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However, after feeling in the long silence that she finally had a real sense of being alive, the emotions that the girl had been suppressing for a while suddenly burst out.

"The bow is tied and the shoes are put on new ones..."

After arranging his clothes, looking through the light mirror and looking at himself wearing private clothes for the first time in several months, Xu Yuhuai smiled happily and took out the skipping rope that he had secretly hidden for a long time, untied the handle, and tied the rope in above the railing and his own neck.

(......It should hurt a lot.)

Although he was a little scared, Xu Yuhuai had been planning his death plan for a long time. He had already left a suicide note and was well prepared, but he still strode forward and stood on the edge of the rooftop.

(.......As long as I jump off the rooftop, this rope can hang me to death.)

(Mom will be happy...after all, I will never drag her down again...)

Looking at the sparse traffic under the rooftop and feeling the breeze, the girl's pupils trembled slightly.

The flowing clouds are still flowing, the moonlight is as dim as ever, the doctors and nurses who used to take care of me have gone home, and the security guard who likes to buy ice cream for passing children puts out his cigarette and slumps in a chair to take a nap——

"...Will it be sunny again tomorrow?"

I said this sentence unconsciously.

Two lines of tears fell unconsciously.

".......Eh?"

Wiping her face with some surprise, feeling the wet feeling on her fingertips, the girl's pupils trembled slightly:

"Why...I cried..."

Is it fear?Or regret, or regret?

Xu Yuhuai couldn't understand himself anymore.

Obviously, he has been planning a death plan for the past few months. He has obviously written all the suicide notes and made all the preparations——

But why...are you still holding back?

Feeling the inexplicable emotions rising in her heart, the girl retreated silently and knelt down weakly on the ground, her whole body trembling unconsciously.

In an instant, cowardice overwhelmed her fear, and she realized that she still had no way to end the spiral of pain on her own initiative. She understood that her persistence had been given up so easily like a joke. The girl's nose felt sour, and the despair that had been hidden for a long time rose up. He sobbed softly and melted under the shadow of the moonlight.

Recalling the empty ward, the inorganic world, the pale sunlight, the unfounded malice...the girl huddled on the ground, her thin body like a small paper boat, which could be overturned by huge waves at any time. Turn over and sink to the bottom.

Knowing that her fear had crushed her desire to die, the girl lay weakly on the ground, big tears rolling down her cheeks, mixed with one or two hoarse sounds, and her baby-like cry echoed on the rooftop——

at last.

After more than ten minutes, the crying gradually stopped.

Silently wiping her tears, the girl whose self-destruction plan failed continued to hide her emotions, hugging her legs tightly, sniffling with red eyes, not wanting others to see her like this.

(........Let's go back.)

His thoughts were over, and he could not escape reality. He could only face the fear of impending death and the indifferent gaze of his peers again. Xu Yuhuai smiled tremblingly at the reflection in the mirror under the mute warm lamp, trying to let the false smile cover the hidden feeling in his heart. of despair.

(.....so ugly.)

Looking at herself with a stiff smile in the mirror, and remembering her embarrassed appearance when she came down the steps, the girl's eyes became increasingly red.

(......In the end, I'm still so useless.)

(...The so-called strength, the so-called self-commitment...I have failed to do neither.)

(...I'm so envious, I'm so envious of those guys who are happy every day and smile from the bottom of their hearts...)

at that moment.

The young Xu Yuhuai buried his head in his legs and sobbed silently.

In her mind, she remembered her favorite song, Teacher Sloth, that she listened to in her hospital bed.

(..........People who are always happy and romantic are the most annoying.)

(..........Cannot be touched, cannot be seen, yet so enviable......)

(Am I... a useless child...)

The girl who had long been in despair was unable to stand up.

Wait until the tears dry up and go back slowly...

This is what I thought in my mind.

Xu Yuhuai stood up with support and took out the MP3 that his mother left for him.

.....Although I still feel a little bit hard to let go.

However, the girl still gently clicked on Teacher Sloth's song called "Weekend".

(Goodbye, I will follow you when I wake up,)

(Now, jump to the future——)

(The street corner of the weekend starts here,)

(Wake up and follow you,)

(Now, jump into the future!)

(street corner on weekends until morning,)

(Interlaced figures...)

"........"

Listening to such sunny music, the girl who had attempted suicide just now couldn't help laughing.

How shameless... After failing to commit suicide, do you still want to listen to Teacher Sloth's song as bright as the theme song of "Saturday Alarm Clock News"?

"...I am not optimistic enough to reconcile with this world."

