When I finish playing this game, I will beat you to death!

No one has ever left such a deep impression on me. Just the first time I met him, I remembered that man deeply.

Because the existence of the other party is too abnormal, it gives him a strong and contradictory sense of attraction and repulsion.

The opponent is an existence that should not exist in the world!

This is how I feel, just the attitude of the other party, just where to sit is the negation and distortion of the way of life of the vast majority of people in this world.

It is a twisted thing that is different from the righteous way. Even the name of evil and heretics seems a bit too noble for the other party.

But it is also because of this that the other party is so attractive to my mind that I can't help but want to get closer to him.

Not only can the other party make him feel out of tune with the world, but even time has stopped.

That's right, literally, time stopped when he stepped into the church.

At this time, Kotomine Kirei reaped the strange emotion known as "shock" in his life.

"When you step into the church, you are like a lost lamb, Mr. a confused priest."

The other party turned his back to me, sitting on the pew of the church and tasting the strong red wine, and the words he said made me recover from the shock.

Looking back at the momentary scenery outside the church gate, my heart was inexplicably agitated.

Recalling the emotion called shock just now, let me find a sense of being alive.

"who are you?"

In this way, I asked the banal words that a normal person should have, and I was acting in accordance with the guidance of my heart.

"Who am I? Well, to you, it should be from another world..."

Different world?Is it a parallel world?

No, the other party is not the famous magician, after all, there is a portrait of him in the Holy Church.

Suspecting that the other party was lying, Kotomine Kirei didn't have such thoughts as he watched the outside world stop.

So based on the so-called "curiosity" in his heart, he communicated with this man named Lei Zhe.

The two of us chatted about our own affairs. The other party first talked about his travels in various worlds and his cultivation became stronger, and he also shared with me what he had seen and heard in other worlds.

As if to take care of me, he also created a projection in a way that doesn't seem like magic.

It was the first time that Kotomine Kirei had the act of becoming obsessed.

I also told him about my barren and empty past, and it always felt like this was the first time I had communicated with a stranger for such a long time.

And I don't feel any sense of emptiness. Listening to the other person's story can make my dead heart fluctuate. I like this feeling very much.

In this church where time turns into an instant, for the first time, I lost myself in communicating with the other party.

When I asked the other party if there was any way to correct myself and solve my confusion, the man named Lei Zhe showed a smile on his face.

The other party did not answer, but brought me two steaming plates of mapo tofu and motioned me to have dinner with him.

Looking at the hot and spicy scene on the plate that seemed to be formed by scorched earth from hell, Kotomine Kirei picked up the spoon and ate without any hesitation.

"!!!!!!"

Just one bite, the moment the tofu entered my mouth and was touched by my tongue, I felt like an explosion.

It's weird, it's incredible, that I feel emotions through food! ?

Anger, passion, frenzy, excitement....

In the other person's food, I felt such strange emotional senses welling up in my heart, all of which he didn't have!

Very novel, too novel for me, is this the emotion that normal people can feel! ?

It's... really wonderful!

With Lei Zhe's funny smile in front of me, like a starving ghost eating, I frantically put the food on the plate into my mouth.

Intoxicated and reminiscent of these strange emotions, as if he wanted to keep these things that did not belong to him, he ate like crazy.

The other party also brought it up for him next, using the old-fashioned words 'delicious' to describe the indescribable delicacy.

I felt an indescribable happiness in that incredibly clear soup called Century Soup! !

And his expression also revealed...how should I put it...a very perverted and wretched smile, this is what the other party showed him after taking out the mirror.

But Kotomine Kirei doesn't care about it at all, and I'm not ashamed at all, because I don't have that sense.

After that, I felt such a strange and novel emotional sense in every dish served by the other party.

Until I finally ate the ecstasy meal that represents sadness, I also felt sadness for the first time in my life, and shed tears because of sadness for the first time!

And after I felt these emotions, I also sincerely and spontaneously felt the emotion called "envy" towards normal people.

It turned out that people around me can taste the ups and downs of life so normally?It's really enviable.

At the end of a meal I will never forget, I begged the man to turn himself into a normal person, and I would do anything for it.

"There are gods in my world, but you have to know that miracles are not priceless."

"I admire the first person to eat mushrooms, maybe it was poisonous mushrooms, just like Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit, they didn't know what the consequences would be..."

The man named Lei Zhe stared at me so directly with those golden pupils that seemed to be able to penetrate my soul.

Then, under the flash of the other party's eyes, my consciousness saw me, the future of various parallel worlds named Kotomine Kirei's individual.

And Kotomine Kirei's... the end.

Pursue the so-called "pleasure", the road pointed out by the hero King Gilgamesh summoned from the Hall of Valor.

His wife committed suicide in front of him in order to prove to him that she could love someone, but he was thinking why he couldn't let himself do it himself.

Seeing his own father's death felt a twist called "pleasure".

Backstabbed and killed his own magic teacher, Tohsaka Tokitoko, seeing the other party's unbelievable expression, showed a happy smile on his face.

In various futures, he is not a villain but a bad person, and he is not cruel but evil.

Such a self, in the past feeling so many and complicated emotions, I only feel that this future self is... superficial.

