Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

Although the efficiency is much better than that when I was in high school, time is still very tight. It seems that I will be very busy in the days to come.

"Teacher, please come over and check the preparation of the school uniforms." Niwa Feng waved to me from the other side of the conference room.

"Hey, me?"

"Well, I've already consulted the teachers at our school, but since this is a joint activity, I would also like to ask Mr. Hikigaya's opinion."

"Oh, that's okay."

If there is a joint activity, teachers from both sides do need to actively participate. Although the teachers from Haibin High School don't come often due to inconvenience, from what Niwa Feng and the others have described, the teachers there should still be very supportive of the work.

When I think about it carefully, after all, this is an activity among students. It seems a bit abnormal for me to show up here every day... Being targeted by the student union president and the principal at the same time, I feel that I have no place in this school anymore.

I got up and came to the location of Haibin High School. Liumei was still in a relatively remote location as before. I don't know if it was intentional or someone deliberately excluded me. Through my observation of Haibin High School in the past few days, I can find that the other student union members there have a deep resistance to Liumei.

I sat down next to Niwa Aoi, and he took out a folder from the table and gave it to me. I opened the folder and found that it was full of pictures of school uniforms.

"Because of limited time, we want to make only a few representative school uniforms..." "Well, that's right. It's not realistic to make uniforms for all the famous schools nearby. Let me take a look and give you some suggestions."

The first and second pages of the folder were the school uniform designs of Sobu High School and Kaihin High School. Since they were the uniforms of our school, I took a few more glances at them.

“These two must be done!”

"Yeah, that's true." I responded to Niwa Feng with a faint smile. After all, this is a joint activity between our two schools, so it is obviously necessary for our two schools to choose school uniforms.

When choosing a school uniform, you should not only consider whether the style is popular at the moment, but also consider the intensity of the work and the fame of the school. Obviously, you should not choose a too complicated style, otherwise it will increase the workload. It is also best not to choose a school with a small number of students and a small reputation. After excluding these, you can choose from the remaining styles.

It’s okay for boys, but I’m a little unconfident about girls, so I’d better consult the girls in our school.

Thinking of this, I looked at the girls sitting in our school seats. Ben Chugui was busy with something, her hand was writing something in a notebook, and the other girls were also busy with their own things.

It seems that it is not the time to call them. Who are the other girls who can be consulted? I looked around and it seemed that only Liumei could help me.

"Liumei, come here for a moment. I have some questions for you about the school uniform."

"Me? Yeah, okay." Liu Mei hesitated for a moment, but still stood up and sat down next to me.

"What do you think of this school's uniform?"

"This one? Although the style is a bit old-fashioned, it's not completely out of fashion. You can consider it."

"Oh, so what about this set of girls' school uniforms?" I pointed at another set.

"This set? The style is pretty good, but the workmanship is difficult. Choosing this set will increase the workload."

"Hey, that's it..."

I was talking to Liumei, but for some reason, I suddenly felt that the atmosphere in the club room was a little off. I looked up and saw that the members of the Seaside High School Student Union were looking at me and Liumei in confusion.

Especially Niwa Feng, he had been standing there in a daze, his eyes blank and no one knew what he was thinking!

"Hey, what's the problem?"

Hearing my question, Niwa Fengcai seemed to come back to his senses. He waved at me hurriedly and said, "No, nothing happened. I was just a little distracted."

"Distracted?" From what I've observed over the past few days, Niwa is not the type who tends to get distracted while working. What happened?

"You guys take your time watching, I'll go see how others are working." After saying that, Niwa left the space we were in as if escaping and went to where the other student union members were working.

Such reactions always make me feel weird. I turned my gaze to Liumei, trying to guess what happened by observing the change in her expression, but Liumei still had the same expression and I had no idea what she was thinking.

Since I had no idea how to find a breakthrough, this matter ended up in nothing.

After confirming the school uniform selection, I handed the marked information back to Niwa Feng, and without saying anything else, I returned to my original seat.

Work, work. It seems that I have to quickly confirm the script of the stage play. I took a deep breath, took out my laptop and prepared to start working.

"Teacher, I'm thirsty and want to drink orange juice." Ben Chugui, who was working nearby, stretched and waved at me.

I had just started working when this person stopped me. You really know how to pick the right time, but I also need a can of MAX coffee for work to help me think, so I'll be merciful and bring it to you on the way.

"So, what would the rest of you like to drink?"

"Orange juice, thank you teacher."

"Black tea, thank you, teacher."

"Coffee, please help, teacher."

"I need milk. Thank you for your hard work, teacher."

The other student union members who were busy looking up said what they wanted to drink.

I really hope you can distinguish between what are polite words and what are the real words. Forget it, considering how hard they work, just treat it as a reward for them.

"Well, teacher, please wait a moment. I'll go buy some drinks for our members."

