There is something wrong with my infinite flow teammates!

Of course...I don’t know!

Ah, no, there is no escape.

Indeed, I have never done it. I was living in hell before and had no intention of thinking about it. And just now, I discovered a very scary fact. Now I feel sick when I think of other boys. It is even more impossible.

Did I have this hidden mental illness all along? I never even noticed it!

Before Onii-chan came here, she had never come into contact with other boys and had never thought about it in that direction.

After he came, he always thought that he didn't mind having physical contact with the opposite sex, at least his family members didn't mind.

But as for the current situation...it may be difficult to find a boyfriend in the future! How can I live a good life in the future with this kind of mental illness?

"Oh... my life is over."

Lingyin sighed and suddenly lay down on the table. Although on the surface he looked like a decadent uncle, his mind was full of wild thoughts, which were unfolding in a very terrifying way.

Therefore, I will be like those old ladies in the future, walking alone on the way to buy groceries, cooking alone, eating alone, washing clothes and sleeping alone.

That’s not right. Maybe I will be even more miserable in the future. They still have children and relatives, but I will end up living alone!

Old lady Kitahara would be very stubborn and would not admit defeat. Even though her legs and feet were obviously not very flexible, when kind young people gave up their seats for her, would she, an old lady, get angry and scold them?

When she wanted to drink water while lying in bed, no one was there to help her pour it? She died alone, and it was not until a long time later, when the body of old lady Kitahara was rotting and smelling, that her neighbors noticed it and called the police?

Lingyin, who was lying on the table, sighed heavily. He looked like a middle-aged decadent uncle, but he was actually a little cute. "What's the meaning of my life? Life..."

When we come to this world, we should experience all kinds of happy and beautiful things. Since the development of life makes it impossible to experience all kinds of beautiful things, can this tormenting process be omitted?

Well... since the moment before death is torture, it is better to solve it now in one breath. Just like pulling a tooth, hold your breath, make up your mind, and it will be over in one go.

Lingyin rested her chin on the table, and her little head tilted to the left, then to the right, looking bored.

But suddenly, she shook her head and straightened up immediately, because a big sister in uniform came over. She was not a waitress, judging by the style of her uniform, she should be the store manager.

The store manager tiptoed to the other side and smiled sweetly.

Then, she carefully placed the brown plush bear in her hand on the table and chair opposite Lingyin, said nothing, smiled and walked away.

Lingyin stared at the cute little bear and finally couldn't help laughing, "Ah... I don't dislike little bears. The concern from strangers... is good."

She smiled and whispered to Little Bear, "You know what? I look normal, more normal than anyone else, but they don't know that I'm actually very bad. Even Li Hui doesn't know..."

"She is one of my best friends, and she didn't hate me or exclude me because of the photo. But there are some things I just don't want to tell her. In fact, I'm already in a terrible state."

Lingyin has been on the brink of collapse and may be beyond help.

But now her collapse is a very quiet one, which seems very normal.

She would joke, play, and socialize, and she seemed calm on the surface, but her mood was actually so bad that even her best friend Rihui didn't know her true condition.

Lingyin would not curse, smash things, or cry again, because she had already cried hard that day, and now even her eyes were not red.

The current situation has reached the limit of what she can bear. But she just suddenly has no motivation, for example, she doesn't want to go to school today.

Lingyin would not show her collapsed appearance to others. She just didn't want to live, but she didn't dare to die either.

Because her new life was so hard-earned.

"Eh?"

Lingyin was suddenly stunned. She seemed to think of something inexplicably. Why did she think of the stupid Onii-chan? It seemed that he was also experiencing great pain and would behave like her?

No one has ever told me the details of his past, so why do I feel like he had a very difficult past life?

All I know is that his parents came here after the accident.

Ah, so that's how it is. He and I have the same experience, and he understood this very early. There has never been any empathy, and all he can do is respond with tenderness.

But in fact, he was the only one who could empathize with him, because he, like himself, had lost the person who loved him the most.

I see, there is such a reason... That's why he is completely open about himself.

At first I thought he felt sorry for me, but as we got to know each other better, I realized that he really treated me as a family member.

In fact, he and I are dependent on each other, supporting each other spiritually and emotionally, and supporting each other spiritually. Not only do I need him, but he also needs me.

