I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Hate you, world.

Shiina Riki couldn't sleep.

In the darkness, she stared blankly with her eyes wide open, like a hunter hiding in the shadows.

But she is not that powerful. In fact, she is just a poor creature who cannot fall asleep peacefully.

Tossing and turning on the bed, Shiina Riki seemed like a small fish stranded on land.

"Ugh."

Chitose, band, deafness, hearing aids, studies, family, life...

Countless words were repeatedly arranged and combined in Shiina Riki's brain. The daily life of the past month was cut into tiny and dense fragments and automatically arranged and combined.

She lay like this for several hours in a mixed state of sleep and wakefulness, but still couldn't fall asleep completely.

"Ugh."

After sighing for the second time tonight, Lixi simply stopped struggling in the bed.

"Xiao Sui, you really make me worried."

"You listen to me so much in so many things, why do you become so stubborn when it comes to music?"

Chitose Noshiro was so happy when she was playing in a band.

Shiina Riki felt that that kind of happiness was not something she could give to Chitose.

What makes you so happy?

"Crychic...is it because of the band with that name?"

Or someone in the band?

"Toyokawa Shoko, Wakaba Mutsu? No, those two can't be it... No, it's hard to say about Toyokawa Shoko. Takamatsu Tomo? That kid doesn't seem very bright... Nagasaki Suyo? Yeah, it could also be Nagasaki Suyo... That day, Nagasaki kept looking for Xiaosui to chat."

Shiina Riki knows! There are only two kinds of women in the world!

One is a childhood sweetheart, the other is a cat thief!

"Xiangzi...stole the gorilla cat! Sushi...stole the gorilla cat."

After wandering around inside the room, Shiina Riki finally built a nest in the corner like a crow.

She curled up in the corner, wrapping the heavy, slightly dusty curtains around her as if they were a cassock.

It seems that only this can make Shiina Riki feel better.

"Xiao Sui, what exactly is that burning thing you're talking about when you play?"

"Are your scars really just from when you were in a bad mood? Have you ever been bullied? Have you ever been depressed because of bullying..."

"When you think of the time when you could hear every sound in the world, will you hide and cry at night? Do you really not blame the girl you saved that day?"

"Why, when you talked about that incident, you smiled and said it was worth it... saying that just hearing saved a life... You..."

"Why are you so passionate about the band? Is it because I can't give you this kind of home atmosphere..."

As the curtains were drawn, the moonlight outside quietly streamed in.

A gentle light adorned Li Xi's profile, where faint traces of tears were visible.

"Noshiro Chitose, you..."

Why are you so nice to me.

Why are you being so bad to yourself?

"Why can't you be a little more selfish? Why can't you think more about your own situation? Xiangzi can be the keyboard player, so why do you give up your position to her? In fact, you are the happiest when you are the keyboard player."

Shiina Riki's mumbling never stopped. Her clever mouth was like a faucet, once opened it could not be turned off.

The suppressed thoughts in one's heart cannot be shared with anyone. Shiina Riki knows that there are many secrets that he will probably have to take to the grave.

So, she chose to talk to the moon in the sky.

The moon is good. It doesn't interrupt, it doesn't leak secrets, and it is... not her.

"Ugh."

The last sigh of the night echoed in the bedroom. Tomorrow... no, there is a rehearsal today and a performance next week.

Girls' Generation is like a turbulent river rolling forward, sweeping everyone along and making everyone unable to stop chasing their own desires and longings.

But all Shiina Riki wants is for Chitose Noshiro to be happy.

"Forget it, as long as you're happy, leave the rest to me... I'll protect you... okay."

Li Xi picked up the sketchbook in which he chatted with Chitose on the desk, opened all the curtains, and began to savor the emotions between the words in the dim moonlight.

"uh-huh."

The moon meets the clouds, the flowers meet the breeze, the night sky is beautiful tonight, and I miss you again.

Ch211. After the performance, Xiangzi's misfortune

"Ya hello!"

"Xiao Sui, where did you learn this?"

"Eh? What did Li Xi say? Let me adjust my hearing aid."

"Never mind... I mean! Yah-ha!"

"Hey, hey, hello!"

Li Xi's mood would improve a little when he saw Qiansui.

Her originally tense face suddenly collapsed like an iceberg melting in spring.

In fact, she arrived at the rehearsal room too early today, which resulted in her having to face some band members she was not very familiar with.

For example, the second person to come was Wakaba Mutsu.

