in."

Gao Songdeng invited everyone in.

Everyone gave the stuffed doll to Takamatsu Deng.

Seeing these dolls, Takamatsu Deng couldn't feel happy for some reason.

If it were in the past, she would be very happy, right?

Now she has to force a smile on her face and say happily: "Thank you everyone."

"Deng, are you feeling better?" Chihaya Aine asked with concern.

Gao Songdeng nodded: "Maybe after a while I can return to the band."

Hearing Takamatsu Deng's words, the worried Shiina Riki breathed a sigh of relief, "That's great."

It seems that there is no big problem with the lights, it’s just that they were down for a while because of the failure of the show.

The hall was filled with sunshine. The weather was indeed very good that day. Outside the window, various birds were chirping, and occasionally a kitten would jump out of the window.

But such cheerful weather couldn't illuminate Takamatsu Deng's heart.

She smiled and chatted with everyone until time passed by little by little.

"Since there is no problem with the light, we can rest assured."

"Yes!"

"Then bye lights!"

"goodbye!"

Takamatsu Deng waved to everyone with a smile, watching everyone leave their homes one by one. Takamatsu Deng looked deeply at the backs of Suzuki Jie and the others, and then the smile on his face disappeared.

She closed the door and buried herself under the covers in her room.

You still haven't gotten over this failure.

You think you might not be able to form a band forever...

"Can't I form a band for the rest of my life..." Takamatsu Deng murmured softly as he looked at the simulation content.

"What will be the outcome for me this time?" Although the content of this simulation is not so optimistic, Takamatsu Deng still hopes to learn a lesson from it.

You deceived everyone in the band. You didn't join the band soon as you said you would.

[During this period, you are suffering from inner torment. You feel that life has lost its fun, and even your former hobbies can no longer make you happy.]

You haven't been to that children's park in a while. You didn't notice if the sandbox had been refilled, or if there were any new children in the park.

You stay in the room for a long time.

You've been wondering if you have what it takes to form a band for life, but when you think of Suzuki, you feel like you can't.

You continue to suffer.

Every time Suzuki and the others asked if you were okay, you would tell them that you were fine, but that you had some family matters recently and couldn't go to the band.

You deceived them.

You condemn yourself for becoming this way.

[You realize that you have unknowingly become a bad guy who hides himself and deceives others.]

【Your heart becomes increasingly painful in the constant self-condemnation.】

After a long time, the pressure on you reaches its peak. You can no longer bear the pain in your heart, and you decide to reconcile with yourself...

You contacted Suzuki and the others and told them that you had finished your family matters and that you would go to the training room with them in a few days.

They were very happy.

【Only you know that this is the last time you deceive them. 】

On the appointed day, you arrived at the training room with a heavy heart. Everyone was delighted to see you...

Volume 108: 3. I can’t form a band with you guys anymore (k)

Takamatsu Deng came to the training room with a heavy heart.

The electric light hanging from the ceiling of the training room looked so dazzling to Gao Songdeng.

"Deng!" Shiina Riki was very happy about the arrival of Takamatsu Deng.

Chihaya Aine also walked up to Takamatsu Touma excitedly.

"Deng, you are finally here. We have been waiting for you."

"Yeah yeah!"

Takamatsu Deng was deeply moved when he saw everyone looking forward to his return.

But she still hardened her heart.

The decision in her heart could not be shaken no matter what, she no longer had the ability to continue playing in the band.

"Everyone..."

Gao Songdeng opened his mouth slightly, but he still couldn't say the words directly.

She clenched her fists and closed her eyes.

Everyone in the band could see that something was wrong with Takamatsu Deng's expression, as if she had something very important to say.

Everyone remained silent, and all eyes were on Takamatsu Deng.

"I don't think I can continue to form a band with you guys..."

She finally mustered up the courage to finish her sentence.

Perhaps they didn't hear clearly, or they couldn't believe their ears, no one present spoke a word, and everyone was in a state of disbelief.

After a long while, Shiina Riki finally spoke: "Light?"

Gao Songdeng said loudly: "I can't work hard with everyone anymore. I'm sorry!"

She bowed deeply, tears welling up in her eyes and dripping onto the ground. She sobbed and then, as if afraid of everyone's reaction, she turned around, pushed open the door of the training room, and left quickly.

"Light!" Shiina Riki was stunned for a moment and then immediately chased after him.

The people who stayed in the training room looked at each other in confusion.

Shiina Riki quickly caught up with Takamatsu Deng.

She grabbed Gao Songdeng's arm and called out urgently, "Deng!"

Only then did Takamatsu Deng stop. She didn't dare to look into Shiina Riki's eyes.

Shiina Riki put his hands on Takamatsu Deng's shoulders and looked at him: "Deng, why? Didn't you say you could practice with us? Why did you suddenly..."

"I'm sorry, I really can't do this." Gao Songdeng's eyes were moist, "I can't hold on any longer."

"It's okay, it's just a failed performance. We can keep working hard and we will definitely succeed."

Shiina Riki thinks that Takamatsu Touma's low mood is due to that show.

Gao Songdeng shook his head: "No, no..."

The reason for all this is not because of the performance on the show. Only she herself knows the real reason.

"I'm sorry, Lixi, I really can't hold on any longer." Gao Songdeng lowered his head again.

Shiina Riki looked at Takamatsu Deng sadly: "Didn't we agree to be a band for life? Why did Deng leave us first?"

"A band for life..." Gao Songdeng listened to the harsh and familiar words.

"No, Lixi, I understand. There is no such thing as a lifetime band."

Takamatsu Deng looked into Shiina Riki's eyes, tears still flowing down his face, "Riki, I finally understand, there is nothing in this world that can exist forever..."

After saying that, she opened the hand that Shiina Riki was resting on her body.

"Goodbye."

Dengtou left without looking back.

Looking at Takamatsu Deng's back, Shiina Riki fell into silence.

You left the band completely and never went to the practice room again.

Gao Songdeng fell into deep thought as he looked at this line of text.

"Is there nothing that can exist forever..."

【Because you left the band, we lost our lead singer.】

[Shiina Riki was very sad and felt lost for a long time.]

[But the others didn't give up the idea of forming a band.]