Genshin Impact, I, a weak person, am challenging myself to find a solution that will bring me lifelo

Only after having stayed in the intensive care unit can one understand how terrible loneliness is when the world seems to be condensed into instruments, medicines, and dripping sounds, with nothing else.

The door opened, revealing a little head with light-colored hair. She had two cute half-spiral ponytails and her eyes were as bright as spring water.

She looked into the room timidly, and when she found that there was no horrible thing as she had imagined, she heaved a sigh of relief, gently pushed open the door and walked into Youya's sight.

She was wearing a playful and cute white, blue and gold dress with a childlike blue and white bow on her chest, and she was holding a small medicine box in her arms.

"Hello! I'm Barbara, an intern prayer minister."

She greeted us in an especially lively manner, with a smile as bright as the warm spring sun. She was an adorable child who made people feel like an "idol" at first glance.

"Hello. I'm Yuya Lawrence. What can I do for you?"

Youya's tone that lacked emotion and the notorious reputation of "Lawrence" made the girl, who had originally relaxed, suddenly nervous again.

She didn't mean to scare people or to give up the mission. It was just that after her tests, as long as her emotions fluctuated slightly, her lungs would feel like they were on fire and she would cough non-stop.

Therefore, until the physical illness is recovered, such restrained emotional conversation is necessary to ensure that the conversation can proceed normally.

But this also led to the original Youya always appearing to be unsociable when making friends, and was seen as provocative and arrogant, thus causing more misunderstandings.

"I, I'm here to check your injuries and reapply medicine."

Fortunately, the little girl seemed to have a good ability to control her mentality. She quickly broke free from her nervousness, walked forward, and looked at her carefully.

Like you're afraid of being kicked out by her?

Although it does seem unreliable to let a child do such a thing, judging from the information in memory, this world seems to have a very magical power, and trying to trust the other person is also the first step to integrating into the world.

"Then trouble you."

Youya blinked, relaxed her body as much as possible, leaned against the pillow, and pretended to let her examine her.

This cooperation made Barbara feel much more comfortable, and she smiled unabashedly, sat down on the edge of her bed, gently raised her hand, and checked whether the bandage showed any signs of falling off or the ointment leaked.

The joy in my heart was diluted as the inspection continued, and even pity arose.

Before she came, she had actually been reminded by Lady Maria, and she also knew the other party's family, the notorious old aristocrat Lawrence.

In the stories and poems circulating in Mond now, nine out of ten characters are villains, and one is a traitor.

And because of her family background, she knew even more historical facts. She also knew the tyranny and crimes that Lawrence had committed against the people of Mond in the past, and he had not repented to this day.

But is it really okay to treat a child in such a cruel way?

There were many scars on the other person's arm, many of which were old wounds that had not yet healed, countless bruises and even scars from being cut by sharp objects. All of them proved the fact that the girl in front of her, who was even smaller than her, was being abused.

She lowered her head silently, not wanting the other person to see her out-of-control expression, and the lively smile that should have continued on her face became stiff.

If her father saw it, he would definitely say that her smile was too bitter and ugly, and would easily make the patient depressed.

"You seem a little unhappy, do you want some candy?"

While she was distracted, the girl named Youya continued to ask in a voice as if she didn't know what pain was.

"As long as I eat candy, I will feel happy."

At the same time, she used her free hand to hand her a piece of red candy in bright packaging. This was the "pain-relieving elixir" distributed to children in the church yesterday.

Barbara wanted to smile back, to thank her for her kindness, but she couldn't...

Chapter 3 Two parallel lines!

How sad and pitiful a child must be to equate eating candy with happiness?

Barbara didn't know that she was born in a good family and had been a sunny and likable child since childhood.

Although she is a little clumsy and often fails, she always picks herself up quickly and tries again. Even now, in a high position as the father of the "Cardinal of Dawn", Simon Page marvels at her resilience.

