Social phobia and lonely rock

Perversion is directness!

Hong Xia paused, all the doubts and tentative thoughts in her heart vanished, and she breathed a sigh of relief.

After knowing Ishikawa Hayabusa's thoughts, she finally felt relieved.

She smiled and turned to Ishikawa Hayabusa and asked with a slight sigh.

"Hey... I always feel like every time I act on my own, nothing good happens. Does Hayabusa have any ideas?"

Seeing that Hongxia changed the subject and accepted the fact that he was alone with him, Ishikawa Hayabusa reached into his bag and took out a folding fan.

He opened the folding fan with a trembling hand, showing the word "pervert" on it and said.

"I have three options: best, middle and worst. I won't tell you the best option because I don't want my rare time alone with Hong Xia to be disturbed."

"I don't want to do the middle option. It won't have any romance. The worst option is for me to try harder and do the work of the other three as well."

After folding the fan, Ishikawa Hayabusa smiled very coolly.

Since Ishikawa Hayabusa spoke his thoughts so openly, Hongxia was at a loss as to what to do with him.

If she continued to avoid him, it would seem that she completely distrusted Ishikawa Hayabusa.

She opened the door and sighed with a smile.

"It always feels scary to be alone with Hayabusa-kun."

She also expressed her thoughts bluntly.

The two walked into the store. Ishikawa Hayabusa turned on the store's ventilation system and closed the door. He continued with Hong Xia's words.

"I have some pepper spray here, let me look for it."

"What on earth do you have in your bag? Are you worried about that?"

Hongxia turned back and complained to him as she walked down.

When she reached the bottom of the stairs, she saw Ishikawa Hayabusa take out a bottle of pepper spray from his bag and look at her with a smile. Hongxia stood there in a daze.

When Ishikawa Hayabusa handed her the pepper spray, Hongxia finally reacted and pushed the pepper spray back without hesitation.

"I won't use this kind of thing."

She spoke in a serious tone, and after she finished speaking, she showed a rare heavy expression and turned to walk towards the rehearsal room.

Ishikawa Hayabusa smiled and followed her.

When entering the rehearsal room, Ishikawa Hayabusa only closed the door but did not close it tightly. For Hongxia, who was feeling uneasy, the enclosed space would make her even more nervous.

Then he looked into the rehearsal room, where the empty space originally set aside for them to practice was now filled with a pile of gift boxes and CDs.

The number was like a small mountain, demonstrating the horror of the seemingly small number of one thousand.

But on the ground, Ishikawa Hayabusa also saw a small pile of packaged CDs.

Ishikawa Hayabusa thought for a moment and asked.

"I remember the CD arrived last night, and the packaging just arrived this morning."

It seems that Hongxia couldn't wait to start working as soon as she got it.

But in response to his question, Hongxia did not answer. She stood two steps in front of Ishikawa Hayabusa with her back to her.

This is strange, as she usually answers other people's questions first.

This time, she continued with the topic on her own.

"Hayabusa-kun, do you know why I don't need that thing?"

Ishikawa Hayabusa began to realize that something was wrong, but he still cooperated and made a nasal "hmm" sound to express his confusion.

Hong Xia then explained.

"Because no matter what you do to me now, I won't resist."

There was a forced and nervous smile in her slightly trembling tone.

But unlike her voice, her back looked lonely and pitiful, as if she was in distress and walking on the edge of everything.

There was neither acceptance nor opposition.

Ishikawa Hayabusa fell silent and did not respond to her.

After waiting for a long time, Hongxia turned around. She looked at him with extremely complicated emotions such as entanglement, confusion, and loss.

Ishikawa Hayabusa spoke before she opened her mouth.

"The answer is... no?"

Given Hongxia's abnormal behavior, her decision was obvious.

She avoided his gaze, nodded hesitantly, and replied softly.

"Ah."

Ishikawa Hayabusa breathed a sigh of relief. He smiled, walked to the side, picked up a small chair and said.

"Then start packing."

"Don't you want to do something...?"

Hong Xia lowered her head, still standing there, and her voice sounded extremely lost, as if she had offered compensation but the other party did not accept it.

While adjusting his mood, Ishikawa Hayabusa slowly became proficient in his technique, preparing to speed up.

"If you feel that I have helped you a lot, so you want to use this method..."

"No! It's not like that..."

Hongxia refused firmly.

"You don't mean to comfort me like this, do you?"

Ishikawa Hayabusa's tone became a little heavier. He raised his head and looked at Hongxia, but saw that Hongxia's eyes were wet with mist and tears were streaming down her cheeks.

The crystal tears reflected a flash of light as they fell, and then shattered when they hit the ground.