Lingyin suddenly started and quickly took out her small mirror from her schoolbag, looking at her face carefully.

She stared into her own eyes, looking at herself seriously. After a while, she put the mirror down with sudden realization.

"It seems that my eyes are like him who just came here... No wonder those two girls who I don't know said I looked like a ghost. But... What was the reason why he talked to me for the first time? What made him want to cheer up?"

"pat-"

Suddenly, a slight sound interrupted Lingyin's thoughts. She stared blankly at the double tower of ice cream in front of her. It had not moved for a long time and was now beginning to melt.

The sound was caused by a piece of apple embedded in it falling onto the table.

"When you are sure you want to say goodbye to this world, it's not too late to say goodbye later... Before that, cheer up. And be nice to yourself, right?"

Because people always have a little hope.

Lingyin slowly picked up the spoon, scooped a spoonful, and carefully put it into her mouth.

The coolness and intoxicating sweetness spread in her mouth, and she squinted her eyes very cutely. After taking a deep breath, a faint scent of lilies filled her mind.

Lingyin was mesmerized for a full ten seconds, then she took out her wallet from her schoolbag, pulled out a 10,000 yen bill, placed it on the table, and stood up without hesitation.

At this time, the store manager's sister's voice rang out again, with a hint of smile in her surprise, "Aren't you going to finish it? The sweetest one, huh?"

"That's enough. Just have a bite. I can't finish such a big plate."

“Why should I have the most expensive, largest, and sweetest one if I can’t finish it?”

Lingyin thought about it seriously and smiled: "At first, I didn't plan to eat ice cream because I thought I might not be able to enjoy this delicacy. Later I found that I could still eat it because I could afford it."

The store manager nodded, waiting for her to finish.

"Then, the reason I only took one bite was because it was too sweet. Because it was too sweet and my teeth were not good. So maybe this is the only one I'll have in my life."

"I see. That's a pity."

Lingyin said helplessly: "Yeah, yeah, it's such a pity. I can eat it all, and I want to eat it all."

"So what do you think about the waste? Now I can only throw it away." The manager looked at Lingyin with a smile.

"Waste?" Lingyin answered with a smile: "Because I thought I could own it completely at first. But when I tasted it, I realized that I was destined to only own it for a short time... For me, it's not an intentional waste."

The store manager looked at Lingyin meaningfully and suddenly asked, "Have you figured it out?"

"It's not that simple." Lingyin shook her head without hesitation and said, "Some things can never be let go."

She pointed to her head and said, "I have a disease here. I know my symptoms very well. So, thank you for your kindness, store manager. I am already very satisfied."

After saying that, the girl bowed deeply, then jumped out with her schoolbag on her back.

The store manager was staring at the ice cream with only one bite taken and the 10,000 yen bill on the table.

She had a hunch that the little girl might come again, but if she didn't come again, she might never see her again.

……

Lingyin had no idea that the concern from the stranger continued for a while after she left.

She became a cheerful little girl again, but the light in her eyes dimmed a little.

She took out her cell phone to check the time, then looked around the surroundings and hesitated in front of a luxury lingerie store.

Lingyin doesn't like many things. Apart from painting, high-end lingerie is one of her few interests.

It's not about how sexy or seductive it is. It's not what boys say, that girls who wear sexy lingerie are all stuffy, because the ultimate purpose of wearing it is to be seen by men.

The purpose of buying a ring tone is very simple, which is to provide comfort. I bought it for the sake of comfort.

Cheap goods with high prices cannot be compared with underwear made of high-end silk fabrics.

At first, she didn't feel anything about underwear because she was used to wearing girls' vests since she was a child. It was not until her girlish side grew up that she began to carefully choose underwear.

But she thought that whatever she wore underneath didn't matter since she was the only one who could see it anyway, so she started wearing cheap clothes from the beginning.

Until one day, she was deeply attracted by an advertisement... Is there really such a big difference between cheap goods and luxury goods like this?

Are high-end clothes really breathable? Will they not cause pimples in the summer, cause skin allergies and redness, or cause itching that leads to ulcers and bleeding?

Lingyin suddenly wanted to give it a try, because every summer, she would feel uncomfortable because of being strangled for a long time, and then she would be strangled through her school uniform. Sometimes the blood would even soak through her school uniform, and she was ridiculed many times for this kind of thing.

