Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

Thinking of this, neither of us spoke anymore. We just walked quietly together in the school corridor. The light of setting sun illuminated half of the corridor, and the world was as deserted as a painting.

A long time ago, I was like this too. I was also accompanying someone, quietly pushing her wheelchair from behind. Neither of us spoke, but just walked quietly. Her eyes were always focused on the front, but her peripheral vision was always focused on me. I pretended to be casual, but I was secretly observing her reaction.

Gradually, I developed an illusion. I was no longer the person I am now. I no longer wore such neat and straight suits and combed my hair like an adult. On the contrary, I wore casual clothes and did not comb my hair deliberately.

The person next to me is no longer Yuexia, but the blond man with the purest eyes in the world.

"Mr. Hikigaya, the student council is here."

When I was still in a trance, Teacher Yuexia's voice suddenly woke me up. It turned out that we had walked to the meeting room of the Student Union without realizing it.

"Sorry, I was a little distracted just now."

"It's okay. Everyone has times like this."

The answer to Yuexiatie made me dare not look her in the eye. I felt guilty for no apparent reason. It was enough for me to be like this.

Before knocking on the door, I took a deep breath to calm my emotions, and then gently knocked on the door of the Student Union meeting room.

"Please come in." Ben Chugui's voice came from inside.

I pushed open the door. At this time, all the students in the Student Union meeting room had gone back except Ben Chugui. When I went in, Ben Chugui was typing something on her laptop. It seemed that she was still busy with the plan of the joint activity.

When Ben Chugui saw me, she stood up happily, but after seeing the moon behind me, her face quickly sank again.

"Teacher Hikigaya, what are you doing here?" Motohatsuki's voice was filled with obvious malice, and she glared at me fiercely.

Chapter 142 Hikigaya Hachiman responds to Tsukishita Reina

I felt uncomfortable being stared at by her, so I looked away slightly.

"The script for the stage play has been coded."

"Really?" Ben Chugui looked at me in surprise: "So fast?"

"Didn't you say that you wanted to move up the deadline?"

"I said that, but it was just a small revenge... I didn't expect that Hikigaya-sensei could complete it so quickly."

"Revenge, revenge for what?"

When she heard my question, Ben Chugui immediately realized that she had accidentally let the cat out of the bag, and she waved her hands in panic.

"No, nothing, Mr. Hikigaya, you heard it wrong."

"So suspicious!" Although I was still confused, it seemed that there was no point in continuing to ask. The so-called revenge probably referred to the prank I played on her today.

"I'll email you the rest later. I just stopped by to talk to you. Now that the script is finalized, you can go ahead and arrange the rest of the work."

"Okay, I understand." Ben Chugui nodded to me.

This kind of reaction is like a boss's affirmation of a subordinate's work completion. Although I don't mind Ben Chugui's interaction with me like this, I still feel that this mode of interaction is a bit strange sometimes. However, if Ben Chugui returns to the way she did this morning and deliberately keeps a distance from me, I think I will be even more uncomfortable. For now, let's just keep it as it is.

In fact, my relationship with Hiratsuka-sensei is similar to this. Normally, I don't really regard her as a teacher in the ordinary sense.

He is somewhat similar to Hiratsuka-sensei in some strange places, which is really annoying!

"Well, if there's nothing else, I'll go back first!" Everything had been explained almost completely, so I turned around and prepared to leave.

"Wait, there are more important things to talk about!" Ben Chugui said firmly. Then, she quickly ran to me and pulled down the corner of my clothes, forcing me to lower my head to talk to her.

She glanced secretly at the moon and whispered softly in my ear in a very small voice that only I could hear.

"What is this? What is this? Mr. Hikigaya? Didn't you say that you were single until now? Why did you suddenly become like this? Did you lie to me? Did you lie to me again? You lied to me, right?"

"Don't be so eager when you speak suddenly. Also, you are just asking and answering your own questions, right?"

"Isn't it obvious?" Ben Chugui's voice was unexpectedly angry: "They have reached the point of going home together. No matter how you think about it, there must be something interesting between the two of them, right? Are you trying to say that I was fooled or something like that?" Indeed, this is not a relationship that can be fooled. Going home together between a man and a woman is itself a very ambiguous act. This principle should be the same in every country.

"It's not what you think. It's just that it's too late and I'm worried about her going back alone!"

"Really?"

"Of course it's true." Hearing my firm answer, Ben Chugui looked at Yuexia in confusion.

Yuexia noticed Ben Chugui's gaze and turned her face away shyly.

