Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

After heating up my breakfast, I ate it while thinking about the candidates for the stage play actors. Since I had obtained the basic information of the actors very early on, I had a certain degree of understanding of the actors I was going to choose. Therefore, I could now roughly select the candidates in my mind.

After that, I just need to test whether they are really as described in the information during the interview, and then look at their on-the-spot performance, and I can roughly select the actors I want. Today is also a good weekend, although there is still a lot of work to do... However, when I chose to become a social animal, I roughly guessed that this situation would happen.

If you don't work overtime, you are not worthy of being a man. The old saying of our predecessors is still very pertinent... When I came to the school in the afternoon, I could feel the strong Christmas atmosphere as soon as I walked in. Even though it was the weekend, because Christmas was coming soon, many clubs in the school were preparing activities. It seemed natural that the school was bustling with people on the weekend. Many students were fiddling with banners and panels, and some students were decorating the stalls they were responsible for.

School is really a magical place. It is even more lively during holidays. Moreover, the target group of this joint activity is also the office workers who have already graduated! In this way, maybe it can be held as an event similar to the school festival...

The theme of the school magazine seemed to be "Christmas for Students". Apart from those winners who had girlfriends and would go out alone with their girlfriends, most of the clubs had agreed to arrange the gathering near the school for this event, so that there would be no situation where no one watched the performance. As expected of Ben Chugui, only she had the ability to settle such an unreasonable request without anyone objecting.

However, doesn't this mean that my stage play will be watched by almost all the students in the school? Thinking of this, I feel very stressed. It seems that the selection of actors must be more strict!

The interview for the actors was held in the meeting room of the Student Union. I originally wanted to schedule it in the afternoon. But Hua Nian seemed to have a cram school in the afternoon, and she didn't want me to be in charge of selecting the actors alone. So, I compromised our situation and decided to interview the actors in the morning. But it was also good this way. If I finished the interview early, I could go back and write at full power.

"Good morning, Mr. Hikigaya."

"You too, classmate Huanian."

When I arrived at the student union meeting room, I saw Huanian was already there moving tables and chairs. Because she was a girl, her face was already tired, and she must have come to the student meeting room very early to prepare for work, so I hurried over to help her move the tables and chairs.

"Classmate Huanian, it's okay for you to take a break. I will do my best."

"It's okay, it's just the two of us, and the workload isn't too heavy. I'll finish it."

After Huanian and I had tidied up the student union meeting room, I took out my watch to check the time. It was nine o'clock, half an hour before the agreed time of nine-thirty.

It is really a number that is neither too big nor too small, the time is not too long and the night is not too short.

After moving the chairs, Huanian stood up and went to a corner of the student union, where something was cooking in a boiler.

"doing what?"

"Black tea. The weather is so cold. If those backup actors come here, they will probably want to drink something hot."

That's really thoughtful, I hadn't considered these.

Well, I'll take advantage of this time to do something. Although I read the candidates' information the day before yesterday, at that time my mind was full of thoughts about studying in the United States, so I didn't read some people's information carefully. Now I have a little time, if I read it carefully, I can make a better judgment later.

While I was looking at the materials, there was a sudden noise beside me. I looked up and saw classmate Nianhua standing next to me with a cup of black tea.

"Sorry, did I disturb you, teacher?" Huanian said uneasily.

"It doesn't matter. Is this cup of black tea for me?"

"Yeah." After responding to me softly, Hua Nian handed me the black tea in his hand. Because the black tea had just been brewed, the outer surface of the cup was still warm. When I touched it in my hand, I could clearly feel the warmth.

By the way, the student union also has utensils for brewing black tea. I really don’t know if black tea is a necessity in the Sobu High School Student Union’s club room, but it seems like you can see it everywhere.

Sobu High School seems to be occupied by black tea, but it doesn’t matter. I am a staunch MAX coffee drinker, although I don’t really dislike drinking black tea.

"Thank you, it's delicious." After taking a small sip, I put the cup on the table.

"No, it's okay." Hua Nian still seemed a little uneasy. What was going on? Was it because I was too focused on the results of my work that I looked difficult to talk to?

"Classmate Huanian." I gently closed the information in my hand: "You don't have to be so nervous, it's okay, just relax..."

Why do I always feel that this line is weird? Is it my illusion?

"Okay, okay." Hua Nian said this and sat back in his seat with his head lowered. Is he still nervous?

It's better to bring up a topic here to relieve her nervousness.

"Huanian, what do you think of the choice of actors?"

"Hey, me?" Huanian finally looked up at me, seeming surprised that I would ask her this question.

