Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

"Senior, what happened?"

"No, nothing."

"No matter how you look at it, she's cute..." Isshiki wanted to continue speaking, but after looking up and meeting my gaze, she immediately stopped talking and fell silent.

Neither of us spoke again. After a long, long time, Isshiki finally spoke: "Do you want to go back?"

"Ah."

"Then I'm going to go back to where I was just now to get the things I bought, and Senior, please..."

"I'll go back first." After saying that, I prepared to leave.

"What is that? That's too much! You want a girl as cute and delicate as me to carry so many things back by myself? Senior, are you such an excessive person?" Isshiki jumped in front of me as soon as he saw my actions and stopped me.

"It's okay, right? You can take a taxi back, and when you get to school, just ask your friends to help you take it back."

"But senior..."

"Stop talking!" I yelled at her like a madman, "Stop talking!"

Frightened by my aura, Isshiki took a few steps back unconsciously.

After that, I fled the place again.

So, is this really the case?

After returning home, I fell on the sofa and buried my head deeply into the sofa cushion.

It's true. I had suspected before whether Ben Chugui knew Qian Yeying. Now it seems that it is indeed the case, so she took me to such a place today.

"Ah!" I screamed and smashed the sofa cushions everywhere.

"That guy, he obviously doesn't know anything, why would he do anything?!"

"You kept talking to yourself like this and never told me anything, but you had to quarrel with me. And today you made me meet the person I least wanted to see!"

"It was like this at the beginning. He suddenly appeared beside me like this. Is this the ultimate purpose? Was it to torture me like this from the beginning?"

"Ming, Mingming knows nothing..."

I kept shouting in the living room, venting my anger.

"Mingming, I know nothing." I fell on the sofa as if I had used up my last bit of strength. I murmured weakly, collapsing like a person who failed in business and went bankrupt.

What did I do wrong?

I had a dream, a very absurd dream.

In my dream, I went back to the time when I first entered college. It was a very long time ago, so long ago that I couldn’t remember the specific details.

But why, why, everything becomes so clear in the dream?

I should have forgotten everything a long time ago. I should have forgotten everything that happened that day a long time ago. I should have given up everything a long time ago...

But why do I feel like I want it to not end like this? Why do I feel like I want to go back to that place again?

Why, after seeing all that, I don’t want to wake up again?

I did realize that I was in a dream, but why was I reluctant to wake up?

"Are you a new student? I have an interesting club here, do you want to join?"

The familiar voice is exactly the same as it was at that time, without any changes. Neither the blooming cherry blossoms nor the sunny smile has changed at all.

Really, no change at all.

If this was a dream, then I should have rejected it from the beginning. If I had known from the beginning that this would be the ending...

"Xiao Qi, Xiao Qi, Xiao Qi!" Someone shook my body and woke me up from my sleep.

"Ah, Yuigahama." I stood up and pressed my forehead with my hand.

"Xiaoqi, what's wrong? You look really bad now!" Yuigahama looked at me worriedly: "Did something happen?"

I didn't answer Yuigahama right away. After a long while, I shook my head.

"No, nothing's wrong, except that I'm dying."

"but……"

"It's okay, Yuigahama. Since he himself said it's okay, it means everything is fine." Behind Yuigahama, Yukinoshita looked at me and said.

Is Yukinoshita back too?

"What a terrifying destructive power! Did you find a bunch of friends to play the cushion throwing game in the living room?" Yukinoshita said as she looked at the cushions I had thrown around.

"This joke is not funny at all."

"Yeah, that's right. I don't think it's funny either!" Yukinoshita snorted.

"Well, I'm a little tired, so I'll go back and rest first."

"Xiao Qi, but that..." Yuigahama still looked at me worriedly, but Yukinoshita reached out to stop Yuigahama.

"For dinner, do you want to have your share?" This was Yukinoshita's voice.

"No, I probably don't have much appetite, sorry."

"Ok."

After saying this, I opened the door and lay down on my bed. Soon, I fell into a deep sleep.

If only, all that wasn't real... If only, I could go back in time and stop all that, then I could...