Drop by drop continuously.

This girl, who was not as strong as others thought and had always been trying to hold back her tears, couldn't help crying in front of him this time.

"no..."

She only reacted after Ishikawa Hayabusa looked at her and hurriedly wiped away her tears.

Ishikawa Hayabusa understood her thoughts, but she still didn't dare to take that step. She wanted to end it all with this kind of hurt and concession.

He softened his tone and confirmed again.

"Do you want to end it all this way and compensate me for my feelings?"

Hongxia covered her eyes, wiped her tears, and hesitated for a while before responding.

"Ah."

Ishikawa Hayabusa walked over, took out a tissue from his bag, pressed her shoulders and wiped her face, and he gently wiped away her tears.

It is heartbreaking to see her once vibrant and rosy face now filled with sadness and tears.

She was really prepared. Even facing such an intimate distance, she stood still.

Ishikawa Hayabusa wiped her face, then held her in his arms, touched her head, and stroked her soft golden hair.

"I won't do such a thing. I don't want to hurt Hong Xia."

He touched the back of Hongxia's head and felt that she seemed to be crying again. He didn't say much, but just quietly touched her head and patted her back.

After a while, he spoke when he felt the mood of the petite girl in his arms gradually recover.

"Let's adjust our mood and start working! We've been procrastinating for so long, maybe we'll all have to work overtime tonight."

Hong Xia took a long, deep breath, and her voice regained its usual smiling, relaxed tone.

"Ah."

She stepped away from Ishikawa Hayabusa's chest, wiped away her tears, and finally showed a strong but beautiful smile.

The two of them sat down beside the mountain of CDs and wrapping paper and began to work.

Because of the awkwardness just now, the two did not speak for a long time, until Ishikawa Hayabusa mastered the packaging technique and spoke.

"Falcon quadruple speed activated!"

Hong Xia just looked up at him and saw him using dazzling techniques to start packaging the CDs as if with afterimages.

She wrapped it silently for a while and seemed not to be in the mood to interfere, but after a while, she saw that Ishikawa Hayabusa was still working very quickly.

She glanced at the CD packaged by Ishikawa Hayabusa and saw that it was still neatly and beautifully packaged, with all four corners straight.

She then advised.

"You don't have to work so hard, Hayabusa."

"What if we can't finish it?"

Even though his hands were moving so fast that afterimages were left, Ishikawa Hayabusa still had enough energy to speak. He took the time to glance at Hong Xia.

She said in a calm and slightly stubborn tone.

"If you take your time, you'll get it done."

"Stay up late tonight?"

After Ishikawa Hayabusa asked the question, she fell into silence. This time she hesitated for a long time, and gradually felt guilty.

"Hayabusa-kun...I've already rejected you, so you don't have to be nice to me anymore."

"I'll consider it, but I really need to work hard to finish this. I don't want the other three to see the mess in the rehearsal room when they arrive. They will definitely not want to go back if that happens."

As he spoke, he looked up at Hongxia and met her hesitant gaze.

"Staying up late for fun is different from staying up late for work."

"Um..."

Seeing her serious expression, Ishikawa Hayabusa thought for a moment before slowing down and continued packing at twice the speed of Hongxia.

Hongxia is a good girl who does not want to be given unconditional love.

Although Ishikawa Hayabusa didn't think so.

Seeing that she was still in a heavy mood, Ishikawa Hayabusa asked directly as if he was chatting.

"Come to think of it, why did Hong Xia refuse?"

Hongxia was shocked and stopped her hand. At this point, she didn't plan to hide her thoughts from Ishikawa Hayabusa anymore.

"Um..."

The first thing she thought of was her sister's implicit reminder last night, but she was not someone who would use her sister as a shield, so she chose the second most important reason.

“What society thinks...”

For her, her original feelings of acceptance were outweighed by her sister's disapproval and society's views.

"It's obviously rock..."

Ishikawa Hayabusa said jokingly, but Hongxia, who used to complain, looked at him helplessly.

He said with great surprise.

"Hey, isn't this a good point to complain about? Hongxia, please complain about it."

"Don't say that rock music is so bad. There are good people in rock music too."

Hong Xia complained weakly, but she seemed to have regained some energy.

She looked at the messy CDs on the floor with a heavy heart, her eyes lost in thought.

"Hayabusa, I'm sorry, I don't have the courage to fight against everything I have. I'm very timid and I don't dare to step into the unknown at any time. Even if I have regretted it in the past, I..."

She let out a long sigh, put down the CD in her hand, and prepared to tell her whole idea.

"And I'm worried about what my family thinks and what my sister thinks."