Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

"Well, that one is one of them, and there are earlier ones..."

"Yuigahama, how long are you going to stay there? There are still some dishes that haven't been served." Yukinoshita's voice came from the kitchen, and Yuigahama patted her head.

"Sorry, I forgot about it." After responding to Yukinoshita loudly, Yuigahama turned her gaze to me again, blinked at me cutely, and then hurried back to the kitchen.

Why do you blink? Does it have any special meaning? Or is it just a greeting?

I really didn't have the energy to delve into this matter. Soon, all the breakfasts were served on the table. Today's breakfast was also unusually rich. I always felt that a large part of our expenses should be invested in food.

"Everyone is here. It's time to have breakfast." After Yuigahama said this, the three of us put our hands together.

"I'm gonna start now."

After saying this, I picked up my chopsticks and started eating. Since Yuigahama's cooking skills have improved a lot, the breakfast made by the two of them together tasted really delicious.

Well, she is Yuigahama after all, and I will never forget the devilish food she made in the past. Probably anyone who has eaten the food she made in the past will greatly reduce their demand for food...

Since I hardly put in any effort to prepare breakfast, I was responsible for cleaning up the dishes after the meal.

It took me some effort to finally finish packing. Now it's almost time to get ready to go out.

I was about to pick up my briefcase when Yukinoshita stopped me at the entrance.

"What happened this morning won't go away so easily."

"Did you specifically stop me just because of this? I know, isn't my apology enough?" I bowed deeply to Yukinoshita and said, "I'm so sorry."

"Of course this is not enough!" Yukinoshita said firmly: "I will draw up a set of precautions for our living together, and you must accept it unconditionally!"

"It doesn't matter if it's just like this, as long as it's not too extreme."

"Don't worry, there won't be any excessive demands."

"In that case, please feel free to do as you please."

If there are precautions, the misunderstandings in our lives will gradually decrease in the future. In this way, I can feel a little more relaxed. I don’t want to experience the mood I felt this morning again. If there are no precautions to remind me all the time, I don’t know when I will lose control of myself. What should I do then?

"If that's all, I'll leave first. I have to teach a class later."

"See you."

"Goodbye."

Chapter 124 Sagami Minami appears in the same place

Soon, I arrived at the school. It was still as desolate as before in autumn. The only difference was that the trees on both sides of the school had begun to be decorated by students, with sporadic Christmas decorations hanging on them.

Has so much time passed without me noticing? I have been so busy lately that I almost forgot the time. It is only when I feel the changes brought about by the passage of time that I realize that a long time has passed.

It has been almost three months since I started working in September. Although it seems so long when you are experiencing it, when you finish the experience and start to think about it, you suddenly feel that not much time has passed.

However, since Christmas is coming soon, we have to hurry up and work will definitely be a serious problem if we can't keep up with the progress. The key is that after the script of the stage play is coded, the actors still need to rehearse and familiarize themselves with the plot. As for the lines, the actors can just lip-sync and there is no need to deliberately memorize them. In this way, a lot of time can be saved.

Originally, my job was just to oversee the work progress of the Student Union, but under the semi-forced coercion of Benchugu, I had to be responsible for basic script writing.

I had an argument with Ben Chugui yesterday, and now I don’t know how I should treat her.

In fact, I am her teacher, and I should be the one worried about her, but for some reason, I kept thinking about how to get along with Ben Chugui.

Maybe it was because she took the initiative at the beginning, so I fell into a passive position everywhere afterwards. I must turn this relationship around. Don't give in, Hikigaya Hachiman, you have to become the man of "Chiba King".

"Good morning, Mr. Hikigaya."

The voice behind me instantly shattered my previous determination. I turned around with a grim expression and greeted the owner of the voice.

"Good morning, Motoki-san."

"What a coincidence to meet Mr. Hikigaya so early! Maybe today is my lucky day." Motochurui said shyly, covering her cheeks with her hands.

What's going on? Why did your setting suddenly change? Are you the kind of light novel writer who can change the character setting at will? And the way you look now makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and out of place.

"Eh? Hikigaya-sensei, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell? Why are you still sweating in such a cold weather?"

It's not your current behavior. I don't know why I feel so horrified! My body reacted involuntarily.

"Well, of course it's because it's hot. The weather is really hot!" I said while fanning myself with my palms.

"Is that so? It's winter, but Hikigaya-sensei feels hot?"

"Of course. Look, isn't the weather in Chiba always warm? Even in winter it can get really hot sometimes." I said this, took off my scarf, and took off my coat, muttering, "It's really hot. The weather is so unpredictable..."

"Really? Then let me try it too." Ben Chugui said as she took off her blue scarf. As if in response to Ben Chugui's behavior, a gust of cold wind blew unceremoniously, and Ben Chugui trembled all over because of the cold.

