My love game with them that will lead to certain death

Even though she knew that it was impossible for people to understand each other, she still hoped that someone would smile and accept everything about her after knowing her dark side.

Originally, the neighbor boy who always greeted her with a smile no matter what happened was such a person.

Even on community children's activity days, when she should have been taken out by her mother to socialize, she would have a social phobia and stay at home refusing to go out. The boy would smile and say, "There's really nothing we can do~" and then stay at home to play with her alone.

Originally, in Goto Ichiri's heart, he was the most special person in this simulation.

Unfortunately, people change.

When the Goto family welcomed this smiling guest, Pochi-chan's inner alarm actually sounded.

"You are so old, but you still stay at home all day. I can't do anything about you. It seems that being completely out of touch with society is the fate of a caterpillar."

Although he smiled politely and looked like a good boy, he actually always whispered sarcasm in a voice that only he and Pochi could hear.

"Hey, isn't this Xiao Che? Long time no see, are you here to chat with Yili? You two can go to your rooms and reminisce~"

Pochi's mother was very considerate and left them some space to be alone together. She tied Pochi's father's tie, who would act very nervous when he saw a man talking to her daughter, and brought him to her side, while Goto Jiri, who had a confused look in his eyes, stayed in the living room.

Well, now it's just the two of us, Pochi and I, and we can do whatever we want...!

Miss Pochi was also on pins and needles. She had never expected that this young man would break her comfort zone and come to her like he did when they were children.

"Well... Actually, it's like this. I did something a little too much before... I thought I should come and apologize to you, Caterpillar, anyway."

But to her surprise, the curly-haired boy's attitude was extremely gentle this time.

"Eh, no...it's okay..."

Pochi-chan, who had already prepared herself to hide in the closet after being bullied by Ming Hai, blinked to make sure she was not dreaming.

"Narumi-kun, you don't bully others... How rare!"

And if you look closely at the boy's face, you can find that he is actually quite handsome. If he doesn't deliberately show a mean and aggressive look, he can even be said to be approachable.

I wish Narumi-kun could always be so gentle - Pochi-chan prayed secretly in her heart.

"Well, but I'm a little thirsty now. Caterpillar, can you bring me something to drink? I don't want coke this time, black tea will do."

“Oh, okay, okay…”

Pochi stood up in a daze, took small steps down from her room to the first floor, and under her mother's surprised gaze, she made a pot of tea with clumsy movements, and then brought it up in a hurry.

"And then there's dessert - you always have to have something sweet with your tea."

"Okay okay."

Then Pochi-chan went back to the kitchen on the first floor and got some cakes and bread.

"Hmm~ By the way, Caterpillar, do you have any other drinks at home? I want to drink canned coffee, please, please."

Then Pochi-chan could only run to a nearby vending machine to buy the coffee drink specified by a certain curly-haired boy.

and many more.

“You’re still ordering me around, right?!”

After returning to the second-floor bedroom with a can of coffee, Pochi realized belatedly that she seemed to have been CPU-ed.

"Oh, thank you, thank you~"

Ming Hai lazily took the plastic bag, drank the coffee that Pochi had just bought, and cast his eyes on the guitar placed in the corner.

"By the way, can you play the guitar for me?"

"What the hell is going on! Why are you speaking as if you were performing a show for your relatives and friends during the New Year?"

"Why, why... I don't really understand..."

After being ordered around like this by Ming Hai several times, even Pochi couldn't help but muster up the courage to ask questions.

"I... just want to get along well with Narumi-kun, why... do you always treat me like this... is there something I haven't done well enough...?"

She tugged at the corner of her clothes, looking at the curly-haired boy who was sitting cross-legged in his room like a big shot. Even though she was treated so harshly, she was still reflecting on what she had not done well enough.

"Is it because I broke the contract that you're still brooding over it? I'm, I'm sorry..."

"…I do mind it a little, but it's not about this."

The boy restrained the lazy smile on his face, and after a moment of silence, he turned his head away somewhat awkwardly.

"Because other than that, I don't know how to talk to you."

“Eh, eh?”

"Idiot, you're so noisy, don't make me say it a second time."

