I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

(I want to be with you)

The applause gradually grew louder——

When the incomplete song ended, Lenai thought he was awake.

[So interesting…]

Whether it was secretly drinking wine or listening to Chitose's performance, Lenai would never feel bored.

"Tobacco... I remember, did someone give me the same answer last night?"

At the end of the song, there were no lyrics left, so only the instrumental was left. Lenai began to improvise, humming some of the words himself.

This night is passing so slowly, it seems like time will never end.

What happened next was no longer clear to Lenai.

At a certain moment, her consciousness completely disappeared, her eyes were half open and half closed, and her mouth was still humming some strange lyrics.

Did you just sing about Chitose Sister?

Did you just mention Xiao Qiansui?

I can’t remember clearly. I can’t remember these things at all.

She felt as if something very gentle and soft hit her face, and wet lips pecked her cheek again and again.

But it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter what happens.

[No wonder Chitose Noshiro likes to drink.]

In the dream, Lenai suddenly said these words.

So, alcohol really can paralyze people? So, it really is because... drinking makes people forget everything else, forgetting all the worries about home, family, and loved ones.

There are too many worries...too heavy.

If possible, she just wants to be a free little wild cat.

Just like Chitose Haizuka—

……

After Chitose Noshiro passed away, I became like her.

What I didn’t know was…

She also lived like me.

The new millennium is free, unrestrained, innocent and pure.

The old me... I am serious, solemn, gentle and rational.

Obviously, these words should describe each other, so how come they are the other way around?

Noshiro Chitose...

……

When tobacco is lit, it turns into smoke, and the foam will eventually dissipate.

After all, no evidence of its existence was found.

A written record? A photographic record? None of that exists.

We once spent a long time together. At the beginning of that summer, we watched the sunset together, laughed heartily, and then started strumming the guitar.

At night, the sky was filled with stars, and you fell asleep, snoring softly on my shoulder.

We didn't record any of this.

But these things haven't gone away.

Absolutely not...it definitely still exists.

It exists in our memories, sometimes without a trace, but that memory becomes an eternal bond between you and me.

Ch379. No music, no life

The first time I got drunk, when I woke up it was already the weekend. Today was a terrible day. When I woke up it was no longer early morning.

It wasn't her biological clock that welcomed Lenai back to the waking world; she didn't have one and she could sleep as late as she wanted.

What woke Le Na from her sweet dream filled with Chitose's aura was a sudden female voice.

Cold, cruel, and devoid of emotion, Lenai couldn't describe the tone of the other person's voice.

But what makes people feel most uncomfortable is the implication of the other party's words:

You cannot experience happiness now because you do not know how to love yourself. Moreover, in order to be able to love yourself, you want to "become someone else."

The reason you want to be someone else is because you only focus on "what you have been given."

In fact, you should focus on how to use what you are given.

"!!!"

This is so scary! If you can talk so much, just block your mouth!

After the dream ends, there is the stable real world.

"Ouch, what time is it?"

Her white hair was fluffy and Lenai lazily turned over a few times on the bed.

There were pieces of hair stuck to the pillow that prickled people, and judging from the color it was impossible to tell whose it belonged to.

"Years...years old?"

With her head buried between two pillows, Lenai took a few deep breaths and tried to wake herself up.

During her splitting headache, she never received a response from Qiansui.

Well, in that case, let’s continue sleeping for a while.

It’s okay, Yao Lenai. No one will blame you for sleeping in if you don’t rest at grandma’s house today.

Even if I have to sleep until midnight, even if I have to sleep until my guitar becomes rusty...sleep, sleep.

Sleep has always been a way for humans to escape everything.

【Hmm...Escape?】

It just so happened that the song that Chitose and I composed together didn’t have a name yet.

Let’s just call it Escape!

"wake up?"

Before she completely lost consciousness, Lenai, who was mumbling, heard the sound of the door being pushed open.

Then she felt a heat on the side of her face, as if some scalding liquid was slightly burning her soul through the glass.

"Sui Sui? What is this?" He looked so lazy as he asked with his eyes closed.

"It's hot honey water. I have a friend who often gets drunk. Every time I help her clean up the spilled Demon Slayer liquor the next day, I always make her a cup of boiling honey water."

"No...I want a matcha parfait."

Lenai skillfully moved into Chitose's arms. Chitose's belly was softer than cotton, and blowing on her belly button would make her body tremble.

so fun.

"If I want a matcha parfait, I'll have to rely on you to get it. I want it too, after all. Aren't you dizzy?"

"Dizzy," Kaname Rakuna, who had buried her head in Chitose's arms, muttered incoherently.

"If you feel dizzy, just drink some hot honey water. I won't kill you."

"Oh well."

When Yao Lenai half opened her eyes and drank the honey water, her mind was filled with the image of Chitose drinking with her last night.

The young girls, two childhood sweethearts, drank secretly. The nectar in the adult's cup was so harmful and terrifying that one could lose their mind just by drinking it.

what…

Chitose Noshiro was so charming at that time!

That's how it should be described, right?

"I once described another woman like this in front of my grandmother, and she scolded me."

"How do you describe it?"

"I won't tell you, or I'll be taught a lesson by you."

The boiling hot honey water was so spicy that it temporarily drove away all of Lenai's discomfort.

"The forgetfulness brought by alcohol is over, and it's time for us to get busy..."

"Playing? Playing guitar so early in the morning?"

"Yes, I have to play it as soon as I get up in the morning, otherwise I won't feel at ease."

Not being able to feel at ease means not being able to be happy, at least for now.

The last bit of hot honey water in the cup was rolled into Lenai's mouth by her pink little tongue. She jumped up and down to the floor, but when her toes touched the carpet, she almost fell because of something that looked like a small box.

"Be careful, oh? What is this?"

Easily supporting Lenai, Chitose Haizuka quickly bent down and picked up the small square box on the ground.

"Mints? Did you buy them, Lenai?"

"Ah? Ah... I..." Kaname took a deep look at the box and for a moment forgot where I had seen it before, "I don't remember."

Is this something that Chitose found when he was rummaging through boxes and drawers yesterday?

But it doesn’t matter, just whatever.

"Ok."

Chitose was very familiar with this box, and she put it in her pocket with a smile.

Rubbing the back of the box with my fingers, I found eight simple words engraved on the bottom:

【Without music, there is no life.】

……

“Without music, there is no life!”

The current Kaname Lenai is the strongest Kaname Lenai!

She has goals, close friends, awareness and pressure.

At this moment, no one can defeat her!

It will be sunny on Sunday.

"Captain Lenai, can we take a break?"

"No, keep training."

Despite the protests of the drummer and bassist, Kaname, who was playing with great enthusiasm and feeling a little tired, said this.

"Is Lenai really okay? He's been playing for hours straight, right?"

Yaya Lenai was really ruthless today.

She kept playing, playing frantically, but she never seemed to get tired.

"Yeah! Because it's super fun. I really like guitar now."

As if showing off her skills, Lenai quickly completed a difficult move. She jumped in front of Chitose as dazed as she was that day after getting drunk.

"Haha, then come on, little Lenai!"

Chitose Noshiro turned around and gave those damn cute systems an ambiguous look.

……

Monday is a good day to skip school, skip classes, and drop out of school.

"As for training during the day?"