I won't be a loser.

A long time has passed and he can no longer remember when was the last time he met Eriri.

Seeing her again from high school, Xianren's eyes were complicated. He silently withdrew his gaze and sat down in the second-to-last seat by the window according to the reserved seating chart. He didn't take the initiative to greet others, but turned his head and looked out the window quietly, thinking about what would happen next...

"If you don't know how to deal with it, just do nothing and let it happen. When you have no other options, you can adapt to the situation."

Picture: "Yoshii Akihisa", location: "Images/1636379742-100277911-107937345.jpg"

Image: "Yuji Sakamoto", Location: "Images/1636379796-100277911-107937345.jpg"

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Cherry Blossom Season: 37. Eriri gradually understands everything

"Next, the new student representatives will speak."

After staying in the classroom for a while, perhaps because there were so many people with unique personalities, Eriri seemed to have not noticed Kento's existence.

The noisy classroom gradually became quiet after Shin Fukuhara entered the classroom.

The middle-aged teacher simply introduced himself and led everyone to the school auditorium. Amidst the welcome and applause from the second and third graders who had arrived first, they entered the auditorium and sat down in order.

Because of their height, Kento, who was standing at the back of the team, was a long distance away from Eriri, who was standing in the middle. After he sat down, he was not with Eriri.

This made Xianren breathe a sigh of relief, and he silently looked at the podium in front of the auditorium. A young girl gradually climbed onto the podium and stood under the gaze of everyone, facing the microphone in front of her.

"Hey, Yuuji, that girl is so cute."

"is it?"

He heard the conversation of boys and glanced at Yoshii Akihisa, who seemed to be quite interested in girls, and Sakamoto Yuji, who seemed not very interested beside him. Then Xianren's gaze fell on the girl again.

"Please welcome the freshman representative, Futaba Rio, to begin her speech."

Looking at the gray-haired girl wearing glasses, Xianren closed his eyes and listened quietly to her speech. As for Yoshii Akihisa and Sakamoto Yuji beside him, they were whispering something, but Xianren didn't pay any attention. The entire opening ceremony lasted nearly two hours.

By the time they returned to the classroom under the leadership of Shin Fukuhara, everyone along the way was basically drowsy. No matter how excited they were about going to high school, they could not withstand the two-hour hypnotic speech.

After returning to their seats in order and sitting down, everyone in the class began to introduce themselves.

"Everyone is back now, right? Well, let's start with the self-introduction process. I'm Shin Fukuhara, your homeroom teacher. Please be at your service for the next year."

Shin Fukuhara wrote his name on the blackboard. Xianren's eyes fell on the top of his head. Looking at his hair, which was still thick now, it would be difficult to see it again in a month. He couldn't help but feel a little sorry for him in his heart.

His gaze inevitably fell on the quintuplets scattered around the classroom not far away, as well as Yoshii Akihisa, who was not far from Sakamoto Yuji. He was silent for a moment, and listened quietly to the self-introductions of everyone that were vague in his memory.

"Nakano Ichika, I'm your elder sister, please give me your guidance."

"I am the lucky one, and my goal is to get into a top university in China. Please give me your guidance."

"Hinan Aoi, entering high school is a new beginning. I hope I can get along well with everyone. Please give me your guidance."

"Nakano Miku."

"I'm Nakano Yotsuba, please don't mistake me for Ichika and the others. Please give me some advice~"

"Kinoshita Hideyoshi, I am a boy, please don't mistake me for someone else."

"Shimada-Minami...Please, please give me your guidance."

"Nakano Nino."

"Uesugi Fuutarou, well, please give me your guidance."

"This is Yoshii Akihisa~ I've finally made it to high school. I hope I can have a sweet love, and I also hope that Yuuji can die... That's all~"

After standing up happily and briefly introducing himself, Yoshii Akihisa's face darkened. He glanced sideways at Sakamoto Yuji beside him and cursed from the bottom of his heart. No one knew what the two had talked about in the auditorium before, but it had already developed to the point of cursing each other.

The corner of Sakamoto Yuji's mouth twitched, and he stood up and looked at Yoshii Akihisa with contempt.

"Hoho, are you provoking me? Mingjiu, it seems that I was too gentle with you last time."

"Don't think you can make me surrender so easily just because you used such despicable means, Yuuji. Your end has come. I am no longer the same person I was yesterday..."

