There is something wrong with my infinite flow teammates!

"The main reason for suffering from schizophrenia is that it is caused by living in contradiction for a long time and personality disorder. Patients usually have abnormal or special behaviors, strange speech, coldness towards others, indifferent expression, easy anger and other symptoms. But I think that except for the loss of the original facial expression ability after coming to this world, I have no psychological problems. I can clearly recognize that I am not a schizophrenia patient."

Yukinoshita Yukino did not refuse the water that Kitahara Sora poured for her, and thanked her politely, but she held it in her hand and did not drink it. She listened carefully to Kitahara Sora's analysis of schizophrenia and added, "I guess Kitahara-san must have focused on this aspect before discussing these professional terms with me that you don't understand even when you say them. To be honest, I don't know much about this kind of professional medical psychology, but I think what you said is very correct and professional."

Kitahara Sora was stunned for a moment, then nodded, "You're right, actually I don't understand either. These are all information I looked up on the Internet. I just wrote them down and copied them for you to listen to. So Ms. Yukinoshita, you don't have to mock me secretly from time to time. No matter how subtle, I can still hear it, and I won't get angry because of your mockery. In fact, I am quite grateful to you. After all, regardless of whether it is a commission from Mr. Hiratsuka or not, you can still suppress your disgust and communicate with me. I can't do that."

After explaining, Kitahara Sora continued, "And you can rest assured that I will not do anything to harm you no matter what."

"Don't misunderstand, Kitahara-san. The purpose of the Service Club is to help students in need. Although I hate you, since you have officially issued the commission, and Mr. Hiratsuka has asked me to do so, I can't leave you alone for any reason. Besides, I really want to understand your true purpose."

I don’t know what happened, but Yukinoshita Yukino, who had been in a slightly tense mood, suddenly felt a little relaxed after Kitahara Sora said this, and her tone was no longer as tense as before.

"So, Kitahara-san was actually afraid of this matter?"

Hearing Yukinoshita Yukino's question, Kitahara Sora nodded very honestly and said, "Yes, I was very scared. I was afraid that I, Yin Yun, was just a delusion of Kitahara Sora, a split personality of Kitahara Sora, and Kitahara Sora was the real me. I was afraid that I would lose myself."

"I am afraid that I, who have lived in China for 27 years, am nothing more than the delusion and dream of a 17-year-old Japanese boy. In my dream, the real world I live in has been transformed into an anime, but in that anime there is no character named Kitahara Sora, not even a passerby or a supporting role. When the fake me died and returned to the body, I became who I am now."

"But when I woke up, all the memories of Kitahara Sora in my mind were like slides. I was just a bystander, quietly watching everything he had done since he could remember. If I had a dual personality, then when I was asleep and Kitahara Sora was awake, I should not know everything he did."

"Then I have been thinking about a question. Suppose I don't have a split personality, but my soul really traveled through time, just like the popular time-travel anime now, and I traveled to the anime world. In fact, I am more inclined to this guess, but I have never been able to convince myself. I feel like my entire life is being manipulated, and I even doubt whether my "previous life" is also a lie or a script. If I have to use a metaphor, it's like..."

"Like you said the world we live in is like a scripted one, like the 'brain in a vat' hypothesis?"

Shimo Yukino listened carefully to Kitahara Sora's analysis, and subconsciously put the cup of water close to her lips. Before she took a sip, she seemed to have thought of something and said, "Have you talked about this with your teacher and psychiatrist? Because, I feel like you don't like Kitahara Sora... or what you are really afraid of is that you are Kitahara Sora?"

"They all agreed that I had mental problems. The psychiatrist even made plans to treat me as a 'patient' for a long time, but I fooled them..."

Kitahara Sora was silent for a moment, then continued, "I'm not pretending to be like this because I'm escaping from 'self-hate'. In fact, I can face everything about this role calmly. Let me talk about Kitahara Sora. In fact, I still admire him. Maybe it's because of his family. Kitahara Sora is not only submissive but also very weak on the surface. Even his sister who lives under the same roof with him has looked down on him since childhood. Anyway, in his memory, I have never seen his sister call him brother. So it's not surprising that even his family looks down on him and he is accompanied by cold violence and exclusion in school."

"He was always in a daze, like a puppet without a soul... But in the second year of junior high school, he seemed to have suddenly woken up and began to study hard in secret. He began to want to get into the University of Tokyo and change his destiny. He didn't want to give up on himself... Well, overall it's still worthy of praise, and this is why he was able to get into Sobu High School."

