I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

For some reason, the matcha parfait doesn't seem as delicious anymore.

She looked at the kind elder sister who was helping her check the news with innocent eyes, but she saw that her expression was not very good.

She seemed to be thinking of her words, preparing to tell Kaname some not-so-good news.

Just like that day when grandma told Lena's parents that she was leaving Japan.

Lenai no longer wanted to listen at this point.

"Don't…"

Don't tell me.

Before she could finish, the judge had already read out the final declaration.

"Sorry, no Crychic I found."

"It seems... Miss Noshiro and the others... failed."

pat-

The glass containing the matcha parfait fell to the ground, and the sweet taste mixed with the deadly glass shards scattered everywhere.

"how come!"

Ch358. On the way to Noshiro Chitose's residence

Why are the matcha parfaits so unpalatable lately?

Is it because you are in a bad mood?

Or is it because there is no one to eat matcha parfait with me?

Yao Lenai didn't know.

Kaname Rakuna kept thinking about this question on the way to Noshiro Chitose's house.

There are so many problems in reality that it is impossible to figure them all out at once.

But Le Nai still likes to daydream.

"call."

Blowing air upwards to lift up his aho-hair, new doubts arose in Lenai's mind.

[Noshiro Chitose, is she invincible? 】

Yes, Chitose Noshiro is invincible.

Of course, Kaname Rakuna once firmly believed in this and had complete faith in it.

Chitose Noshiro is simply a god.

If Chitose Noshiro is not a god, how do we explain why Chitose Noshiro is so perfect and so great?

But, Chitose Noshiro is no longer a [God].

But when she saw the defeat of Chitose Noshiro and Crychic I, Kaname's firm faith began to waver.

[Even someone as great as Chitose-nee... failed.]

So, will I still succeed?

Then, can I still become someone as shining as Chitose Noshiro?

Stopping by the roadside in a daze, Lenai grabbed the straps of her schoolbag with both hands.

She heard a wild cat running in the grass and saw small ants climbing on the bare cherry trees.

Under normal circumstances, she would definitely be able to play with these two discoveries for half a day, but today she really lacked interest.

"Chitose-nee failed, despite being such a shining person."

How did things become like this?

Lenai casually peeled open the ham sausage he had taken from SPACE and was about to take a bite when he glanced at the wild cat with green eyes in the haystack. In the end, he chose to throw the food away.

Lenai feeds the wild cat, just like Noshiro Chitose once fed her "wild cat".

"Will I still...shine?"

A feeling of self-doubt permeated Lena's behavior. It had been two weeks since she last saw Chitose.

That is to say-

"It has been two weeks since that disaster was averted."

"Well...I'm not willing to accept this."

The hand holding the backpack strap clenched involuntarily, Lenai gritted his teeth, and sprinted forward in one breath.

"I can't accept this! Why did I lose?"

Obviously, Chitose sister has saved everything, why is the ending still sad?

"hateful."

I get tired after running for a while, and when I'm tired I need to rest. Once I rest, the thoughts in my mind become complicated again.

Walking closer to the beverage machine next to him, Lenai recently saw on TV that there was a plant called Datura that would hide in vending machines and eat children.

"It's been two weeks since I last visited Chitose-nee."

While searching for coins in her pocket, Le Nai did not forget to look in the direction of Chitose's house.

She didn't dare go near the vending machine for fear of being eaten.

She also didn't dare... get close to Noshiro Chitose because she was afraid that Chitose would be sad.

He had tried to find Chitose more than once but was stopped by Tsuzuki Poetry Boat.

Grandma said, let Sister Qiansui be quiet for a while.

"Ugh."

She searched her pockets over and over but couldn't find the coin. She was in such a hurry to sneak out today that she couldn't do anything.

Lenai began to regret her frantic run just now.

She wouldn't have been thirsty if she hadn't taken such a big step forward.

"Gulu."

In the end, there was no other way, so Lenai could only imagine the refreshing taste of soda to quench his thirst.

