I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

[This guy is still the same idiot trash as I imagined.]

In the musical instrument store on Tsukimino Shopping Street, Chitose was sitting on a bench indoors enjoying the air conditioning.

Her legs swayed back and forth, and just by placing them there, they became a beautiful sight.

[The system has told Lixi about my assumptions. She shouldn't disbelieve it. I know this child best... But how could I possibly harm myself? I don't even have time to cherish her.]

Qiansui stroked his white arms, but surprisingly, there were several scratches on them.

Although she can't cut it herself, she can ask the system to help her forge it.

The process is not important, as long as the result is the same.

Painless cut, pretty cool, right? Li Xi will definitely like the little landmine I buried.

"Sorry, I'm late. It's my turn to be on duty today..."

After rushing into the music store in a panic, Li Xi remembered that Chitose couldn't hear after he finished speaking.

Chitose also cooperated with the other party's clumsiness and used sign language for a while, then realized belatedly that he had forgotten that Li Xi did not know sign language and shook his head embarrassedly.

Both of them laughed at the other's stupidity.

Lixi was rummaging through her pockets. They were a few pieces of paper she had prepared in advance, with some common phrases written on them for communicating with Chitose.

【Chitose, here I come. 】

Although I feel that this sentence is weird.

Qiansui held up another draft book, on which he had also written some prepared words:

[Lixi, good afternoon.]

A new round of written communication has begun.

[Is there something you want to talk to me about, Lixi?]

Chitose was planning to buy some piano cleaning supplies today, such as key cleaner and suede cloth.

It just so happened that Li Xi came to find her as expected, so she made an appointment with Li Xi to meet at the musical instrument store in Tsukimino.

【I want to know more about my friends. 】

Li Xi prepared this sentence in advance, but she actually wrote it over and over again many times before making sure the font was neat and careful.

There was a note in the pocket of her school uniform skirt that read "I'm sorry, actually I was the one who fell into the water that year."

Her right hand kept stroking her pocket, and the note in the bag became a little wrinkled.

Until now, Shiina Riki's mind is still full of the flock of crows in the notebook. They are messy and diverse, as if reflecting Noshiro Chitose's inner world.

Plus what Haizuka-san from the next table said about her...

The girl in front of him narrowed her eyes and smiled, which made Li Xi's feeling of unreality even stronger.

How could such a lovely girl be so filled with anxiety and despair deep down inside?

It can't be true.

The girls walked side by side in the music store, their black hair and white hair making them look like a crow and a white dove.

Chitose pointed to the piano key cleaner on the shelf, and Shiina Riki went forward to help take it down.

【By the way, Xiaosui really likes the piano. 】

"Yeah, I'm serious! The piano is everything in my life, and I'm incredibly satisfied just being able to keep playing."

Super satisfying, right?

Such a heavy emotion.

During the text communication, Lixi had to think about whether there was anything he really liked.

She is practicing orchestral music now... No, she isn't practicing anymore. She has already quit the wind music club that her sister used to be in this semester.

If I had to say there was something I really liked, it would probably be...

【Drum?】

Li Xi covered half of his face with a draft book, leaving only his eyes exposed as he observed Qiansui.

Qiansui followed suit, turning the page with the text facing outwards and covering the lower half of his face with the draft paper.

"Pfft, you idiot..."

Shiina Riki just thought that Chitose was so cute with her big eyes blinking.

Li Xi's notebook read: "Yes, drums. I love playing drums, and I might join a band like many of my predecessors from Girls' Generation."

[Huh?]

"Then... I might not be able to do it. I probably won't be able to join the band."

Qiansui's mood was visibly depressed, but she quickly recovered. She smiled and opened her mouth again, saying in a slightly strange tone:

"I'm fine being alone... Oh... Anyway... Music and other things... are the most interesting..."

Long-term hearing impairment is like this: when people can no longer hear their own voices, their pronunciation will gradually become distorted and deviate from the normal pronunciation of people.

But Li Xi heard it clearly.

"I…"

After much deliberation, Li Xi tore up the note in his pocket and rewrote his current thoughts:

[I also think music is the most interesting thing. Let's play music for the rest of our lives.]

Ch198. These smiles are really shocking

[I also think music is the most interesting thing. Let's play music for the rest of our lives.]

Shiina Riki just felt that he was a bastard, the worst bastard in the world.

