Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

"Have you ever done anything like this before?"

“Yes.” My voice dropped to a low level.

"The results of it?"

"It's terrible. The result is that I hurt myself and others. What I created is so illusory that it is not what I expected at all. It's like a worm-eaten wooden stake. It is solid on the outside, but the inside is already full of scars."

"Really? Hikigaya-sensei, you've been through a lot more than I thought."

"Of course. Everyone has a lot of experiences to grow up and mature, and you will never be able to understand them all. What I'm telling you now is only a small part of mine..."

High school is one thing, college is another...

If I care about it now, it is not something that I can easily say. If letting go of everything before is maturity, then I am probably just an immature person now.

Although this feeling is cruel, it is a reality that we have to face.

"That's true... everyone's experiences are different." Origina's voice was as low as mine. Perhaps he was infected by me and couldn't help but become like this.

Experience, everyone’s experience is different... Wait, I seem to have overlooked something very crucial.

"Orikusa, do you know when Niwa showed his affection for Rumi? Was it after they had known each other for a while?"

"Eh? Why are you asking this all of a sudden? We're not in the same class, so I'm not really sure. But since it was such a big deal, I've heard about it. It seems like it's been like that since the beginning..."

As soon as school started? According to Rumei, she shouldn't have known Niwa before.

The breakthrough has been found.

"Thank you, Origina."

"Hey, what? Why do you suddenly want to say thank you?"

"Thanks to you, I finally know what to do. Thank you so much! You really deserve to be my wife!"

"Wait, you mixed in sexual harassment in the middle, didn't you?"

Chapter 186 Hikigaya Hachiman works hard for Tsurumi Rumi

"It's not sexual harassment. I was just complimenting my wife." I smiled shyly, perfectly interpreting what a normal playful conversation between a couple is like.

But unlike me, Origina looked extremely weak, as if all her energy had been drained away. She was desperately rubbing her temples with her hands.

Is it the burnout period? Indeed, such symptoms will appear after being married for a long time... Origina took a deep breath and did not continue to entangle with me on this issue. She turned to ask me: "What does it mean to find a breakthrough? Do you know how to do it?"

"Of course, I found the key to this problem."

Confused by my confident smile, Origina looked like she didn't believe what I said at all.

"It was so hopeless just now, as if it was about to destroy the earth. It's hard to believe that it suddenly turned out like this."

"You really can't speak!"

How could my expression just now look like the world was going to end? And even if the world was to end, Qianye would not be destroyed. Qianye would always exist in my heart!

"So, what's the key? Please explain it in detail." Zhecao said impatiently.

"The key point is why Niwa treated the students in the United States specially? It can be said that Niwa's special treatment was the cause of the incident of studying in the United States, right?"

"That's right."

"So, we just need to think about why Niwa treats Rumi like this. If he didn't get along with Rumi in a special way when school started, then we can conclude that Niwa only started to like Rumi later. But if he treated Rumi specially from the beginning, what do you think was the reason?"

"Well..." Origina paused for a moment, then expressed his guess: "Niwa-san and Tsurumi-san actually knew each other for a long time?"

"That's right. Niwa doesn't seem like the type to start pursuing someone the moment they meet."

Girls, please be careful. If someone starts pursuing you as soon as you meet him, either he has ulterior motives or he has been secretly in love with you for a long time without you knowing. However, most of the time, it is the former.

"But didn't Tsurumi Rumi say that she didn't know Niwa before?" Orikusa frowned at the two contradictory conclusions: "Isn't this contradictory?"

"That's right." I nodded in agreement with Origina's conclusion: "Under normal circumstances, that's right. If we rule out Niwa as a scumbag who would pursue someone the moment he meets her, then there is only one option left."

"Mr. Hikigaya, your smug face is really disgusting..." After putting on a signature smile in front of me, like the protagonist in a light novel who is about to reveal the truth, Origusa interrupted me mercilessly. What an unlovable person...

"Cough!" I pretended to cough to ease my embarrassment, but what I got in return was an even more unbearable look from Origina.

So, here we should put on an expression of admiration. Such an expression of disgust is not in line with common sense, and it should at least be more in line with the protagonist's self-awareness.

"There is only one conclusion left, and that is that Niwa had a crush on Rumei for a long time, and then he launched a special offensive when he was in high school." I expressed the conclusion after thinking about it.

"Eh!"

What I got in return was Origina's surprised sigh. After the remaining sound died down, I said proudly: "It seems that this conclusion should be correct!"

“Why do you base your conclusions on my reaction?”

"Common sense."

"I'm sorry, I still don't have the common sense to do this." Origina's expression changed from surprise to disgust: "Please explain to me why you came to this conclusion?"

"What? Do you think this is impossible?"

"It's not impossible, I just feel..." Orikusa pressed his finger against his lips and thought, "It's a little unbelievable. Because, it always feels unreal that someone like President Niwa would have a crush on someone."

"That's right." I didn't deny Orikasa's idea. After all, if I heard that Hayama had a crush on someone when I was in high school, I would probably just sneer at him.