"It's too cold, it's still too cold." Ben Chugui said as he quickly put on his scarf again. After wrapping the scarf tightly, Ben Chugui looked at me enviously.

"As expected, boys and girls are different. I feel very cold, but Hikigaya-sensei looks fine. I really envy boys' physiques."

"It's not as good as you say. There are many inconveniences for boys as well."

"That's true! It's just that girls sometimes wear skirts in winter to look pretty, and then they envy boys' physiques. Don't the stronger boys sometimes wear short sleeves and exercise outside in winter?"

“I think there are only a few people like this…”

Aren't those who can do this usually muscle idiots? And if you don't take care of your body, does your brain have muscles? You can't be careless just because you have the ability, the cold virus is very scary!

Some girls who love beauty will also wear skirts in winter, although there is nothing wrong with that. However, girls' physiques are generally weaker, and catching a cold will have many negative effects on their bodies. I will still remind female students to keep warm in class.

I looked at Ben Chugui, she was also wearing a uniform skirt today, but underneath the skirt, she was wearing a layer of warm-looking thermal pants, which didn't look out of place, but because of the close-fitting, it showed the curve of Ben Chugui's legs very well. If this person wasn't so noisy, and if you looked closely, you would find that she is really a rare beauty.

"Girls should pay more attention to their health. Their physical constitutions are weaker than boys', so it's best to pay more attention to keeping warm in autumn and winter."

"Okay, I see. Thank you for the reminder, Mr. Hikigaya. I will pay attention to it next time. I have something else to do later. See you later, Mr. Hikigaya."

After saying this, Ben Chugui bowed to me and then ran away in a hurry.

I watched Ben Chugui disappear from my sight with a smile of approval from an elder. Another gust of bitter cold wind blew by...

"It's freezing cold. It's absolutely freezing cold!"

Loudly announcing the power of the cold wind, I quickly put my coat and scarf back on, even so, I continued to shiver under the force of nature.

It was really scary. Ben Chugui's performance just now was the interaction between teacher and student that I had always wanted. Things were clearly moving in the direction I expected, but why was this extremely inconsistent feeling going on? Why was I so panicked about my future life?

The corners of my mouth kept twitching, and it was really tiring to maintain an expression that I wouldn't normally show.

Is this person doing this on purpose to make trouble for me?

"yawn."

It’s so cold. I’d better go back to the office to warm up. I’ll definitely catch a cold if I stay here any longer.

As it was still quite early, Sagami was the only one in the office, quietly sitting at his seat, reading a textbook. He was probably deciding on the content of his lecture for the day.

"Good morning, Hikigaya-sensei."

"You too, Sagami-sensei."

After the previous gathering, I don't feel as awkward talking to Sagami as before, and I can have a normal conversation with Sagami now. The floor of the office seems to have just been cleaned, and there are still water stains on the ground.

"Mr. Sagami, are you here so early because you're on duty?"

"Well, Mr. Hikigaya, you came early too. Are you always like this? That's really amazing!"

"That's not the case. There is a special reason today..."

Yes, normally, I wouldn’t come to school on time, but I would definitely not come to school so early to start working.

"What's that for? Is it because you need to arrive early for work?"

"This one……"

I really can't say it. Living with Yukinoshita and the others caused me to lose sleep all night. I really can't say it at all!

"It seems that there is a special reason. It doesn't matter if Mr. Hikigaya doesn't want to say it." Sagami noticed my embarrassment and didn't continue to ask: "By the way, Mr. Hikigaya, I heard that you participated in the joint activities with Kaihin High School?"

"Yes, I was forced to participate."

Not only was I forced to participate, but I was also assigned very tiring work. Originally, I went there just to supervise, but ended up finding myself a super troublesome job.

"That's really amazing, Mr. Hikigaya, don't you also have work on the school magazine and your own job? It's amazing that you can do so many things at the same time!"

Well! I still have a new novel to write...

"By the way, Mr. Hikigaya, what kind of job are you doing? I heard from others that it's a very important job!"

"It's nothing important. I'm just responsible for writing the script for the stage play."

"Isn't this super important? Mr. Hikigaya is really amazing. By the way, Mr. Hikigaya, can you tell me the general plot of the stage play?"

Oops! I casually mentioned that I was writing a stage play. Sagami knew that I was in charge of the stage play, so it was understandable that he asked me about the general plot, but I was completely unprepared.

Anyway, the blueprint of the stage play can be called Sagami's "black history", and I always feel embarrassed to discuss such a plot in front of the person himself. I have thought about asking Sagami before whether such a thing can be used in the stage play, but when the topic suddenly turned to this, I was not mentally prepared at all.

