I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

January 15th, sunny. The doctor said my condition has temporarily stabilized, and the hearing deterioration that has plagued me for years seems to have slowed down.

Great, Xiao Sui...

Before Li Xi could even rejoice for a few seconds, words with terrible magical power came into her sight one after another.

【But, I really want to... die. 】

The word "death" seemed to be afraid that others would not see it, so it was deliberately made bold and black, and the font size was several sizes larger, and even circled with countless red pen.

This big word was simply a death warrant for Shiina Riki, forcing Riki to continue reading.

"On February 1st, I was depressed all day. My psychiatrist said I was almost recovering from my mental health issues and that it would be best if I could find a hobby to support myself..."

Li Xi glanced at the time and saw that this was written a few years ago.

"I chose the piano without a doubt. I only love the piano, and I only want to play it for the rest of my life... After my parents passed away, the piano is all I have left... If one day my eyes go blind due to the worsening inflammation, I will be completely doomed... Sigh."

The image of Chitose Noshiro that emerged from the text was so sad, completely different from the shy little girl who attacked her with her soft lips.

How much pain and suffering did Nengdai Qiansui go through over the years to forge such a resilient heart?

There is no way of knowing Shiina Riki.

She flipped through the diary quickly, like a hungry person gnawing on a thorny cactus in the desert to satisfy her hunger.

"My depression is gone today, and the scars on my hands have scabbed over..."

"My hearing aid broke today, and I lost control of my emotions. I couldn't help but cut it off..."

"My parents' inheritance isn't much. How long can I sustain this?"

Page after page, Li Xi hoped for the first time that this diary would not be too long...even if this diary could help her understand Chitose.

But the diary is like a record of the history of the suffering of a criminal named Chitose Noshiro. Shiina Riki doesn't dare to think about what kind of emotions are hidden in each page.

The second half of the diary has begun to gradually return to normal.

There are fewer dark words, but the melancholy between the lines still cannot be hidden.

But the story took a turn at some point in time.

That was the day when Shiina Tatsuki and Noshiro Chitose met.

"After school today, the crows from the surrounding streets all flew to the big trees in the school to take shelter from the rain. It was magical."

Shiina Riki continued to read silently.

"They are so beautiful, but today I encountered something even more delightful... There was a girl hiding behind the corner and peeking at me. She was... so beautiful."

"!!!"

Did Xiaosui discover himself that day?

Holding her knees, Shiina Riki's toes kept twisting, she was eager to know what happened next.

"I met that girl... She actually didn't mind my physical disability."

"I'm so happy to have become friends with that girl."

"Going to the music store with Lixi-san, I felt a long-lost warmth."

"Having dinner with Li Xi... Seriously, why is that idiot always paying the bill... We clearly agreed that I would pay too."

"I'm playing Monopoly with Riki-chan in my room. She's so clueless sometimes, doesn't even know the rules, and is such a loser... but she loves it. This is the first time anyone other than my parents has played Monopoly with me. I love it."

"Playing with little Riki... I love it. She's the best part of the band. Shiina Riki is the cutest vinegar-faced girl I've ever seen. I love it. Just chatting with Nagasaki-san makes my Riki feel down."

"..."

"Ah... This is also the best part of my life..."

Lixi stared at the blank page at the end of the article in a daze. Her mind was constantly wandering, and every little detail in the past that she had ignored was being reorganized into her happiness.

"So, Xiaosui's feelings for me are the same as my feelings for her?"

Li Xi didn't dare to look back again. She crawled into the bed, and tears had unknowingly covered her cheeks again.

"I...why are you so nice to me, Xiao Sui..."

This was the first time someone respected her so much, the first time someone didn't hang the label of "Shiina Maki's sister" around her neck, and the first time someone treated her wholeheartedly.

Both what Chitose Noshiro showed and what she hid moved Shiina Tatsuki.

This was the first time that Tatsuki Shiina showed his true heart.

But it worked in one go…in one go! It was a huge success!

The emotions expressed in Chitose's writings are absolutely impossible to fake.

"I'm afraid I'll never forget you... Could I be your salvation? But..."

But you know, Nodai Chitose, do you know?

"You are actually my salvation..."

The ethereal sound of guitar suddenly rang out. Although it was very distant, it definitely could not be ignored.