"But even if a weak person who has been bullied for a long time becomes an excellent student after a period of hard work, will those bullies who are used to it let him go? Maybe they will become even worse due to jealousy and disdain? But he has been silently enduring it. The more he is bullied, the harder he works. Not everyone can endure such hardships... Then he learned to be smart and started to deliberately take low scores to make himself less noticeable. As a result, he was framed as a cheater and continued to be bullied."

"In the end, the bully stole the panties of a female teacher from the staff's private closet, forced them into Kitahara Sora's mouth, and posted the photo on the school bulletin board. The consequence this time was that she finally committed suicide out of sheer depression."

"But after the suicide attempt, this guy secretly worked harder - really awesome!"

After that, Kitahara Sora raised his left hand again, revealing the two terrifying scars again: "The perpetrators have not been found yet. Although I know who they are, I don't think it's necessary to go to their current school to find and take revenge on them."

Therefore, it is really a tragedy that Japan does not have the Sky Eye system. The entire school has very little surveillance, and even junior high school students can come up with such cruel and cruel bullying behavior. Tsk tsk.

"I think the real cause of Kitahara Sora's death was not suicide, because he did not commit suicide afterwards. I guess that getting into the ideal high school put him under more pressure, and when he was taking a bath, years of negative emotions were suddenly released. He was also too relaxed psychologically because he got rid of the old faces of junior high school and the bullying he had always suffered, and welcomed the joy of a new life. He fainted in the bath, and there was no one at home at the time of the emergency, so he died suddenly in the bathtub. It's quite tragic."

Yukinoshita Yukino's frown deepened. Although she had heard these fragmentary stories about Kitahara Sora from the teachers over the past few days, the shock in her heart was obviously greater when she heard it in detail from his own mouth. The paper cup in her hand was wrinkled by her, and she didn't react until a drop of water overflowed from her palm. She suppressed the strange emotions of sympathy, anger, and even sympathy.

However, when she looked at Kitahara Sora again, his expression had eased a lot. At least she felt that the disgusting value of Kitahara Sora in her heart had decreased by 0.001%.

Can you imagine a person hypnotizing himself or imagining himself as an unrelated person, shouting his own name from a third-person God's perspective, talking about his life experiences and dark history with an indifferent look on his face, and still being able to remain indifferent?

If the environment was changed and a more eerie soundtrack was added, perhaps this would become a horror story.

He even resorted to self-hypnosis to suggest that he had died once and that there was a new soul in his body, and that he needed such an extreme method to get rid of the past.

He had serious psychological and mental problems. The stories he made up seemed like real ones, or he had completely paralyzed himself to some extent. However, he was able to stay clear-headed at all times, which prevented him from being forcibly taken to a mental hospital.

Such a contradictory person, perhaps... he is also a very pitiful person.

Chapter 2 Death Penalty

"Kitahara-san, I'm not good at comforting people, but I sympathize with your experience."

It took Yukino Yukinoshita a while to say this, or did she have a similar dark history? Her indoor shoes were stolen 60 times, 50 times by girls, 5 times by boys, and 5 times by dogs...

There was a period of time when I brought my indoor shoes and recorder home every day.

But Yukinoshita Yukino will never casually reveal her dark history to others. Although her situation is completely opposite to that of Kitahara Sora, and she is excluded because she is too outstanding, this is not something to boast about.

"No, although Kitahara Sora's spirit is worthy of admiration, it is not worthy of sympathy or pity. In China, there is a saying that there must be something hateful about a pitiful person. Although this cannot be generalized, if I were handling this matter, the result would be different."

Beiyuan Kong shook his head and continued, "Sometimes blindly compromising and forbearing can only bring worse results."

"That's true, but..." Yukinoshita Yukino shook her head. If she continued the discussion, it would be an endless topic. She changed the subject and said, "Kitahara-san, I reviewed the topics of our 30-minute chat. You seem to have been positioning yourself in favor of Mr. Yin Yun, who was born in China, and strongly denying the existence of Kitahara Sora. You even took the initiative to stand in Yin Yun's position to evaluate Kitahara Sora. Do you know what his experience looks like to me, an outsider?"

Bei Yuankong nodded and said, "I can understand. In your eyes, Bei Yuankong's second personality has completely taken the initiative and even started to erase the existence of the first personality. This is a very dangerous thing. If Yin Yun succeeds, then there will be no Bei Yuankong in the world anymore."

"And in your opinion, Yin Yun's existence is pathological and irrational. He has overturned your worldview, and you find his opinions hopelessly ridiculous. He even uses criminal farces to prove himself, hoping that you will agree with his opinions."

"I take back my previous opinion of you. It seems that Mr. Yin Yun is not just a hopelessly stupid pervert, but an ordinary pervert."

"So it turns out that pervert is a positive word?"

