Bengtie, I have a Collapse simulator

His body really couldn't withstand the ravages of the collapse. The negative impact of [Heaven's Jealousy] made his body extremely weak, and this could not be changed no matter what.

All he could do was to use the little time left to fulfill the girl's wishes as much as possible, such as wanting to become a magical girl.

Xilin wanted to be the master, so Gu Che let her be the master. This world didn't have the conditions for magic, so Gu Che had to create the conditions. Relying on the huge intelligence bonus from [Heaven's Jealousy], Gu Che had created a magic system by himself, and it was verified by two doctors, and there were no problems with the magic system except for age and gender restrictions.

Although the two doctors constantly praised his extraordinary talent, praised the contribution of his invention in fighting [Honkai Impact], and invited him to go to [Anti-Entropy] to serve as a doctor at the research institute, Gu Che always humbly accepted the praise and declined the invitation.

He didn't have any great dreams, saving civilization wasn't something he wanted to think about. He just wanted to protect the smile and dream of the girl next to him, with his limited remaining life.

Gu Che walked in front, thinking about something else, and then he went into the kitchen and brought out the dessert he made last night. He smiled at Xilin and said, "Xilin, come and have breakfast."

Xilin didn't say anything, just nodded like a chicken pecking at rice, and it seemed that she hadn't recovered from the incident just now. Gu Che didn't tease Xilin with a smile like usual. Seeing that she was hesitant and didn't come over, he walked directly to Xilin, took her hand, and led her to sit on the chair.

Xilin stared at Gu Che timidly, always feeling that her brother was too gentle today. This sudden feeling of incongruity made her forget about being shy for a moment. Looking at the delicious food in front of her, she didn't know whether she should eat it or not.

Feeling a little lost, Xilin could only stare at Gu Che, trying to find the answer from him...

Inexplicably, Xilin felt a little flustered. There was no reason for this feeling. When she was at her brother's house before, she only felt a sense of security and happiness that was like honey. But now... she was indeed a little uneasy.

"Brother?" Xilin called Gu Che tentatively.

"Xilin, is the food not to your liking?" Gu Che asked, but he seemed to be suddenly awakened, and an apologetic smile immediately appeared on his face, "Look at my memory, Xilin clearly said a few days ago that she wanted to eat caramel pudding, but I made it into a lava cake..."

A strong sense of disobedience surrounded Xilin, and her uneasiness became even stronger. She felt as if there were needles under the bench she was sitting on, which made Xilin feel a little uneasy...

"Hey, Xilin, I know I was wrong. Just make do with this meal for now. I'll cook for you when I have the chance. Is that okay with you?" Gu Che found that Xilin still had no reaction, so he continued.

Could it be that Xilin noticed something? Gu Che couldn't help but wonder, but his actions were clearly the same as usual, how could it be...

"Brother, do you have anything to say to Xilin?" Xilin finally plucked up the courage to ask the question in her mind.

"Uh..." Gu Che's smile froze in an instant. Alarm bells rang in his heart. He opened his mouth, but in the end, no word came out.

Xilin stared at Gu Che with her beautiful golden eyes, never moving her gaze away, and just stared and stared until Gu Che sorted out his emotions, prepared a speech, and said what he had been brewing for a long time:

"Xilin, you have to grow up well and take care of yourself and your mother."

"Huh?!" Xilin's eyes widened. She didn't quite understand the meaning of Gu Che's words, or rather, she didn't want to believe it.

So, Xilin asked tentatively: "Brother, what did you say?"

"Brother can't accompany you~" Gu Che smiled bitterly, "I have to go back to my hometown. The archbishop in our place is seriously ill and may not be able to die soon. I need some time, so I can't celebrate your birthday with you~"

A look of dejection flashed across Xilin's face, but she couldn't help but feel relieved in her heart.

What? It’s just that you can’t celebrate my birthday with me. Do you have to make it like a life-and-death separation? I’m scared to death.

"Then will brother come back to find Xilin?" The loneliness on Xilin's face hung over her head like a dark cloud. She looked at Gu Che with a slightly sad and pleading look.

"Of course, brother will come back to play with Xilin when he has the chance," Gu Che said with a smile, "When the time comes, I will make more delicious snacks for Xilin, tell her more interesting stories, and also, I will play the game of kissing, hugging and lifting up with Xilin."

"What..." Xilin complained, lowered her head, and her face flushed. It's really unfair for my brother to say that~

There are also kisses, hugs, and lifting up, even if we do it now, Xilin actually won’t mind~(っ???c)

Thinking of this, Xilin couldn't help but look up at Gu Che again, with an expectant look on her face, and her shining golden eyes seemed to be saying - I want it now.

