I, with a long knife in my hand, can only do one move

Because Liuli is watching herself on the screen.

"Sister Shinoda... found you."

"Sister Shinoda..."

"Why? Why did mother—become like that?"

Intermittent images flashed directly in my mind.

——It was a pain as if the heart had been severely torn.

".....Mother?"

The frightening picture is separated by a thin layer of glass.The flickering red light and the blood-stained operating table... a monster that has completely lost the appearance of a human being is roaring at itself on it.

Liuli screamed and wailed in despair as she witnessed her beloved mother turn into a monster.

The scene returned to calm, and Shinoda's face was pale.

"....do you know?"

"......do you know?"

Chapter 1 Confession

It was a happy time, a day full of laughter and sweetness.

It's me handing out brightly colored candies to the children, watching them happily tear off the candy wrappers and put the candies into their mouths, and then show me a picture of a smile.

"Sister Shinoda, I like you the most~~!"

"I want sister Shinoda to be my wife!"

Knowing nothing at that time, I sat on the bus seat where I left, and before leaving, I sent all the candy in my pocket to my favorite Liuli.

"Here, all these candies are left to you."

"Can I have a taste for mom too?"

"Of course~"

It was the first time for Liuli to get so many candies. In the past, every time she just got it, she couldn't wait to finish it.

When parting, Shinoda hugged Liuli's petite body and wept reluctantly.

She smiled and waved to herself, and so did the children—

"Come back and play!"

Then, the truth was revealed step by step. What did the bright wrapping paper with the [IV] pattern mean to the children and the kind and simple villagers in Qixing Village.

But it was too late, before everything was the boldest guess, and before the truth and evidence were finally obtained——

The gastrulation war broke out.

Everything was destroyed and disappeared in the flames of war.

My beloved teacher also died in that war, and my relatives, my home...all were taken away.

The huge black monster located far away on the horizon, with blue-purple light bands flashing all over its body, made a long, ethereal and mournful cry like a whale—the jet-black sky dyed red by flames was suffocating.

Stage Five...Scorpio.

.....why?

Why did it become like this?Why is it Liuli?

"Ahhhhh!!!"

Shinoda's spirit collapsed at this moment, she screamed, hugged her head tightly, and knelt down on the ground.

"Xinada! What's wrong with you, Shinoda?!"

She couldn't answer the child's question.

In this giant black stone enchantment, to become an ordinary doctor...

For ten years, she was burdened with pain, despair and guilt, trying to pay off the sins of those who died innocently all the time.

She provides erosion rate tests to the Children of the Damned for free, sends them food, and regularly buys expensive inhibitors out of her own pocket.

She turned that guilt into caring for the children of the curse in every possible way.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!!" Shinoda cried desperately.

But that guilt will not fade away, and nothing will change.

It has become an indelible scar on the hearts and bodies of humans and the original children.

"I can't do anything... I can't change the world by myself...!"

Those who know what might have happened in Seven Star Village, apart from the mastermind behind all of this, may be the only ones who know the secret.

But so what?No one will believe in themselves.

In the ten-year-long torment, I have been persevering, and I have been persevering...

But at this moment, Shinoda finally collapsed, completely collapsed, she could no longer hold on.

She didn't have the courage to face that familiar face again. Everything about Qixing Village should have been burned with the ignited flame.

But now it happened to appear in front of him again.

Violently, it shattered her cracked heart.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!"

The turbulent and crazy crowd scattered Igarashi violently. He desperately wanted to catch the kneeling and crying figure, but the distance between the two became farther and farther.

"Shinoda! Shinoda!!"

"Don't squeeze out, let me in!"

"The quota is running out, hurry up! Damn it!"

......

The boiling crowd froze in an instant, and everything around Shinoda became blank.

Her forehead was on the ground, and tears were streaming down her face.

"Sister Shinoda."

Shinoda's body trembled violently, and her sobbing sound seemed to be the pause button. She slowly raised her head and looked at the figure in front of her.

"...glass...glass..."