"That's not true! Mr. Hikigaya, you're still lying to me!"

"It's true. So why would I lie to you?"

"Then when I came back late before, Hikigaya-sensei didn't see me off. Will it be okay if it's Tsukishita-sensei?"

"Do you need me to take you there? Every night, someone from your family will come to pick you up, right?"

"That's because...wait a minute!" Motoki looked at me suspiciously, "How do you know that someone comes to pick me up every day?" Then, Motoki stepped back cautiously, "Teacher Hikigaya, stalking and inquiring into other people's private lives is not a hobby worthy of praise."

"No, I found it when I happened to pass by last time!"

"Oh, so that's how it is." Ben Chugui said with a sigh of relief, but then, as if she had thought of something important, she asked me nervously, "Did you see the others?"

"As for the rest of the people, yes, I saw them." Although Ben Chugui's question left me completely confused, out of my bad taste, I still lied to her.

"What did you say? Did you see everything?" Ben Chugui asked me in a panic.

Seeing how nervous she was, I said slowly, as if I had succeeded in my prank, "Besides you, are there other people? I remember there should be guards waiting for you outside the car door!"

"You perverted and filthy teacher! Can you finish your words in one breath during a conversation?" Although Ben Chugui scolded me as if she was very angry, it was obvious that her behavior at the moment was just like that of an elementary school student who was upset when his family discovered his little secret. This person was really cute in some strange ways.

I said with a tone full of joy: "This is your revenge for deceiving me by bringing forward the deadline for submission and making me work so hard!"

Ben Chugui glared at me angrily and said, "I don't know how you became a teacher when you are so stubborn..."

"But... that's good." Then she lowered her head again and muttered something.

"What did you say? What's so good about it? Are you trying to show off to me how wealthy you are?"

"Mr. Hikigaya, please stop asking questions!"

In the first place, I have never had much interest in your private life... Thinking of this, I stood up and prepared to leave the Student Union Office. I had already wasted a long time, and recently, I had been going home later and later.

If I lived alone, it wouldn't be a big deal, but now I'm living with Yukinoshita and the others, and they probably won't eat by themselves until I get home. That's the trouble, I don't want them to wait for me to get home before eating together, so I usually try to go home earlier.

"That's it, I'm leaving first."

"Okay, I understand. But, Mr. Hikigaya." Motohatsuki no longer pulled the corner of my clothes and asked me to bend down to talk to her. This time, she stood on tiptoes and leaned close to my ear and spoke softly.

"Mr. Hikigaya, you can't cheat!"

After she finished speaking, before I could react, she pushed me out the door.

"Goodbye, Tsukishita-sensei, Hikigaya-sensei."

Then she closed the door of the student union meeting room.

"Really? Why is this guy always so decisive!" I muttered a few words in dissatisfaction in front of the door.

"Well, if you think about it from another angle, this is also Ben Chugui's advantage, right? Many successful people are very decisive when doing things and don't wait much." Teacher Yuexia persuaded me.

"What you said makes sense."

Indeed, most successful people don’t have the habit of procrastination. They start doing what they want to do right away. Success is a matter of the present, not tomorrow.

"Then let's go back first."

"But." She looked at the door of the student union meeting room with concern. "Is it appropriate to let Ben Chugui stay here alone? It's late now, right? I'm a little worried about letting a girl go home alone at night."

"You don't have to worry about that. After all, she's a high school student, so she should have a strong sense of self-protection. Besides, Ben Chugui's family will come to pick her up soon. I've already confirmed this with her just now."

"Really? Hikigaya-sensei is really reliable!"

I felt a little embarrassed by the compliment from Yuexia, so I just nodded shyly.

"Ben Chugui has a very high reputation among students. Although sometimes she is a little impatient and doesn't listen to other people's opinions, most students can really feel the benefits of what she has done. Therefore, students are quite supportive of Ben Chugui as the president of the Student Union."

"However, it's a bit hard for the rest of the student council members to be by her side and support her."

"Yeah, that's true. Not everyone can keep up with Ben Chugui's pace. Besides, Ben Chugui is a rather authoritarian person. It's only natural that some students would feel resentful."

"Teacher Yuexia, you really understand students." Yuexia and I talked while walking. I said this not to deliberately cater to Teacher Yuexia, but I really think that Teacher Yuexia is a good teacher who cares about students.

As for me, I came into contact with Ben Chugui because I had something to do with the student union. Before that, I had never thought about getting to know the president of our school's student union. However, Teacher Yuexia was willing to spend time to get to know these things. I think she should know all the outstanding students in our Sobu High School.

