Life has dealt a heavy hand to a weak demigod like me.

But after Charles changed the traces of fate, his body suddenly stopped.

Destiny was changed.

After he controlled fate, the fate of those believers of the Mother Tree of Vengeance changed again.

This change did not save them, but instead pushed them further into the abyss.

Charles tried to influence the fate of one of them, but found that no matter how hard he tried, he could not change it.

"Is it because of Sif?" Charles guessed.

As the goddess of night, she controls the future, destiny, and secrets.

Perhaps at this moment, she, like Mernadé, is unable to obtain her original power, but when their emotions reach a threshold, some things will happen quietly.

Sif probably already knew about Severus's family through some channels.

Given the increasingly close relationship between her and Theresa, it was normal for her to be punished by God in anger.

only....

This doesn't quite fit with Ciel's understanding of the Goddess of the Night.

You know, in the legend, the Goddess of Night is a selfless deity, and because of this she broke off relations with her family.

At the same time, as the goddess who controls fate, the goddess of night has rarely interfered with fate.

But this time, He directly interfered with the trajectory of fate because of Theresa.

"Is it that my unconscious behavior has drawn out my own power, or is it that Sif is just a follower and not the goddess herself?" Charles's gaze slowly fell on Sif, who was in the corner with an anxious and indignant expression, and he quickly retracted his gaze.

"No... If she's just a favored one, the goddess will at most bless her, but won't grant her the power to directly interfere with fate."

"Those people did deserve to die, but they definitely shouldn't have died like this."

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Chapter 158: The Closed Heart

Based on the assumption that Sif is the goddess of night, there are many possibilities for such a thing to happen.

But there is only one most likely reason.

At this time, Sif Leopold was a human being, not a high and mighty god.

As a god, she will not interfere with fate because of her own preferences, but... as a human, she can vent her inner sorrow and joy at will.

"Rocks... let's go to Theresa's house together later." While Charles was thinking about something, Sif, who had been keeping her head down, slowly raised her head and said in a low voice.

She didn't know Teresa's family and had never even met them.

Humans do not share the same joys and sorrows. Even among good friends, it is difficult to empathize with each other's grief over the death of each other's family members.

but...

When she saw Theresa's helpless look, and when she learned some of the truth about the death of Theresa's family from her predecessors in the Truth Association, she still couldn't help feeling sad.

On the one hand, I felt sad for Theresa, but more so in other ways.

Why do humans always hurt others for no reason? Why do they always like to inflict their pain on innocent people?

"It's not very appropriate at this moment." Charles looked at Sif calmly.

"I'm also very sad about Teresa's situation. I also know how sad and helpless she feels right now."

"What she needs right now is not our care."

"There are some things she needs to work out on her own."

Ciel's tone was calm.

For some unknown reason, Sif felt a little irritated.

"You're quite calm, after all, it wasn't you who lost your loved ones, Lecturer Rocks."

"But I didn't expect that Teresa likes you so much. You would be so calm when she encounters sadness."

Charles was stunned for a moment. This was the first time he heard Sif speak in such a tone. At the same time, he could also feel Sif's dissatisfaction with him.

The source of this dissatisfaction is probably something that even Sif herself cannot understand.

Ciel slowly closed the textbook in his hand, then looked into Sif's eyes.

"I can't understand the feeling of losing loved ones. After all, I don't have any loved ones to lose in this world." Charles said slowly.

There were some things he held out hope for at the beginning, but now he has basically given up.

"Sorry, I..." Charles' words reminded Sif of something, and she quickly stood up and wanted to apologize.

Charles shook his head and slowly picked up the teacup.

"No need to apologize. I'm just stating an objective fact."

"When I was little, on the God's birthday, everyone was with their families. I could only hide in a dilapidated house."

"A friend of mine who was very close to me found me and brought me some food."

"Guess how I felt at that time?" After taking a sip of tea, Charles slowly put down the teacup and smiled at Sif.

"Maybe it's warmth?" Sif asked awkwardly.

"No, I just hope he can leave quickly." Charles's gaze was calm and deep, causing Sif to lean back slightly.

"When you are sad, everything, good or bad, can be seen as a malicious show of force."

"For me, on that day, my partner's care and concern did not bring me any warmth, but only made me feel the other party's unconcealed show-off."

"Look, Rocks, this pastry is made by my mother herself. It's delicious." Charles imitated something very vividly. Sif couldn't help but lower her head even more.

"I know they don't think that way in their hearts. They just want to help me. But I think that way, and I can't help but have some bad thoughts in my heart."

