Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

After saying this, Komachi and I went to the living room together.

"Brother, why do you want to go home today?"

"Isn't it almost the end of the year? Of course I have to come back and take a look..."

When I said this, Komachi stared at me closely, but she didn't ask me too much, just nodded at me.

"That's great. Komachi is staying at home on holiday and doesn't know what to do."

"Is the holiday coming up so early? College students?"

"It's about this time. I'm already a junior, so I don't have much time for classes. It's about time I prepare for my internship."

“This is really hard work.”

The topic with Komachi came to an abrupt end here, but I didn't feel embarrassed. Although the sofa in my house has been used for a long time and its elasticity has disappeared a little, it is still very comfortable to sit on. I lay flat on the sofa like I did in high school and took a comfortable rest.

"Really, brother, please don't go into loser mode so quickly."

"No, and I'm not useless!"

"If you say you're not a loser, then isn't that the behavior only losers would do?" Komachi said with a look of disgust.

Komachi stood up and ran to the kotatsu in the living room. She stretched her legs into the kotatsu and let out a comfortable "wow" sound.

Wait, you were too cunning not to tell me about the kotatsu. At a time like this, we must face the enemy of humanity together. I also stood up and walked to the kotatsu. When I was about to sit down, Komachi reached out and pulled me.

"Today I'm giving you a special reward for sitting next to me. Ah! Komachi's point was very high just now."

I haven't seen her with that smug look and blinking eyes for a long time!

"As a reward for Komachi's cuteness, I will reluctantly accept Komachi's request for me to sit next to her. Ah! Hachiman's point just now was very high!" Saying this, I sat next to Komachi.

"What is that? Bro, that's cheating, right?"

"Who knows?" After answering Komachi with vague words, I also began to enjoy the warmth provided by the kotatsu.

Ah, it has been a long time since I had such an enjoyment, this feeling of total relaxation, this warm feeling that makes me feel like I am almost becoming a waste.

Before, because I lived in a high-end apartment, basically every room was equipped with heating. In such an environment, the kotatsu was not that important.

But the feeling of the kotatsu is still better. This feeling of being surrounded by warmth is something that a heater cannot provide.

"Hmm?" Before I could react, Komachi's head gently rested on my shoulder.

"It's a rare meeting, so I have to feel your shoulders, brother. Ah! Komachi scored very high just now." I felt Komachi's weight on my shoulders. This girl's weight didn't seem to have increased much compared to before, so the feeling she gave me now was no different from before.

Such scenes used to be very common, but I don't know when such scenes gradually became rare. It seems that after a certain point in time, our daily lives quietly changed.

"Komachi, brother has always loved you deeply." Thinking of this, I looked at Komachi lovingly and reached out to rub her hair on both sides of her temples.

"Really? Even though I don't love my brother at all!"

“This is still too much!”

Although, I had expected such an answer.

"Komachi, what do you want to do after graduation?"

"This? Komachi isn't particularly good, so she wants to be a teacher or something..."

"Hey, teacher?" I looked at Komachi in confusion. "Isn't that very hard? And you also said that you are not good or something."

"Well, I'm definitely not as good as my brother, so Komachi is going to be a kindergarten teacher!"

"Kindergarten teacher!" Thinking back to what Komachi said, he thought of Komachi showing her fangs among the children.

Oh no... that's too surreal! This imagination is too...

"Come on!" I gave Komachi a thumbs up.

"Brother, you definitely had some bad imagination just now, right?"

"I didn't. I definitely didn't think about the children taking care of the children!"

"That's what you're thinking!" Komachi declared loudly, and at the same time, she reached out and hit me.

It feels light and doesn't hurt at all.

Chapter 231 It's not confirmed yet

"Is this enough?" I said to Komachi who kept throwing punches.

"Really? Brother, why do you always suddenly become like this?" Komachi muttered in dissatisfaction.

"That's not the case. I've always been like this. It's just that you're overreacting!"

"Brother, you really have grown up in a strange place!" Komachi complained to me while fixing her hair.

"Not as you said!" I said embarrassedly.

"Um, I'm not praising you, brother!" Komachi angrily hit the kotatsu with her hand.

This shy expression is also very cute! My sister is still as cute as ever!

"Really, brother, how long will you stay this time?" Komachi stopped all her movements, put her head on the kotatsu and ignored me.

"That's true. Maybe he will stay here until the New Year?" I said uncertainly. After hearing my voice, Komachi raised his head suddenly.

"really?"

"It's not confirmed yet..."

Then he quickly lowered his head again, looking very lost.

The expression changes so quickly and is so obvious, just like a child.

"However, if you want to stay until the New Year, it seems there won't be any problem."

I came with a briefcase. I only have classes tomorrow, and it will be basically just another class in another class where I will be taking the same classes I have taken before.

In other words, I don’t have to go back to my apartment to get what I need, and I have complete freedom of time.

"For Komachi's sake, I'll stay here until the New Year. Ah! Hachiman's point just now was very high!"

"Really, brother, you must have done this on purpose. Why have you become so evil?"

"No, it's just ordinary, ordinary, um! The love of a brother for his sister!"