What a disgusting woman! She is used to hearing dirty words like "I am on my period" behind her back.

But, this kind of thing is really expensive. The set in the advertisement costs 20,000 yen. Isn't it a waste of money to buy such an expensive thing?

At that time, she was a junior high school student. Although her uncle gave her a lot of living expenses, it was only for the living expenses of two people. Moreover, she was blackmailed regularly by the group of bad girls, so she really couldn't come up with any extra money.

But when she went to bed at night, the image of the advertisement kept lingering in her mind.

Then, she secretly got up and borrowed the clothes her mother left behind and tried them on for a day.

And then I couldn't stop.

But what belongs to my mother is hers after all, it is hers and cannot be touched.

So she started saving money, a little bit every day, a little bit every day... It took her half a year to save up 20,000 yen, and she was able to buy her own, the best and most expensive clothes...

But now I can finally buy it whenever I want?

Lingyin took out her wallet, opened it, and smiled as she looked at the thick pile of bills inside.

There were ten thousand yuan notes in it. I only brought ten out today. I spent one as a tip, so I have nine left.

I still accept the money my uncle gives me every month, just to avoid arousing his suspicion.

"Well... let's spend it all. We also need to find a way to spend the 10 million in the safe at home."

Lingyin suddenly showed a distressed expression. At least she should enjoy what she should enjoy first, and then make further plans... She has a thousand 10,000 yen bills, and she spends 100,000 every day?

No, no, it's too slow.

One million a day, and then use the money tomorrow to buy ten sets of underwear, changing into a different one every day.

If you can hold on for ten days, then ten more days will be enough.

I'm sorry, Onii-chan. I still can't understand why you cheered up. I keep brainwashing myself almost every day, but I still can't convince myself to live well.

The girl seemed to have made an important decision, and walked into the store with the 'LV' logo printed on it with a happy smile.

After a while, Lingyin came out carrying a small bag.

Then, he looked at the time and said to himself, "It's only ten o'clock. Let's go shopping. I'll go shopping until three in the afternoon, then take the things home and go to the supermarket to buy ingredients for dinner. I'll try to make braised pork tonight. Mm, perfect!"

So, she started strolling along the commercial pedestrian street with great interest.

Lingyin visited almost every store, from cosmetics stores to toy stores, from jewelry stores to baby stores. She was curious about everything and asked and looked at everything.

As time passed, before she knew it, her hands were filled with bags of all sizes.

Finally, she emerged from a shoe store and plopped down on a bench in the central square.

Lingyin suddenly reacted and looked at the bags in her hands. Her smiling face became gloomy again.

It seems that there are a lot of men's clothes here. Why did she walk into the men's clothing store for some unknown reason? Why did she happily gesture her height and figure to the clerk?

When I bought them just now, I didn't seem to realize it at all. Who are these clothes for?

"Still... quite boring."

Lingyin's tone became a little cold and a little confused, completely losing her previous liveliness, "Why am I different from other girls? Even Hui likes shopping, why do I feel so bored?"

"I used to be reluctant to spend money, not even a 50 yen soda, but today I spent yen in one go. Why can't I be happy at all? Isn't it a very happy thing to be able to spend money without restraint?"

"Why...why, why am I being deprived of even the last few days of happiness. I had already decided to cheer myself up temporarily in the cafe before."

Lingyin stared blankly at the bag in her hand and sighed softly, "Forget it, let's go back."

The girl stood up from the bench and walked back home with a tired body...

She walked quietly on the street. It was already noon, and the slightly cold street finally began to become lively, but the sky was still dark.

Lingyin didn't talk to herself at this time, and she was too lazy to even pretend to be superficial.

When she was walking from the commercial area to the residential area, the owner of the grocery store she often visited saw her and greeted her warmly. She heard him but was too lazy to respond.

An auntie walking her dog was coming towards me. She was my good neighbor.

Lingyin passed by her as if she didn't see her. The old lady with a frozen smile on her face thought she had made a mistake and turned around to carefully examine the girl's back...

Finally, she arrived at the door of her home.

Suddenly, a dazzling light shot down from above her head. Lingyin subconsciously looked up and couldn't help squinting her eyes.