"My opinion shouldn't be that important. Hikigaya-sensei, you are the author, right? I think Hikigaya-sensei, you just need to follow your own ideas. For a stage play, the original author must have a deeper understanding. As for the selection of actors, we just need to follow Hikigaya-sensei's ideas..."

It is true that the author's opinion is more important in the adaptation. The author knows more clearly what emotions he wants to convey and has a deeper understanding of the work than the average person. In this case, the actors he finds are also slightly more reliable.

But it would feel awkward if there was no conversation, so I might as well continue asking Huanian.

"It's okay, classmate Huanian. I also want to hear your opinion. Besides, this matter is originally the responsibility of the two of us, right?"

"No, it's okay? I don't think my understanding is that profound..."

"It's okay, classmate Huanian, just say whatever you want to say, I will listen carefully." After I finished speaking, Huanian glanced at me secretly, probably to confirm whether what I said was true.

"Well, if you don't mind, Mr. Hikigaya, I'll tell you. First, it's about the two main characters. Because of the setting of the event, I think the male protagonist must be able to express complex emotions. This is very critical, otherwise I think the stage play will be much inferior. The female protagonist must express her own powerlessness. She has obviously tried very hard to do things well, but in the end, she failed to meet her expectations due to her lack of ability. In this case, everyone will feel powerless and deeply desperate, and will eventually give up on themselves. As for the other roles, I don't think the performance is very difficult. It's better to say that they can just play themselves, after all, they are all student characters."

I was surprised by Huanian's words. To be honest, I just wanted to bring up the topic. I didn't expect Huanian to understand my work to such an extent.

"Then what do you think of the character of Xue Shang Shang? I think she is also very important. How do you think the actor who plays her should be selected? Or should she just play herself?"

"I think the character of Xue Zhi Shang is also very easy to imitate, because everyone has fantasized about being such an excellent person, and everyone has imagined what they would do if they were so excellent. Because everyone has fantasized about it, all you have to do is find the most natural one."

"That makes sense!" I nodded in approval to Nianhua.

"Oh, sorry, Mr. Hikigaya, I accidentally said so much. Just forget the unreasonable parts!" Huanian seemed to be too focused on what she said just now. After she reacted, her face turned red and she continued to bury her head.

"I think it's pretty good. You have a deep understanding. It looks like you have put in a lot of effort."

"It's my job, and it's what I've always wanted. I want to be able to help President Benchu, so I have to work hard..." Huanian said embarrassedly.

Is this child still concerned about Ben Chugui? Although I talked to her about this yesterday, it is not so easy to get over it.

Chapter 163 Hikigaya Hachiman is more popular than expected

"Huanian, you don't need to be so stressed. As I said before, you are already excellent. Why should you be so hard on yourself?" My tone was a little stronger than before, because I know that a person can change himself because of others. But what's the use? Your efforts for others are generally invisible to others. After you can understand this, the hope you once had will turn into despair, and the motivation that has always supported you will become your own resistance.

At the beginning, it is normal to change for others, but if it continues, it is a pathological persistence, and such efforts are doomed to be fruitless. People must change for themselves and become stronger for themselves. In this way, hope will not become so illusory.

When people are in trouble, they always hope that others can help them. When people first change, it is usually for someone else. But others will not always appear when you fall into darkness, and you can't always live for others. In that case, what should you do? Only when a person becomes his own light can he truly cross the darkness. Only when a person does it for himself can he truly change himself and become stronger.

Sometimes, changing something for someone is just a pathological persistence and a self-deception.

I know this and I understand what Huanian is thinking, but if I don't correct her, she will probably fall into a dead end. What she needs to do is to become an excellent Huanianai, not a counterfeit who always yearns for Benchugui.

"Hikigaya-sensei."

"Hello, sorry, I lost my composure." I came to my senses when I saw the frightened Hua Nian. Maybe I was overthinking. My face became distorted unconsciously...

"It's okay, I know you're doing this for my own good, Mr. Hikigaya." Huanian, who had regained her composure, stammered and responded to me with a bright smile.

"Teacher Hikigaya, you are doing this for me, right? I know that. After all, Mr. Hikigaya is that kind of person. I thought about it when I went back yesterday. I really aspire to be someone like the president, and this has not changed until now. I have also been working hard to become the president, but I soon discovered that no matter how hard I try, I can't catch up with the president. No matter how hard I persist, I can't reach the heights that the president has reached. Even if I follow the president's footsteps step by step without leaving anything out, I can't reach where the president is." When she said this, Huanian's eyes became moist. She looked like a traumatized old man, and her eyes revealed deep fatigue.

