Hikigaya Hachiman is still in the dark

Without looking at me, Origina calmly ate his ramen and responded to my questions.

Eh? Is it about studying in the United States?

Chapter 169 Hikigaya Hachiman Falls into Thought

"What do you mean by that? What about studying in the United States?" Because it came up with something I had been worried about not long ago, I looked at Origina anxiously and asked.

"With such a big reaction, it seems that you, Mr. Hikigaya, really don't know anything." Origina looked at me playfully. This time, it was exactly the opposite of before. I became the anxious one, and Origina was the one teasing.

"Why do you think Tsurumi-san stayed away from you?" Origusa placed his chopsticks neatly on the ramen bowl and looked at me seriously.

"Eh, isn't it because of her relationship with Niwa?" I hesitated for a while but still didn't say the word 'love' because to be honest I didn't really understand how far the relationship between those two people had progressed, nor did I know if they had officially confirmed their relationship. So, due to my position, I didn't say the word 'love'.

Hearing my answer, Origina looked at me in disbelief, then she held her belly and laughed.

"What is that? What does it mean? Hikigaya-sensei, what are you talking about? Are you kidding me?"

Why did she react like this?

"This is so much fun, Mr. Hikigaya, you are much more interesting than I thought!" said Origina, wiping the tears of laughter from the corners of her eyes.

"The expression and tone you said just now definitely showed that you were jealous, right? You were jealous, right? And that reaction was exactly like that of a little boy. It was so funny!"

"What are you talking about all of a sudden! I'm not jealous, okay? Don't think the relationship between me and Ryu... Tsurumi is so complicated, okay! I'm just worried about her. If you have to define it, it's just the love of a brother for his sister! It's definitely not the feeling of love like you said."

"Oh, really?" Zhe Caopi looked at me with a wry smile. Her cheerful look made me clench my fists involuntarily.

"Let's just take it as it is. You won't admit anything else, right, Mr. Hikigaya?"

"It's nothing, why do you have to make it seem like it's a real thing?"

"Who knows? It doesn't matter if you don't acknowledge some things. It doesn't matter if you treat them as sisters, or just good friends, or just simply admire each other! Many times it's like this, um, more than friends, but less than lovers. In this case, even if they get together in the future, others won't say anything, because, you see, those two people have such a relationship to begin with, and it wouldn't be strange if they take it a step further! It just leaves such an impression on people around them!"

"So, what you said is totally untrue. In my opinion, I simply treat Liumei as my good friend."

Yes, I am very sure that I treated Liu Mei as a good friend, or at most, I felt that Liu Mei was my sister. Even after so many years, our relationship has not changed.

Because, when we met, our relationship was like this, no matter how much we changed afterwards. As long as I still think of her as Rumi at that time, and she still thinks of me as Hachiman Hikigaya at that time, then, our relationship will not deviate that much. We are still the same as we were back then, two people abandoned by the world hugging each other for warmth.

"Do you really understand what I mean? Mr. Hikigaya, you are surprisingly weak in understanding text. If I remember correctly, you have written novels, right? And you are also the screenwriter of this stage play. I thought you would have a high ability to understand language!" As he said this, Origina rolled his eyes at me: "I'm talking about the rest of the people, the people around us, another, do you understand?" Origina said to me while tapping the table impatiently.

"Others?" I thought about the meaning of Origina's words. What "others" meant was that my relationship with Liumei had become so close that it caused misunderstandings among other people. So, did this matter cause any trouble to Liumei?

Normally, this is indeed the case, but unfortunately, Liumei and I have known each other for a long time, so I know very well that Liumei will not care about such a small matter. Liumei may do such a thing if she deliberately stays away from others because of fear of misunderstanding, but if the target is me, Liumei will definitely not do such a thing.

If you ask me why, I feel the same way. Even if other teachers gossip about me, I will never stay away from studying in the United States because of such things.

This is the relationship between us. When two people who are good at self-preservation meet, and two people who can understand each other meet, it is a professional situation, because both parties are special to each other; this specialness is a special bond between two people, and this bond will not be easily severed.