Seeing my hesitation, Sagami probably thought it was inconvenient for me to say it, so he waved his hand and said, "It's okay if you don't say it. I know it's to maintain the mystery, right? It's not good to know the plot before the official performance. I will go to the scene to watch it later."

"No, it's not like that..." I hurriedly explained. The current situation forced me to explain it. Otherwise, if I wanted to explain it later, I would probably have to wait until she finished watching the stage play.

"It's not that reason. It's mainly because the script of this stage play is a bit special..." I said slowly, and Sagami listened quietly.

"That's it... this is the general idea of ​​my script." After I said that, I lowered my head and didn't dare to look into Sagami's eyes. It was inevitable that she would be angry, so I was prepared to be scolded.

"Mr. Hikigaya is really amazing. I think this stage play will definitely be a big hit. This event will definitely resonate with others. Mr. Hikigaya is really a genius."

Sagami's unexpected reaction made me look up and stare at her with wide eyes. Shouldn't she be angry? If someone uses my dark history as a script or something, even if they are my good friends, I will definitely mind it.

"Do you mind? This is yours anyway..."

"Dark history? It doesn't matter. I don't care." Sagami turned her head and looked out the window. The morning sun shone through the window onto her face. "If you always care about the past, you can't move forward. Maybe I still cared about it a long time ago, but now I have completely let go of the past. Let the past go. Even the things I regretted the most have become warm memories. Now I just want to move forward every day..."

Sagami's determined smile mixed with the sunshine, and my body, which had just felt cold, instantly became warm, like spring, and I could even smell the fresh fragrance of flowers.

I have always believed that Sagami is not able to let go, but am I the one who is the most unable to let go? This time, I was so arrogant as to speculate on other people's thoughts based on my own understanding...

Am I the one who has not let go of Sagami the most? How ridiculous. Then, let me completely let go of the past between myself and Sagami now...

"Thank you."

I said this solemnly, these two words carry all of Sagami and I's past experiences.

Chapter 125 Hikigaya Hachiman is still showing off

"No need to thank me so formally. I would be embarrassed if you did that." Sagami blushed and waved his hands: "And I really think Mr. Hikigaya is super amazing. If it were me, I would never be able to adapt it so perfectly. Mr. Hikigaya, just adapt it as you want. I won't have any objection."

"Even so, I want to solemnly say thank you to you, not just because of this matter..." I looked at Sagami with relief.

"Is there anything else? Can you tell me?"

"It's just some trivial things." I responded to Sagami with a chuckle. I felt happy because my knot in my heart had been untied.

"It looks like something happy, but since Hikigaya-sensei said it was a trivial matter, then it must be a trivial matter."

"I am really flattered by your unconditional trust in me..."

"Because Hikigaya-kun has been a liar enough, you should stop saying and doing deceitful things, right?"

Sagami's words choked me up. I knew that Sagami had no ill intentions. She was just expressing her views on her friends like ordinary friends. But such words still made me feel very uncomfortable, and I didn't know how to respond to Sagami.

In the past, I did tell many lies in order to achieve my goals; whether it was the confession to Ebina, or the time I tricked Isshiki into becoming the student council president, I relied on lies to achieve my goals. I simply thought that as long as the method was simple and effective, then the result would definitely be correct. No matter how twisted the means were, as long as the result was correct, then everything I did was correct.

But later I found that although the result I thought of met my expectations on the surface, it was full of scars inside. It was like a fruit that was given growth hormone. Although it looked tender and fresh, it was full of harm to the human body. If the processing process is not correct, then the result will definitely be incorrect, and it can only be regarded as a distorted result.

So I feel guilty about the mistakes I made in the past. Although I can't say I regret it, and I know that those things have their meaning to me, but I always unconsciously think that I can solve these incidents in a better way, why did I have to use such a twisted method?

When I said those words to Sagami, Hayama also said to me in a sighing tone—

"Why is that the only way you can do it?"

Why? Maybe I didn’t know what true protection and success were at that time. I just immersed myself in my own world and faced the world with unconscious awkwardness.

Seeing that I didn't respond for a long time, Sagami looked at me worriedly.

"Teacher Hikigaya, did I say something wrong? Don't mind me, I was just saying it casually."

"It's okay." I waved my hands weakly. The fatigue caused by lack of sleep once again invaded my whole body. I felt like I couldn't even stand steadily.

"You're right. I don't want to be a liar anymore. I'm just a little tired now. Let me rest for a while if possible."

"Well, okay, you should have a good rest first. You don't look well."

Sitting in my seat, I could feel my eyelids drooping. But if I fell asleep now, I would not be able to get up later. I had to wait until I finished my class.

"Teacher Hikigaya, drink some hot water."

Hearing the sound, I looked up at Sagami. Sagami was holding a disposable paper cup in his hand, with hot steam swirling above the cup.