Chapter 219: Hikigaya Hachiman's Night

"When did it all start? I remember it seemed to be one night, a summer night in 2011. There were no stars or bright moon. Under the dim but warm light, fifty-four faces without any age angles looked at their first high school teacher on the blackboard with their own expectations and longings. That was our first meeting, and it was also the beginning of the most important turning point in my life! (This is not from Hachiman's perspective, but a message from his pen pal~)

Perhaps only through personal experience can one understand that a person can change so much over a period of time. It was just a small decision at the beginning, but it affected my life! I have always been thinking that if I had not made that choice, maybe I would be just an ordinary college student now, or even a more radical person, complaining about the injustice of society and typing away like crazy on the Internet.

But I did change after all. Maybe it was because of my unattainable first love, maybe it was because of the so-called brothers I made for the first time, or maybe it was because everything I did represented my first desire to become someone else. Now thinking about it, I seem to have changed a lot. Next time, there will probably be new surprises. My road is still so long. How far can I go?

Suddenly, I fell in love with this kind of life with expectations...

"Why does this bus take so long!" I complained on the road while carrying my bag.

"You think this is far? This is already close. When you go to college, you will know what far is." My mother said, holding a bag that was much bigger than mine.

I didn't care. In my mind, it was only two or three hours' drive. Later, when I went to college, I realized that there is a kind of distance in this world that makes people miss the people they have met so much. It makes you feel that the past was so beautiful that you are reluctant to leave.

I glanced sideways and saw the football field next to me was covered with a layer of light in the early morning sun. There were some people walking sparsely on the track. At that moment, I felt that they were the happiest people in the world. They were walking leisurely in the morning light, as if the world would slow down because of them. People were hurrying around. This high school gave people a pretty good feeling.

My first impression of my high school came from such an ordinary morning.

"What are you looking at? If you don't come early, you'll have to wait for a long time."

"Got it." I stretched out my hand to signal to my mother who was carrying the bag: "We're already at school, just give me the bag." After hearing this, my mother put aside the tiredness of the ride and handed me the bag with a smile.

The moment I put the bag in my hand, I regretted it. It was really heavy. My mother seemed to see my embarrassment and said with a smile: "Forget it, I'll do it."

I shook my head and didn't let go of my hand. Seeing me like this, my mother had to take back her outstretched hand and said half-jokingly: "The men in my family are all grown up. I think your old man will regret it if he doesn't come."

"It's a boy," I corrected.

"It's all the same." Maybe because I amused her, my mother laughed even more happily.

"Um... let's go." I clumsily concealed my happiness, which was a special kind of joy for growing up.

The registration at No. 1 Middle School is relatively simple compared to other schools. You just need to sign in the lobby of Zhengzhe Building, pay the tuition, and then you can register at your dormitory.

After signing in, I walked down along Buyun Bridge and that was the dormitory where I would live for the next year.

That day, for me, may be an opportunity to change my life. It was both a beginning and an end.

Of course, this kind of realization is a story for later."

In the dim room, I looked at my notebook and read the document on it.

The document was sent to me by my pen pal. We had never met before, but we met by chance when we were browsing a forum on a novel website. After that, we occasionally had exchanges like this. I would show him the novels I wrote, and in return, he would send me his novels and ask me to give him some suggestions.

Today, he sent me something that seems to be a memoir. I really don’t know what to say. Not long ago, I was confused by the sudden appearance of someone with whom I had some interactions in the past. Unexpectedly, my pen pal sent me a document similar to a memoir.

Sometimes, fate is such a wonderful thing... I rubbed my eyes. It's really easy to get tired just after waking up and watching such things! Moreover, my stomach kept growling, which reminded me that I didn't have dinner tonight.

I should go to the kitchen to find something to eat, otherwise I will be too hungry to sleep.

Tomorrow is still a holiday, but I still don't want to go hungry. I didn't eat dinner today because I didn't have much appetite. People are made of iron and food is made of steel. You still have to take good care of your body. Here is a reminder for students who don't like to eat on time. A normal schedule is the guarantee of a good body! I walked through the corridor to the kitchen. The kitchen light was not on. I fumbled to find the refrigerator and opened the refrigerator door. The bright light inside the refrigerator made me unable to open my eyes. After adapting for a while, I started to search for food.

