Hikigaya Hachiman is Kuuga?

"Don't let yourself regret it, Yukinoshita."

"Well, I will."

Yukinoshita Yukino was running quickly, taking out her cell phone and calling Yuigahama Yui, with flames burning in her dark eyes.

[Hikigaya-kun, wait for me. This time I must make you understand that you are not alone, and that what you did is wrong.]

Chapter 187: The boy recognizes himself (Part 3)

The view of the two girls has ended, so it’s time to return to the protagonist.

Hikigaya Hachiman sat dejectedly at the place where he had confessed his love not long ago, leaning on the hunter. There was no focus in his dark pupils, and he stared blankly ahead, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Huh~ It's really here."

Hiratsuka Shizuka calmed her disordered breathing, slowly walked to the side of Hikigaya Hachiman and sat down, "Hey~ Hikigaya, don't you have anything ready to tell me, teacher?"

"..."

However, the boy did not give her an answer.

Shizuka Hiratsuka didn't care too much about this. She was the one who knew best in the school how weird the boy's personality was. After all, she was the first one to notice him and want to help him.

"Ah~ Honestly, your personality is even weirder than I thought. I really don't know how you became like this."

Hiratsuka Shizuka sighed deeply, "Actually, I originally intended for you to figure it out yourself. Only the answer you find by relying on your own strength will be the most convincing to you, right?"

She raised her head and looked up at the dim night sky, her voice carrying a hint of heartache, "But, judging from the current situation, it is not suitable for you to slowly search for the answer, otherwise you will break down."

"..."

Hearing the word "broken", Hikigaya Hachiman finally came to his senses and turned around to look calmly at Hiratsuka Shizuka beside him, "What do you mean by broken?"

"He emptied out his existence called self, and then stuffed everything into the empty shell, shouldering everything on his own, and finally became a complete rational monster, no longer a person called Hikigaya Hachiman."

Shizuka Hiratsuka turned her head and looked at the problem student next to her. Her dark eyes were once again filled with ripples of sadness, which tore Hikigaya Hachiman's heart apart once again.

"A lonely wandering soul needs no place to be bound."

A very familiar sentence, a sentence that he thought was very handsome, a sentence that now sounds very harsh and makes the heart hurt even more.

"You've said this before, haven't you?"

Hikigaya Hachiman nodded without denying it.

"But do you think you are still a lonely wandering soul now?"

"I thought..."

Shizuka Hiratsuka placed her hands heavily on the student's shoulders, her dark eyes revealing a will as real as substance, a will that would not allow the young man to lie and must answer truthfully.

"Hikigaya, think carefully before answering my questions. Ask your own heart carefully and carefully."

This will was also well conveyed to Hikigaya Hachiman, causing the words that he blurted out subconsciously to stop at his lips, and because of the loss of propulsion, they slipped into the stomach and were completely digested.

[Am I still alone?]

The boy slowly closed his eyes, calmed down and questioned his heart.

His consciousness seemed to sink into the dark and lightless seabed once again, and he felt nothing except the oppressive feeling caused by the continuous sinking.

[Hey, brother, please help Komachi. I beg you.]

As if it was natural, the first voice that rang out belonged to the cutest sister in the world, Hikigaya Komachi. It was followed by that adorable and coquettish face that he never got tired of looking at. Even in the darkness, it was still so dazzling and warmed his heart.

[The eyes are the windows to the human soul. Your heart is as rotten as your eyes, Hikigaya~]

The words uttered in the cold voice still stung his heart, but the familiar tone of bickering reminded him of the daily bickering between him and Yukinoshita Yukino when he was Hikigaya Hachiman.

At this time, he seemed to reflect on himself first, and then find the loopholes in the girl's words, and finally use the words stored in his brain to compose what he thought was a perfect sentence to refute her. Although he would always be refuted, he liked this way of getting along.

Because it was pure emotion, not the kind of completely malicious words, but "bad words" with concern, so he didn't hate it.

[Who is the president of your fan club? It's just a small company, but you are so arrogant!]

As gentle as ever, but at that time he had clearly understood that such gentleness was not universal and would hurt his own gentleness.

Instead, Yuigahama Yui's gentleness towards him alone was obviously different from that towards everyone else.

The figure who tried desperately to block the steps of Jaguar Lord, making himself look dusty and draining away part of his vitality, is enough for him to remember for the rest of his life.

It also made his heart, which had been hurt by gentleness, understand that not all gentle girls are annoying. What he hated was the ignorant self at the beginning, who regarded other people's rare kindness as goodwill, and rejected his gentle and immature self after being rejected.

[You seem to be in a difficult situation. Do you need our help, my dear friend Hachiman?]