He turned around and ignored Pochi, and in order to avoid saying too much and making more mistakes, he started stuffing bread into his mouth frantically.

Pochi-chan stood there in a daze, and it took her a while to realize what was going on.

"So, in other words... Narumi-kun doesn't really hate me... He just doesn't know how to talk to me, so he keeps using some excessive behavior to get closer to me...?"

So clumsy! But Goto Ichiri was surprisingly understandable!

"No, no, no, it's okay, I don't care at all!"

Feeling somewhat remorseful, she picked up the guitar. Although her movements were still a little stiff, she still mustered up the courage to clear her throat.

"I-I'll play a piece for you, Narumi-kun!"

"As compensation for not being able to understand his twisted true feelings...!"

Ming Hai let down his slightly awkward guard and looked at Pochi who was sitting in front of him and playing the prelude, but another thought emerged in his mind.

"What a cute and sensible caterpillar. She didn't doubt at all that I was just pretending to be so tsundere just to make her feel guilty."

I think the strategy of giving a slap and then a candy is very suitable for dealing with Pochi-chan. First bully her severely and then say to her with tears in your eyes, "I'm sorry, this is not my intention. I just don't know how to express my true feelings." I think she will definitely forgive you if she says that.

Oops, Ms. Pochi, you are a scumbag making machine.

"Fortunately, you met a kind-hearted passerby named Toru, who had no ill intentions and only wanted to help you realize your dream. He wanted to bully you just out of pure curiosity, and he had no ill intentions at all."

[I didn't expect you to act this way, but let me remind you that time is limited, so please don't go too far.]

As if the system finally couldn't stand it anymore, its voice appeared in Minghai's mind after a long absence.

And along with it, there were also some sudden conditions that appeared in Minghai's body.

On the way home, Ming Hai, who was planning to buy some more wine to finish a few bottles, felt his hands and feet a little weak, his breathing became labored and his consciousness gradually became blurred - he even felt a knife-like pain in his upper abdomen, which made him retch uncontrollably.

Ming Hai understood that the side effects of long-term alcohol and smoking had arrived with the system's verdict.

And this may also mean that he doesn't have much time left.

Chapter 29: Mental Patients in the 21st Century

[Although it took you some time to realize some of your hidden physical ailments in this simulation, don't worry, I will always remind you at the right time. ]

[You have been drinking and smoking since you came into contact with rock music. It is impossible for you not to be sick. Moreover, you often stay up late in Internet cafes, staying up all night. Even young people with good physical fitness cannot withstand such destruction over the years. ]

Is it true that being associated with rock music can lead to health problems? Well, not many rock singers live long.

[If the gastrointestinal problems caused by alcoholism are left untreated, they are likely to develop into diseases as severe as gastric perforation. However, your body has more than just this hidden danger. Respiratory diseases caused by smoking, endocrine disorders caused by long-term poor work and rest, and other major and minor problems accumulate together. If you don't adjust them in time, your body will be as weak as a candle in the wind, and it is only a matter of time before it ends. ]

"But I don't have the time to adjust, nor do I have that option...right?"

[Not that it is impossible. If it were in reality, I would certainly encourage you to exercise actively, but I can only say that doing so is likely to deviate from the optimal outcome you can achieve in this simulation, so please be careful.]

Even though I've reminded you to this point, you're still a very nice person.

"I know. This game is supposed to end with my death. I have to die sooner or later."

The system simply accelerated the process of death so that he could reach the end sooner.

[So, you have participated in this with the mentality of being ready to die, right? ]

Yes, Goto Ichiri’s wish was actually there from the beginning.

Become a shining person, playing your beloved guitar, without having to flatter anyone or go against one's will for a living, forcing yourself to do things you don't like at all.

Knowing this, Ming Hai is determined to win this simulation.

[A wise choice. In order to alleviate your pain, I will speed up the following process for you. Please tell me what you will do next——? ]

There was once a saying that goes like this: If you want the person you like to like you too, you have to become a cat with a moody temperament, a tiger with all the bluffing, or a dog that gets wet in the rain.

Now is the time to become the most ferocious tiger.

【I see. 】

[After becoming an uninvited guest at the Goto family's home, your relationship with Goto Ichiri actually eased somewhat - it's better to say that her unilateral opinion of you changed a lot, so from then on she would often tolerate your bad temper and unwarranted teasing and ridicule.]

