Life has dealt a heavy hand to a weak demigod like me.

After all...she was just the goddess of the night in the past, and the goddess of the night now is Sif Leopold.

When she made that choice, everything about her was left in the past.

Although there is not much difference between the past and the present for her, if her current self has a strong desire, she will still be driven back obediently.

At this moment, she could only take control of Sif's body and return to the present moment while she was unable to fully control her power. If Sif had full control of her power, she would need her consent to return.

However, even if she took advantage of the fact that Sif was unable to fully control her power and temporarily became the dominant consciousness of this body, she still could not do anything that would strongly disgust and resist Sif, otherwise there was a great possibility that she would be kicked back again.

Therefore, it is very normal for her to be influenced by Sif's consciousness.

"You mean... for a long time to come, it will be Sif who dominates this body and power?" Charles' tense expression relaxed a little.

If that's the case...I still have a great chance.

The change in Ciel's mood was easily perceived by the Goddess of Night; her mood was somewhat subtle.

Diana's consciousness said that she had never seen such a bold and shameless person, but Sif's consciousness became a little excited because of Ciel's mood.

"From your tone, you're more welcoming to someone you've only known for a few years than to me, who once helped you?" The Goddess of Night was so angry that she was even jealous of herself. For a moment, Ciel didn't know how to respond.

In every way, he was definitely more welcoming to Sif.

After all, Sif can be "bullied" but facing Diana... Ciel can only be bullied.

There was absolutely no way Ciel could deceive the Goddess of Night with a lie. After all, the power she controlled was such that even after advancing to Sequence 1, Ciel didn't think he could deceive her. But to be honest... Ciel wasn't tired of living yet...

So he could only lower his head and remain silent.

The sound of footsteps tapping on the floor appeared in Charles' ears again, and Charles' head lowered lower and lower.

"Huh..." After a moment, the other party finally calmed down and did not lose his temper or attack.

"It's not that this body will belong to Sif for a long time in the future, but that this body will belong to her for all the time in the future."

"I am just her past self, and she is the real owner of this body."

"If she wasn't so weak right now and if she wasn't avoiding certain things, it would have been very difficult for me to show up."

"After today, or after a while, even if you call me aunt or ancestor every day in front of her, I probably won't be able to show up like I did today to scare you properly."

So...you really showed up just because of my complaints about you?

Charles felt a little complicated.

After all, he had put in a lot of effort and used many methods to find the missing gods, but they did not respond.

Even the Eternal Blazing Sun that appeared in a flash appeared in front of him because it wanted to leave something behind.

But the goddess of the night...

The reason for her appearance is too ridiculous.

If he had known she would show up so easily, Ciel said he would have badmouthed her in front of Sif every day—of course, he would have to wait until he and Sif were together to avoid being beaten to death.

"Are you thinking about something bad?" The Goddess of Night looked at Charles as if she had sensed something.

Facing a righteous god of a related sequence at such a close distance and secretly criticizing him...

Charles felt like he was really drifting away.

"No... I just didn't expect that you could come to this era so easily..." Charles said.

"Is it simple?" Diana looked through Charles' eyes and saw the current world. "You just think it's simple."

But she was someone who wanted to escape and completely left herself in the past.

Coming to this era was not easy for her at all.

Because... this era that makes her feel a little depressed always reminds her of many things she doesn't want to remember.

"At least compared to the Eternal Blazing Sun..."

"Compared to them, I am indeed much better. Who made me the most selfish among the five gods?" Diana said with some self-mockery.

"They can choose to lose themselves completely, but I don't want to do that." Not only did she not want to lose her life and power, Diana didn't even want to lose her friends.

So she remained in the past, in the past time when they existed.

At the same time, she also left behind a reincarnation like them, but compared to those who died early and died completely, Sif, as the reincarnation of Diana, had twists and turns but would never encounter danger.

Unlike others, it is almost impossible to regain their power and they can only die completely.

Even without Ciel, everything will develop in the direction that Sif expects, and eventually Diana will stay in the past, Sif will walk in the present, and the power of the future will be held by them together.

"Can you tell me the truth about everything?" Facing Diana's gaze, Charles hesitated for a long time before finally asking directly.

He knew that now was not the right time. After all, because of him, Diana was not in a good mood.

But his inner pursuit of the truth could no longer be stopped by himself.

"Maybe I can tell you when I'm in a better mood." Diana picked up a cup of her favorite black tea from the past and started drinking it.

After putting the cup down, she looked at Charles's furrowed brow and the complicated expression in his eyes, and then she said, "I know the confusion in your heart, and I understand why you want to find some truth."

"But for me, there are many things I don't want to talk about or even recall."

"Those things are like wounds that will never heal for me, and talking about them is like pouring oil on my wounds."

Charles nodded, and all the tension in his heart suddenly relaxed. For a moment, he felt limp and without much strength.

Looking at the somewhat powerless Charles, Diana seemed to be able to sense his mood, and at the same time she felt a little restless because of it.

She put her hand over her heart, feeling helpless.

"Although I know it's all my fault...but I'm probably too blinded by love right now."

"Forget it, forget it. Although I don't want to mention those things, it doesn't mean that all of them cannot be mentioned."