"I understand what you mean, but this is definitely not the reason why Liumei did this!" I said firmly.

"So confident?" Seeing my firm answer, Orikusa looked at me in disbelief: "Why? What's the reason? You always have to have a reason for doing anything, right? What's the reason why you trust Tsurumi-san so much?"

"It's very simple." I stretched out my hand and gestured: "Because I am the same. I firmly believe in her."

"What, what do you mean?" Origina looked at me in even greater astonishment.

"Isn't the reason simple? Because I believe in staying in the United States, so I don't think this is the reason, that's all. Other reasons are not necessary at all."

Yes, that’s enough of a reason.

Just believe it, you don't need to have too many delusions, nor do you need to guess what people you are familiar with are thinking. Just do it according to what you firmly believe in. Extra consideration will only make things worse and out of control.

A long time ago, I did stupid things because I didn't believe. Now, I don't want to speculate too much about unnecessary things. All I have to do is believe.

I believe that Liu Mei is not deliberately distancing herself from me, and I believe that Liu Mei is not leaving me because of these trivial matters. What I have to do is actually such a simple thing.

Originally, it was actually that simple. When Isshiki was running for election, if I had chosen to believe Yukinoshita, if I believed that Yukinoshita would not easily abandon the Service Club, if I defined all of Yukinoshita's actions as maintaining the daily life of the Service Club, then the three of us would definitely be able to leave the classroom called the Service Club and carry out our daily lives together in the Student Union's office. It was all my own evasion that caused the trouble, so now, I will no longer speculate too much and will no longer do so many meaningless things.

"It's really interesting! Mr. Hikigaya!" Just like last time, Origina laughed exaggeratedly this time.

"It's much more fun than I thought. Mr. Hikigaya, you are such an interesting person. Even though your personality is a little twisted, you are still an interesting person!"

"Your distorted personality is unnecessary. It would be better to say that all your comments are unnecessary."

"Seeing you like this, I don't want to tell you the truth!"

"Hey!" I protested loudly. What on earth does this person mean? Just because it's fun, you don't want to tell me the truth? Can you please have some ethics as a tipster?

"As for the truth of the matter, it's a bit inappropriate for me to tell you, but since you're so interesting, Mr. Hikigaya, I'll reluctantly give you a little hint. Mr. Hikigaya, your thinking direction is not wrong, although I don't quite understand Tsurumi-san's thoughts. Frankly speaking, I don't think I've interacted with Tsurumi-san as much as you have. But isn't there a saying that 'those involved are confused, while those who are on the sidelines can see more clearly'? So I know the external environment of my American classmate very well, and at the same time, I know her current situation better than she does. Mr. Hikigaya, you just need to investigate along this line!"

"It's the same as saying nothing!" This information is completely worthless, exactly what I thought before.

"It's still valuable, right? At least Mr. Hikigaya, you know that you are heading in the right direction. Sometimes, knowing that you are heading in the right direction is more important than anything else!"

"This cannot be denied..." If the direction is wrong, no matter how hard you try, it will be useless. In extreme cases, the effect will be completely opposite to what you expected.

"So, Mr. Hikigaya, cheer up and work hard. I have high hopes for you." Orikusa said encouragingly.

This kind of reaction feels a little strange. I always feel that there seems to be something wrong with this person's eyes.

"Origami!"

"I'm here!"

"Actually, you just want to see if there's anything more interesting happening next, right?"

"..."

"How could that be? I'm worried about your relationship with Tsurumi-san."

"What's with the silence in between?"

"There's a pause in the conversation, Mr. Hikigaya, don't mind it." Orikusa said this like a noble, covering his mouth with his hands and laughing.

Is that really the case? This person's taste is really bad.

"Father-in-law, if possible, please pour me a cup of tea."

"Okay, son-in-law, don't be polite. Just treat it as your own home. Hahaha!" The boss's generous response echoed in the small shop. When he turned around, Origina's face turned red as before.

This is my little revenge...

“I told you it was sexual harassment.

Right? Your personality is really twisted and evil, just like that student council president!"

"Eh?"