"Not entirely. It's just that normally, when I talked with the students in my class, I heard what they said. In order to examine these things carefully, I went to ask other teachers." Yuexia said embarrassedly.

“That’s pretty remarkable.”

It is already remarkable that he can actively talk to students and ask other teachers about what they are talking about after knowing what they are talking about. If it were me, I might not make a special effort to listen to the students in my class complaining about these things.

Teacher Yuexia is quite attentive, so she probably took the initiative to learn about the past experiences of the students around her in order to better integrate into the class and this larger group.

"No way, I think Mr. Hikigaya is much better than me!"

"Eh? Me? I don't think so at all. If I hadn't been working with the student council recently, I wouldn't have taken the initiative to get to know Motohashi-san."

"That's not what I'm talking about." Yuexia shook her head at me. "Although Motohatsu Kei is very well behaved, she can only communicate with other students in a polite manner. The same is true for Umi no Hoshi. She has almost no other friends except Tamasaka. It's amazing that Mr. Hikigaya has such a good relationship with these two students! I think that in daily life, I am just a bother...

A teacher who can become friends with students is a truly good teacher. I just tried hard to fit in with the students, but I still found it difficult. Mr. Hikigaya can become friends with students naturally, which is amazing! "

"Teacher Yuexia, you are wrong." I looked at Yuexia, thinking about how to respond to her properly.

Chapter 143 Hikigaya Hachiman is thinking

"Teacher Yuexia, you are wrong."

"Really? After all, I have only been working for a short time, so it is inevitable that some of my understanding will be biased." Teacher Yuexia looked at me intently and listened to my opinions very seriously.

If an ordinary person heard someone refute his words, he would be angry no matter what, but Yuexia teacher's reaction was so calm. It's really rare. As expected, Yuexia teacher's personality is very good.

"A good teacher is more than just being able to be friends with students. Look at Mr. Fujiwa, do you think he is a good teacher?"

"If Fujiwa-senpai says so, then of course he is a good teacher."

"But Mr. Fujiwa didn't become good friends with his students, right? Rather, Mr. Fujiwa is quite prestigious among his students because of his famous strictness. But because of this, there are also some rumors about Mr. Fujiwa in the school. If you are right, Mr. Yuexia, doesn't it mean that Mr. Fujiwa is not a qualified teacher?"

"No, that's not what I meant." Yuexia explained anxiously.

"Of course I know," I interrupted Teacher Yuexia, "Teacher Yuexia, you didn't mean that, I'm very sure. I'm not saying this to take advantage of what you said, Teacher Yuexia, but I really think that every teacher is different.

It's like everyone's students are different, and each teacher has a different way of expressing their kindness. In Yuexia's opinion, an excellent teacher should have a good relationship with his students, which is of course understandable. But in Fujiwa's opinion, the greatest care for students is to treat them strictly, so that students can be self-disciplined and become people with integrity. There is certainly nothing wrong with this, but in fact, there is a big deviation between these two views, and it is not wrong to say that it is completely contrary to the original view. "

I paused, secretly glanced at Teacher Yuexia, and unexpectedly discovered that she was listening attentively.

"Everyone is different, so every teacher is also different. The teaching methods and teaching concepts are naturally different. The knowledge points that teachers of the same subject are good at will also be different due to their personal experience...

Teacher Yuexia is the type who can naturally get along with students, but there are exceptions among students. Therefore, Teacher Yuexia should not feel guilty because she cannot get along well with all students. As long as she can truly convey her goodwill to students, she is an excellent teacher.

To be frank, the relationship between teachers and students is actually the interaction between people. We should not look down on our students. In fact, Teacher Yuexia, you really don’t need to deliberately communicate with students. As long as you follow your own way, work hard step by step, and convey your love and kindness to them bit by bit; then, one day they will definitely understand your painstaking efforts. So, Teacher Yuexia, you don’t need to do anything deliberately, you just need to stay the same. Don’t envy others, because you have your own way. "

By the end of my speech, my throat was a little dry. It was not good to speak so much at once. But Teacher Yuexia was a very good listener. She listened quietly while I was speaking and did not interrupt me.

"I'm sorry, I started talking to myself without realizing it." Seeing that Teacher Yuexia was still thinking seriously, maybe it was because I said too much, so I apologized.

"No, Mr. Hikigaya, you said it very well. As expected, Mr. Hikigaya is an excellent teacher."

"It's not like that..."