Just as I was about to leave, Niwa Feng called me and asked me to go with him. "Yeah, sure." Although I was very surprised why Niwa Feng wanted to go buy drinks with me today, I still waited for him at the door of the meeting room.

"Let's go, teacher."

"Ah."

Having agreed to this, Niwa Feng and I walked out of the meeting room.

Since Niwa and I were not very familiar with each other, when we left the meeting room together, it became very awkward. The reasons for the awkward situation were probably the following two:

I don’t know what other topics I can talk to him about besides work; he has been absent-minded since he left the house, and I don’t know what he is thinking about.

"President Niwa, how is the overall preparation for the joint activities going?" It was not a good idea to remain silent, so I chose to take the initiative to bring up the topic to break the silence.

"Well, so far so good, I should be in time."

Chapter 110 Hikigaya Hachiman is thinking alone

Niwa simply responded to me. It seemed that he was worried about something. Never mind, it’s okay if you don’t want to chat.

The two of us walked to the vending machine in silence. After a while, I bought the gifts according to the requirements of the student union. I put the things I bought into my bag and prepared to go back to the meeting room to start my heavy work.

Just as I was about to leave, Niwa Feng suddenly stopped in front of me and looked at me.

"What's wrong?" I looked at him puzzled. Niwa's behavior has been very strange today and I don't know what he is thinking.

"That..." Niwa seemed to be hesitating, and was hesitant to get to the point. Such indirectness made me, who had been rather irritable recently, frown, and my tone unconsciously became much heavier.

"Can you please tell me what's going on? I still have a lot of work to do."

Perhaps hearing the disgust in my tone, Niwa Feng seemed to have finally made up his mind.

"Um, teacher, I want to know what your relationship is with Tsurumi Rumi." After Niwa Feng forced out these words, he looked at me stubbornly and blocked my body. It seemed that he wanted me to answer his question and would not let me go if I didn't answer.

"There is no special relationship, I just knew her a long time ago."

I didn't think about Niwa Feng's question and answered him quickly. I never thought of telling my rotten past to a stranger, and I hate people who try to pry into my past without permission.

"But, you and her..." Niwa didn't seem willing to let me go just like that.

"Niwa-san, I don't want to discuss this further. If you are really curious, go ask your classmates in the United States."

I looked at Niwa Feng with a bit of anger, his questioning had already made me feel irritated. Due to the teacher's feelings, I couldn't get angry, so after saying this, I walked around him and quickly left the vending machine.

However, what happened just now didn't seem to be that simple.

After leaving the vending machine, I gradually slowed down my pace to my normal pace. After thinking carefully about the origin of the matter, I frowned, thinking that things might become troublesome again.

Originally I thought Niwa was just worried that his student council members would be ostracized, but considering his behavior in the past few days, things shouldn't be that simple.

From the very beginning, I felt that Niwa's attitude towards studying in the United States seemed to be slightly different from that towards other student union members. When I think about what happened in the past few days, the answer seems to be very clear.

Does Niwa really like studying in the United States?

When introducing the student union members at the beginning, Niwa looked at Rumi with a slightly strange look; just now when Rumi and I were discussing the student union cafe, he seemed to be looking at me and Rumi with a strange look, and just now, he blocked me at the vending machine and asked about my relationship with Rumi. It seems that he cares about Rumi very much. If he likes Rumi, then all this can be explained.

Adolescent love? Suddenly seeing high school students in love always makes me feel old! How should I put it? I still don’t feel anything real. It’s better to say that because I just graduated, I haven’t fully adapted to the role of a teacher. I unconsciously think from the perspective of young people before college or even before high school.

Is it the love of high school youth? Strictly speaking, I think the love of teenagers cannot be called love. Rather than love, it is more like one-sided asking and giving.

Take the love relationships around me in high school as an example. Most of them were one-sided or one-sided. How should I put it? In my opinion, high school students don’t know how to reject others, and don’t know how to really get to know someone. Basically, as long as you don’t give up, you can pursue your love in high school. As long as you have perseverance, you can basically hold hands. Except for that weird guy in Hubu...

Because you don't know how to say no, most of the time you fall in love because others say, "That person is not bad. Since he has been pursuing you for so long, he must like you very much. I think it's worth a try." When you are in such similar public opinion, the balance in your heart will keep tilting to one side. Finally, you may be influenced by something and agree to the person who has been pursuing you. Or you may be in a certain tentative psychological stage and are curious about what it feels like to be in a relationship. There are many people who agree to a relationship out of this mentality.

If these words had been said a few years ago, they would definitely have been regarded as some kind of fallacy by many young people. Maybe I have really grown up, and now I have begun to understand some of the school’s previous practices.

However, even so, I don't intend to forbid my students from dating. Attraction between people is not limited by time or place. Although it is rare, there are indeed high school lovers who continue to get married.