"That's the student union president, right? Although she apologized to me when we met, she actually had no intention of apologizing, right? Actually, it's nothing. If I wasn't a member of the student union, I wouldn't have had such a pleasant conversation with her."

Does this person know the true nature of Benchugui?

Ben Chugui had said before that the man didn't want to say hello to her. How could these two people know what each other meant but still get along so friendly?

It's really scary! This world is so scary.

"If you know, please leave quickly. Do you really plan to stay here overnight? You've finished your ramen, right?"

"Yeah, that's true. Thanks for the treat."

After saying this, I paid the bill and left the ramen restaurant. I was probably afraid that Yuigahama and the others would come back too early and find that I was not in the apartment. If that happened, I would probably get a lecture again that night.

"Dad, are you serious?" Zheca looked at his father with a reproachful look.

"Of course I'm serious."

"Really? Do you really want to hand your daughter over to a guy like that?"

"Hehe, I'm not bragging. I've received so many guests, and I'm very good at judging people. That guy is a very good man!"

"I finally figured out why my ramen noodles can't be made big..."

Chapter 170: Sea Star Moon Moves Quietly

After learning that studying in the United States was not exactly what I had expected, I did not feel as happy as I had imagined. Instead, I felt more complicated emotions.

To be honest, I have always hoped to live a normal college life in the United States. It would be best if I could get along well with my classmates and friends. Considering the general public's thoughts, a normal college life must also include the element of "love".

The most important criterion for evaluating whether a person is a real person is whether the person is popular with the opposite sex and whether the person can be invited out by the opposite sex during holidays. Therefore, during holidays, people who can have the company of the opposite sex or have appointments with the opposite sex are all real people, and this will not change no matter what. Even if people who don’t have appointments use “club activities”, “parents said they want to spend the holidays together”, or “it’s too crowded and I don’t want to go out at all” as excuses, they still cannot change the fact that they are not real people.

So, if what I hope is to live a normal campus life in the United States, then my wish must include the experience of love in the United States. Let's put it this way, I really hope that I can have a healthy relationship in the United States, be truly saved, and truly walk out of my past.

All of this is easy to understand, but when I first knew that I was studying in the United States and started dating, the first thing I felt was not relief, but loss. Just like a child whose favorite toy was taken away, I couldn't accept this fact for a while...

This feeling is exactly the same as when I was facing Komachi. Komachi has grown up to a great level now. Logically speaking, she should be old enough to fall in love. As a brother, I should help her and encourage her. But for me, I definitely don’t want my precious sister to be with a man. All I want is for my sister to be by my side, or in other words, the man I want to accompany my sister is not someone else but myself.

My feelings towards Liumei were almost the same, so when Origina asked me, I could answer so firmly that I regarded Liumei as my sister, and not as the kind of romantic relationship she said.

Every brother will have this feeling, just like every father with a daughter. He knows that he can't be with her for her whole life, but he still hopes that she can stay with him for a little longer, a little longer... But when his sister really stays with him for a long time, he will start to worry whether she can find a reliable man to spend the rest of her life with. It's such a complicated feeling. Although I know that such worry is unnecessary, I always can't help thinking about it.

Studying in the United States and I have been connected for a long time. I don't know when I put studying in the United States in the position of being treated like my sister, so now my attitude towards studying in the United States has become more complicated.

After knowing the truth, I felt very happy for a moment and thought that Liu Mei would still need me; but after changing my mind, I realized that if this was really the case, then it meant that Liu Mei would not be living the college life that I hoped she would live, so I felt disappointed again.

It seems that I still need to investigate what kind of campus life I have before studying in the United States, because I will be busy again afterwards.

I let out a sigh of relief and turned on the light switch at the bedside. As the room gradually became dim, my thoughts gradually calmed down. No matter what, Liumei will definitely be able to completely get out of this and live the free and easy college life she wanted.

Before falling asleep, I kept mumbling these words to myself.

"Teacher Hikigaya, this is the final layout of the school magazine. Please take a look. If the Christmas plan for this issue is finalized, the school magazine can officially start printing." Hai Zhixing looked up at me from her seat. After hearing her voice, I opened my email and, sure enough, I saw the final version of the school magazine that she sent me.