"Well, Mr. Hikigaya, you don't have to deny it." Yuexia said firmly: "Mr. Hikigaya is really an excellent teacher. I can hear that you seriously treat students as independent people. This is probably why you can become friends with your students... Because, when you start from yourself, you communicate with them as friends."

"Why do you think so? I think I am just performing my duties as a teacher."

"Maybe you haven't noticed it yourself, Mr. Hikigaya." Mr. Yuexia smiled and said, "Do you really think that Motoki and Umi no Hoshi don't know how to behave politely? After all, they are the best in our Sobu High School and the two people we plan to focus on training. Do you really think they are impolite brats? In fact, when those two communicated with other teachers, they were very polite and it was almost impossible to find any fault with them.

But in fact, we all know that these are just politeness. Maybe there is not such a deep teacher-student relationship between us. But Mr. Hikigaya, you are special. When they are in front of you, they will not hide their true nature at all. When I went to the health room just now, they were arguing about you, right? Such a scene is rare to see. If it can be like this, they must trust you from the bottom of their hearts and regard you as a friend rather than a teacher. "

Teacher Yuexia's words made me think deeply. To be fair, I know that Benchugui and Haizhixing are both excellent. One of them is very competent for the work of student union president, and her grades have always been in the top three of the school year; as for the other Haizhixing, it goes without saying that she has worked with me for a long time as an assistant for the school magazine, so I know her excellence very well.

Hai Zhixing has a great talent in literature. I originally thought that Hai Zhixing would only cause trouble for me if she became my assistant. But as we got along, I really felt that Hai Zhixing had an extraordinary talent in literature. At the beginning, she might have asked me many questions because she was unfamiliar with me, but later, Hai Zhixing could almost complete all the editing work independently. The manuscripts that were submitted to me for review were basically approved on the first try!

More importantly, the words she wrote sometimes made me feel that it was not something that someone of her age could write. If it were me, I probably wouldn't be able to write something as artistic as hers. Moreover, even though Hai Zhixing had the heavy work of the school magazine to do, her grades were basically the same as Ben Chugui's, and she always remained in the top three of the school year.

It is understandable that such excellent students are regarded as the key training targets of the school. However, unlike other teachers, I do not think that the education of Benchugui and Haizhixing is perfect. In fact, I still think that they have big flaws that other teachers cannot see.

I realized very early on that both Motoki and Umi no Hoshi were hiding something from me. Mr. Hiratsuka told me about Umi no Hoshi's problem when we first met. By now, I can roughly guess that Umi no Hoshi must have had something happen in the past that affected her personality, and that this thing is likely to be somewhat related to her parents.

Recently, I plan to visit Hai Zhixing's home, so that I should be able to dig out some details about the incident. If I can grasp the context of the matter, Hai Zhixing's problem should be solved smoothly. As for Ben Chugui, it is much simpler than Hai Zhixing's matter. Hai Zhixing's words are her own problems, but as for Ben Chugui, I can clearly feel that the things she hides from me must be closely related to me. If that's all, then when I get along with her, I can easily and slowly know what she is hiding from me. Today, I thought I was almost able to get Ben Chugui to say something, but Qianliu, that bastard, showed up at the wrong time!

Teacher Yuexia said that I treated them as friends, which helped me find a breakthrough in my recent doubts. Even though I sometimes complain that Benchugui and Haizhixing don't have the basic etiquette to treat teachers when they are with me, I am actually willing to accept this way of getting along. Just like this morning, when Benchugui treated me the same as other teachers, I didn't feel comfortable, but a strong sense of disobedience. If this continues every day, maybe I will only feel uncomfortable, instead of feeling very useful as I thought all along.

If I think about it this way, the way we get along with each other is not what I thought, that it is led by Benchugui and Haizhixing. On the contrary, it is actually led by me. To a certain extent, the most important factor in maintaining the way we get along with each other is actually me, not them. Why do I regard Haizhixing and Benchugui as friends instead of just students? Maybe it's because of the similarities...

Kei Moto and Umi no Hoshi are very similar to me in the past. We are much better than ordinary people, but it is also because of this that we have different world and life views from ordinary people. Although Umi no Hoshi is very good, she only has one friend, Tamasaka. Kei Moto is very prestigious among students, but she doesn't have many real friends. Their current situation is very similar to me in the past, so I unconsciously regard these two people as my friends, not my students.

Although I now feel that everything in the past has its meaning, sometimes I still want to make up for some of the mistakes I made in the past. Just like the script of the stage play I wrote this time, the reason why I changed the ending of the incident between me and the Sagami School Festival was to make up for my past mistakes, thinking about what would happen if I didn't do that.