"I can't do what I want. I gradually realized that I was wrong. Then, negative emotions kept sprouting in my heart, even though I deceived myself that there were no negative emotions. But I deeply understood that the seeds of jealousy had taken root in my heart. If I continued like this, I might become paranoid because of jealousy of the president, or I might become decadent because of my own incompetence...

However, at that time, I met Mr. Hikigaya, and what Mr. Hikigaya said to me was something that no other teacher had said to me; rather, no other teacher noticed me. Mr. Hikigaya noticed something that other teachers didn't notice, and said something that other teachers, no, it's better to say that others wouldn't say to me. So, I am very grateful to Mr. Hikigaya. Mr. Hikigaya, you made me understand that I am also excellent, and I can stand in the spotlight with President Motoki, not just because I admire President Motoki, but because I have the same excellent abilities and can stand in the spotlight with her. "

Huanian said this, and finally, the haze in her eyes disappeared, replaced by eyes full of hope, brand new eyes that seemed to compete with the morning sun.

"Very good, such a look."

"Hey, Mr. Hikigaya, as long as you like it." Huanian's face turned red. It was understandable because anyone would feel embarrassed to be praised directly by others.

"But you got one thing wrong."

"Hey, really? What did I do wrong? Mr. Hikigaya, can you tell me?" Because of my words, Huanian seemed to have lost his composure again and became flustered.

"Even if you hadn't met me, there would have been someone who would have noticed this about Huanian. Even if it wasn't me, there would have been someone who would have said something that would have made Huanian so impressed. I just happened to be luckier."

"Is that so?"

"Of course it is."

This truth is indeed very simple, just like Columbus discovered the New World. Even if there was no Columbus, one day, there would be someone who discovered the New World. This is the inevitability of history.

"But, it was Hikigaya-sensei who said it first, so of course the most meaningful thing is also Hikigaya-sensei. What Hikigaya-sensei said may not be true. I will meet such a person one day, but such a day has already arrived, and such a person is Hikigaya-sensei. Hikigaya-sensei is the first one!"

Hua Nian spoke stubbornly. This time she did not follow my train of thought. She looked at me very seriously, as if she was afraid that I would doubt the determination in her words.

"So Mr. Hikigaya is irreplaceable."

"Oh, is that so?" I felt embarrassed by the direct compliment. Moreover, this time it was not just a compliment in the ordinary sense, but a more direct and sincere compliment.

Just now, it seems that classmate Huanian leaned towards me again, causing the distance between us to be very close... Well, he must trust me very much! When I am happy, I really want to be close to the person who brought changes to me. Well, I can understand.

"Then, work hard for yourself from now on."

"I understand, but if it is a job assigned by President Benchu, I will still pay more attention to it. After all, President Benchu ​​is someone I admire, and this has not changed until now."

I nodded. It's good to have a role model, as long as he is not too extreme.

"Then why were you so nervous just now? Is it because of me?" I felt that I had made the topic clear, so I also expressed my original question.

"No, that's not the case. The reason I'm nervous is not because of Mr. Hikigaya." Huanian shook his head: "I'm just thinking about facing a lot of classmates in the interview later, so I'm a little nervous. I'm still thinking about what expression I should use to face them later."

"So that's how it is." I breathed a sigh of relief. "I thought it was because of me. Just now I was wondering if it was because I had a stern face at work that made you a little scared."

"How is such a thing possible?" Huanian chuckled, "Teacher Hikigaya is indeed very gentle, and his considerations are different from others... It's great to meet Teacher Hikigaya."

Here it comes, another straight ball like this, completely unavoidable, with great destructive power. I, Hikigaya Hachiman, will not die today because of not being praised enough, right?

"Well, let's put that aside for now. Can we continue talking about the actors, if possible? I think your point of view is very constructive."

"Ok!"

In this way, I talked with Hua Nian about the selection of other roles. As I thought, Hua Nian has excellent understanding and expression ability of the work. Most of her opinions were very pertinent, and I really got a lot of inspiration.

She has such strong expressive ability, but she is too timid to express it to others? If so, we need to find a way to strengthen her courage.

Soon, all the actors who came to interview arrived. Except for a few who were late, everything else went according to plan. Since we had communicated about the casting very early, Hua Nian and I found the right actors very quickly. After handing the script to the selected actors and asking them to study it carefully when they returned, my work this morning was almost done.

What I didn't expect was that Huanian invited me to have dinner with her while we were cleaning up the student union meeting room. To be honest, I always thought Huanian was a simple child like Yuzaka, but now it seems that this child still has a certain social ability.