But Gu Che didn't seem to understand what Xilin wanted to convey. He just looked at Xilin and smiled silently, which made Xilin lower her head shyly and feel a little disappointed.

My brother is such a fool!

Gu Che looked at Xilin with a smile on his face. Looking at the girl's innocent and lively appearance, he always felt inexplicably happy in his heart, and an inexplicable feeling arose - he wanted to protect her smile and her beauty.

Gu Che knew that this was called a desire to protect, and perhaps it was also mixed with a sense of being dependent?

Gu Che didn't know, but he knew that it was indeed time for him to leave.

Just like that, he quietly withdrew from Xilin's life. In this way, with the help promised by [Anti-Entropy], she could live happily with her mother...

In this way, there would be no tragedy in Babylon, no birth of Siren, the Second Ruler, and no predetermined end.

That's good, that's good...because the price of this outcome is just his worthless life.

After finishing his breakfast, Gu Che took out a carefully wrapped gift box from the side, handed it to Xilin, and said with a smile:

"Xilin, here, this is the birthday present your brother prepared for you."

After saying that, he paused and added, "I'm sorry that I can't attend Xilin's 14th birthday. I hope Xilin won't hate me as her brother~"

"How could it be!" Xilin got furious when she heard the word "hate". "How could Xilin...how could she hate her brother..."

Before she finished speaking, Xilin's voice choked and her eyes began to turn red, but the girl insisted on her pride and tried hard not to let the tears flow.

Gu Che only thought that Xilin was very cute like this. He silently memorized this picture in his mind and said with a smile:

"Xilin, don't open it in advance. Wait until your birthday."

"Humph," Xilin hugged the gift box handed over by Gu Che tightly, turned her head away, like a proud cat, "Xilin won't do that~"

"Okay, okay." Gu Che could only nod lovingly.

..............................

Gu Che left anyway. After having his last breakfast with Xilin, he boarded the plane back to Tianming headquarters, where he would receive a comprehensive examination and treatment.

This may be a futile effort. Gu Che is very clear about his physical condition and the reasons for this phenomenon, but he is ultimately unable to resist his mother's wishes and has to return to his family.

Xilin stood alone at the door, staring blankly at the empty house. Her golden eyes stared at the house, staring straight at it, revealing a little reluctance and sadness from time to time.

Although Xilin knew that this was only a short separation, she couldn't suppress her sadness.

Xilin thought she had grown up, and even if her brother was leaving, she would never shed a tear, so that she could prove that she could stand on her own the next time she met her brother...

But she doesn't seem to have grown up...

Suddenly she remembered a sentence her brother said to her before he left.

【Parting is not the end, but another beginning. 】

At that time, Gu Che hugged Xilin, who was still sad, and put his forehead against hers, smiling:

【We will meet again.】

Subconsciously, Xilin read it out loud, then realized something, and smiled stupidly with a little pride, then cried stupidly, and finally cried and laughed again.

Finally, Celine stopped crying.

I will see my brother again, why are you crying?

........

By the time Xilin returned home, it was already noon.

The weather was very good today, with a clear sky and the sun shining brightly, warmly sharing its light with everything on earth, but Xilin was not in a very good mood. She seemed to be shrouded in an lingering haze, with her head down, looking a little unhappy.

When she sat down at the table, Xilin realized that today's lunch was more sumptuous than usual. She was a little surprised. Looking at her mother who was humming happily while serving the dishes, she asked in confusion:

"Mom, isn't today Xilin's birthday?"

"Of course Mom knows that today is not Xilin's birthday." It seems that Mom is in a really good mood today.

Xilin didn't quite understand the situation and looked confused.

Mom brought another bowl of food and said, "Mom, I want to tell Xilin a good news. Mom, I got a promotion!"

"???"

Seeing Xilin's dazed look, her mother had to explain to her slowly.

"Mom was promoted by the company because of her outstanding contributions. Now she will go to North America to manage a department." Mom smiled, "That means, Xilin, we will move tomorrow!"

At this point, my mother suddenly suggested, "Xilin, remember to say goodbye to your brother Gu Che."

"Huh?" Xilin's pupils trembled, her golden eyes opened wide, she couldn't believe what she saw.

..................

Illness is a touchstone of life and a part of life that we must learn to live with.

In Tianming's ward, Gu Che's body was plugged with numerous tubes, and the surrounding instruments were constantly running, monitoring his physical condition at all times.

"So what's the situation?" A haggard, somewhat old, white-haired woman asked the doctor here.

That was Gu Che's adoptive mother. When Gu Che looked at her, he felt that there seemed to be a few more wrinkles on her face and her expression was a little haggard. He felt a little complicated for a moment.