"Just say what you can."

"Locks, the secret of your strength over others comes from the One and Only Creator. I can be sure of this because, like you, I have been blessed by Him. I can sense that aura."

"Secondly, the origin of everything is due to the passing of the One Creator... and our death is also due to our own choice."

"Or perhaps their death was their own choice, and the reason was related to the One Creator, but it wasn't too relevant."

"As for the details, you can investigate it yourself."

"Actually, there's no need to investigate. Perhaps by the time you reach Sequence 1, you'll know the truth without even needing to investigate."

After saying this, Diana said no more.

There are many things that are painful for her even to mention.

A pain that comes from within, as if the whole person is being torn apart.

She is like Sif, or rather, Sif is like her, a person who longs for a family.

This family was not the original family that Charles thought it was, but a family that later regarded the only creator as father and mother, and the other four gods as brothers and sisters.

The Eternal Blazing Sun is the elder brother, the Goddess of the Sea is the elder sister, the God of War and Glory is the younger brother, and Mernadè is the younger sister.

This was the perfect home for her.

It's just that for a long time she didn't understand her true inner feelings, so many people close to her misunderstood some things in the past.

For them, the choice they made that day was what they deserved, and it was their own choice.

But for Diana, on that day, she almost lost everything.

It was confirmed that her father was completely dead, and the rest of her family also chose a dead end.

After today, besides her, Mernadette is the only family member left.

Therefore, that day was a taboo for her, a memory to be sealed away.

Because she didn't want to see herself making such a choice, she hated herself for not being able to be like others, and even felt pain about her own existence.

She stayed in the past hoping to enjoy the happiest time of her life forever, which was a kind of escape.

At the same time, because it was an escape, she didn't want to recall or discuss anything related to those things.

If it weren't for what happened between Mernadette and Charles, if it weren't for the relationship between Mernadette and Charles, and if Charles hadn't come to seduce me, if it weren't for this situation, I actually fell in love with him...

If it weren't for this series of reasons, Diana would always escape from everything in the past and would never appear in this world or time that she did not recognize.

Now...

She regretted showing up here.

Charles reminded her of the things she had been avoiding, and of their last words to her.

Diana's face turned pale and her body began to tremble slightly. Many accumulated emotions seemed to explode in her heart like bombs.

At this moment, she was like a small boat in a storm, which could be swallowed up by the thing she was trying to escape at any time.

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Chapter 389 Chapter 59 Shouldn’t I be the one doing this kind of thing?

Obsession?

Heart demon?

Or something else.

Many people find it difficult to understand, or perhaps even incomprehensible, as they do not believe that such a thing would have such a profound impact on a righteous God.

In fact, in terms of combat, even if a superhuman with a related sequence triggered this memory, it would only make Diana extremely painful.

When the fight really starts, she will lose, or rather, she was just going to lose, which triggered the obsession that Diana had always been unwilling to face, and she would die miserably after losing.

But every time this string was touched, it was an unspeakable hurt to Diana.

If it happens too many times, and she can't really get over it, she might become crazy and a complete lunatic like Floyds.

Charles didn't know Diana's current condition, but he could feel the pain and fear in her heart.

Without hesitating for long, he stood up and put his hand on Diana's shoulder. The other party looked up at him with an emotion in her eyes that Charles could hardly understand.

Without thinking too much, he just held Diana in his arms and turned around to sit on the bed.

"What...are you doing..." Perhaps it was Charles' warm embrace and the familiar scent on his body that calmed Diana's mind a little. Feeling Charles gently stroking her hair and back, she spoke slowly.

"I told you." Ciel looked at him seriously. "I told you that I wanted to be a knight who would protect you."

"Now I think it's time to fulfill my promise."

"Diana, you don't have to be afraid, I'm here." Charles hugged Diana and comforted her gently.

Her body slowly stopped shaking, but there was still some fear in her eyes.

Charles' chin kept stroking her hair, and finally he slowly lowered his head and gently kissed Diana on the forehead.

Perhaps it was this kiss that slowly dispelled some of the haze in Diana's heart. She took a deep breath and returned to her original state.

Looking at Charles who was still holding her, she was originally prepared to get up and say goodbye to Charles and return to the past.

But for some reason, when she thought about leaving, she still felt weak all over, as if she couldn't "break free" from Charles' arms.

Slowly she raised her head and met Ciel's worried gaze.

Then she felt some of her own and Sif's thoughts. Slowly, she couldn't help laughing.

Charles paused for a moment while stroking Diana's hair, then he continued to comfort her as if unaffected.

"We...are indeed the same person..." she said softly.

"What?" Charles asked in a low voice, somewhat confused.

"Sif and I are indeed the same person, someone who both likes to escape from certain things." She raised her voice and her smile grew wider.

Charles still didn't quite understand.

But Diana didn't explain anything.

There is no explanation for these things.

Now it seems that the reason why she was able to take control of this body so easily was not just because Sif was unable to control her own power.

It was also because she, like herself, liked to escape after encountering some things.

yes...

The reason why Sif was so willing to temporarily give up her body was because of what Charles had said to her before and what happened between them.