I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

【Won’t Xiao Sui be lonely then?】

Shiina Riki asked the same question he had asked one night before.

Even though she had already asked once, she still wanted to ask again.

Because... she expected Chitose to give an answer that she could better understand.

"Xiao Sui... don't you feel lonely? Young people your age would obviously choose to spend their youth in a more relaxed way. Why would Sui choose a hobby that is the most unfriendly to him?"

“Because when I play, I feel like I’m truly breathing… I can feel all my life force being captured in the notes, and that’s what I mean by burning.”

"I just keep playing. It doesn't matter if no one listens. I don't care if people laugh at me and say I'm wasting my time. I just enjoy every second of playing the piano. Every second is a gift!"

This is not a lie, but Qiansui's heartfelt emotion.

This is the sincere statement that Chitose Noshiro made after years of holding back.

She sacrificed countless inspirations and devoted herself to studying all aspects related to the piano. She endured the misunderstanding of countless peers and unbearable loneliness, and struggled to resist countless self-doubts.

Looking back on the past, those memories that seemed painful are actually no longer bitter.

Noshiro Chitose smiled.

"Even if my playing is meaningless...even if I play until I'm old and frail, so what? This is what I want to do."

She is not only paranoid but also stupid, but she just wants to do this, just wants to keep playing like this.

"Perhaps, no one will ever understand me in my lifetime. I just want to do my best to do one thing."

No, I understand you.

"Eh?"

Qiansui turned her head to look at Lixi, thinking that he was trying to comfort her, but...

Shiina Riki's sincerity cannot be faked.

Although I haven't been able to fully experience it yet, I feel like I've grasped the beginnings.

【I seem to have begun to understand age.】

"Really?"

[Really? Maybe the band inspired me. I feel like I really…]

Qiansui smiled but said nothing.

There may indeed be some signs of love in Li Xi, but the love is not strong enough.

But it’s enough. People who are not ready to play music until death don’t need to be too obsessed.

Not everyone can live happily like Chitose Noshiro after the simulation ends.

"I want to thank Lixi."

【Me, me?】

"Yes, Lixi has led me into areas I never dared to imagine before... becoming a band mercenary, joining the Supernova band... Although the process may be tortuous, I am really grateful!"

"It's Lixi who helps me burn more fully and enjoy the joy of playing that I crave... That's why I love Lixi the most."

"Cough cough cough."

Shiina Riki used a tactical cough! Although Noshiro Chitose couldn't hear it, it helped to ease Riki's own shyness.

Her little face turned red.

Every time she heard Chitose say "I like you" in a soft voice, she would have a strange reaction.

Come on! This is normal, okay? Who can withstand such a rhetoric from Chitose Noshiro?

No one can do this.

【Humble】

And Chitose Noshiro seemed to be able to read minds. She turned around and sat on Riki's hips, with her arms around the victim's neck.

"Suki! (Like!) Suki Suki Suki Suki!"

Why are you getting more excited the more you talk?

Li Xi tried to cover her face to hide her embarrassment, but Qiansui didn't give her the chance and blocked her way to speak with her soft lips.

"Mm!"

"Woo..."

……

Shiina Tatsuki is a small-time girl who becomes so tense that she dares not move, and turns into an unconscious little beast that screams pitifully.

Tatsuki Shiina is very cute, I like Tatsuki Shiina.

—Excerpt from Noshiro Chitose's Secret Diary

……

"Huh...Huh! Xiaosui! You're so mean."

"What are you talking about, Li Xi? I can't hear you."

"It's okay! You... ah! So bad!"

She was so shy that she was speechless for a moment, and Shiina Riki hugged Noshiro Chitose even tighter.

It's normal for good girlfriends to play kissing games, right?

That's what good friends should do.

Shiina Riki clearly remembered that when she was in elementary school, she saw girls walking in groups of three or four in all departments of the school, from elementary school to junior high school or high school, often expressing their kindness in this way.

Yeah! That's it...