To be honest, he felt ashamed.

His adoptive mother's care for him was always beyond words. She would not distance herself from him because he was an adopted son. Instead, she would pay more attention to him because of his poor health and unfortunate family, even more than Siegfried. Of course, this does not rule out the reason why Siegfried ran away from his family at the age of 15, which disappointed her.

Gu Che understood all of this and was grateful for it, but he really couldn't do everything.

His wish from the beginning to the end was to protect that girl... This girl would always come first in his heart, even above his life.

So he took the risk to meet Walter, even though he knew it would cause great harm to his body, even though he knew it would make his relatives sad, but he was determined and would not regret it.

The determination has already arisen in my heart.

"Not very optimistic. We need to observe for a few days." The doctor in a white coat shook his head and turned to look at him. "Don't even think about going out recently. If you want to take a walk, you can go to the atrium of the hospital, but don't go too far."

"I understand." Gu Che nodded, his eyes looking out the window, but his mind drifted to another place.

If nothing unexpected happens, Xilin should be preparing to move by now, right?

With the help of [Anti-Entropy], she will surely be able to live a happy life, and her mission will be accomplished.

Life is like an adversity, and I am also a pedestrian.

Chapter 64: I'm Not Good at Saying Goodbye (4k)

Xilin had forgotten how she spent that day. She was in a daze, with a sense of unreality pulling and wrapping her madly. She was like a person who fell into the water, struggling desperately, trying to grab something, but could grab nothing. The cold water poured into her lungs, and her body felt as heavy as if it were filled with lead. The ruthless gravity made her fall into the deep sea.

At the dinner table, her mother's excited voice suddenly sounded like a lost phonograph, and the letters she spoke sounded like phantom sounds in a dream, which were not clear... Xilin felt suffocated. Heavy pressure and tension enveloped her heart, making it hard for her to breathe. She now seemed like a drowning fish.

"■Lin, ■■, are you ■■ listening? Xilin?" The mother in the sight seemed to notice that Xilin was different and asked with concern.

Although her mother was sitting next to her, Xilin felt that she was very far away from her, so far that her voice began to distort and she could hardly see her face clearly.

"Xilin!" Xilin felt herself being shaken and just woke up. She looked at her mother beside her with a dazed look.

"Xilin, are you feeling unwell? Do you want to see a doctor?" The mother's face was filled with worry and concern. She looked at Xilin and asked with concern.

Xilin shook her head and trembled: "Brother, he left this morning."

"Ah?" The mother asked in confusion.

Xilin's mind was in a mess and she had no intention to answer her mother's questions. Her mind was full of one question:

If she leaves like this, what will happen when her brother comes back?

..................

Xilin finally found a way. She ran out of the door in a hurry, and after a while she ran back to her room in a hurry.

She placed the letter paper in her hand on the table, and looked at it devoutly as if she had grasped her last life-saving straw. Then she sat down on the chair in front of the table, spread out the letter paper, picked up the pen she had prepared long ago, and began to write.

Xilin is not good at writing essays or letters. Up to now, she has been mostly involved in writing stories based on pictures, and her essays have not been praised by the whole class.

Xilin believed so much that as long as she worked hard, she would be able to write this letter well.

Xilin held the pen, frowned slightly, bit her lower lip lightly, and looked serious as if she was thinking about some major issue concerning the survival of the universe.

But Xilin overestimated herself after all. Maybe she really was a fool.

When the minute hand of the wall clock turned half a circle, the shadows of the trees on the street tilted, and the birds jumped from one tree to another, and the fishermen on the Spree River returned home disappointed again, Xilin still maintained the original posture, motionless.

She looked at the clock on the wall, feeling a little frustrated. Half an hour had passed, and she still hadn't written a single word.

Xilin sighed, unconsciously propped her head on the table with her little hands, and sighed as she watched the sky outside the window getting darker and darker.

Writing a letter is so difficult...

Xilin finally finished writing the letter before dark. She happily read the letter again and again, carefully checking for typos several times, and then she put the letter away with satisfaction.

He ran out of the house before the night completely enveloped the city, stuffed the envelope through the crack in the door, and did not forget to take a few more glances at the house before leaving.

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November 11, sunny, light breeze.

Today is Xilin's 14th birthday, which should have been the day the girl looked forward to the most and was the happiest. However, she simply couldn't be happy today - she was about to move to North America with her mother.

Xilin carried a small bag in her hand and took difficult steps to board the flight with her mother. She walked very slowly, and every step was a huge challenge.

Since she moved to Berlin from Belarus as a child, she has been familiar with everything about this city.