"Hmm~?"

Kitahara Sora sucked his tongue helplessly. In fact, he preferred the more elegant word "gentleman" rather than the perverted term.

Although Yukinoshita Yukino said this, she was still a little shocked in her heart. It is said that there is only a fine line between a lunatic and a genius. However, through several brief and unpleasant contacts with Kitahara Sora, Yukinoshita Yukino discovered that he was actually a person with extremely meticulous observation, delicate mind and extremely sharp thinking.

He could completely understand all his inner thoughts just through a few words. He even completely understood his own opinion of him and knew that he was trying hard to analyze whether he really had a split personality or was just pretending to be crazy.

But this person can also do extremely irrational or even stupid things, such as hurting himself over trivial matters, or stalking and investigating himself like a clown seeking attention simply to gain recognition from others.

Thinking of this, Yukinoshita Yukino suddenly asked seriously: "So, Kitahara-san, or Mr. Yin Yun, what is your purpose? Why did you choose me?"

"Since Yukinoshita has made her position clear, I will tell you the truth." Like a silent sigh, Yin Yun spoke again softly, but his tone was a little cold: "I have been looking for someone to confide my story to. I even think that time travel is not something worth hiding, not to mention that I don't have any system or anything like that on me."

"Well, to answer your previous question, I have had similar conversations with teachers. No matter which teacher it was, they all tried their best to comfort me, fearing that I would have negative emotions. Even Jing Keai... cough, even someone as impatient as Mr. Hiratsuka patiently enlightened me, and every psychologist I saw tried to use their professional knowledge learned throughout their lives to talk about some irrelevant topics to distract me and want to get to know me in depth, asking me to do questions about psychological problems, or hypnotize and guide me. Although I agree with their professionalism and professional ethics, I am disgusted by this. If I really have a split personality, then their actions are equivalent to trying to kill me."

It’s not that Yin Yun hasn’t had in-depth talks with adults, but no matter who it is, this young body has become an obstacle for him. There is an old Chinese saying that goes, "A man without hair on his lips cannot do things well." It describes that young people are immature and impulsive, have little experience in the world, and have serious self-centered ideas.

But what if you act too mature? In the adults' inherent impression, you will be labeled as too precocious and too self-evident.

When they were facing off against Yin Yun, looking at the still somewhat immature face of the 17-year-old boy, they would subconsciously put themselves at a higher level than Yin Yun, and then analyze and examine what Yin Yun said.

Then they start to enlighten and persuade you as a matter of course. Although they think they are helping you, it is very easy to arouse resentment, but they themselves don't know it.

What if they communicate with their peers?

Then they will subconsciously adjust their mental state. This is a very interesting psychological phenomenon that applies to anyone in any country.

It's like a normal person is thrown into a mental hospital and says to the doctor, "I'm not sick." Then the patient next to him who is fishing in the foot basin also says, "Yes, he is not sick, and neither are we."

Besides, Yin Yun was facing professionals who believed that he was "ill".

Therefore, Yin Yun felt that Jing Keai’s way of handling the matter was the nicest.

"But, Kitahara-san, you know that your actions are abnormal in our eyes. I don't know why you chose me, and I don't know why Mr. Hiratsuka threw this trouble of yours to me."

Yukinoshita Yukino tried to keep her tone calm, but Yin Yun still heard a hint of complaint. He said, "Teacher Hiratsuka chose you because you are also a problem student, isn't it?"

"I don't agree with this. Excellent people are always lonely. It's natural that a young girl like me with excellent grades, good family conditions, and cuteness is difficult to approach. At least they understand how big the gap is between them and me."

"No matter if it's based on innate or acquired conditions, it's not a reason for a person to be isolated. If it weren't for your family background, you wouldn't just be isolated now. Humans are social animals, Yukinoshita-san."

After hearing Yin Yun's ruthless revelation, Yukinoshita Yukino's confident and superior smile instantly fell. She pursed her lips and glanced away slightly. This was a little habit she wanted to escape from. Bei Yin Yun understood and continued, "Mr. Hiratsuka chose you, maybe to do a bold experiment. What would happen if two problem students collided or healed each other? In fact, I have told Mr. Hiratsuka everything about my encounter with you."

"About those actions of the criminal reserve you mentioned, she punched me twice." Yin Yun stretched out two fingers and said calmly, as if he was not the one being beaten.

"Perhaps with Ms. Hiratsuka's personality, she is probably eavesdropping outside the door right now. She might even take everything into consideration and not be completely comfortable leaving us alone in a room. She is a very serious and responsible teacher to her work and her students. Although it is not apparent on the surface, she is indeed a very good teacher."