If Ye Shan is such an outstanding person, he will definitely pursue someone boldly if he likes someone. It is really strange that such a person has a secret crush on someone. Moreover, outstanding people are surrounded by outstanding people. In other words, there are also many outstanding girls who like Ye Shan around him. It is really hard to believe that such a person is just secretly in love with someone.

"I can understand how you feel."

"Eh!" Motochu Gui shuddered after hearing my voice: "Why do I feel a chill because of your resonance with Mr. Hikigaya?"

Are you here on purpose to cause trouble?

"This is the only conclusion we can draw. Everyone's experience is definitely not as simple as it seems. If we want to find an entry point, we can only start from Niwa's past, or from his past in the United States to see if there is any intersection with Niwa."

"That's right, but why do I feel like something is wrong?" At this time, Origusa and I had already come to the vending machine. We each ordered what our respective student council members wanted to drink.

"What's wrong?" I looked at Origami. My thinking should be correct. I took out a cloth bag from my pocket and put the things I bought in it. Origami didn't seem to have brought anything like a bag, so I reached out and opened my bag and faced Origami.

"What. What?" Zheca took a few steps back and looked at me in confusion.

Is the setting of automatically retreating when meeting me effective?

"Put the drink in. Isn't it inconvenient for you to hold it like this?"

"Huh?" Orushona looked even more confused, but then he obediently put the drinks he bought into the cloth bag.

"As expected, adults think more carefully."

"If you have such thoughts, aren't you just being childish?"

Origina completely denied what I said, but his eyes no longer showed the rejection and disgust as before. On the contrary, it seemed like there was a hint of a joke between friends.

"Continuing with the topic just now, I think the way I think about this is a bit strange. If President Niwa really had a crush on Rumi before, then even if he didn't say it, Rumi should have noticed it. You see, no matter what such an outstanding person does, it will affect others. If he really has a crush on Rumi, even if he didn't take action before, he would definitely show it. If you think like this, I think other people should also have some opinions about him."

It is true that if a person likes someone, even if he does not want to show it, it will still be revealed in some subtle places in life. In simple terms, liking someone is not under your control, and at the same time, the behavior of liking someone is also not under your control.

If you like someone, you will naturally care about her actions, what she says, and her contact with other people of the opposite sex. Even if you are not aware of it, gradually, you will only see her figure, hear her voice, and your heart will only have everything about her.

This is a natural change that is beyond your control...

"If they really had a crush on each other before, then President Niwa would have received a lot of attention from the others, and naturally rumors would have spread. As long as there were rumors, then Tsurumi-san would have heard some of them. So if Tsurumi-san didn't have any impression of him, then it could only be that President Niwa hadn't expressed too much of his feelings for Tsurumi-san before."

"It sounds reasonable, but if that's true, Niwa should have fallen in love with Rumei after entering high school, which doesn't match the existing information..." It's really a headache.

After much discussion, the conclusion reached is a conclusion that is completely contrary to the facts, which makes people feel helpless and at a loss.

Did I have a blind spot in my thinking before? But it shouldn't be the case. My inference should be correct and the direction of my thinking should be correct. But if that is the case, why is my inference contrary to the facts...

Because I was stuck in a dead end, I suddenly became extremely nervous and my hands kept shaking.

"Mr. Hikigaya, calm down." As I looked around anxiously, Origina quietly grabbed my hand.

"At least the direction is correct, right?" Origina's voice contained a rare hint of tenderness, which made me wonder if I had heard it wrongly.

"Although we haven't come to a correct conclusion yet, now that the direction has been confirmed, we can just work hard to collect more information. You don't have to be so anxious. Don't we still have a week?" Origina comforted me.

"That's true." I laughed softly. I was too childish for being so serious before.

Since the direction is not wrong, the reason for getting the wrong conclusion is that the information you have is not enough. Then, just continue to collect intelligence. If you know more information, you will definitely get the correct conclusion.

At that time, I will be able to use the correct method to save those studying in the United States and the rest of the people.

"That's a good point. If the conclusion is wrong, then continue to dig for useful information."

"Well, if you keep working hard like this, you will definitely be able to achieve your goal, Mr. Hikigaya."

"What a caring wife!"

Origina's face instantly darkened. Wow, that looked really scary. He definitely didn't want to be looked at like that again!

"So, this is sexual harassment. How many times do you want me to emphasize this?"

"My wife can't be that arrogant."

"..."

This helpless expression is also great!

A person's experience cannot be easily guessed, and you will never know how heavy a person's past is.

But this time, in order to study in the United States, I must learn about Niwa's past.

Chapter 187 Panic, Hikigaya Hachiman's unexpected arrival

Back in the student union office, the atmosphere inside has not changed much. Everyone is working hard. In such a tense atmosphere, it is indeed difficult to relax.

I took out the drink that belonged to Haibin High School and gave it to Origina. After Origina nodded to me, he took the drink and returned to Haibin High School.

