I won't be a loser.

Xianren put down the teacup in his hand, closed his eyes, slowly raised his head and looked at Fujiwa and Nunu in front of him.

"I always want to go back to my childhood. Maybe when I was little, I didn't think about growing up... Growing up is such a painful thing. No, it's just that I didn't grow into the person I wanted to become. I failed in my life."

heavy.

So heavy.

Fujiwara Nyonya looked at the wise man who was talking to himself in front of her, and felt her breathing become heavy.

But he felt that the wise man in front of him was not putting pressure on him, but was really thinking this way.

"Even though you have such a lovely daughter, you still feel that your life is a failure?"

"..."

"Life isn't always going to go as planned. When you lose something, don't you also gain a lot?"

If life were smoother, Xianren might agree with Fuji and Nunu's statement, but for Xianren, who mostly went with the flow in life, he did not have much feeling about it.

"Yes."

But at this time, the wise man felt it was inappropriate to express his feelings. He smiled, followed the other party's words, and agreed with the other party's point of view.

“Yes, I got a lot.”

His eyes became even more cloudy, the wise man closed his eyes, smiled, and slowly stood up.

"Well, let's stop here for today. I should go back now."

"..."

"I'll come back later."

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Chiba New Story: 472. Fifty Years of Life, Like a Dream and an Illusion

Sitting on a bench in the park, Xianren, who had left Fujiwa's house, was not in a hurry to return to his home. He looked like he had nothing to do. He wandered around the street and then sat down in a deserted park.

Seeing that there were few pedestrians around, I raised my head and looked at the sky blocked by residential buildings, and the afterglow of the setting sun.

"What a bleak scene! Is this what it feels like when life is about to end?"

I feel a little tired, and suddenly I want a sister to appear in front of me, telling me that I don’t need to worry about anything, that she will protect me from the wind and rain and support me for the rest of my life.

"But in this life, I have the attributes of an older brother, not a younger brother, and I only have a younger sister, not an older sister."

He sighed. It is impossible for everything in life to go as planned. He also knew that in the eyes of most people, his life was something that needed to be looked up to. Most of the time, he was the only one who was being "sentimental", feeling sad about the passing of time, and full of petty-bourgeois sentiments.

But everyone's life has its own color, not just a monotonous blue or a monotonous red. If a wise man could be so monotonous, he probably wouldn't feel so embarrassed now.

A half-baked one.

This is probably a true portrayal of Xianren's life. For someone who cannot face his own life seriously, it is natural for him to feel uncomfortable and dissatisfied with various things now.

He reached into his pocket and was silent for a moment. He looked at the few boys in his phone contacts, and the expressions on his faces seemed a little subtle.

After staring at these people for a while, he called Takasu Ryuji.

"A wise man?"

"It's been a while since we last met. Are you free tonight?"

"Time? Yes, I do have time, but why are you contacting me like this all of a sudden? Is it related to work?"

"People need a break too. Don't worry too much about work. If you have time, let's go have a drink together."

When Takasu Ryuji received a call from Kento and learned that Kento wanted to treat him to a drink, he thought that something might have happened to Kento and he might not be in a good mood, and perhaps he needed to vent his emotions, so he nodded and agreed.

"Where are you now?"

"It's near my apartment, the one I used to live in, but it's quite far away. I'd better let me find you. Let's go to Suido, Suido 2-chome. There's an izakaya there."

"That's too far. I... never mind. Let's go there."

"Well, see you later then."

After agreeing on a meeting place with Takasu Ryuji, Xianren hung up the phone.

During these two years, he would occasionally meet with Takasu Ryuji to chat, and even visit his home, but the number of times was not often. Mainly when he was handling his work in Tokyo, he suddenly thought of Takasu Ryuji and met with him to talk about their respective recent situations.

For example, during this period, Takasu Ryuji successfully graduated from high school and was admitted to a public university. The tuition fee is slightly lower than that of private universities, but it is still unaffordable. He has been working hard recently.

The wise man once asked Takasu Ryuji if he wanted to work in his office, but due to various concerns, the other party rejected the wise man's invitation.

"what……"

The wise man sitting in the park sighed softly, glanced slowly at the setting sun above his head, then stood up and walked towards the agreed street.

Suido 2-chome.