To my surprise, I found what I wanted very quickly. There was a plate in the refrigerator with fried rice on it.

fried rice?

I took out the plate in confusion, and when I looked closely, I saw a note stuck on the plate.

“Heat it up before eating!”

Then I saw this not-at-all-warm reminder.

Confirming under the light, this fried rice should be seafood fried rice. The only person who likes to make this kind of thing should be Yukinoshita. As for Yuigahama, she doesn't seem to like eating seafood very much.

That guy, it’s enough for a boy to have food, why would he go out of his way to heat it up?

But since she specifically reminded me, it wouldn't matter if it was a little troublesome.

I put the fried rice in the microwave, and after setting the time and heat, I went to the living room and sat on a chair to rest.

It was already very late and there was no sound in the apartment. Yukinoshita and Yuigahama were probably already fast asleep.

It seems that I have slept for quite a long time. I wonder if I can fall asleep again soon.

After a few minutes, a warning sound came from the microwave. I returned to the kitchen, took out the fried rice, turned off the microwave, and then returned to the living room.

"It's a bit salty..." After taking a bite, I smacked my tongue. This seafood fried rice didn't seem to taste like Yukinoshita's usual pursuit of perfection...

I can clearly feel Yukinoshita's malice. She must have done it on purpose. As a perfect superhuman, Yukinoshita would not make such a mistake.

But if I think about it carefully, my tone before was indeed not very good, and I shouldn't have vented my anger on Yuigahama and Yukinoshita. At the same time, I shouldn't have said such words to Isshiki.

Afterwards, you should still apologize properly.

After eating the fried rice and putting away the chopsticks and plates, I returned to my room. My laptop was still on, flickering its faint light. I sat on my bed and clicked on the Line icon.

As soon as I logged in, I saw countless message reminders. I looked carefully and found that they were all sent by Yise...

"Senior, what happened just now? It really happened, right?"

"Senior, why didn't you reply to me? Something must have happened, right?"

"Senior, please reply to me as soon as you see the message. Are you sleeping?"

"Senior! Why don't you reply me?"

"Senior, I'm in a really good mood right now!"

How terrible, Isshiki, you are terrible, how can you do such a terrible thing so easily? It seems that I have to reply to her, otherwise, my future as a writer will probably become more difficult...

"I was sleeping just now!" I sent this message, but I didn't expect Isshiki to reply me. After all, it was already so late, maybe she had already fallen asleep. I comforted myself like this in my heart.

Just let me read the latest news and then go to sleep.

Thinking of this, I opened the browser, and as soon as I opened the browser, the Line prompt sound rang from the computer.

How horrible! How did you manage to reply to messages in seconds? Were you always sitting in front of the computer? Isshiki, you are horrible...

Even through the screen, I can feel Isoseki's anger.

As they were talking, Yi Se's portrait dimmed.

He really is waiting for me... This guy's behavior really makes me feel inexplicably scared. Please don't do such meaningless things again. You must put your physical health first. Staying up late all the time is not what a good child should do!

Chapter 220: Hikigaya Hachiman's Daily Life

The next morning, I got up early as usual.

Of course that was a lie. Because I went to bed a little earlier, I couldn't fall asleep at all when it was time to go to bed. I had to toss and turn in bed until a long time later, when I finally fell into a deep sleep.

The result was that the next day, I woke up even later than the day before... For an adult, this is terrible in every sense. During the holidays, only children would sleep so recklessly.

As adults, they will be strict with themselves even when they are on vacation. Adults are really pathetic. I am also very pathetic for having such thoughts. Have I completely evolved into a corporate slave without realizing it?

After waking up, I heard a series of message alerts on my phone. I opened it and, as expected, they were all from the same person.

I can probably guess what the content is. It must be something like urging me to go out. In that case, I can just send a message to Isshiki to tell her the time and place to meet.