However, it is not a good thing to be too strong at this age. Anyway, this is not something I should worry about. I originally planned to buy a lunch box and return to my home to start the hard work of typing, but I couldn't refuse the invitation of my students, especially those who praised me so much. So, I came to the student cafeteria to eat after a long absence.

Originally, I should have treated Huanian to a meal, but considering the impact of taking students out to eat alone, and Huanian's insistence on treating himself, I had no choice but to agree to eat in the student cafeteria with Huanian.

The result was undoubtedly disastrous. After I entered the student cafeteria, there was a lot of commotion in the cafeteria. Countless people gathered around me and asked me all kinds of questions. They generally included the following: How is the school magazine made? Did I write all the texts myself? Mr. Hikigaya, do you really know how to draw? Such questions.

Now I finally understood what Tamasaka meant when he said that I was very popular. Normally, no one would go so far as to bother me like this during class, but today was the weekend and I appeared in a crowded cafeteria, so naturally, I caused a commotion.

There was no other way, so Huanian and I quickly bought a loaf of bread and ran back to the Student Union office.

Huanian and I looked at each other helplessly and sighed, and we quickly finished our lunch.

After lunch, Huanian seemed to have to supervise the others in making things related to Christmas activities, so I left the school alone.

It looks like the school cafeteria will become one of the places I will never be able to set foot in...

I really don’t know if those students can still respond to me with such enthusiasm after seeing me take off my glasses.

Chapter 164 So, Mita is always like this

No matter how you spend your time on the weekend, it always feels like it goes by faster than on other days.

Just like when you are on vacation, no matter what you do or what kind of wonderful experience you have, when the vacation is over, you will still keep sighing that the vacation passed by so quickly and feel that your vacation was not real.

Indeed, when people are relaxing or working hard, they will feel that the passage of time is slow and that time passes by in a flash.

So, how did I spend this weekend and make my sense of time slow? I'm really sorry, it's not the first case, but the second case! I worked so hard that I completely forgot about time, and when I realized it, it was already gone.

Yes, I worked so hard that I completely forgot about time. Then, when I was so tired that I had to take a break, I looked at my watch and realized that the weekend was over.

That’s the feeling. I’m sure you all understand, right?

Yes, I, Hikigaya Hachiman, had a great weekend once again.

I was threatened by several phone calls from the editor-in-chief on a weekend, and my own editor kept urging me to review my manuscripts. I was really popular on weekends! Maybe they knew that I had a full-time job and was only writing part-time, so they deliberately increased their efforts to urge me to update on weekends.

The result was naturally predictable. I was typing away in my room in a semi-enclosed state, and I hardly ever left my room. Even the meals were prepared by Yuigahama and placed in front of my door. I would only go to get them when she was free after knocking on the door to signal me.

I have experienced this kind of life before. When Editor Guoyuan and I lived together, I seemed to be forced to lock myself in a room to write manuscripts. Now, it seems that I have returned to that time again.

By the time I finished all the manuscripts and came out of the ban on Sunday night, to use Yukinoshita's words, the bacteria that had not been seen for years had finally turned into mold.

Although bacteria and mold are not the same species, it is still an insult, okay? Please treat me as a human being on a biological level...

In order to save my image, I had to give my body a thorough cleaning and stayed in the bathroom for a full hour before I completely restored my previous normal appearance.

During this time, Yuigahama had already helped me clean the room. I felt that Yuigahama had gone further and further down the path of being a maid... When I returned to my room, I didn't have time to think about anything before I fell on my bed due to fatigue and never woke up. The next morning, if it weren't for my alarm clock and my instinct to call Komachi to wake her up, I might have died in my bed... The quilt is such a terrible invention. Without a doubt, it is a devil's tool that can murder the passion of all mankind.

Komachi is really cute. Even though she was woken up early in the morning and was in a bad mood, she still said the most powerful line, "Good morning, brother." However, I am a little worried that I am not by Komachi's side to protect her. After all, during this period of time, there should be a lot of scum in the university who will irresponsibly approach my cute sister.

Damn it, I feel uncomfortable all over just thinking about this. I'm going to go to Komachi's university and give her classmates a good lesson, asking them not to set their sights on my lovely sister.

"Ah." As I was not fully awake yet, I couldn't help but yawn. The person next to me seemed to be infected by me and also yawned several times.

It's understandable that this kind of situation is quite common on a bus full of office workers on Mondays. Some bored scientists have indeed done research and concluded that yawning is contagious.

Sometimes I really wonder, these scientists have so much energy, why don’t they study how to make Chiba the world’s number one city?

Ahem, I was wrong. Chiba is now the number one city in the world. If it is on the next level, it should be said to have become the number one city in the universe!