With the contact with Chitose Noshiro, Shiina Riki has discovered that this girl is so obsessed with music.

She would play even if she couldn't hear, even if she had no like-minded friends. It seemed that only playing could give her endless imagination and take her away from the troubles of the world.

And what did I do.

I completely ruined her life...

She is so cute that she should be the socialite in school and the darling of countless girls.

But it’s because of deafness... Don’t say that deafness won’t affect social interaction, that’s just nonsense.

Li Xi has seen classmates with various physical disabilities being subjected to cold violence and bullying more than once. Those days were definitely not easy.

And I have done the wrong thing more than once.

Not only did he destroy Noshiro Chitose's social life, he also overturned her dreams.

If she were a normal person, it would be a hundred times easier for her to achieve success in music than for a person with hearing impairment.

And he was the culprit who caused Chitose Noshiro to have to work a hundred times harder to be like a normal person.

Should I admit what I did?

No! That shouldn't be the case! Li Xi swore that he must never say...

Because she felt that she had an obligation to Chitose, if she told him, they might not even be able to be friends.

Just think about it, who would want to be friends with someone who shatters your dreams? At least not Li Xi.

Li Xi just felt that her complexion must be very ugly, but she was already trying her best to adjust it.

She split the note with the apology in her pocket into two and then into four, until it was completely shredded and could no longer be identified.

I must atone for my sins... I...

Seeing that Shiina Ritsuki remained silent for a long time, Noshiro Chitose blinked and moved closer.

She seemed to think that writing was too slow, so she simply said in a strange, intermittent voice:

"Mud...are you okay?"

[I'm fine. I was just daydreaming. I'm really sorry. Let's continue shopping.]

But Qiansui did not continue walking, but nervously wrote a sentence on the paper.

[Is my voice unpleasant? Did it scare you? I was a little willful just now... Let's continue writing... Typing is fine too. I'm so sorry! I took up too much of Li Xi's time...]

"!!!"

Li Xi likes Chitose's cute appearance, but also feels distressed by her cautiousness.

Oh my god, could it be possible that someone Qiansui had met before was even more vicious than her? Huh? How could this be possible?

[It’s okay, I really like Xiaosui’s voice…]

Li Xi first tried to get closer to Chitose by calling her "Xiao Sui". Then she thought of Chitose's favorite animals and changed her tone:

[It sounds just like a crow's cry, so cute.]

Sure enough, the girl's eyes suddenly brightened.

"Really?"

【Oh really.】

[If possible, Xiaosui, please speak more in the future. I will write, and Xiaosui will just express herself as best as possible.]

Since it is not a congenital hearing impairment, most of Qiansui's pronunciations are still within the normal range, but there is inevitably a certain degree of distortion.

"So, is it weird for me to talk like this?"

Qiansui spoke word by word, and actually couldn't hear what he was saying.

But she felt like she had said it.

[It's a very nice sound.]

【But Xiao Sui's piano playing is even better. 】

This sentence reminded Qiansui.

"Oh right! Just now Li Xi said...that he wanted to play music for the rest of his life. Is that true?"

After buying the necessary equipment, when Chitose and Lixi were paying, Lixi rushed to pay the bill.

Chitose didn't even have a chance to spend money.

[Of course, isn’t it interesting? ]

"Um…"

"Super...interesting...but, you're not lying to me, are you?"

As if thinking of some possibility, Chitose subconsciously took a step back, but this action made Lixi more concerned about his words and actions.

Li Xi was sure that Qiansui must have had a hard time over the years and must have suffered all kinds of trauma.

The thought "I should die" instantly occupied Shiina Riki's entire mind.

Li Xi found that his writing speed had improved.

【It’s absolutely not a lie! Absolutely not!】

Lixi deliberately circled the words "no" and "lie". She hoped that she could help Chitose.

And Li Xi was convinced that this was her responsibility and she needed to be responsible for Chitose Noshiro's life.

"Wow."

Chitose's scream was quiet, but it did sound like a crow for a moment.

Shiina Riki also has no friends, and what she says now is what she imagines she should say to her friends.

Words like "a lifetime", "love at first sight", and "I like you" should be used in normal communication between friends.

"That…"

Chitose seemed to be shy, with a blush spreading from her cheeks to her ears.

"Can we really play music together for the rest of our lives?"

【real. 】