Will the plagiarism girl be a substitute for the preference for women?

As the morning sun began to shine, China gradually woke up, propped herself up on her arms, stretched her body, and yawned.

The process went so smoothly that China felt something was amiss.

She remembered that the rope binding her was missing.

She woke up suddenly in the middle of the night last night, and a burning excitement made her unable to close her eyes. She wanted to keep struggling in bed.

However, China forcefully suppressed her excitement because someone was sleeping next to her.

Su Shi still didn't choose to leave him and slept in the guest room.

Her hands were still on her body, her fingers moving gently, and she was muttering things like "China should be good and sleep well" in her sleep.

Even after falling asleep, she was still trying to lull herself to sleep, which touched China somewhat. She was also afraid that if she tried too hard to control her restless body, she would lose control and wake up the exhausted Su Shi.

...It's probably not just about waking people up.

She resisted the urge to wake Su Shi, and silently and quietly removed Su Shi's hand from her body before leaving the bed.

This process should be simple, but it is very difficult to do something slow and still while in an excited state, and to do something that goes against one's impulses.

It's like driving a supercar and seeing a wide, flat road, but the speed limit is 40 km/h, so you have to suppress the urge to floor the gas pedal and drive slowly.

Even after changing into casual clothes, stepping out of the room, and even after leaving the house, China was still unable to fully release herself, since she couldn't do too much exercise and wake up the neighbors.

I could only run around the yard on tiptoe, slowly releasing my excited impulse through a small opening.

What she wanted was intense exercise, sprinting and shouting until she was exhausted.

Perhaps it would be possible to leave the residential area and go to an uninhabited track, but doing so in the middle of the night would be somewhat dangerous.

No, she shouldn't be afraid of danger; she is danger itself.

At the time, China thought this way, so arrogantly yet reasonably, and then she actually did it.

After running a lap, I was drenched in sweat and had no energy left.

To avoid disturbing Su Shi, she took another shower in the guest room before returning to the bedroom.

Although the excitement in her heart had subsided, she realized that her central nervous system was still very excited after the strenuous exercise, and it would be quite a while before she felt sleepy.

So I looked in the mirror and started talking to another version of myself.

After we had talked for a while, I went back to the bedside.

But then he saw Su Shi wriggling restlessly in her sleep, mumbling incoherently, "I really hate you."

Sure enough, experiencing such intense fear and grief before bed left me physically and mentally exhausted, which is why I felt this way while trying to sleep.

China felt that, regardless of whether the other party was willing or not, she still had to take the initiative to keep a distance from her.

She also came to understand the thoughts of her other self, which was that only by completely distancing herself and cutting off any thoughts of others getting close could she avoid this situation.

Ultimately, you're destined to be hated and gradually distanced from others. It's better to have no close relationship from the start, so you won't feel sad when you part ways.

Your indifference is also a sign of your kindness.

You can agree with me, but I hope you can forge a different path from mine... No, you should live freely, not live with my hopes in your heart.

You used to want the people around you to live freely, without being held back by their relationships with you, right?

……

I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

Follow your heart

Yes, I'll follow my heart.

Just like when Qian Nai Su Shi lulled herself to sleep, she gently patted Su Shi, who was restless in her dream, and watched her gradually calm down.

Then, she quietly opened the bedside table and took out the safety rope.

She was afraid that if she fell asleep later, she would wake up again in a state of excitement.

This time she successfully suppressed her agitation, only releasing it after she walked out the door, but she couldn't guarantee she wouldn't do it again next time.

To make Su Shi sleep more peacefully, I'll tie myself up...

……

Now that I've woken up, the ropes have unknowingly come off my body; they must have been tied up by Su Shisong.

I wonder what she will think when she sees herself tied up again.

But compared to waking Su Shi up in the middle of the night, this was the only option.

China picked up her phone and glanced at it. This time, Su Shi didn't send a good morning message or remind China to make her breakfast.

So, they've already started to drift apart because they're annoyed...?

China stared at the chat window, feeling lost and dejected.

Gradually, I calmed down and turned off my phone.

That's good, at least we don't have to torture each other anymore.

It's already past ten o'clock. Let me lie down for a while longer, have lunch, and then go to the hospital.

Just as China lay back down on the bed, there were two light knocks at the door, and then the door opened a crack.

"Chianna-chan?"

Su Shi poked her head into the doorway and asked softly.

Seeing that China was awake, he smiled.

"You're awake! Breakfast is ready. Get up and eat something, although it can hardly be called breakfast now... But it's not good for your stomach to stay hungry until noon."

"Little Su Shi... didn't go to school?" China asked, somewhat surprised.

It wasn't that I was surprised that Su Shi had broken the "command" she had promised yesterday, but rather that she still held enthusiasm for herself, instead of being indifferent.

No... perhaps it was precisely because of the intention to gradually distance myself that I disobeyed the "order".

This breakfast I made for myself must be a farewell meal.

Seeing that China was staring blankly into thought, Su Shi thought that China was probably still thinking about the safety rope, so she went in and sat down next to China.