Every time I see him, he is full of middle school aura and gives people a feeling of unreliability, but Zaimokuza Yoshiki is always the one who will respond to his call and really lend a helping hand when he needs help.

[Senior, I miss you so much~]

She always looks cheerful when she sees me, but when we get along, she's like a clumsy younger sister, and I need to be careful to watch her so she doesn't make any mistakes.

But he cares about his own affairs very much, even to the point of hurting his own body to help. Zhixiong Li Ke is already too good.

[Good morning, Hachiman.]

Ayaka Totsuka, who always heals his tired heart with her angelic smile, and who noticed that he was not in a good mood and asked him to go out and play.

[I will be more careful in the future and won’t cause you any more trouble.]

After taking off the mask that he had been wearing on his face, Yukinoshita Haruno looked straight at him with a firm gaze that could still shake his soul even when he thought about it now.

Because he understands that if someone has worn this mask for a long time, taking it off in front of you means that the other person completely trusts you and does not treat you as an outsider.

It was because of this that he began to realize that everyone was moving towards the "real thing", but he was the only one who was still craving for the "real thing" while doing "fake" things.

[Hey~ Hikigaya, helping others can't be a reason for you to hurt yourself~]

Finally, it was Hiratsuka Shizuka's words at the end of the cultural festival that made him feel a tearing pain in his heart every time he thought of them.

[Yes, I am no longer that lonely wandering soul. I don’t know when there are already many people around me.]

He opened his eyes and looked directly into those gentle eyes, "I am no longer."

[Lonely people will not hurt others, they will only hurt themselves constantly.]

[I was like that before, but I am different now, so...]

"But I can..."

"Don't tell me to sever the ties and become myself again."

Hiratsuka Shizuka rudely interrupted Hikigaya Hachiman and rubbed her brows with a headache, "So your personality is really weird."

"Anyway, with your personality, you must be thinking that if you don't have any ties, you won't get hurt. Just act like you don't care and refuse to get along with them, letting time slowly heal your inner wounds, right?"

"..."

Hikigaya Hachiman did not refute. After all, he did think so. Since Yukinoshita Yukino and Yuigahama Yui were sad because of the so-called bond, then he should just sever the bond between them.

They did feel very painful for a while, but a rotten person like Hikigaya Hachiman would never be remembered by girls for a long time, otherwise he would not have been ignored and not changed at all until high school.

With such ironclad facts before his eyes, how could he not be convinced?

Next, the problem will be solved perfectly as long as the relationship between the two parties is kept at a cold level as colleagues.

Isn’t this a great idea?

"Hikigaya, you know what? As long as a person still exists in this world, until the moment his existence is completely forgotten, he will not cause harm to others."

"Don't tell me that the depth of the injury can be slowly healed with the passage of time. I just want to ask you, in your eyes, are Yukinoshita and Yuigahama people you would give up so easily?"

In response to this, Hachiman Hikigaya's mind recalled the two men's desperate determination to save him not long ago.

Even though his grip meant that the injuries on both of them were only superficial, the invisible cold murderous aura still existed. Being able to continue fighting under such pressure was already a remarkable thing in itself.

After all, murderous intent is a terrifying ability that can kill people.

"will not."

Therefore, Hikigaya Hachiman still did not lie.

"So, you should take a good look at yourself. I don't know what you've been through that made you so reluctant to let others get in touch with you and always belittle yourself."

Shizuka Hiratsuka reached out and gently touched the boy's head. The tenderness in her eyes made him feel very uncomfortable.

"Have you ever thought that it is because you are excellent that you can win the recognition of others, so when they see you do something that hurts them without caring, they feel distressed by your familiar attitude and are also dissatisfied with your attitude of ignoring their feelings?"

“I am excellent?”

From childhood to adulthood, apart from his family and Shikuma Rika, Hikigaya Hachiman did not think of himself as an outstanding person.

Otherwise, how could there be such an outstanding person who is not liked by anyone from childhood to adulthood, to the point where people feel disgusted when he or she speaks a few words to you?

Although Yukinoshita Yukino was ostracized by others, she became a celebrity in the school and was even admired by others.

How could it be so miserable for him to be hated and forgotten?

Therefore, it is impossible for him, Hikigaya Hachiman, to be actually very outstanding. He had already accepted this a long time ago.

"Ah~"

Shizuka Hiratsuka looked at the student in front of her who was sure that she was a loser, and she felt both distressed and angry. It was really hard for her to imagine what kind of horrible hell a person had to experience to be so willing to believe that there was no shining point in him and that no one would care about him. It was such a terrible inferiority complex.

"Do you still remember the bet you made with Yukinoshita?"

"Hmm? Remember, what happened?"

Although Hikigaya Hachiman didn't understand why the topic jumped so much, he still answered his teacher's question truthfully and waited quietly for her next words.