"Well, if you two have something to discuss, can we talk about it after class? Now, let the other students introduce themselves."

Looking at the two people who were completely unconcerned about the surrounding atmosphere and were about to start fighting excitedly, Fukuhara Shin felt awkward and reminded them helplessly. Only then did Yoshii Akihisa seem to react.

"Ah, sorry!"

After apologizing to Shin Fukuhara, Akihisa Yoshii glanced at Yuji Sakamoto beside him and groaned.

"Hmph, I'll let you off this time, Yuuji."

Sakamoto Yuji sat down, crossed his arms, and ignored Yoshii Akihisa.

Just judging from his gradually bulging biceps, it is estimated that Akihisa Yoshii will not have a good ending after being fired.

The two people's banter interrupted the self-introduction for a while, but the atmosphere in the class became unexpectedly more relaxed.

Having just arrived at a new class and being in an unfamiliar environment, even though I was looking forward to the new life, I couldn't help but feel a little uneasy. However, the reactions of Akihisa Yoshii and Yuji Sakamoto made everyone want to complain all of a sudden.

"Eri Sawamura, please give me your guidance."

As the only blonde girl in the class, Eriri attracted a lot of attention when she stood up. Needless to say, the boys basically all looked at Eriri, and the girls were also full of curiosity about this blonde girl.

Looking at Eriri, Kento's eyes were wandering as he waited silently and quietly.

After everyone else had introduced themselves and it was Xianren's turn, he stood up with a faint smile on his face.

"I'm Kento Miyamizu from Hida, Gifu. I hope to get to know everyone and become good friends during the three years I've been in Tokyo. Please give me your guidance."

Her pretty face, pure voice, and deep eyes that told countless stories immediately attracted the attention of most girls in the class.

It turned out that because he was looking out the window with his back to everyone in the classroom, even if someone saw Xianren, they didn't know what was going on with him, so no one dared to come forward and talk to him. Nozaki Umetaro, who was sitting at the table behind Xianren, was even more silent, so naturally no one noticed Xianren.

It was not until he stood up and introduced himself that everyone in the class realized that there was such a handsome guy in their class.

His gentle and polite image was immediately imprinted in the hearts of everyone in the class. Everyone felt a slight liking for the boy, except for one person.

Eriri stared blankly at the boy named Miyamizu Kento. For some reason, the dark room, the scene that had appeared frequently in her dreams recently, suddenly appeared in her mind.

However, the dark picture only appeared for a moment before it shattered. More strange pictures and memories gradually appeared in her mind.

"Wen...ren?"

She stared at the boy blankly, whispering his name softly, as if she remembered something.

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Cherry Blossom Season: 38. Eriri is starting to speed up

"Hey, Xianren, there are so many cute girls in the class, don't you have one you like?"

The girl and the boy sat together. The girl drew for a while and felt like she didn't know how to draw anymore. Her mind was in a mess. She looked at the boy next to her and asked the question she had always wanted to ask in her heart.

They were about to graduate, and if they still didn't get an answer, Eriri felt that she would find it hard to accept it. So when the two of them were alone, she asked the boy next to her about the doubts that had always been in her heart.

He is an absolutely handsome guy, but he has no girlfriend in school. There are only her and him who are close to him on weekdays. There are some rumors, but they have all been clarified by Xianren himself.

"What's wrong? Why are you asking this question suddenly?"

The wise man who was writing a document beside her stopped and looked at the girl beside him.

"You've been living alone in Tokyo for such a long time. Don't you feel lonely?"

"Aren't you and Ms. Sayuri still here with me, Eriri?"

When the girl heard what the boy said, her face flushed, her heart throbbed, she couldn't hold back her feelings, and when she was about to confess to him——

"Eri, Kento, lunch is ready, let's come down and eat together."

The scene moves to the next moment.

"Aren't you planning on continuing your studies? With your grades, you should have no problem getting into a top university in the country, right? Why are you suddenly choosing to give up on further studies now?!"

Ying Lili looked at the boy in front of her in confusion. She couldn't understand what he was thinking and couldn't figure it out at all!

"Continuing your studies would be a good thing, but I already have things I want to do, and I hope to have more time... So, I'm sorry, Eriri, I have to break my promise to go to the same university with you."

Facing the boy who had broken his promise, Eriri clenched her fists...