Therefore, although she has an older sister who is known as the "pride of the family", the shadow behind her glory does not completely cover up the color that belongs to Barbara.

That’s right, even though she is not as good as her sister in swordsmanship and study, she still has her own shining side.

Naturally, family factors are crucial in cultivating a child with such a character.

Although her father and mother chose to part ways last year due to differences in their philosophies, and she followed her father away from her sister and mother, she can still answer without hesitation that Barbara is a loved child.

Even if a loved child fails temporarily, he or she will have the opportunity to start over again!

However, the life of the girl in front of her named Youya is completely opposite to hers.

Perhaps she had been thinking for too long, and when she heard the other person's voice again, it was too late.

The hand that was stretched out to her shrank back slightly, and his eyes as pure as pearls also showed a hint of loss.

"Don't eat?"

"No, nothing happened! It's just that I didn't expect to get a gift from you, ahem! I'm very excited to receive a gift from you, Miss Lawrence."

Barbara reacted quickly and grabbed the girl's hand, speaking in a coaxing tone.

Normally she doesn't need to do this. After all, most patients have good tempers and won't lose their temper easily or care too much about the issue of address.

But what should their family say about Miss Lawrence, who came from the old aristocracy...

Most of the people coming out of this family are a group of guys who are used to being arrogant to the common people, and even to the current nobles, they act like so-called "nobles".

His tyranny was so severe that even a gentle child like Barbara would have felt troubled.

In the past, when someone from the Lawrence family came to see the doctor, the doctor became furious because the Reverend Qi Li who was treating him was a civilian. He kicked the person out and refused to apologize.

But because he was injured, there was nothing we could do for him and we could only tolerate him.

Over time, the church hospital also figured out a way to deal with this group of guys. As long as they flatter them as much as possible, and coax these guys who are indulged in the beautiful dreams of the past ruling class like coaxing children, they can at least keep them quiet for a while.

As for whether they would be carried back due to other accidents right after being discharged from the hospital, that was none of their business.

After all, this group of face-conscious guys always demand the highest medical treatment, and the consultation fees are not cheap.

Although there were some fools who regarded themselves as old nobles and thought that this was once their territory and refused to pay the consultation fees, the members of the Knights stationed outside did not mind beating them up for personal revenge.

But right now, whether it is to appease the other person's mood or to make the subsequent treatment go more smoothly, it will never be wrong to use this tone that seems to admire the other person.

only--

"No need to use honorifics." The girl looked into her eyes and said softly, "And don't force yourself to use that unfamiliar attitude."

Before this, Barbara had never thought that the communication between her and her would unfold in this way.

Seeing her confusion, Youya added: "If I remember correctly, this is the second floor of the church. Although it was once a room used by the old nobles for talks, it is now only a place for the injured to recuperate. And our first level of relationship should be that of the benefactor and the beneficiary, right?"

She placed the candy in the other's palm and continued.

"Maybe we'll talk about my last name later, but I'd rather talk to Barbara about something else. After all, if I talk to you in that tone, you might find it weird. For example—"

She cleared her throat and read.

"Ah, dear Miss Lawrence, with my help, your wound has healed well!" "Oh! That's great, you have earned the opportunity to become a formal prayer minister, Miss Trainee Prayer Minister."

Barbara was amused by her flattery and giggled non-stop, and Youya also stopped at the right time with a sincere look in her eyes.

"So, if you don't mind, how about we change our names?

After all, we've had a great start, so it wouldn't be nice to end with 'See you tomorrow, Yuya' and 'See you tomorrow, Barbara', right?"

Barbara stared blankly at the girl in front of her who was smiling at her. Someone once told her, "Barbara has a very cute smile. She is like an angel."

But no one had ever told her that the descendants of sinners could also laugh so purely.

There was neither fear of the illness nor resistance to her in those beautiful eyes. She was hurt so deeply that she should have rejected the outside world like a hedgehog.

