Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

"Oh, so that's it." I sighed, holding the cup of water in both hands, feeling very warm.

"Besides, Zhecao knows that you can't drink!" The boss winked at me and then he was immediately dragged to the kitchen by Zhecao to continue working.

Is that so? I'm ashamed that Zhecao could be so attentive! The original depression in my heart was mostly gone. Even in such a cold winter, I really felt the warmth.

I don’t know if this kind of thing can be considered as giving me a little courage.

Go back. You have classes tomorrow and you can’t really stay out all night.

Having made up my mind, I stood up and prepared to leave.

"Are you leaving already?" Even though the boss was being forced to work by Zhe Cao, he still looked up at me.

"Well, I've bothered you long enough. The money is already on the table."

"It's okay if you don't give it to me."

The boss grumbled in dissatisfaction.

That's impossible. I have a job, how could I really be eating for free?

After walking out of the store, as if I remembered something, I went back into the store.

"Orikusa, next time I come, I'd like to drink plain water like today."

"Huh?" Origami looked at me dissatisfiedly: "This is specially made, but it will cost you extra!"

"It's okay. It's my duty as a husband to tolerate my wife's willfulness."

Then, I left the ramen shop before Origusa exploded, hoping that the boss would be safe today. I stood in front of the apartment for a long time, and after making up my mind, I stepped into the apartment building.

In front of the door of the room, his original determination became hesitant again.

If I go in now, since it's still early, Yukinoshita and Yuigahama should not have gone to bed yet, which means that if I push the door, I will have to face those two people.

If the situation was even worse, Ben Chugui might not have left yet. If we rashly went in like this, all our efforts to escape today might have been in vain.

But if we continue to be stuck here...for no reason, I remembered the temperature of the water that Origina just handed me, so I made up my mind and pressed the doorbell.

"Here you are. Who is it?"

Before the door opened, I heard Yuigahama's energetic voice, and then the door opened. After seeing me, Yuigahama was stunned for a moment, and then she quickly looked at me with relief.

"Xiao Qi, are you back?"

Why use interrogative sentences?

"Ah, I'm back."

After gently responding to Yuigahama, Yuigahama and I walked into the room.

Fortunately, Motoki had already left, and only Yukinoshita could be seen in the living room.

Without saying anything more, I walked straight to my room. Yukinoshita just glanced at me and said nothing more. Yuigahama was in a difficult situation. She didn't know what to say or do in this situation...

However, even if I knew this, I didn't want to communicate with Yukinoshita.

I am definitely not wrong in this matter. I am very firm in my own ideas. Even if they are wrong in the eyes of others, they are absolutely correct to me.

I closed the door and slid to the floor with my head against it.

To me, this is... absolutely correct.

Yes, that's right. I made this decision a long time ago, didn't I? Don't waver, Hikigaya Hachiman.

If you waver, isn't it equivalent to denying everything you once had?

Chapter 226 When was the last time you cried?

"Teacher Hikigaya, nothing happened recently, right? You look very haggard..." Yuexia looked at me worriedly and asked.

"Well, nothing much."

"That's a far-fetched answer..."

It seemed that because of my indecisive answer, Teacher Yuexia’s worries deepened a lot.

This is natural. If you are wavering yourself, how can you convince others when you answer them?

I really don't have any awareness of this at all... It's been a long time since then, and even though I've tried hard to forget those things, that incident would pop up in my mind no matter how hard I tried.

I can't forget it. Things that I try hard to forget are usually not forgettable... I don't know which god set up such a deceptive rule.

Now, my life with Yukinoshita and Yuigahama is no different from before, but when we meet, we no longer have conversations... I guess it's a cold war.

Yukinoshita probably thinks that I'm still avoiding problems when faced with them, and not confronting them directly to find solutions, so that's why I behave like this, right?

I know this, but I don't dare to take action. Regarding Qian Yeying's matter, I really can't take another step forward.

The fried rice that day tasted really good... I don't know why I remembered it. I recalled the seafood fried rice that I ate that night, which Yukinoshita had already put in the refrigerator. It tasted really good at that time...

But after this, I probably won’t be able to eat such delicious fried rice again…

"Teacher Hikigaya, if there is anything you can't solve, please be sure to tell me and I will do my best to help you." Yuexia saw my melancholy look and excitedly ran to me and took my hand.

"Eh!"

"No, that..." Realizing her own situation, Teacher Yuexia quickly let go of her hands. Her face turned red with shyness, and her hands kept waving in the air irregularly.

"That's not what I meant. That's what I meant. I absolutely..."

Teacher Yuexia is also very cute when she is flustered. This kind of girl who is a little naive is really cute all the time.

I felt a little healed, but the heavy feeling in my heart was not much relieved.

But, I can still smile at least a little.

"I understand, Teacher Yuexia, thank you for your hard work." I responded to Teacher Yuexia with a smile. Seeing my smile, Teacher Yuexia finally showed a relieved expression, returned to her seat and turned to look at the lesson plan.

It's fine like this for now. As far as I'm concerned, there's no need for me to get involved in matters related to Qian Yeying.

"Then, goodbye!"

"Thanks for your hard work."

"See you tomorrow."

"Ok!"

After saying hello to everyone in the office, I left the office.