Walking on the path to Noshiro Chitoseka, Kaname Rakuna's mood became increasingly complicated.

She didn't want Chitose to lose, and she wanted Chitose to realize her own dream more than anyone else.

"You clearly want to be the hottest rock star, and you've clearly never failed in music... Why did you encounter misfortune at this crucial moment?"

Today, Lenai was in no mood to play hopscotch along the road. She walked on tiptoe like a cat, trying to escape from this miserable world.

But even though most of the foot has left the ground, the toes are still tightly held by the road surface.

In addition, walking like this was very tiring, so Lenai finally had to walk normally.

[Falling] is also an [inevitable] process...

Just like the end of the road is the Noshiro Chitose family [inevitable].

"Sister Chitose! I'm here to play with you!"

No matter how dry her mouth was, Lenai would risk her throat smoking and call out to Noshiro Chitose.

Standing downstairs of Chitose Noshiro's house, he called out loudly towards the attic, but received no response.

"Sister Chitose! Sister Chitose!"

I tried calling out a few more times, but all I got was eternal silence.

"Why... ignore me?"

Worried but helpless, Lenai was really worried about Chitose Noshiro.

The other party completely disappeared from SPACE... It has been two weeks.

During this period, Chitose's teammates would occasionally come for coffee, but when asked, they could not contact Chitose.

Chitose Noshiro seemed to have evaporated from the earth.

After knocking on the door again but still getting no response, Le Na racked her brains and realized that the ornamental tree outside Chitose's house might be used as a "ladder" to climb into the other party's house.

When the soles of my feet touched the lawn in a residential yard, a small garden that had not been tended to for a long time came into view.

“It’s so messy.”

Weeds grew everywhere, fruit trees withered, and cherry blossom petals lay shriveled in the yard like dried mummies.

"Sister Chitose, you haven't been out for two weeks, have you?"

Unsure, Lenai tilted her head; she was actually a little scared.

This was her...first time coming into contact with Chitose Noshiro in this state.

Although she is not very worldly-wise, Kaname Rakuna feels that she shouldn't disturb Chitose right now.

【But, what if. 】

[If my 1,000-year-old sister needs me...wouldn't I be able to help her?]

Today, Le Na didn't carry her guitar. She tentatively pulled the door handle to the backyard of Chitose's house and found that it was not locked at all.

"Sister Chitose? Are you home?"

There was still no response, and Lenai pinched her nose because she could smell alcohol.

Alcohol?... It smells different from last time.

The last time it was very soft and fragrant.

This time it was a bit strong and choking.

As Le Na explored up the stairs, Chitose Noshiro's clothes often appeared wherever she passed.

Cats decorate their bedrooms in a haphazard manner, but I never expected that someone as tidy as Chitose would decorate her territory like this.

Lenai stopped talking, as if the person calling Chitose Noshiro downstairs was not her.

The one who was walking quietly started walking in a cat-like manner again, but this time it was to avoid making any noise.

The house was in a more dilapidated state than the last time I visited. Dirty clothes and dust accumulation caused by lack of cleaning could be seen everywhere.

Those once thriving potted plants are now just a pile of dead things.

She searched upwards and finally came to Qiansui's door.

But Yao Lenai hesitated.

[Do you really want to... open this door? ]

Ch359.What is depression?

The white solid wood door looks high-end and elegant, but it always has a hint of desolation.

Yao Lenai stood at the door at a loss, holding the door handle again and again.

[Do you really want to open this door? ]

Chitose-nee is clearly avoiding... them, right? Is it really okay for me to intrude into her world like this?

Lenai didn't think that other children of her age would have such troubles, but she had many difficult problems.

She discovered that she might be precocious.

The door creaked, but Lenai finally chose to push it open and walk in.

She didn't want to think about anything else.

Her worries and longings outweighed all her sorrows. She should have considered many things but... forget it.

"elder sister?"

She couldn't smell it outside the door, but when she leaned into the room, the strong smell of alcohol made Lenai's eyes sore.