"I didn't expect China to tie herself up again, but actually, I think I should have been the one tied up last night."

China asked in surprise, "Why?"

"Because I'm worried I'll get up in the middle of the night and bite China again." Su Shi glanced at China's collar.

"It can't be that bad. I did get so excited in the middle of the night that I couldn't sleep, but that was a reaction to the alcohol and drugs, or it could be because of an attack of my illness... Has Xiaosushi been taking any medication lately?"

“Not really.”

Su Shi's face flushed slightly, and she asked somewhat shyly,

"Speaking of which, did China see me sleepwalking or something when she woke up?"

"You sleepwalk?"

"I don't know, but Chizuru should have known last night."

Su Shi cast a meaningful glance at him.

She seemed to remember what happened in the dream, and what was said in the dream.

Is it because you're worried that saying "I really hate you" might be coming out in your sleep, or even that you're sleepwalking and behaving like that—like biting someone, as mentioned earlier?

It's like we wanted to part ways with some dignity, rather than ending with "I hate you."

"I didn't sleepwalk, but I did talk in my sleep," China replied vaguely.

Su Shi stepped closer and asked with great concern, "What did I say in my sleep?"

After a moment of silence, China said with a somewhat serious expression, "I heard you say that I really hate you..."

Noticing Chinatsu's expression, Sose guessed that Chinatsu had misunderstood something, so she immediately took Chinatsu's hand and explained.

"I was speaking to someone else in my dream! Not Chika!"

"Who is that?" China asked, equally concerned.

“Yes…yes…” Su Shi gradually closed her mouth.

In the dream, China took the initiative to play the role of Xiangzi, allowing Su Shi to vent her hatred and love.

How can I answer that question, and who was it addressed to...? And how can I even come up with a reply?

Therefore, Su Shi had no choice but to lie.

"It was said to Xiaomu..."

Chapter 101 When the Cucumber Flowers Bloom

"What did you say to... Xiaomu?" Qianna asked in surprise, noticing Su Shi's earnest expression.

Su Shi lowered her eyes slightly, waved her hand gently, and said in a bitter tone that she was clarifying that she did not really hate Mu.

"It's okay, don't worry about it too much. After all, dreams are just random things. Xiao Mu has always been a very good child."

This explanation would seem more credible if the speaker hadn't hesitated before answering.

Looking at China's still solemn expression, she probably still feels that she is hiding something.

Things in dreams cannot be recorded, nor can they be taken as a person's true feelings about people or things when they are awake.

Su Shi could easily gloss over this issue, simply categorizing it as illogical ramblings in a dream.

But... perhaps the alcohol from last night hadn't completely worn off, and the dream and reality were intertwined in a daze, making it difficult for her to distinguish between reality and illusion.

This is why she cared so much about the dream, and even asked Chika if she had a habit of sleepwalking.

It was precisely because of his own caring attitude that this rambling in his sleep could not be dismissed or simply glossed over.

But then, by some strange twist of fate, the topic of harmony came up.

On that rainy day, Su Shi tried to salvage the situation, but Mu's words completely extinguished her hope.

"I have never... felt happy playing in a band."

Recalling all this, Su Shi's face grew heavy. She longed to confide in China about her efforts to keep the Cry Chic band going and the helplessness of watching it disband.

But this will only point the finger at the person who dismantled the team.

As the peacemaker in the group and the one who invited China to join the band, Sose could only bury her prejudices against others in her heart so that China wouldn't feel resentment towards the other members.

No. After making the mistake of trying to lull Chinat into a false sense of security yesterday, I'm no longer qualified to let Chinat join the team.

So Su Shi did reveal a little of her true feelings.

"I do sometimes not understand Xiao Mu's thoughts, but hatred is impossible."

Chinai vaguely sensed that there seemed to be a barrier between Su Shi and He Mu.

After clearing up the misunderstanding that Su Shi might be distancing herself from her, China still intentionally kept a distance from Su Shi.

She felt that when others interact with her, one party always has to take the initiative to control the distance; if it's not the other person, it has to be herself.

Too much close contact can lead to situations like last night where we hurt each other.

But after gaining a general understanding of the relationship between Su Shi and Mu, she couldn't help but want to get involved, just like Deng and Xiangzi.

I don't recommend treating "Harmony and Peace in the World" like "Xiangzi and the Lamp."

The voice in my heart spoke.

I didn't have many peaceful interactions with Mu. Most of the time, Su Shi would message me, and when I ignored her, she would ask Mu to relay the message.

She rarely spoke while the three of them were shopping, which was quite different from the children of comedians that I had in mind.

On the contrary, Su Shi, who kept trying to get information out of Xiangzi from Mu, was more amusing.

I suspect—and this is just a guess—that her parents didn't want other children to have too much interaction with Muhemu, lest they try to gain connections through Muhemu's family.

Her social class was too high; only Xiangzi, whose family was of similar means to hers, was someone she had grown up with.

It turns out that Mu He and Xiangzi were childhood friends.

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Many activities that should be entertainment and leisure for girls of this age may have been silently rejected by their parents and regarded as "child's play."

For example, a band that's just doing it for fun.