Done!I'm surrounded by yanderes!

Yes, I'm pretending, I'm the evil person waiting for an opportunity.

This love and guilt are intertwined repeatedly. No matter whether I am pretending to be reliable, Brother Aba, or facing my lonely and depressed heart, even if I have not taken action for a long time and cannot stop confessing, I can't relieve the guilt in my heart.

How could a matter that was originally just a matter of killing reach this point in the end? I am paranoid, cowardly, and have corrupted beliefs. What kind of death will be my relief?

What world do I live in?

I don’t know where three little ghosts came from, they were surrounding me and calling me brother.

The refugees who thought I was a good person were eating the prey I killed,

Xingmang, whose life was ruined by me, asked me to redeem her heart.

The old man whose son and grandson died because of the war I caused smiled and said that I looked like his son.

Every moment I am swinging on the scale of killing and redemption,

My fake smile and honesty are becoming more and more real,

And the true expression gradually disappeared from the bottom of my heart,

All people trust in me,

But I couldn't sleep anymore, looking at the faces of the three little ghosts every night,

I'm afraid that when they grow up, I'll recognize who Xiaoying is.

I'm more afraid that if they don't grow up, I'll never know which one to kill.

Wait a little longer,

Wait a little longer,

I kept persuading myself,

Be patient, otherwise you will lose everything.

Spring is warm and flowers are blooming, autumn is harvested and winter is hidden, passing by in the blink of an eye.

Finally I haven’t spoken in ten years.

On this day, a refugee came to the refugee camp to promote the New Kingdom Church.

"Is the war going to end after ten years?" people asked eagerly,

In the past ten years, the refugees have grown old and died, and new ones will arrive.

But in everyone's heart, they are waiting for that answer.

I pretended not to care and walked by, listening to the story the newcomer was telling.

"The new kingdom will soon be victorious, the new religion will soon be established, and God's apostle will soon pass by, smoothing the road to victory in front of him!" the new tramp shouted loudly.

The reaction of the homeless people around them was very dull. They didn't care who would win.

They only care about when the war will end.

"The apostle of God is a being with divine power. The Theocracy is already vulnerable. As long as everyone welcomes him together and chants his prayers, the war will be over soon!" The new tramp noticed everyone's silence, so He said it again in a way that interested everyone.

"Great!"

"It's finally over!"

"God!"

People around him breathed a sigh of relief.

After this day, all the homeless people started a new activity,

Early in the morning, facing the direction of the new country, I chanted prayers loudly, waiting for the apostle of God to come and end this abominable war.

"The path of justice is surrounded by cruel and selfish evil people. Those with compassion and good intentions are protected. They lead the weak through the valley of darkness, thinking of brotherhood and father's love. Those who dare to harm my brothers and sisters, I They will be destroyed. At that time, they will see the apostle of God, and I will take revenge." The new homeless man stood on the tree stump and chanted loudly.

The people below were also praying, except for the five of us who did not join.

But since the news came, everyone in the refugee camp seems to be full of motivation.

Every day I excitedly inquired about the news, and sat together imagining the days after the war.

Finally, this upbeat atmosphere moved the three little ghosts. They have all grown into slim girls, listening to God's stories in a daze every night.

Only Xingmang doesn't allow them to hear too much, because she is the one who knows the truth.

The relationship between Xing Mang and I has softened a lot in the past ten years, and we even trust each other more than others in many cases.

Because only between us can we understand each other's pain.

She doesn't understand what I'm waiting for,

I don't understand what she plans to do next.

Everything is moving in a beautiful direction. The war is about to end. There is no need to wander anymore. The warm fireplace will replace the smoky firewood pile and give everyone warmth.Well-prepared meat will replace the rotten meat and fill everyone's stomach.Strong houses will replace shabby tents, giving everyone a home.

After the nightly singing party in the refugee camp, the three little guys drank a lot of wine.

Because the angel of God will pass by here soon, all the refugees are reveling, celebrating that the days of insecurity are finally coming to an end, and everyone’s days of despair are finally coming to an end.

"You don't have to starve, you don't have to be cold, you don't have to watch your loved ones die, and you can finally live like a human being." Everyone was shouting their inner expectations.

"I really love Brother Abba, and I want to be Brother Abba's wife." Xingguang held my arm obediently,

But I felt very scared because Xiaoying also liked to hold me like this.

"I also like Brother Aba very much, but I like him as much as I like my father, hehe." Xinghua also expressed his feelings.

"I also like Brother Abba very much." The silent Xingyue looked at me.