[But you knew this but still did it knowingly, and even became more arrogant after Ms. Pochi relaxed her limits on you. ]

[You will cue the end of your band in front of the audience after their performance, and make sarcastic remarks to the shy guitarist among them, or even shout some mindless words at her without knowing what is good for her.]

[When the relationship between the two bands was very strained, you, as a member of a third-rate band, finally accepted an invitation from the organizer, but you deliberately invited the end band to "warm up" for you, which can be said to be extremely provocative. ]

[But the above frictions are actually something that fans of underground bands talk about with great relish. After all, conflicts between bands will only make them produce better works, so everyone likes to hear about it. ]

[But in the same way, when there is a big technical competition between bands, of course the one who is less skilled will be booed, and whoever is worse will be embarrassed.]

[You are a mediocre person, and you and the other three teammates who only treat the band as entertainment, so it is normal for you to end the band. Goto Ichiri did not resist your pressure and bullying, on the contrary, she has been tolerant and retreating - it seems that because she has seen your soft side, she firmly believes that you are not such an excessive person. ]

[But even though she had been holding back her anger, some people still couldn't sit still. ]

"I say... no matter how immoral you are, there must be a limit."

Contrary to expectations, this time it wasn't the people around Pochi who spoke up for her, but rather it was Ming Hai's own teammates who couldn't stand it anymore.

"I...originally thought that you, Ming Hai, were not that kind of person. You were just simply saying one thing and thinking another and not good at speaking."

In the lounge after he provocatively ended the band and was booed off the stage by the audience, Hayato Hayama sorted his belongings with a grim face and his tone was unusually cold.

“But why do you always do those annoying things... There is nothing wrong with ending the band, why do you always have to make enemies with others again and again...”

"After all, we are companions. If you really have something to hide, you can tell us clearly."

Hikigaya Hachiman was silent for a long time before he responded to Hayama's words. Although he looked extremely calm, Ming Hai could also see some doubt and unhappiness in his dead fish eyes.

It is normal for them not to understand me. After all, what he did was something that would make any normal person unhappy and question "Is this guy sick?"

And this is exactly the effect Ming Hai wants to achieve.

Therefore, it is even more impossible to explain it clearly to them at this time.

I feel sorry for these three, but it is difficult to find companions in a simulation.

The people you rely on, and even place some of your feelings on, will most likely no longer remember these things that are extremely important to you after this simulation - so there is no need to do these useless efforts from the beginning.

"...You guys are so noisy too."

So, Ming Hai just turned his head away with a little annoyance and refused to communicate. At the same time, he lit another cigarette while coughing.

"……Ugh."

Someone sighed.

"If I had known you were this kind of bad guy who enjoys torturing others... I wouldn't have joined this band in the first place."

When he finished smoking the cigarette and looked back, he found that his three companions had left the lounge quietly.

"Pochi-chan, don't be so gentle to him next time! We can't always be by your side to take care of you. If you are humiliated by that guy again, you must stand up and protect yourself!"

Faintly he could hear the conversation of the band that had just finished smoking in the lounge next door. Ming Hai simply smiled and put out his burnt cigarette - he would have to try it to be sure that he didn't actually like this stuff, but he just couldn't quit it yet.

He took out a painkiller from his bag and swallowed it with water. The physical pain and fatigue made it difficult for him to put on any ostentatious expression.

"You look so pale, do you want to go to the hospital?"

From the open door of the lounge came a voice he had not expected.

The short-haired girl with a guitar case on her back looked at the curly-haired boy who was sitting in the corner in a somewhat dejected manner and taking painkillers, and raised her eyebrows.

"I can take you there, but you have to pay for the medical expenses yourself."

It was at this moment that Ming Hai discovered it.

The only time he was not acting out his "dog drenched by the rain" look was when only Yamada Ryo noticed it.

Chapter 30: A Dance with the Evil

"The bassist of the band that ended up having an offline party with the bassist of a notorious third-rate band... Let's not even mention what the fans who like to watch the fun will think if the news gets out. Your band members will probably feel uncomfortable too."