Lixi and Mu were silent. Mu was looking out the window at the dim exhaust fumes left by the cars speeding by, while Lixi was writing a short essay to Chitose on his phone.

This deadly silent atmosphere was not broken until Chitose appeared and broke it with a sweet "Hello".

Mu, who was not far away, turned his head and nodded slightly to Qiansui in greeting.

Chitose also smiled and nodded in imitation.

During the short week of getting along, Chitose actually witnessed everyone's extraordinary side.

Chitose walked to the piano alone and sat down, stroking the smooth keys as if she was stroking the face of her lover.

【Everyone is trying really hard to get along with each other. 】

Do you know what happens when two love-starved people get together?

When two people who lack love are together, there will be a strong emotional collision and emotional catharsis, which will constantly pull both parties into an irreversible vortex.

[But do you know... something even more terrifying and horrifying than this...]

As the band members gradually came on stage, Chitose sighed slowly in his heart.

[What's even scarier is that a bunch of love-starved people are hanging around together.]

Although Toyokawa Shoko hides it well, you can tell at first glance that she is the kind of girl who lacks love, either from her father or mother, or her family relationships are very cold. This is the valuable experience that Nodai Chitose has gained from bullying girls for many years.

Wakaba Mu... is someone who is hard to understand. Like a monster with many heads, he is complex yet stupid, the kind of victim who can definitely be bullied.

Usually when people like this are bullied, she won't fight back or talk back.

There is no need to elaborate on Nagasaki Suyo and Takamatsu Touma, as Chitose Nozomi knows exactly how much they lack love.

After all, I am the culprit who once gave them love but deprived them of it.

The last Shiina Riki...

"Okay, let's rehearse a few more times today, and then we'll have the LIVE next week! I'm so excited to see the reactions from the lovely audience!"

Xiangzi's good mood is literally written all over his face. That unique romance that has never been polluted by society is mixed with a slight hint of middle school mentality and a strong sense of romanticism.

"Uh-huh!"

Qiansui walked back to Lixi's side and scratched the palm of his hand, which made Lixi blush and look back frequently.

【Xiao Sui, what's wrong? 】

【It's okay, you're stupid. 】

[I'm not stupid! I'm actually very smart.]

[It's okay, I still like you even if you're an idiot.]

Chitose winked and gave Riki a playful critical hit.

The delicate, smooth and tender little hand reaches behind the ear and the hearing aid is quickly ready.

"Okay, then let's get started! But Riki and Chitose are really close."

"Hey, we're just good sisters."

……

"Take a deep breath, don't be afraid, don't be afraid...it's just a small matter!"

In just the blink of an eye, the supernova band Crychic, which was formed less than two weeks ago, is already standing behind the curtain.

Qiansui's little finger touched the black and red curtain, and the furry texture made her feel dazed.

She seemed to have been here... No, she had definitely been here.

She visited this place one year later, three years later, and ten years later.

She has come into contact with this curtain countless times in different times and spaces.

But her bandmates didn't.

Chitose tilted her head slightly, looking around at her teammates.

As expected, they were all very nervous, as expected of newcomers. Even Li Xi and Mu, who were usually the most calm and composed, seemed uneasy.

That's the charm of performing, isn't it? Once you're on stage, all your anxieties disappear.

But now... the adrenaline must be pumping, my children.

Chitose adjusted her hearing aid and found that the help it could provide was fading. The fading was not fast and was very weak, but it was definitely there.

Maybe within three or four years, Qiansui will really be unable to hear any sound anymore.

Who knows? That's all in the future.

"The name of the band below is Crychic, it's a newly formed band!"

The audience was buzzing, the announcer's voice was melodious, the girls were breathing heavily, and Chitose's eyes were narrowed into slits because of a smile.

"Xiao Xiang."

Chitose spoke to Toyokawa Shoko beside her. Shoko was unconsciously stomping her feet slightly on the spot, and Chitose's clear voice instantly attracted her attention.

"What's wrong, Xiao Sui?"

"How about we make a bet?"

"Huh? What is that?"

"Let's make a bet on how much our band's fan base will increase by the end of today."

"It's hard to say about this kind of thing..."

Chitose shrugged nonchalantly, her tone lacking any urgency but rather a sense of ease. "I bet we'll be a huge success, and our fan base will grow a lot. I bet you a matcha parfait, will you come?"

"Huh? Okay!"

After realizing that Chitose was trying to boost morale, Toyokawa Shoko no longer hesitated. She turned around and looked at everyone:

"Everyone, it's time to go!"

"Hi!"

……

"Awesome Crychic, awesome everyone!"