Sometimes, the feeling of love cannot be resisted. Since they are all in love, there is no distinction between high and low. After all, their youth is theirs, and they must take responsibility for their own choices. I can just give some advice and help within the scope of my responsibility.

How should I put it? You choose your own path, and even if you make a mistake, you have to take the consequences. If you don’t even dare to choose your own path, then this is not the kind of person I want to raise.

Is it wrong? Everyone’s youth should have mistakes. There are popular sayings on the Internet such as “There is no youth without regrets” and “Everyone’s youth must have regrets”.

Sometimes I really want to remind those who make these comments, can you please go watch Leon: The Professional? The lines in it should be very inspiring to your life.

Mathilde: "Is life always this hard, or is it only childhood that's hard?"

Leon: “It’s always so bitter.”

Regrets accompany people throughout their lives, but why should we emphasize the regrets of youth? Such one-sided emphasis will mislead many students. We should use more realistic comments to let students understand the cruelty of reality! Let those people whose heads are full of love germs recognize the real reality!

I think that those modern people whose heads are full of love cells should invest their limited youth into more realistic things, such as daydreaming, reading paperbacks, joining strange clubs, etc.

Speaking of strange clubs, the Service Club is definitely a very typical example.

Sometimes I can't even understand why such a strange club can continue to exist, and later it even became a featured club of Sobu High School. But the good news is that since Yukinoshita and I graduated, that club seems to have disappeared in the dust of history. It's been so long since I returned to school, and I haven't heard any news about the Service Club. It seems that it has really disappeared completely.

Did it disappear? When I thought about it, I felt sad for no reason. Although I left many bad memories there, I also left many happy memories there. The things we experience are always good and bad, and our lives are always so fickle.

It disappeared... maybe it didn't disappear completely.

"Hikigaya-sensei!"

The sudden loud noise pulled me out of my deep thoughts. When I came to my senses, Ben Chugui was already standing in front of me, with her hands on her hips, staring at me angrily.

"Why did you take so long to respond after I called you? Are you thinking about something dirty again? You perverted masochistic teacher!"

"Hey, do you really understand the meaning of what you just said? And do you really understand the teacher you are talking to?"

"Then tell me what you were thinking about just now?"

Just now? At first, I thought that Niwa might like to study in the United States. When I thought of this, I couldn't help but smile again. It really deserves to be a youth love story! Wait, doesn't this make me look super old?

After seeing my smile, Ben Chugui immediately looked scared and took several steps back.

"What a disgusting smile! You were really thinking about something extremely obscene just now, you sultry, perverted, masochistic teacher."

"That's not the case..."

"What on earth is that?"

"This..." The brain quickly searched for a way to deal with this situation. Yes, at this time, I should use the legendary skill. I remember that I always wanted to use this move. Now that my ability value has reached it, I will try this first. Hmm! It's decided to be you!

"Cough..." I coughed dryly.

"It's so contrived..."

It seemed like there were some discordant complaints coming from somewhere just now. Never mind, just ignore them.

"I'm thinking about adult matters, and you, a child, won't understand."

After saying that, I shook my head pretending to be serious. "Adults' business" is an effective excuse and coping method that has been tried and tested. To deal with such embarrassing situations, as long as you bring out unclear reasons such as "adults' business", no matter how troublesome it is, it can be properly resolved or glossed over. The person who invented this trick is the greatest.

If I have a chance in the future, I will try to use the magic tricks like "children, please go aside" and "children, please don't interrupt when adults are talking". Now I feel that it is great!

Chapter 111 Hikigaya Hachiman ponders the past

"As expected, Mr. Hikigaya is the worst. He actually used such a perfunctory excuse to evade me..."

Ben Chugui looked at me with resentment, huh, this is the privilege of adults, I was often treated like this in the past!

"Anyway, what do you want from me?"

"Of course they're gifts. After all, it's only about the distance to the vending machine. Why did it take so long?"

"Oh, so something happened on the way..."

Niwa's affairs should be kept secret for the time being. After all, I am also a teacher at another school. It would be unreasonable for me to directly get involved in Niwa's love affairs. I will test Niwa's intention to stay in the United States later. I think Niwa is a good kid, but he is a little weird.

"You're trying to evade the issue again. How cunning." Ben Chugui complained, but still took the gifts from my hand, and we pushed the door open and entered the meeting room together.

The student union members from both schools were busy in the conference room. When they saw us come in, they just nodded slightly to greet me.

These guys, are they so indifferent even with comfort supplies... If you think about it from another angle, it can be understood that they have reached the point where they have to work hard. I will understand you a little here. Well, adults always have to use various ways to understand children!

After feeling relieved, I handed the agreed gifts to the busy student union members one by one. After receiving the gifts, everyone thanked me.