It's on the edge of Bunkyo Ward. In front of the izakaya is Nishi-Edogawa River, and further ahead is the Metropolitan Expressway No. 5 Ikebukuro Line. Well, even if you're in Shinjuku Ward next door, it's probably right next to Shinjuku Ward that an izakaya would open in a place like that.

There are mostly some joint-stock companies or parking lots around here, and it is rare to see izakayas in Bunkyo Ward.

He arrived at the door of the agreed-upon izakaya and pushed it open. At this time when people were basically having a break after get off work, there were already quite a few people sitting in the izakaya. Xianren entered the izakaya, chose a seat, and waited quietly.

About half an hour later, I received a call from Takasu Ryuji.

"I've already arrived at Suido 2-chome. Are you now..."

"The izakaya at Suido 2-chome 4-4 is just a little west of the Nishi-Edogawa Bridge. It should be easy to see, right?"

"Ah, I see. Wait a moment."

While on the phone, Takasu Ryuji appeared at the door of the izakaya. Seeing the wise man sitting inside, he slowly walked up to him, sat down, and took off his glasses.

"Is it in such a remote corner?"

"Would you like to drink in a more conspicuous place?"

"I don't like it. I don't like being conspicuous or drinking alcohol. I'll just drink juice."

"It really is……"

Faced with Takasu Ryuji's answer, Xianren didn't know how to respond. He sighed and didn't persuade the other party to drink. He called the waiter and ordered some common dishes, followed by Xianren's wine and Takasu Ryuji's juice.

"It doesn't matter to me now, but once I enter society and become a member of society, it won't be easy to deal with things. For example, some unreasonable bosses will often make things difficult for their subordinates. Something like drinking is a small matter. Bosses in large companies will even pour wine in their shoes and make their subordinates drink it all."

"Uh...can you please not talk about such disgusting things at this time?"

These words, full of flavor, made Takasu Ryuji's expression suddenly look extremely subtle.

"Being forced to take off clothes is normal. You'll understand workplace bullying once you enter society."

"But Xianren, aren't you the president? Do you often do this to your members..."

Staring at the wise man in front of him, Takasu Ryuji suddenly laughed and teased the wise man, while the wise man picked up the wine that was offered to him, took a small sip, and then smiled.

"My firm isn't that corrupt. The whole environment is very relaxed. If you can't find a good job in the future, you can consider my firm, Takasu-kun."

"Of course, President Miyamizu."

The two looked at each other, then shook their heads and laughed.

The dishes were gradually served on the table. The two people who had not seen each other for a while gradually regained their former familiarity and talked about their recent situation, such as things in life.

"What's college life like? Is it any different from high school?"

After shaking the sake in the glass, Xianren's gaze slowly fell on Takasu Ryuji who was sitting opposite him. They were not from the same university, and he didn't know Takasu Ryuji's current situation in the university, so he was a little curious in his heart.

"It's not that different. I just followed your advice and put on glasses. As a result, not as many people are afraid of my eyes as they were in high school. My life is pretty peaceful now. If I can maintain this until the end of college, my life will probably be complete."

"Just by smoothly finishing your college career, does your life feel fulfilled? You'll have to face a whole host of issues in the future, such as finding a job, dating, getting married, having children, and so on. You'll also have to consider buying a house, a car, and so on. Reality is very cruel. Don't think that just by finishing your college career, you've earned a ticket to happiness. Even if you graduate from college, you've only just jumped out of a well."

The wise man, swaying the wine, began to preach to Takasu Ryuji like an uncle, which made Takasu Ryuji, who was sitting opposite him, look gloomy and smile helplessly.

"Is this rare meeting just to attack me?"

"I just want you to face the realities of life. Ordinary people, without any shortcuts, have to face the monster called 'reality'. As someone who has entered society before you, I just want to give you a warning. I don't want you to be too optimistic and then fall into isolation after entering society, covered in scars. This is a small blow to you."

"Until now, it's all about the dark side of society. Have you, sage, never encountered any good things in society?"

"Good things... There's nothing good about it. Apart from the fact that there are women who like me and will give me some help, the whole society is extremely dark. Ha... Be prepared to fight alone, Long'er."

Putting down the wine glass in his hand, the wise man stretched out his hand, gently rubbed his forehead, and then sighed helplessly.