Before I knew it, the production of the school magazine was coming to an end. It seemed that my busiest period was about to pass.

"Also, I have compiled the ideal format for the advertisement and questionnaire for Yuigahama-senpai's flower shop. They are in another folder."

"Okay, I'll confirm it later." I nodded, then clicked on the final draft of the school magazine and began to review it.

While I was still carefully looking at the final draft of the school magazine, Star of the Sea suddenly stood up and walked to my side.

"what happened?"

"No, nothing, I just feel a little lonely..." Hai Zhixing's voice was low, making it difficult to guess her feelings. However, it was easy to guess that she was feeling lonely. If you ask me why, it must be because Tamasaka did not come to the school magazine room today.

She seemed to say that she was out looking for inspiration or something. Recently, Tamasaka had been worrying about the works to be exhibited in the exhibition, so it was reasonable for her to go out looking for inspiration. Moreover, her work was almost completed; the only thing left was the final typesetting and questionnaire editing work. Suddenly, there was no one to liven up the atmosphere in the office, so it was natural for Hai Zhixing to feel lonely. Moreover, to be precise, Tamasaka was also the best choice to tease when she was bored.

It seems that what I said was a bit too much, but since Tamasaka is not here, and I was saying it in my heart, please God forgive me!

Maybe Hai Zhixing felt bored sitting next to me, so he stood up and ran to the side to start making black tea. After a while, the sound of boiling water was heard in the office.

"Teacher, black tea."

"Thank you." After I thanked her, Hai Zhixing placed the black tea next to me. Perhaps she knew that I had a cat tongue, so she didn't expect me to drink the black tea immediately.

"Mr. Hikigaya, you've been busy with a lot of things lately, right?"

"Well, what's wrong?"

"No, nothing."

The strange question made me look at Hai Zhixing in confusion. I found that Hai Zhixing had not been looking at me for some time. She held up her chin with one hand and looked out the window. The wind blew the curtains and made a sound. White clouds were floating in the distant sky.

“It’s really free.”

"what are you saying?"

"Everything outside the window." Sea Star's voice was so low, so low that it seemed like it could be blown away by the breeze.

"I know. Although Tamasaka didn't notice it, I know from your recent behavior, Mr. Hikigaya, that you have a lot of things to deal with recently, right? Although I don't know what they are, I can probably guess."

"Can you guess it?" Infected by her emotions, I also stopped the work in my hands and looked out the window like her. We were looking at the same scenery, the only difference was that in the scenery I was looking at there was also the back of a sea star who was also looking out the window.

"It's the same thing as me, right? Just like the last time I was sick, Mr. Hikigaya, you are very understanding, so I can guess that you must be working hard for others again, right?"

That's right, the student council work was because I had to help Yuigahama negotiate with the student council, and the novel was because of Yukinoshita. If I had to say, even the school magazine work was because, emmmm, if I didn't do it, Hiratsuka-sensei would do it.

Apart from my job, it seems that all my other work is for others, not for myself.

"If you don't refute it, it means you agree, right?" Hai Zhixing didn't turn his eyes to me, as if he was talking to himself.

"Teacher Hikigaya, you're really working hard." When she said this, Umi no Hoshi finally turned to me. At this moment, the wind blowing in from the window became stronger, and Umi no Hoshi's waist-length brown hair suddenly fluttered in the strong wind.

She stood up and walked behind me, put her hands on my shoulders and began to knead them carefully.

"Hai Zhixing, what are you doing suddenly?" Because of the unexpected action, I twisted my body to get rid of Hai Zhixing's hands that were massaging my shoulders.

"Teacher Hikigaya, it's okay to not struggle." As he said this, the strength of the Sea Star increased a lot, making it impossible for me to break free easily.

"Why don't you struggle? Isn't this situation weird? If someone sees you, bad rumors will spread."

In the office under the setting sun, female students are massaging the shoulders of a male teacher. The title alone tells a story.

"It's okay. We produce the school's most influential opinion magazine. If we can just confuse right and wrong, there won't be any problem."