Scene after scene flashed before Eriri's eyes. She had completely lost control of her body and just stared at the screen, moving forward continuously.

When she returned home and saw her mother sitting in the living room and Kento sitting next to her mother, Eriri already had a bad feeling in her heart.

"Why did you suddenly call me back? Is there something wrong? Why is the wise man here too?"

"Um... Mom has something I want to tell you, Eriri. Actually... Mom has had someone I like for a long time, but I just haven't found the right opportunity. And now, Eriri, you're about to graduate from university, so..."

Looking at her mother who lowered her head with a complicated expression, as if she didn't know how to start, Ying Lili seemed to understand. She recalled the scenes from the past and her eyes suddenly fell on Xianren standing beside her.

"W-Wen Ren?"

The boy's eyes were wandering, but he still stood up on his own initiative and gently patted Sayuri's shoulder. The intimate gesture made Eriri feel like something in her heart was broken.

"I'm sorry, Eriri, I've been hiding this from you. Actually, when Sayuri and I were in high school..."

"I won't listen! I won't listen! I won't listen! What a joke! I won't accept this!!"

Tears fell as she spoke, and she rushed out of the house...

"I'm sorry, Eriri. You're my daughter, but Kento is the one I love. I don't know how to go on living like this anymore. I'm sorry."

After picking up the note in the living room, Eriri's mind went blank. She rushed into her mother's room, but found nothing. When she reached the bathroom door, she listened to the sound of water splashing inside. With trembling hands, she slowly opened the bathroom door...

Until the last scene, which was the dark nightmare that Eriri had at the end.

The girl found the spare key to her mother's house in her mother's room, put on her high school uniform, stood in front of the mirror and looked at herself dressed the same as before, with a trembling and desperate smile on her face.

She raised the knife in front of her and put it in her arms. In the early hours of the night, she came to his door and easily entered his room with the spare key.

Guided by the moonlight, she soon found the room filled with various wine bottles and magazines. The man, curled up on the floor with his legs crossed like a wounded child, with tears falling from his eyes, whispered softly.

"It's okay, there won't be any pain, and I'll be with you... Xianren, I love you."

At the end of everything, the girl's eyes gradually trembled and closed due to weakness. In the last moment of her memory, she saw the blood of two people gradually blending together. The corners of her mouth, which were pale due to excessive blood loss, curled up slightly.

"We're...together...now...Xianren."

vomit--

Covering her lips, she suddenly opened her eyes. Ying Lili felt a strong discomfort surging from her heart. She opened her eyes wide and couldn't stop retching. Tears fell from the corners of her eyes, saliva overflowed, and her expression was full of pain.

"Are you okay? Do you need some water?"

Just when she was feeling pain and despair because of the inexplicable memories and images, which seemed like a nightmare, a gentle voice sounded in her ears, and a pair of broad and gentle hands fell on her back, slowly stroking and soothing her discomfort.

She heard the voice countless times in her dreams, and she turned her head tremblingly to look at the boy beside her.

"W-Wen Ren?"

The hand that was stroking her froze at her back. The wise man who cared about the girl felt a pang in his heart after hearing the affectionate name.

He smiled and slowly withdrew his hand as if nothing had happened.

"I'm so glad you remembered my name, Sawamura-kun. Just now, when I was introducing myself, I suddenly fainted in the classroom. I thought it was my name, and it caused you physical discomfort. I'm sorry."

With a chuckle and in a teasing tone, he explained what had happened before. Only then did Eriri react. Looking at the pure white environment, it seemed to be the health room in the school.

His brain, which had been drowsy due to the impact of the nightmare, gradually became clear and understood the general situation.

"I, fainted?"

"The health doctor checked you out earlier and confirmed that you're fine, but to be on the safe side, we've contacted Sawamura's mother. She should be here soon."

"Mother......."

Seeing Eriri lost in thought, Kento, who was sitting beside the bed, stood up.

"Well, since Sawamura-kun is alright, I'll go back to the classroom. The health teacher is leaving for now and will be back soon. I'm leaving now."

"..."

Seeing that Eriri didn't react, Xianren thought that Sayuri would be coming over soon, so he walked straight towards the door.

Looking at Xianren's gradually departing back, Eriri couldn't help feeling a sense of emptiness and sadness in her heart. When she wanted to hold him in her mouth, she found that she couldn't open her mouth at all until the other person disappeared.