Lixi poked his head out from under the quilt, his mind rising and falling with the rhythm of the guitar.

"That sound... is coming from upstairs. Is it the terrace? Is Xiaosui playing guitar... on the terrace?"

Wearing slippers, after a moment of hesitation, Shiina Riki took a step forward.

That's the way it is.

Ch218. Sacred Mango Nectar

Doors, corridors, stairs, and wooden doors leading to the terrace.

Every time Shiina Riki took a step, the sound of the guitar in his ears became clearer.

Even before seeing the view from the terrace, Shiina Riki had already imagined the dancing fingertips of her silver-haired girl.

Why the guitar?

Why not...a piano?

When passing the bathroom on the second floor, Lixi also picked up the hearing aid lying on the sink.

It has completed its mission and was given to him by Qiansui.

This hearing aid, engraved with the pirate ship pattern that symbolizes freedom, has become a collection that Tatsuki Shiina will treasure for the rest of his life.

With his left foot on the last step of the entrance to the third-floor terrace, Shiina Riki couldn't wait to reach out and push the door open.

The evening breeze was even more excited than her, scrambling to jump into the room.

The wind is really, really strong.

The hem of the nightgown could no longer be held down, but the feeling of a cool breeze washing my face after waking up was truly comfortable to a certain degree.

After the door was opened, the musical notes that could not be hidden were completely unleashed and surrounded Shiina Riki.

"Xiao Sui? Where are you?"

Li Xi held onto the door frame, and the calling voice stopped abruptly.

Because she saw the most important friend in her life standing on a wooden box under the moon, playing music with the whole world as the backdrop.

The silver-white girl was wearing a white dress with the hem of her skirt fluttering and her hair dancing.

Chitose Noshiro continued to play like this.

Her eyes were so gentle, but there was a determination in them that Shiina Riki couldn't see clearly.

The free melody is catchy, Riki is approaching Chitose and Chitose, who is playing the guitar, is also approaching Shiina Riki.

"Попробуйтольколишьглоток,"

(Just a small taste,)

"Божественныйнектарприроды,"

(Nature's sacred nectar,)

"Онбашнюклинитудедов,"

(He built a tower before his grandfathers,)

"Нанёмработаютзаводы,"

(The factory runs on it,)

"Мангонектар..."

(Mango Nectar,)

It’s light and moving, but there’s a hint of sadness in the song.

This kind of sadness is not like emotional trauma, but a kind of numbness that allows one to grin in the face of life's hardships.

But Shiina Riki was thinking more about something else.

When did Chitose learn Russian? Isn't she so cool? As expected of Noshiro Chitose.

"Отомчтосказанозабудь,"

(Forget what you said,)

"Простокупиинаслаждайся,"

(Just buy and enjoy,)

"Дедовтехнужнопомянуть,"

(Those ancestors should remember,)

Standing in front of Shiina Riki, Chitose's music was becoming slower, like a jar of honey slowly solidifying.

Shiina Riki looked carefully and found that Chitose Noshiro's knees and elbows seemed to have scratches?

However, the light was not very good and she could not see clearly, but if it was real, it was most likely caused by a fall.

"Яотправляюсьвподсознание,"

(I entered the subconscious,)

"Мангонектар,"

(Mango nectar.)

hum-

The fingertips brushed the strings for the last time, and just at that moment the wind stopped and the girls' skirts stopped rising.

Their long hair also hangs down naturally.

"Lixi? Are you awake?"

"Xiao Sui! What...what song is this?"

"'Mango Nectar', a song I really like...shoestring rock. Mmmm! Post-punk."

"What about Russian? It's so standard and sounds so nice."

"Russian...I learned it when I was bored."

There was no passionate emotional outpouring as imagined, but only two girls yawning and chatting happily under the night sky.

The rainwater gathered on the surface of the terrace, forming several small puddles.

The figures of Shiina Tatsuki and Noshiro Chitose were reflected in the puddle.

"I said... why are you up in the middle of the night playing guitar?"

Why a guitar?

"Hmm."

Pushing her hair behind her ears, Chitose adjusted her hearing aid.

Shiina Riki felt that the current scene really was like the ending of the story.

Girls and girls, that's how it goes.

"Because this is a farewell."