"Actually, from what I've seen, you were the one who solved most of the requests, but if it weren't for the assistance of Yukinoshita and Yuigahama, your success would probably not have been achieved, so you're both tied now."

"Well, since the top student Yukinoshita, the unpopular Yuigahama, and the second-best student Hayama all followed your plan, doesn't that prove that Hikigaya Hachiman is an excellent person?"

Hiratsuka Shizuka did not bring up the excellent example of Kamen Rider Kuuga, even though she knew that both were the same person. But if she brought up that aspect now, she was 100% sure that her awkward student would use this as a breakthrough to launch a series of sophistry that sounded right but was useless when delved into, and finally find an excuse to continue to avoid the problem.

Therefore, the examples she cited were all about how Hachiman Hikigaya used his own abilities to win the recognition of people who he considered to be excellent and to carry out his plans.

"This, may be..."

At this point, even though Hikigaya Hachiman realized that he had fallen into a trap, as a person with extraordinary computing power, it was not that difficult for him to use his stored knowledge to write a rebuttal.

"It's impossible. Otherwise, who would have nothing better to do than listen to a lonely man with dead eyes? If they do that, they will probably be tested by the entire elementary school group, and they will also risk being educated by their teachers and parents."

It's just a pity that his words were interrupted again.

"This is a huge gamble with a reputation at stake. If they don't believe in you, Hikigaya Hachiman, and admit that you are excellent, it would be impossible to do it, right?"

Hiratsuka Shizuka's gaze became increasingly gentle, which made Hikigaya Hachiman open his mouth. However, he found that his brain, which had extraordinary computing power and was much more powerful than the most powerful computer in the world, was completely unable to write a suitable rebuttal from the stored knowledge.

Because this time, both rationality and sensibility had no objection to what Hiratsuka Shizuka said, and both chose to agree.

Therefore, Hikigaya Hachiman understood that he could indeed be said to be an excellent person, but he was not just self-righteous.

[I see, so I am really excellent, and not just a fake one that deceives myself and makes me feel better.]

For some reason, both his emotion and reason agreed with what Hiratsuka Shizuka said. After hearing from others that Hikigaya Hachiman was an excellent person, he just felt his nose sore and his eyes itchy, and tears inevitably flowed out of them.

However, those two lines of tears did not affect the bright smile on the boy's lips.

“It turns out that I am very good!”

Chapter 188: Hikigaya Hachiman Begins to Accept Others

Hikigaya Hachiman, since the day he gained awareness of the outside world, he realized that he was different from other people. It was not because he was so smart or a fool, nor because he had a stunning appearance or was shockingly ugly.

It's just that his very existence is ignored by others, or they even harbor malicious intent towards him. He is clearly a cute child, and his brain is considered smart among ordinary people, but he is always frustrated when interacting with others.

It was obvious that he had never said bad things about others behind their backs, nor had any conflicts with anyone in person, and he could even be said to be kind to others, but he still didn't have any friends. The only person who could be considered a friend was Gao Jinjun, who was asked by his mother to come and deliver a birthday present.

Although it was a very ordinary corn cob, it was a rare gift for Hikigaya Hachiman who had no friends. He felt so happy that he invited the other party to have dinner together. However, he was told that the other party was just called over by his mother and he didn't want to play with him. Hikigaya Hachiman's heart almost died at that moment.

Of course, this assumes that there is no younger sister, Hikigaya Komachi.

So after a lot of famous scenes of social death and realizing that he was not loved, he understood that he was a terrible existence, which was why everyone subconsciously hated his existence. He gave up the idea of ​​communicating with others. Anyway, he had the cutest sister in the world, Hikigaya Komachi, so nothing else mattered.

However, although the parents' love is seriously biased, it is also crucial that they still remember it. Otherwise, it would be difficult for him to guarantee that he would not go crazy.

Based on all of the above, Hikigaya Hachiman has a very low self-esteem and always thinks that he is a very bad person. He can only use the Ah Q spirit to motivate himself. Otherwise, even with the support of Hikigaya Komachi and a little love from his parents, he will become a good brother only in front of his sister, and a terrorist who takes revenge on society behind his back, or even commit suicide.

After all, it is normal to have negative thoughts when you are not needed by anyone and are even hated.

So to be honest, this is the first time that someone has told him that he is excellent, apart from his family who give him a sense of kinship and Shixiong Li Ke.

It would be a lie to say that I was not moved. This was not the kind of affirmation that comes from the bonus of blood between family members, nor was it the kind of praise from a younger generation who is younger than me and gets along just like a younger sister, based on a good relationship with a senior, or the kind of praise that gives the meaning of family affection and has a strong personal filter.