The other two brats fell asleep holding my arms.

"So I want to ask Brother Aba for a favor. I don't have that kind of power myself, but if I don't do it, I won't be able to really love you wholeheartedly." Xingyue pleaded like a little adult.

"..." I nodded in agreement, because Xingyue is the most unpredictable and taciturn little girl. She rarely talks so much, which means that this matter is very important to her.

"Help me kill that damn god." Xingyue cried and knelt on the ground.

"..." I nodded. Although I don't know if I have the strength, I am willing to fight for the three of them.

"He and his apostles killed my father." Xingyue gritted her teeth and cried bitterly as she spoke.

I stroked her head and agreed to her request,

The fruit wine was a bit intoxicating, I nodded in confusion, and Xingyue kissed me happily.

This is probably because she felt that she had made an unbreakable agreement, so she had to give something important to her.

A few days later, an army led by an apostle of God passed by the woods.

All the homeless people ran out and knelt down, admiring God's heroic figure all the way.

And I followed the troops all the way, ready to step forward at any time to assassinate the envoy and avenge Xingyue.

The gates of the Theocracy's capital were wide open, as if resistance had been given up.

All the teaching soldiers lined up on both sides, kneeling and worshiping.

I climbed up the city wall with Xingyue and watched all this.

"Brother, do you think that so-called god will appear?" Xingyue looked at me eagerly and squeezed my hand happily. To her, I was everything to her.

"..." I nodded, no matter what, I will complete the matter of killing gods, and then...

The divine envoy stood on the altar of the Theocracy and looked at me from a distance. My heart was broken in an instant.

Sure enough, I can no longer deceive myself.

I have been pretending that I am Brother Abba, and have been putting everything behind me, just waiting for one day to kill Xiaoying.

But when Xingyue lying on my chest told me,

"After I get my revenge, I want to marry my brother. But the name Xingyue was given by Andresa's mother, and it doesn't sound good at all.

The moon is full, and I will be your brother’s Xiaoying from now on, okay? "When saying this.

But I lied to myself, pretended not to hear, and continued to pretend to be the so-called Brother Abba.

Until now, there is no way to escape.

I saw the so-called divine messenger,

The apostle of God also shed tears when he saw me.

Levida, tell me, what should I do?

I looked at her from a distance, like I had seen her countless times before,

Longing and pain intertwined,

what should I do?

Like Xiaoying was promised, kill the so-called god, kill the initiators of all wars, kill me who persecuted her father?

Or tell Levida that as long as she kills Xiaoying now, everything will be fine.

All will be saved,

Everything will be fine and we will live a happy life.

Levida looked at me, tears bursting from the dam,

To her, we have been separated for ten years.

After that raid, I disappeared and my life and death were always uncertain.

And she went back and killed Athos to form a new country. In the name of attacking the Theocracy, she captured every piece of land looking for me.

He even established a new god in my name and spread his followers all over the world.

I finally came to the intersection,

But I found that following the path of the past, everything formed a circle of destiny.

what should I do?

Levita is looking at me,

Xiaoying is also looking at me,

Everyone is looking at me,

On the high platform where everyone is watching, making that impossible choice,

I should continue to be that god,

Or the God Killer?

Chapter 2 Why am I who I am?

When I was making a painful decision,

Unexpectedly, the Theocracy did not give up. Instead, they captured Xingmang, Xinghua and several other dolls. Together with Levida and Xiaoying, a total of seven dolls appeared in the capital of Theocracy.

I watched the Theocracy's final struggles and didn't understand what they were going to do.

What they seemed to be waiting for was the moment when Levida stood on the altar.

The masked leader stood on the high platform and shouted loudly,

"We have reached the final battle to the death. All warriors, please die for our honor!"

"O king crawling in the dark abyss, seven seals, seven rings, seven brides, dedicated to you, please come and dominate everything about us!"

The entire Theocratic State was collapsing, and huge life forms appeared, destroying the entire capital of Theocratic State.

"It's that time again, old friend, it seems you have wasted your world again." A huge dark life with huge chains on its body, countless eyes looking at me with interest.

"Who are you?" I shouted angrily in confusion.

"I am the king of darkness."

"I am the hatred of this world, I am the creation of abnormal spiral."

"I am the King from many different ages and throughout all the worlds."

"I am the memory of a lost world, a collection of hate from the pre-modern world."

"I am forged from the perfect balance between irreconcilable anomalies and broken minds, an entity created from overwhelming and unavoidable tension. I am the howl of the old world facing the cold, gray, meaningless new world."