Lonely Rock for the Blind

"So you're staying here today..."

Iwashita Shima, who was sending Nekoyashiki Haru home, asked Hiroi Kikuri who came in with the boy.

"Isn't it because I worked so hard to quit drinking that I can live here? No, Shima, give me your house..."

"No need to discuss."

Iwashita Shima held up his hand to refuse.

"Don't cause trouble for Qing. I have to go back too."

Iwashita Shima said, then looked at Nekoyashiki Haru.

"Qing too, I dote on her a little too much."

"Um…"

Nekoyashiki Haru pondered for a while, and finally could only sigh.

"There's nothing you can do once you're entangled."

"Too…"

Iwashita Shima showed an expression of empathy.

"Hey! Do you two think I'm troublesome?!"

"How dare you say such things?"

boom~

After tapping Hiroi Kikuri on the head, Iwashita Shima walked towards the elevator.

"Then I'm leaving. Goodbye."

"Don't hit me on the head!"

Hiroi Kikuri stretched out her body and said angrily.

"Goodbye."

Nekoyashiki Haru nodded and said goodbye.

The chill brought by the evening breeze made Hiroi Kikuri shiver, and then she quickly pushed Nekoyashiki Haru into the room.

"Alright, alright, come inside, it's freezing outside."

With the other hand, he closed the door.

boom!

"I'm going to take a shower!"

Hiroi Kikuri cheered.

"You didn't wash yesterday... I just smelled something."

"There's a problem with the bathhouse downstairs. It's been closed for the past few days."

Kikuri Hiroi took out the spare clothes from the bag.

“I didn’t take a shower yesterday…”

“…Go wash up quickly.”

"Okay~"

Hiroi Kikuri rushed into the bathroom.

"... "

Nekayashiki Haru stood there in a daze, then groped his way towards the sofa.

The phone in his hand was turning over and over like a pen.

After drinking, my mind does feel much more relaxed.

The originally muddy thoughts began to flow again.

What I should do most now is to confirm the relationship between the two of them.

Liang had no reason to lie to herself. Although she liked to joke, she would never make such a bad joke.

But that doesn't mean she won't make mistakes in judgment.

If Hongxia likes me, it should still be because of our childhood memories.

There is a saying that childhood sweethearts or siblings who have not seen each other for a long time are more likely to develop romantic feelings.

As for Yudai, it's probably more because she's a young girl who's easily moved...

So it is actually not impossible that he has feelings for me. It is also my own fault. After being together for a long time, I really don’t care about the distance that much.

So the most urgent thing is to confirm their feelings and then reject them properly and tactfully...

Why not accept?

"... "

Nekoyashiki Haru turned over and lay on his side on the sofa.

Hongxia is very gentle and cute. You can even remember what she looks like from your memory. You know that she has golden hair and eyes like clear rubies. You know her inside out. If she likes you, why would you not like her?

Yudai is very lively. Although you still don't know what she looks like, you can definitely feel her youthful aura. Her admiration for you and her usual care for you, you can feel that she is trying hard to get close to you, right? Now you should understand why, right?

What's wrong with them liking you? Is there anything to complain about?

Is that unacceptable? Is there something you dislike about them?

"…cannot…"

why?

because…

Nekoyashiki Haru took off his sunglasses and looked up at the ceiling.

All I could see was emptiness, nothing at all.

That's why I'm not worthy of being liked... I just want to maintain friendship with them, not to mention that there are two of us now.

I don't want to see friendships go sour...

So you want to refuse?

Decline politely.

Why do you think it's okay to refuse? Can't you just accept?

I accept one what about the other?

How about just being clear?

That would cause them too much harm.

Obviously someone likes you, but you seem to be avoiding the problem all the time. Aren’t you too selfish?

Not escaping...

It’s counted, it’s definitely counted, but you just don’t want to admit it.

Why didn't I admit it?

"... "

Isn't it noble to sacrifice yourself for the band?

"... "

Ah, you see, all you think about is [sacrifice] and putting yourself in a difficult position. Do you think accepting the girl's love is an [injustice] for you?

Hypocrisy and cowardice!

Nekayashiki Haru suddenly cursed himself in his heart.

A stray cat who only knows how to hide behind the identity of a blind person!

“…Haaa…”

Nekoyashiki Haru covered his eyes with one of his forearms and couldn't help clenching his fists.

My thoughts became confused again, and the few sips of wine I drank seemed to be completely consumed at this moment.

It felt like there was a gust of air in my heart that was unable to be released, and it was accumulating in my chest, slowing down my heartbeat.

What should be done exactly? How should it be done exactly?

It's like hanging a rock high in your heart.

Anxiety crawled out of my heart like ants.

Then as time goes by, it spreads all over my internal organs.

After that tangled and meaningless thinking.

Nekoyashiki Haru let out a long sigh.

“…How troublesome…”

"What's the trouble?"

The sudden sound next to him made Nekayashiki Haru sit up suddenly.

How could I not notice the door opening and footsteps? Was I too focused just now?

"Kikuri?"

Nekoyashiki Haru called out the other person's name.

"Yeah, I'm done with my shower."

Hiroi Kikuri, who had already blow-dried her hair, looked at Nekayashiki Haru's complicated expression.

"I thought you were asleep, but you just suddenly spoke."

"... "

"What's the trouble?"

Hiroi Kikuri asked again.

"nothing."

Nekayashiki Haru shook his head and walked towards the bathroom.

"I'm going to take a shower..."

His hand groped along the wall, then rested on the bathroom door frame.

Behind him, Hiroi Kikuri suddenly asked.

"About ending the band?"

"... "

Nekoyashiki Haru didn't say anything, but just went into the bathroom.

Hiroi Kikuri narrowed her amethyst eyes.

...

……

.........

Cat Yashiki Haru walked out of the bathroom after taking a bath.

There's no point in thinking too much...just focus on the goal in front of you.

First... I need to confirm that Liang's guess is correct.

Only after confirming this can we make the right response.

Nekayashiki Haru seemed to be avoiding the sofa and did not go to say goodnight to Hiroi Kikuri, but walked straight to the bedroom.

Then, you should also control the distance between you and others...

After going blind, my control of distance is really bad.