Hearing this, Yukinoshita Yukino subconsciously turned her head and glanced suspiciously at the door of the activity room. However, she heard Yin Yun say, "No need to look, she must have left. She was mad at you. I guess you complained about her when you were being mean to me."

Yin Yun knew that Jing Keai still hadn't pushed the door open after he brought up the topic, which meant she had really left. But she would definitely eavesdrop. As for when she left, anyone who had read the original novel would know that Jing Keai would not use her iron fist of justice on her beautiful female classmates, but she would get angry at the slightest provocation and was very concerned about her reputation. So when Xueno complained about her, she could only hold her anger and go find a place to smoke.

Xueno turned her head and glared at Yin Yun with cold eyes, feeling that she was being fooled by him again.

However, Yin Yun didn't care and continued, "As for choosing you, it's because although you are extremely cold to people and your words are not pleasant, you are very serious and responsible, and you are the heroine of this anime... Well, actually I have no choice."

"Because since I came to this world, you are the only person I have had some contact with. Although the process of getting along with you was not pleasant, as for the purpose..."

Yin Yun's face showed a rare abnormal change of emotion. He turned his head and looked at the sky outside the window. "When I knocked you down last time, my mind was completely confused. I actually wanted to commit suicide. If it weren't for that, I wouldn't have done those things without any consideration at the time, and I wouldn't have even considered your feelings... I wouldn't have expressed my apology in that way, because I felt that nothing mattered anymore."

Yukinoshita Yukino's emotions were aroused again by Yin Yun. It had been a long time since she had experienced so many consecutive emotional fluctuations.

Before he could open his mouth, Yin Yun continued, "You are surprised and want to say something, but you don't know what to say? You want to ask why, but you don't know how to start."

Yin Yun turned his gaze to Yukinoshita Yukino, took out a cigarette from his pocket, and lit it up with a 'pop' in the activity room on campus.

"Don't look at me like that. You know the rules here don't apply to me. Don't try to persuade or admonish me, because I know it's wrong, but I want to do it and I dare to do it. I am 10 years older than you mentally. I don't mind if you call me brother or even uncle."

Of course, in the psychological phenomenon that Yin Yun himself despised extremely, the seventeen-year-old girl Yukinoshita Yukino was just a little kid who had not experienced the beatings of society to him, and perhaps he himself did not realize it.

Yin Yun walked to the window and opened it. The early spring breeze blew in, gently ruffling his bangs and dispersing the smoke from his mouth, so that the young and flawless girl would not inhale his secondhand smoke.

"Yukinoshita-san, as for my purpose, I just want to talk to someone about my problems. Just to let them know, I guess it's a way to vent, because there has to be an outlet. And I think there's no point in keeping the secret that I'm not from this world. The worst result would be being thrown into a mental hospital."

"Simply let others know? Even though I think everything you said is just ridiculous and useless delusion in your brain?" Yukinoshita Yukino subconsciously wanted to cover her mouth and nose to block out the non-existent smoke, but she still did not take any action. Even though Yin Yun deliberately stayed at least 5 meters away from her and opened the window for her consideration, she did not feel the slightest favor towards Yin Yun.

"I can't agree with even one point of your thinking, you should know that."

Yin Yun nodded. If Yukinoshita Yukino really agreed and believed in him, then there would be a problem. She would be directly denying her own cognition and worldview, and everything in this world would be fake.

Although Yin Yun had investigated and found out that there was a Sobu High School in Chiba and a Fengzhiqi High School in Tokyo, there was even a Shuchiin High School in Japan.

I went to Akihabara and found a light novel called "Love Metronome" on an inconspicuous shelf in a bookstore. It had just been serialized and was well written, but the sales were not very good.

"You don't need to agree with me, just listen to me without any purpose. I must talk to someone, even if it's just a story. I need an outlet. I'm afraid I'll really go crazy because I have had serious self-perception errors for a period of time."

Yin Yun continued, "Because I'm confused! What's the meaning of my rebirth? I've already experienced high school life. You may not understand. The study tasks over there are very heavy. I worked as hard as everyone else and was admitted to a very good university. Then it was the assembly line life that ordinary people should live. I found a good company to work for and got promoted..."

"So no matter how interesting and youthful Japanese high school life is, it still can't attract me."

Yin Yun said casually as if chatting with a family: "I have experienced life under the socialist system for nearly thirty years. Suddenly I was brought to a semi-feudal class society. I think I will definitely not be able to adapt."

"What will my future be like? I won't be an ordinary office worker, because I won't be servile to my superiors. If they slap you in the face, you still nod and say, 'Well done!' I won't be able to step into the upper echelons of society, because I can't get into the University of Tokyo, so I don't even bother to write my name on the test paper."