Recently, because Mita is always around Sagami, I have felt a lot more at ease. Basically, I am no longer harassed by Mita when I am in the office.

It seems that falling in love is not necessarily a bad thing. At least for others, falling in love with a very troublesome person is a good thing.

Well, let’s not think about these questions for now.

But then again, Sagami's expression is pretty much the same as before, and he might even be troubled by Mita.

But this is not something I can control. Mita is not a bad person by nature. Maybe, those two people can really get together and become a good story for Mita.

Not necessarily... I once thought that I would always have that kind of happiness.

In the end, did I still think about that? I patted my head and told myself not to think about it anymore.

"Welcome, Hikigaya-sensei."

When I arrived at the school magazine room, Uminohoshi and Tamasaka were already inside. Tamasaka happily came out to greet me, and Uminohoshi was sitting by the window, reading a paperback as usual.

"Welcome." Sea Star nodded to me.

"Ah."

I responded and sat back in my seat with Tamasaka.

"Teacher Hikigaya, listen to me, that painting is very popular! It seems like it's almost certain to take first place!" After sitting down, Tamasaka looked at me proudly and said.

"Yeah, Kotamazaka is really amazing!"

With an indulgent smile, I reached out and ruffled Tamasaka's smooth hair.

"Ahem!" Hai Zhixing at the side coughed dryly: "Teacher Hikigaya, please don't treat Tamasaka as your own child."

Cough cough cough! I became like this unconsciously! Ever since I touched Tamasaka's head in the health room, I feel like I'm treating Tamasaka more and more like my own daughter.

But there's nothing you can do if your personality is like this, right?

It's definitely not my fault! Well, it's not my fault!

"Mr. Hikigaya, do your eyes give you away? Besides, you seem to be turning into a complete pervert lately."

"Hey! A complete pervert?" Tamasaka was trembling with fear: "What is that?"

"The kind that will make you pregnant if you touch it."

"Hey!" Tamasaka jumped up immediately in fright and went into the arms of Sea Star.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, it's okay." Hai Zhixing smiled and stroked Tamasaka's head.

Although it is a very heartwarming scene, why does the smile of the Starfish of the Sea feel so weird?

The Sea Star looked at me in protest, and that smug expression really made me speechless... Damn it, did I lose? As expected of someone who has been with Tamasaka for so long, he can easily take advantage of Tamasaka's weaknesses.

Wait, now doesn't seem like the time to talk about this.

"Star of the Sea."

"Huh? What's wrong?"

"About the home visit..." Just when she said this, Hai Zhixing stopped stroking Tamasaka's hand.

As expected, I am shaken... Question: among family, friendship and love, which one is more reliable?

It is natural that family ties are more reliable, otherwise, familiar friends would not call each other brothers or sisters; the highest level of love is marriage, after which two people become family members. Therefore, family members are the most reliable relationship, if you think about it this way...

Something must have happened to Sea Star before, and this thing was the key reason why Sea Star rejected others.

If I want to complete Mr. Hiratsuka's commission, this is a must. I must understand the past of Hai Zhixing, or in other words, I must understand Hai Zhixing's family situation.

"Are you listening, Sea Star?" Seeing that Sea Star didn't answer me, I asked Sea Star again.

Tamasaka noticed that something was wrong with Umi no Xing. She looked up at Umi no Xing and there was worry on Tamasaka's face, but she still didn't say it.

Perhaps, she wanted Hai Zhixing to make the decision on her own. After all, this matter was Hai Zhixing's business, and it was expected that she wanted Hai Zhixing to decide on her own.

Tamasaka and I both quietly waited for Umi no Hoshi's answer.

"What a nosy teacher." Hai Zhixing complained in a low voice, and then she looked straight at me: "Are you really going, Mr. Hikigaya?"

"Yes, of course I will go." I answered Sea Star quickly without hesitation.

"Oh, so that's it." Star of the Sea seemed to be recalling something, and she repeated what I had said.

"I understand. I will bring Mr. Hikigaya to visit my home after a while."

After a long silence, Sea Star spoke and agreed with me.

"Xiaozou, are you really willing?" Tamasaka said uncertainly.

"It's okay, Xiaoyou, it's just something like this." Hai Zhixing looked at Tamasaka gently and rubbed Tamasaka's head with his hand.

"And didn't we say we couldn't stand still any longer?"

"Yeah, that's right!" Tamasaka's voice sounded a little choked for some reason when she answered.

"But, um, Mr. Hikigaya, I have only one request."

"Request?" I looked at Hai Zhixing in confusion. Are there any taboos for Hai Zhixing regarding home visits?

"Well, that means you have to believe me..." Sea Star's voice sounded strange, like the tone of a person who is desperate about life.

"Is that all?"

"That's absolutely fine."

Seeing my confident look, Sea Star looked at me in surprise and then lowered his head.

"What a strange teacher..."

The voice of the Starfish of the Sea was low, but it entered my ears clearly.

Is it strange? Maybe it is strange, because he can't handle his own affairs well, but when it comes to his students, he will be so reckless.

It is obvious that she has been avoiding the past, but when it comes to facing her students, she is asked to face it bravely. Such a teacher is really strange.

But how could the teacher ignore the crying student? When watching the stage play that day, why did the Star of the Sea cry at the end?