But why did she feel as dazzling as a sunflower?

Young Barbara couldn't think of an answer.

So, she followed her heart, called the other person's name, and said goodbye to her.

This is also the story of how she first met her.

--evening.

Eula came to visit her later than she had said yesterday. The redness and swelling that she had seen yesterday had completely disappeared, and there was no sign of any injury.

This is indeed a physique that Yuya envies...

Of course, it is also possible that she went back and applied external wound medicine on it. After all, she is the eldest daughter of the Lawrence family, and her "face" to the outside world is still very important.

However, Yuya was sincerely happy to see her recover.

"Good evening, Sister Eula."

"...Good evening, Yuya. Sorry I'm late." Yula sat beside her bed and explained why she was late: "The family trial arrangement disrupted my original plan."

She hopes to obtain the Lawrence family's crest, the "Seal of Solid Ice".

It is the supreme symbol of the family's military power, and also represents the will of the Lawrence family that had not yet fallen in the early days of Mondstadt's reclamation: cold and noble, unafraid of wrath, tenacious and calm, and unshakable.

Over the past thousand years, only a few people have been able to successfully pass the family trial. And this family emblem and the hope of the family will be passed on to the recipient.

If he wanted to break away from the shackles of the Lawrence family, live a life determined by his own decisions, or even - take his cousin Youya away from this whirlpool.

This is what she must acquire, or master.

It's something that makes people feel extremely stressed and almost suffocated just by listening to it.

Therefore, Youya handed her the paper crane she had folded while chatting with Barbara today, and comforted her softly.

"It doesn't matter. Even the wind has to race against time—"

She smiled faintly again as Eula seemed a little awkward, as if she wanted to take it but hesitated, wondering if it would make her look too childish.

"So, don't apologize to me. That would be a shame."

"Why, why?"

The cute girl who had fallen into her gentle trap asked stupidly.

"Because every moment I spend with Sister Eula is very happy. It doesn't lose its luster because of the reduction in the time we spend together. On the contrary, it becomes more precious."

Youya held the paper crane in her palm and handed it to her, giving Youla what she wanted most at the moment.

Perhaps, judging from the surface, it is recognition from others.

But for cousin Eula, it's more than that.

For her, who grew up in the Lawrence family, the meaning of recognition has long been tainted by worldly comparisons.

Only those who truly care about her can give her recognition.

Even though she is still young, she is trapped in the bloody fate of being the descendant of sinners, so she will inevitably come into contact with more philosophical things.

What is the nature of past hatreds?

Is it the tragic fate of the family or an unfortunate past event?

What does revenge mean?

Should I seek justice for myself, or should I throw all those who hate me into the abyss of annihilation?

For this young cousin who has her own ideas, the so-called family glory, the respect of ordinary people, or returning the family to the top of the ruling pinnacle are actually unimportant.

From these two times of interacting with each other, she could feel that the other party was not someone who was obsessed with this.

Then, it will become her childhood memory and even make her regret for the rest of her life.

The key point to focus on is what "Eula" wants.

Saving this poor little sister was due to her kind nature, and also because she hoped to gain her own "self" by saving her.

Unconstrained by the family, this is Eula's philosophy of survival, Eula's pursuit, and Eula's unremitting persistence...

Therefore, she hopes to get the answer by saving her cousin "Youya".

So Youya only needs to do two things.

The first is to affirm that this pursuit of "self" is correct.

The second is to tell Eula not to worry too much about her. Before taking care of her, please take better care of yourself.

——Care is a two-way process, just like a man’s expectation for his wife is not just a cohabitant or a mother of his children, but a companion who can share the joys and sorrows of this world with him.

She is also lonely, so now that she has this spiritual home, she will cherish this companionship even more.

Only in this way can you naturally make the other person regard you as a cherished and irreplaceable "family member", and when she leaves, it will turn into a regret that will be remembered for a lifetime.

But...the guilt in my heart has deepened.