Not to mention the advanced mathematics and geometry taught in the second year of high school, even if Yin Yun was asked to solve a junior high school equation, he probably wouldn't be able to do it. He couldn't even remember the method and gave it all back to the teacher.

However, when hearing this, Yukinoshita Yukino suddenly remembered that when she was in the first year of high school, there was a weird person in a class. During the final exam, all the papers for all subjects were blank, and only the most difficult Chinese answer sheet was filled with answers. She even pointed out the wrong questions given by the teacher and the grammatical errors in the questions.

However, the answer sheet still got 0 points because there was no signature on the test paper, and the most important point was that the entire test paper was written in simplified Chinese.

Well, Yin Yun can certainly read traditional Chinese characters, but he can’t write them.

Yukinoshita Yukino had a lot of questions at this time, but how did Kitahara Sora get into the same class with her? Sobu High School's second-year J class is a well-known class for top students, that is, the top class, so how did he get in? Insider information? Bribery or something else?

"In my world, in my company, my subordinates can point at my nose and call me stupid without getting angry. As long as he completes his work tasks seriously and doesn't cause trouble for me, we can all be friends."

"Because you've experienced a better life, and after 'rebirth' you face a 'worse' environment, so you're so desperate that you want to commit suicide, right? Because to escape from someone who chooses to despise his own life... that's the worst!"

Yukinoshita Yukino said it very bluntly. Years of living with masks have made her lose the habit of respecting a person's inner thoughts through words, not to mention that she is facing someone she hates.

However, Yukino also clearly realized that the fact that Yin Yun had spoken out about this matter himself and continued to talk to her while standing here proved that Yin Yun no longer had that terrible idea. Although Yukinoshita didn't know what the reason was that stopped him from doing that terrible thing, and he would still come to her from time to time to cause trouble.

"Have you started to believe the truth of the story I made up?" Yin Yun teased. Before Yukinoshita Yukino could refute, she heard him continue.

"I didn't think about suicide because I felt hopeless."

Yin Yun shook his head and continued, "Suicide seems to be very common in Japan, and is considered a relief, but not in China. Our new generation of young people think that suicide is a shameful act, an irresponsible act, an escape, and a cowardly act. Our views are the same as yours, so we are very disdainful. But why do I have such thoughts? I am not a coward, and I don't want to escape, because I think such a rebirth is meaningless!"

Yin Yun took out the empty cigarette box from his pocket, put the cigarette he had only taken a puff of into it, and shook it gently until it went out.

"Because I don't want to live here anymore, nor do I want to go back to my original world, because I think the meaningful things no longer exist in any world, so I feel that there is no point in living like this."

Yukinoshita Yukino listened to Yin Yun's words quietly. Although it was a fantasy, it might be a good story, so she took the initiative to ask, "Then Mr. Yin Yun, why don't you want to go back? Or just like in otaku culture works, time travel is always accompanied by power and beautiful girls, or even power and harems, why don't you give it a try?"

Hearing this, Yin Yun suddenly looked at Yukinoshita Yukino seriously. That strange look and incredible expression was as if he was looking at a mentally retarded person?

After reading the meaning, a slightly annoyed blush appeared on Yukinoshita Yukino's flawless face. Although she has never seen similar works, isn't it the case with all otaku culture works?

The fat and disgusting grease hanging around their parents' bodies were filling the dark room of only a few square meters with the air filled with the smell of corruption and the foul smell of the residual soup from the instant noodles reacting chemically with oxygen.

They squander their youth, consume their elderly parents' retirement savings and deformed maternal love, and become the real male protagonists in anime. They occupy the earth's resources meaninglessly in ridiculous and pathetic delusions and become parasites of the world.

Since you are fantasizing about traveling through time or being reborn, shouldn't you continue to harass women like a scumbag to achieve your own hidden goals and ambitions? Isn't that the case? What's so strange about that?

However, Yukinoshita Yukino had never been looked at in this way since she was a child. She immediately became angry and was about to open her mouth to explain when she heard Yin Yun say something even stranger in his tone.

"In daily life, you pursue strength and power? In pure love stories, you pursue a harem? Is there something wrong with you or me?"

"..."

"Can I attack you first?"

"..."

"Would you like me to show you a fireball?"

"..."

"The knife shop..."

"Shut up!"

Okay, it doesn’t matter that Yukinoshita Yukino admitted that her views were too extreme, because Yukinoshita Yukino was angry again. No matter what the reason was, being pointed at by a person who might be a fool and asked, “Are you mentally retarded?”

That feeling emmmmmm