"Lixi, do you want to go for a walk this afternoon?"

"Afternoon..."

Shiina Riki thought of the phone call just now.

She actually wanted to explain to Chitose who had called just now.

But forget it, it’s rare that Xiaosui is so happy.

Toyokawa Shoko said something that was more hurtful than a knife...so don't mention her in front of Xiaosui anymore.

Didn’t you see that Sui even smashed his guitar because he was sad?

"Okay, let's go for a walk. I know a great little park. We..."

……

The first level of intimacy between people is the physiological relationship.

The second level is to tell each other about childhood traumas and feel sorry for each other's past.

The third level? The third level is to buy groceries and cook at home.

The happiest thing is to have someone prepare a hot meal for you when you get home.

"What are we having for dinner tonight, Lixi?"

I don't know either, but we need to think about it.

[After all, there are only a few things in life that we can choose, and what to eat is one of them.]

Ch222. Maki's phone call, Chitose in coma

thump—

As Chitose's fingers pressed the piano keys for the last time, the song ended.

"As good as ever, but I feel like it's even better."

Since Chitose Noshiro was wearing a hearing aid at the time, Li Xi simply spoke directly.

“No, actually something is missing…”

"Eh?"

There were the screams of insects outside the house, and when the music ended, the sounds of nature became endless.

"I think maybe I haven't played enough recently. It always feels weird. Should I play more?"

"Let's talk about it tomorrow. Isn't it late now?"

"Why, little Lixi, can't wait to hold me to sleep?"

"I, I, I... No way! I didn't! I don't want to! I don't want to! How could I possibly think that... Xiao Sui, please don't make malicious assumptions about me!"

"Then..." Qiansui pursed his lips mischievously, "How about Lixi sleep in the guest room tonight?"

“This alone won’t work.”

"How stupid, poof."

How could such a soft little mouth become so hard? Is it because I didn’t kiss it?

Chitose is very thin, and that's why when she stretches she looks as graceful as a swan stretching its neck.

Li Xi opened his mouth and wanted to say something else but his sister called.

"Eh!"

It was not until then that Shiina Riki remembered that apart from sending a message consisting of five words "Staying at a classmate's house tonight" to her sister last night, she had not sent any messages since then.

They completely lost contact for a day.

"Sister, are you going crazy looking for me?"

The corners of Li Xi's mouth trembled a few times. She really didn't look at her phone for almost a second the whole day.

After all, her little angel with broken wings was sitting in her arms, rubbing his little head against her chest... Could a normal human really refuse to be intimate with Xiao Sui and then calmly look at the phone?

What can be done is this (thumbs-up.jpg).

"I have to go answer a call from my family first, so I'll excuse you for a moment."

"Okay."

The three phone calls she received today were so annoying, and each one disrupted her and Chitose's alone time.

"Hey, Maki, what's…"

"Shiina! Riki! How dare you answer the phone! You're pissing me off to death!"

For the first time in her life, Shiina Riki heard Shiina Maki calling her name so loudly.

She was so frightened that her hands became unsteady and the phone fell to the floor with a clatter.

"Sister, don't worry, I'm fine."

You are interfering with my little sister's love affair. You are a heinous guy who only knows how to ruin my good things.

"Where are you now? At one of your friend's houses? I'm coming to pick you up right now. Your parents are so worried, don't you know? You just sent a message yesterday and disappeared. Are you itching to get away?"

My sister is really going crazy.

Shiina Riki thought.

Even the usually invisible temper and words that cannot be spoken are bursting out.

"So! Whose house are you in? Where are you?"

"Ahem, sister, I'm at Xiaosui's house now."

"Huh? Xiaosui? Xiaosui is...ah, Noshiro Chitose?"

"correct."

"What are you doing?"

Shiina Riki knew that she needed to give an answer now, an answer that could calm her sister down.

Damn brain! Hurry up! It's okay if you can't think of sweet words to Qiansui, but can't you think of something shocking?

At the very end, Shiina Riki sighed.