I distributed the drinks I bought to the student union members of our school. Everyone who received the drinks looked up and thanked me, but Ben Chugui said nothing, without even the slightest movement, as if I didn't exist at all.

This is the only way for now. This kind of relationship will probably last for a long time. At least until Ben Chugui tells me the truth, it will be impossible for us to return to our previous relationship.

Moreover, maybe, even if I knew the truth, our relationship might not be able to go back to the way it was before.

Everything will have to wait until the day I know the truth. Although I have a vague guess of what happened, I still don't want to believe it is really like that. All the clues may just be coincidences, but if it is really like that...

Thinking about something vague and unconfirmable is completely meaningless, so I took out my laptop and started typing. The initial stage has passed, and now it is almost the stage of saving the manuscript. This stage is the most relaxing and comfortable to write, without the editor rushing you, and you don’t have to worry about some plot settings.

Well, in other words, it is a stage where you can do well without much effort. Even at this stage, I have to keep some backup plans. If one day the editor suddenly starts to urge me to submit without any warning, and I have to start working hard again, I might still be a little overwhelmed. Don't ask me why I know this so clearly. Alas, it was Hikigaya Hachiman's tragic life that taught me all this...

Well, this is all for the future, I'll deal with it when the time comes, just get out of work! Wait? Am I setting a goal now that I can't finish the manuscript on time? This is not a good thing, I have to work hard, and try to have no editors urging me to update the manuscript throughout the year!

Speaking of editors, Isise seemed to have asked me to treat her to a meal before. I don’t know if this counts as cheating by using my personal relationships. If I use a broad definition, it shouldn’t count…

Well, if I have a good relationship with the editor, there are many benefits for me. Of course, I don't mean being lazy or anything like that. Also, I can be very happy to give a few days' grace when the deadline is tight, saying that we are all acquaintances. Of course, I do this not to delay the manuscript or buy time, I just want to have more time to revise my manuscript, which is also for the readers to complete high-quality works!

Well, it seems that I have to get along well with Isshiki from now on. But judging from her personality, the price I have to pay won't be too small...

Thinking of Isshiki before, I don't know what the relationship between Isshiki and Hayama is like now. In reality, it has been almost five years since graduation, and there shouldn't be much contact between the two. But no matter what, that person is Isshiki. Maybe she has some way to continue to contact Hayama. After all, she is Isshiki. This reason alone is enough. However, there is also Miura, who is a classmate of Hayama, as a competitor. And I heard that after graduation, Miura also worked hard to get into the same university as Hayama. From this point of view, whether it is time or space, Miura has an absolute advantage, so Miura is not impossible.

Old classmates? After graduation, the only people I still keep in touch with are Zaimokuza, Yuigahama, Yukinoshita, and the little angel Totsuka. The rest of them have been completely removed from my life and contact list. By the way, in the above list, the one who occupies my first place, or can be said to be my belief, is Totsuka!

There will be a class reunion later, and I don’t know how I will face my old classmates then... It’s normal to have such complicated feelings. After all, it’s people you haven’t seen for a long time and suddenly you have to meet them. It’s normal for people to feel a little nervous.

The perfect Ye Shan? I wonder if he is still trying to live up to everyone's expectations.

I don’t know if Hu Bu, who is always making a lot of noise behind Ye Shan, is still responsible for creating the atmosphere and making complaints. Also, next time we meet, I will make sure he calls me by my correct name.

As for Ebina-san...I would be thankful if you would stop thinking about weird things all the time.

Miura Yumiko? I wonder if this person's motherly personality still exists. It's almost time for her and Hayama to have a ending.

Why do I suddenly have so many feelings? Although I am very nervous, if I think so carefully, wouldn't it make me look abnormal? I feel that my personality is about to collapse. Am I looking forward to meeting Ye Shan and the others? Maybe, I am not really looking forward to it. Many times, people will have this feeling. Obviously, they don’t care about things or people, but after a long separation, if they meet those people again one day, or do something they did before, then naturally, a feeling called nostalgia will emerge in your heart.

To use a metaphor, it is like when you are in school, you complain about the school system and the dean of studies, but after you graduate, all that is left in your heart is the simple nostalgia for your alma mater and the love for your former teachers.

If a person has never experienced loss, he will not be able to truly cherish everything he has.

As I was daydreaming like this and typing my novel from time to time, the meeting was soon over.

Since I knew where Liumei lived, I left the student union office and went directly to his home in the United States.

I haven’t spoken a word to Ben Chugui today, and I don’t know how long this situation will last.

"Grandpa, I'm here again." I greeted my grandfather who was studying in the United States in the cabin, carrying some fruits.

"You're here!" Grandpa's voice sounded very happy and surprised. Maybe he didn't expect that I would come again today after just coming yesterday.

I was here as a teacher to inspect the family, and most of the time I wouldn't do a home visit for two consecutive days. It's normal that grandpa didn't expect it.

"Hey, did you bring any fruit? You're so polite, teacher."