Sif fell silent. She carefully recalled her past and some of the things that had happened before, and seemed to understand what Charles wanted to tell her.

but...

Even so, she still felt that Charles was a little too calm, or even indifferent.

"Everyone has different ideas. Maybe you, Rocks, prefer to face sadness alone. But what about Theresa?"

Sif is not a person who likes to preach.

Generally speaking, faced with this situation, she would just go to Severus Manor alone to silently comfort Theresa.

But for some reason, after hearing what Charles said, facing his calm gaze, Sif had an urge to pull him there.

On the one hand, in her heart, Charles would be more effective in comforting Theresa than herself at this time.

On the other hand, she truly felt that Charles' heart was not as calm or hard as he appeared at this moment.

There was no reason at all, but Sif could feel that Charles had feelings for Theresa.

But the emotions were suppressed by some things.

Sif doesn't understand why Charles does this, but she hopes that Charles can face his own heart.

But she still didn't understand.

For Charles, love is a very luxurious thing.

Whether it is family, friendship, or love.

When he came into this world, he experienced the pain of love for the first time.

Slowly, as he developed new bonds, his figure appeared here again.

There was a first time and a second time, so will there be a third time?

Sometimes he would think like this.

So for him, love is still too luxurious.

As long as he suppresses his inner feelings within a certain range, he will not be hurt.

In this era, the only person that Charles opened his heart to was Mernadè.

This wasn't just because Mernadè had drawn him into the light long ago, the main reason was because he believed that even if something unbelievable happened to him again, Mernadè would still be there for him. In other words, even if he traveled through time again, ten thousand years later, he would still be able to find Mernadè.

Others, like Endsworth, Perozzi, or Theresa, will become a memory.

He already had many memories like this, and he didn't want more people to live in some places, because that would only lead to greater depression and loss in his heart and would not bring any benefits.

"As you said, everyone has different ideas. Why bother trying to convince me?" Charles slowly stood up and put his top hat on his head.

"It's been a while since I played with Melnadette. I want to spend some quality time with her tonight."

After finishing his words, Ciel turned and left. However, Sif, who had been feeling a little uncomfortable, suddenly laughed.

"This guy is really... not honest enough."

Given Mernadette's personality, she must be more worried about Theresa than herself at this moment.

In the school library, Mernadette rarely failed to immerse herself completely in books.

She supported her chin with both hands, and although her eyes were on the book, her mind was not there.

Ciel walked over to her, pulled up a chair and sat next to her.

"Economic Class and Ideology, a very good book."

"But you don't look like you're studying right now. Are you confused by something?"

Charles gently stroked her hair and then spoke softly.

Mernadette's body stiffened, but she relaxed again when she realized that the person next to her was Charles.

She shook her head. "Just thinking about Sister Theresa."

The Severus family is one of the most famous families in the Kingdom of York.

Therefore, what happens there will always attract a lot of attention.

In addition to the current situation in the Kingdom of York, some newspapers have even begun reporting on things related to the Severus family.

Most of the people who had gathered around Severus's house and were ready to lead the other party in resistance gave up their struggle.

"Do you want to go visit her?" Charles asked gently.

Mernadette nodded at first, but shook her head after a moment.

Then she looked around, saw some classmates who were studying hard, and pulled Charles out of the library.

"Sister Theresa will probably be very sad at this time. There's nothing I can do to comfort her if I visit her."

"But my brother is different...Sister Theresa probably really wants him to accompany her right now."

"Why do you think so?" Charles pinched Melnadette's cheek and asked.

"Because...only family can soothe the pain of losing a family member." Mernadette said seriously.

"My brother has already done something like that with Sister Theresa."

When she said this, Mernadette's cheeks turned red like a ripe apple, which was very cute.

Charles's expression was a little subtle.

It was just a kiss, why did I feel like I did something more...in your mouth?

"If that's the case, Melnadette did the same thing to me~" Charles teased.

Mernadette lowered her head involuntarily, and a blush rose to her ears.

"Brother, we are family..." Mernadette said hesitantly.

"Family, friends, lover...relationships are not that simple~" Charles ruffled her hair.

Mernadette's face flushed, but she still raised her head seriously.

"It's the same for everyone... whether it's family, friends or loved ones. When they need help, we should lend a hand."

Mernadette noticed that Charles' heart was soft and gentle, but underneath this gentle core was surrounded by layers of hard and cold outer core.

The tenderness that can penetrate the ice is only for a few people.

But the tenderness deep in his heart is faced by more people.

Mernadette didn't know why Charles chose to close his heart most of the time, but she felt that Charles was not happy like this.