He picked up the dishes on the table. Due to tuition fees, Takasu Ryuji had not tasted such delicious food for a long time. Most of the time, he relied on discount bento boxes from convenience stores, or bean sprouts and soy sauce rice... His sense of taste had deteriorated.

"As for the girls who like you, you're pretty popular. You must have been dating someone in high school, right? Are you still in touch with them?"

"Yes, and you, have you met any girls you like in college?"

"..."

Takasu Ryuji fell into silence, but his face was slightly red and he looked a little shy. It was obvious that something was going on.

"If you can establish a relationship and get married in college, don't wait until you graduate. Once you're in society, it won't be as easy as it was in college to trick a girl into staying with you forever."

"Ah... lying or something... isn't that a bit too much?"

Looking up at the wise man in front of him, Takasu Ryuji seemed a little dissatisfied with what he said.

"How innocent! Ah, that's what happens to people who haven't faced reality. If you don't have a partner in college, then after entering society, given your situation, you'll inevitably be thrown into the vast ocean of work. By then, will you have enough time to consider your own feelings?"

"This……"

"By then, even if you don't consider it yourself, your mother will definitely consider it for you. When she asks you from time to time, 'Are you dating anyone?' or 'Oh, you know, Xianren's kid is already married, why don't you have one?' After hearing these questions, you'll realize how much of a shame it was that you didn't cherish your college romance."

He picked up the grilled saury, picked up a lemon in one hand, squeezed the juice on the saury, put it into his mouth, feeling the salty taste in his mouth, and his eyes fell on Takasu Ryuji.

"For those with sufficient assets and plenty of free time, love might not be that rare. They might even stumble upon their 'love' in a chance encounter one night. But for those who have lived a life of honesty since childhood, or who spend their time working, so-called 'love' is undoubtedly a luxury. Even marriage is a compromise made to meet reality simply for the sake of 'reproduction.'"

Ta, tap.

The chopsticks pinched twice in mid-air, allowing Takasu Ryuji to truly feel how severe the mental pressure and fatigue of the person in front of him was. In the past, he only complained occasionally, but this time, he was complaining from beginning to end during the meeting. Takasu Ryuji didn't know how to describe his mood at the moment.

"I feel like I've entered middle age early. Even if nothing happens, I don't want to go back home. Once I get home, I have to face the monster called 'reality' that I have to deal with."

"is it so serious?"

The fried pork cutlet was dipped in a little sauce and put into the mouth, accompanied by some cabbage. The taste and texture, and the taste of fat made Takasu Ryuji moved.

"Do you remember your first dream?"

“…Hmm, I don’t remember clearly.”

"What about the second dream?"

"..."

"Life is like this. It gives you a dream, but then, unknowingly, it takes it away. As you gain a deeper understanding of reality, your dreams gradually become more realistic and humble. Think about it, with your current part-time income, how long would it take to buy a brand new single-family house in Bunkyo Ward?"

"Probably a lifetime..."

Takasu Ryuji thought about it and didn't know much about the housing prices in Bunkyo Ward, but he felt that they would be very expensive.

Xianren took out his mobile phone, opened it, and under Takasu Ryuji's surprised gaze, he smoothly entered a URL, entered the website, clicked on a link, and handed it to Takasu Ryuji.

"Currently, in Tokyo, in the heart of the city's 23 wards, Bunkyo Ward, the cheapest pre-owned single-family house—a two-story, 3K-style house—is priced at 1,980 million yen. With a monthly salary of 25 yen, ignoring other expenses and using the entire mortgage, it would take about six to seven years to buy one. The cheapest one...well, it was built in 6."

"7 years..."

Takasu Ryuji fell into silence. From now on, he would probably have to wait until he was around 27 years old before he could buy it.

But the university tuition he had to pay was over 4 million yen, and it would take him three or four years to pay it all back...

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《Comparison of collapse, all the fire moths are crying with jealousy! 》

Lu Ye traveled through the civilization before the collapse of the world, trying his best to change the ending of this era.

Just before the end of the confrontation, a video comparing parallel worlds inexplicably appeared in both worlds!

The world next door, which was falling into despair due to the collapse, was stunned in an instant!

Sakura: "If he was here, would Ling not have died?"

Kevin: "Can this war be won without so many sacrifices?"

Alicia: "I see, all we have to do is trust him!"