Surrounded by the unbelievable, I looked at the man in front of me like a golden lion again, who also asked me a very strange sentence.

"Kirei, do you believe in gravity?"

"...gravitational?"

After seeing my different futures personally, I don't understand the meaning expressed in the other party's words.

But I always feel that a golden door to the abyss has been opened to me.

"The relationship between people is like gravity, which will be born with quality. Some people are destined to meet each other. I will show you the many futures that belong to you. No matter what kind of ending you have, you should meet Did you meet everyone who arrived?"

There is a gravitational attraction between people, Kotomine Kirei recalled the many futures he saw before, and now he understands and believes this sentence.

No matter what kind of future he has, the people he will meet will meet at the right time.

Emiya Shirou, Emiya Kiritsugu, Tohsaka Toki...

My wife Claudia Ordesia, whom I met in Italy in the future, and my unborn daughter Kallen...

No matter what kind of changes occur in my life, as a factor that promotes Kotomine Kirei's individual progress, it will never change.

"Kirei, what do you look like?"

The man in front of him asked him so.

What am I like?

Such a life, such a future, no matter what, will enter the end of the cognition.

It's like a relatively important supporting role in a stage play, dancing with the performance of the play, and when I run out of plays, it's time for me to call the curtain call.

After all... Kotomine Kirei is not a protagonist.

"I'm...like a [slave] of fate."

Accepting that kind of myself so bitterly and calmly, I lowered my head and gave such an answer from the bottom of my heart.

He has no way to change the ending, he can only change his process, but those processes...have lost the freshness they should have.

He didn't want to go through his life mechanically like before.

"There is no gravitational attraction between me and you, because I don't belong to this world. Now that you know everything, do you still want to seek miracles from me?"

Looking at the man in front of him who seemed to be admonishing him, but also seemed to be luring him to fall, Kotomine Kirei knelt down in front of him with a calm expression, facing him in a prayerful gesture.

"Please guide me!!!"

For the first time in my life, I expressed my desire so loudly and from the bottom of my heart.

I don't want that kind of life anymore, I want to leave this mechanical stage play.

God will not respond to me, a lost lamb, so I am willing to pay the price to pursue it!

So no matter who it is, please, I want to live as a 'human'!

"Heh, your desire to transcend this mission, alienate yourself, and fly to a higher realm──that is, the beautiful manifestation of Shiratori's transformation from an ugly body when it was young to an adult body, I really read it right."

The words of the man in front of me seem to be telling Kotomine Kirei, who is my essence, and my impulse and desire at this moment, to seek relief from the sea of ​​suffering.

And the other party did respond to me, that man dug out his own heart in front of my eyes.

The vermilion heart that was beating in the opponent's hand also turned into a gleaming golden cup in a burst of holy golden light.

The other party said that it was a Holy Grail made based on his heart, and that it had the power to reverse life and death.

Starting today, I will be complemented by the other party, and become a believer who follows the other party, and a living person.

From the moment the man put the chalice into my heart, I changed. Not only did my hair turn golden, but I was infected by golden fluctuations in my heart, and I was complemented by a piece of gold called Lei Zhe.

The world in my eyes has changed, or my heart and even my soul have changed.

After that man left for a while, I did feel happiness and satisfaction when I had normal feelings.

After that, the newborn me was very optimistic and stepped into my own stage of life.

I met my wife Claudia Ordesia in Italy, and I felt the love of this woman.

Sparasi~~~~, is this what it feels like to be loved! ?

Happy!

Is it love to get along with a woman day and night, and the impulse in my heart to take care of each other?

Unfamiliar with it, but happy! !

But he, who let himself go, also wanted to see the future appearance of his wife in his memory.

Seeing the woman committing suicide to make him feel loved, I smiled with tears of grief on my face.

Ah, the inner reluctance and heart-piercing grief, is this how normal people feel when they face parting from their loved ones?

Happy! ! !

I had brought the soul of my dying wife into my body through the chalice, and I felt the feeling of regaining something important.

Hehe, it seems that I am indeed in love with this woman, she is indeed my destined wife.

However, seeing my daughter's distraught appearance because of her mother's suicide and death, I was so heartbroken, blaming myself and loathing my evil behavior.

But in order to see the scene of mother and daughter meeting again across life and death, and the shocked look on my daughter's face, I still didn't stop.

These senses that a normal person should have make me so excited! ! ! !

And as a price for this, I will become the other party's god transporter, transporting the other party into the realm of the all-spirited god.

Hehe, this is really wonderful, will I, Kotomine Kirei, also be a part of making 'God'?

Should I say that man is ambitious, or am I self-righteous?

But it doesn't matter, that man, my lord, gave me everything.

Compared to the God who cannot see and respond to my longing, the existence that has transformed from a human into a God in my eyes is more worth pursuing.

Feeling... so happy~~~~~~~~

"Snapped!"

There was a strange sound of blows that were neither light nor heavy on Kotomine Kirei's head. It was like the sound of steel colliding. This changed the smile on the tall, blond priest's face. .

This is a city in Italy, and a certain priest was very happy to find a medical treatment for his wife's weak body.

Moreover, he also enjoys the process called hard work.