"No, Komachi doesn't want such a thing!" Komachi struggled and didn't say much.

"But if I live here, I have to clean up the previous room!"

"That's not necessary. Mom and Dad always clean my brother's room..." I was a little surprised by Komachi's words.

“Have you really been cleaning?”

After hearing my question, Komachi rolled her eyes at me and said, "Isn't this natural? Although brother doesn't come back often, what if there is no place to stay when he comes back? That's why dad and mom will clean brother's room regularly."

"This, I really didn't think it would be like this before." I patted my forehead, recalling that when I was in college, my father kicked me out decisively... This is too incredible, a father like that would clean my room regularly or something.

"I'll go take a look." I said this and got up and walked towards my room.

"Komachi is right here, go check it out yourself, brother!"

It seems that Komachi still can't get rid of the attraction of the kotatsu. In this case, wouldn't you become a complete waste?

Since no one lived in my room, the key was safely in the lock.

I gently opened the door and the familiar furnishings soon appeared in front of me.

Although I haven't been here for a long time, this is where I have lived for many years. Naturally, I feel very familiar with it.

The furnishings haven't changed much. Although there is some dust on the furniture, you can see that it has been cleaned regularly. Some places have been carefully tidied, and it has basically maintained its original appearance. It seems that what Komachi said is not wrong. In fact, my parents have tidied my room and did not leave it here unattended.

In this case, of course I should come back often in the future... However, after sorting, some of my things may not be in their original places, so let me look for them again.

I walked to my closet, opened it and looked at the clothes inside.

The high school uniform is still there, hanging quietly on the hanger in the closet.

It's still there? And it looks like it's been washed... I took out the school uniform and looked at it carefully. Four buttons on the uniform were missing, and the signatures of those people were written on the top of the uniform.

Unconsciously, I recalled my graduation from high school. Although there were a few commotions at that time and I was forced to do a lot of things that graduates shouldn't do, I still felt very happy.

At the last moment, Yuigahama Yukinoshita and I were still in the club room watching the fireworks.

I lost that bet!

The bet I made with Yukinoshita at the beginning, which could be called the final competition of our club, I ended up losing in the end...

What Yukinoshita said at the end was that she had achieved all the requirements she had put forward to me. Have I met them well now?

I don't know, maybe yes, maybe no. What did Yukinoshita think at that time? What does Yukinoshita think now? She should be very disappointed, after all, I chose to escape in the end...

But there was nothing I could do about it... I stopped thinking about these things, put down my school uniform and started searching.

As for clothes, there wasn't much change, so I walked to the closet, opened the drawer and started looking around.

"Is that thing still there?" I looked at it and thought about what I was looking for.

What I'm looking for is the USB drive that contains photos and other materials from our previous activities.

After searching for a while, I finally found the USB drive wrapped in a piece of cloth in a box.

Is it here? It is really carefully kept.

There was the computer I used before in my room. I turned on the computer, inserted the USB drive after it started, and started looking through the information in it.

It’s said to be information or something, but in fact it’s just some photos and activity records.

But this time, I finally felt what I was thinking at that time.

That day, when we were doing the information consultation journal for Isshiki, the last Isshiki took a photo with us.

At that time, because I was about to graduate, I had a very strange feeling.

“One day, when we are old enough to feel nostalgic for this photo, what kind of pain will come pouring out, along with what memories?”

When I look at this photo now, do I miss my previous life?

It seems like I miss it, but it’s more than that. It’s different from what I imagined. There are no memories or pains that come with the memories.

I just felt a faint sense of loss, as if something was missing from my life. That thing originally belonged to me, but I don't know when it disappeared.

I feel empty inside and I really want to find something to fill it.

However, this thing is not a memory or something ambiguous like emotion.

What on earth was that thing? Why can't I remember it?

Is it courage? The courage to face reality, the courage to face oneself, the courage to solve difficult problems?

I lowered my head, and finally couldn't hold back my tears.

"Brother, it's almost time to eat!"

While I was still feeling sentimental, Komachi came to my room and asked me to go out for dinner.

"Dad and Mom, are they back?" I had already quietly wiped away my tears, left my seat and stood up to look at Komachi.

"Yeah, he's back! Dad and Mom seemed very happy to hear that brother is back..."

"Yes, that's right!"

"Brother, what's wrong? You look so weird!"

"Nothing, just a little sad."

"Sadness in spring and autumn? What does that mean? Is it an idiom?"

"It's too early for you, Komachi. After a while, you will understand what your brother means!"

"Oh, I hate those words that deliberately keep us in suspense..."

Joking with Komachi, I returned to the living room.

In the living room, I saw my father sitting aside reading a newspaper, while my mother was working at the stove next to the living room.

I didn't say much, I just sat down in the seat I always sat in.

Oops, I'm very happy, but what should I say to my dad now? Although it's been a long time since we met, I don't know what to talk about because it's been so long... Should I speak first here? However, I don't know how to communicate with my dad, and I don't know what topic to start with.

It's so embarrassing. They are all familiar to me, but I have no idea how to start a conversation!