While whispering silently, Xu Yuhuai, who was young at that time, looked at the rising sun that had not yet appeared on the rooftop. Thinking of his late father, his nose couldn't help but feel sore.

I don’t know what my mood is.

Following the beating rhythm in her ears, the girl took off one of her headphones and sang along in the direction of the breeze:

(When the flowers bloom,)

(The heart also soars,)

(I don’t know whose voice it is,)

(Nonsense...)

The voice was clear, and the girl's childish singing sounded from the rooftop.

However...it was also at the moment when Xu Yuhuai felt quite relaxed that another breeze blew by at this moment.

The pure white bedspread was lifted, and the door to the rooftop opened.

A young man wearing a sunflower sweatshirt and hood, facing the moonlight, whose face could not be seen clearly, looked at Xu Yuhuai who was singing in surprise.

The young man is not very tall, and looks to be only two or three years older than Xu Yuhuai. His pupils are deep, his face is expressionless, and his mystery makes people feel a little scared——

"...?!"

Seeing a person suddenly coming up on the rooftop, Xu Yuhuai's expression showed some surprise——

What made Xu Yuhuai feel more social death was that the young man wearing a hood and a sunflower sweatshirt spoke to him in a very low voice:

"..........Hello, are you singing?"

"Ahem...hug, sorry, I didn't expect anyone to come!"

Realizing that someone was coming, Xu Yuhuai quickly covered his face when the singing line ended, sat up from the ground and hurriedly took off his headphones:

"Excuse me, I shouldn't be singing. Don't worry, I'll leave right away——"

"...Is the song you sang "Weekend" by Sloth?"

"......?"

The boy's voice had just fallen.

Xu Yuhuai had goosebumps all over his body.

The dramatic encounter begins.

ps: There will be another update in the afternoon!Thank you for your support!

46. ​​Let’s watch the sunrise together

Xu Yuhuai never expected that a young man who looked quite mysterious and could even hear his idol's songs would suddenly walk up to the rooftop.

The faint shock continued to rise... The girl turned her neck stiffly and looked at the young man in a sunflower sweatshirt in front of her, her voice trembling:

"Why do you...know this song?!"

"...I've heard it countless times, there's no way I can't remember it."

The boy cleared his throat and pulled down his hood again:

"Are you a fan of Mr. Sloth - what a coincidence, I am also a fan of his."

"......Really?"

"It's really not that true."

The sunflower boy gently clasped his fingers and said in the same voice:

"This song was released three months after "Love". It inherits Mr. Sloth's consistent dance music style. It is also Mr. Sloth's fourth single - am I right?"

"......how is this possible?!"

Xu Yuhuai was shocked by the young man's response:

"How do you know so well... It's almost like Teacher Sloth himself!"

"Ahem, no, there is no such thing."

Quite strangely, the boy's response seemed a little reserved:

"I'm just a casual fan passing by, so I don't need to think too much."

".......Really?"

He touched the wall and stood up with great vigilance. Looking at the sunflower boy who suddenly broke into the rooftop in front of him, the girl who was originally thinking of committing suicide, a big cold sweat rolled down her forehead:

"I...I'm not that easy to deceive - let's be honest, are you a bad guy? You came to the hospital and lost my waist?!"

"...Do I look like a bad person?"

"Well...since you're not a bad guy, then you're here to catch me,"

"Catch you...? Why should I arrest you?"

"Because, because I'm a bad boy!"

"Really...but I'm just blowing in the wind on the rooftop."

Perhaps because he was no longer overly nervous after chatting for a few words, or perhaps he was no longer obsessed with explaining too much to this little girl, the boy in the sunflower sweatshirt returned to calmness again, and his voice no longer had obvious emotional fluctuations:

"If I have the chance, I would still like to see the sunrise - I have been in poor health recently and have been in the hospital and haven't been able to sleep well, so I should take some time to relax."

"Is that so..."

I always felt that the boy's voice sounded familiar... Xu Yuhuai's vigilance and vague suspicion did not dissipate.

However, before the girl came back to her senses, the boy's voice sounded again at this moment:

"...You should also come to see the sunrise, right? Little sister."

"...Yes, yes!"

"In order to get the first ray of sunshine, hoping to grow taller?"

"It's not... it's not!"

Although she was only less than 1.5 meters tall, the girl still blushed and denied quite forcefully:

"I was just tired from lying in the ward, so I came here to listen to music. Don't think too much!"

The voice was very stiff, but the girl still gently shook the MP3 player and the wire-controlled headphones in her hands, trying to prove that she had no other intention in coming here.

"......"