Lonely Rock for the Blind

“I feel like the band really has a wonderful connection.”

The two walked and took the side road leading to the station.

"We're all pursuing our dreams together, but it doesn't seem like family. It seems a little different from friends, lovers, or anything like that."

The two crossed the fork in the road and walked to the path in front of the station.

"I really like this kind of band right now... Although I still have a lot to accomplish, with you and the seniors by my side, I will definitely be able to get better."

The two walked to the station.

"Even though my seniors still don't like me, but just playing with everyone, practicing together, and seeing more and more scenery together, I feel like it's already great! I even feel a little satisfied..."

Hiss, hiss, hiss————

The tram stopped.

"So, Yili! I..."

Kita Ikuyo's voice suddenly stopped.

Goto Ichiri, who had been listening quietly, looked at Kita Ikuyo who had suddenly become quiet in confusion.

The red-haired girl was looking forward with her beautiful yellow-green eyes.

"…Kita-chan?"

Goto Ichiri was stunned for a moment, then followed Kita Ikuyo's gaze and looked at the train in the distance.

No…it’s the scattered crowd in front of the tram door.

The backs of the black-haired boy and the blue-haired girl shine like the moon at this moment.

"…senior?"

Kita Ikuyo tilted her head.

Chapter 207: Give Me Your Life (Yet)

"Are we on the tram yet?"

The blind cat was led onto the train by the blue-haired girl.

"Yeah, I'm on it."

Ryo Yamada placed Nekoyashiki Haru on a chair.

"It's just the two of us here."

Yamada Ryo said after looking around.

"Really? I thought there were at least one or two other people."

Nekoyashiki Haru said.

"... "

Yamada Ryo looked down at Nekoyashiki Haru.

buzzing...

The tram began to shake slightly.

"Cat-kun."

"Ok?"

Nekoyashiki Haru raised his head.

"Let's set off."

Yamada Ryo laughed.

"Why are you speaking so formally?"

Nekoyashiki Haru tilted her head.

Yamada Ryo's steps were unsteady.

Then, as the train bumped along, she sat down next to Nekoyashiki Haru.

Click, click, click.

"Is that the voice in your head?"

Nekoyashiki Haru smiled.

"No."

Yamada Ryo shook his head.

"what is that?"

Nekoyashiki Haru asked.

"I do not know."

Yamada Ryo continued to shake his head.

"Ok."

Nekoyashiki Haru shrugged.

Then he lowered his head and waited quietly for the tram to arrive.

"... "

Yamada Ryoya lowered his head.

The tram fell into silence.

It was as quiet as a summer field that has suddenly been frightened.

However, they will soon be back to playing again.

Then Yamada Ryo raised his head.

"Cat-kun."

"Ah."

Nekoyashiki Haru responded softly to show that he was listening.

"Are you anxious?"

"…What?"

Nekoyashiki Haru was confused.

"Do you have a feeling of restlessness and uneasiness?"

Nekoyashiki Haru was slightly stunned.

“…Why should I feel anxious and uneasy?”

"Because, things have come to this point."

Yamada Ryo climbed onto the seat.

The golden pupils approached the purple pupils.

"You haven't fallen in love with them yet, have you?"

"?!"

Nekoyashiki Haru's purple pupils widened.

"Why aren't you talking, Cat-kun?"

Yamada Ryo sat back in his seat.

"Am I right?"

"... "

Nekoyashiki Haru lowered his head.

The crackling sound is still there.

Nekoyashiki Haru's thoughts seemed to be affected and confused.

Why is Ryo asking this now? Why does Ryo think I'm uneasy?

A chaotic mess of emotions was running through my mind.

He raised his head and listened to Yamada Ryo's breathing beside him.

"... "

He opened his mouth but couldn't say what Nekayashiki Haru wanted to say.

It felt like my throat was blocked.

In the end, the boy simply admitted it in a trembling voice.

"…Um."

He didn't deny it.

"I like them, but not in the way they expect me to like them."

"... "

"I can feel the youthfulness and girlishness, but I just can't seem to respond to the love they expect."

Nekoyashiki Haru raised his head.

"So you feel uneasy?"

Yamada Ryo lowered his head and said.

Uneasy that I can't like them.

"Don't be nervous... You'll disappoint them if you're nervous."

Nekoyashiki Haru was a little at a loss and clenched his hands.

"But... everyone is happy now, so..."

"What about later?"

Yamada Ryo raised his head and looked at Nekoyashiki Haru.

"after?"

"Yes, I'm happy now, but will I be happy in the future?"

"... "

"You're afraid you won't be able to meet their expectations, and you feel uneasy and anxious about it. Cat-kun, you're too indecisive towards them."

"... "

buzzing...

The lights outside the tram dimmed.

The faint old-fashioned light shone in from the window, casting the silhouettes of the two people on the wall.

"You're afraid they'll be sad."

"I…"

"If this goes on for a long time, you will definitely force yourself to like them, right?"

"... "

"Because you don't care about yourself at all, you can see it from your daily life."

"... "

"Isn't it uncomfortable to feel so ambiguous? Are you condemning yourself inwardly, thinking, 'Ah, why am I keeping them hanging like this? What a scumbag! Such a scumbag! I actually let girls chase me!'?"

“They’re also… not feeling well…”

Nekoyashiki Haru clenched his fists.