"Sister Shinoda... Liuli wants to stay with you."

Liuli squatted down, and stretched out her hand to Shinoda who was kneeling on the ground, her innocent smile hung on her face as always, she was very cute.

"Liuli... Liuli! I'm sorry! Wooahahah!"

"Why did sister Shinoda apologize?"

"Because Liuli's mother became like that because of my fault! The candy you took away when you were vaccinated, those are the reasons why your mother became like that, but I knew it too late, everything too late Already!"

"I... can't do anything..."

I worked hard day and night, studying and researching from dawn to dusk, but it was too complicated, I didn't have any experience at all, I could only explore a little bit.

My body is exhausted and there are thick dark circles under my eyes... I want to be the best at the end

Uncover the truth as quickly as possible and prevent it from happening.

"I...are really useless..."

There was a slight chance to prevent all that from happening, but because of lack of ability, he watched hell appear in front of his eyes, almost destroying everything in human beings.

Shinoda hated herself for being so useless.

Liuli walked forward calmly, hugged the weeping Shinoda in her arms, and patted her on the back as she did to comfort herself who was crying because of injury.

"Sister Xiaotian has worked very hard, it's not your fault."

"Sister Xiaotian is just fulfilling her obligations seriously. You are an excellent sister nurse, and you will also be a good doctor with great love in the future... Sister Xiaotian has worked very hard. What caused all this , it's not you, Sister Shinoda."

"So, please don't take all the faults on yourself."

Shinoda embraced the small body in his arms, feeling the familiar temperature and breath of her body.

"I can't forgive myself...however.....can't forgive...."

What I have endured is nothing compared to the pain endured by those innocent children and villagers.

During the nights when I was the only one suffering alone, I woke up countless times due to nightmares and kept my eyes open until dawn.

When working in the hospital, the promoter girls who have a better and better relationship with themselves, because of the increase in erosion rate, or get the news from the promoters that they died in battle one day...

My desk is full of all kinds of small gifts given to me by the children.

They like themselves, but one day, they can no longer stand in front of themselves, and call her Sister Shinoda sweetly.

Those gifts became the last memory left by the children to the world and to themselves.

But there is nothing I can do.

"Please stop fighting."

Whenever Shinoda persuades those children whose erosion rate has reached a critical point, some of them will always laugh and say to themselves.

"It's okay... because only by fighting can you know the meaning of your existence."

There were so many such children that even Shinoda had forgotten the names of some of them, and when he picked up their relics, he couldn't even recall the appearance of its owner.

Shinoda is now in her 30s, and she can no longer bear to live like that...

So, she made a request to Liuli in front of her.

"Liuli... Please, I'm under too much pressure, I can't take it... I really can't take it... I can't take it anymore!"

Shinoda hugged the little figure in his arms tightly, crying heartbreakingly.

ask her to—

kill yourself.

Chapter 1 Trial

Empty, dark, empty...

In the center, a figure crushed by piles of despair was hugging another small figure, crying non-stop.

"That's not Shinoda-san's fault."

Liuli caressed Shinoda's back, and the surrounding nothingness gradually melted away as if being burned.

She kept repeating softly—

"That's not Shinoda-san's fault..."

Sobbing, choking, and finally stopping.

"Those who really made mistakes will definitely be punished."

Liuli gently pushed away Shinoda in her arms, and smiled.

"Sister Shinoda...please wait for me, and then, shall we play together again?"

"Liu Li?"

The girl's figure disappeared.

The hustle and bustle of the crowd turned into a wave, submerging Shinoda again.

Shinoda wanted to stretch out his hand to grab the girl who disappeared in the stream of light again, her cheeks flushed with tears were stained with tears, but there was nothing between her fingers.

"Liu Li!"

Shinoda's grasping hand was suddenly tightly grasped by another hand that stretched out against the crowd.

"Igarashi?!"

"It's too dangerous, get up quickly! You have to go in and take refuge!" Igarashi looked anxious, with fine beads of sweat hanging on his forehead, and pulled Shinoda up from the ground.