Social phobia and lonely rock

After hearing her words, Yudai's restless heart gradually calmed down.

She remembered what Liang had said to her in the morning.

Falcon has always been a slow person... This doesn't seem to be right. Falcon will only slow down and act patiently when he is doing important things.

Usually, he always does what he wants.

It's true that he has to endure it...

But she felt that Yili was worrying too much, because she had received help from Yili when she was dating Ishikawa Hayabusa before, and she also planned to repay him.

She asked.

"So in the evening, Goto-san suddenly decided to attend the school festival?"

"Eh... Yeah, but I don't really know what to do."

Yili said distressedly.

“I’ve thought about letting Hayabusa come to the front and play with me, and I’ve thought about giving him more opportunities to perform… but it feels like I’m forcing him.

But this is all I can do for him..."

"Well...tell him these thoughts, let him decide...how about that?"

Yudai pointed out with a smile.

189. Sadness

I have thought about what the best version of her is like in the past.

A master guitarist, not socially anxious, the queen of rock?

Even listing each one individually doesn't seem like an easy task, let alone putting them all together.

If anything... being a master guitarist would be easier for her.

She feels that her guitar skills have improved rapidly recently, and she doesn't know if it's because she changed to a more formal recording venue, but the number of fans of her Guitar Hero account has increased a lot.

This caused a lot of performance invitations and show invitations to pile up in the private messages on her account.

Of course, she ignored it as before.

If you think about it from another perspective, it's not based on what she thinks, but what Falcon wants to see her as.

This doesn't seem to need to be considered, as Falcon has already said it.

He just wanted to see her become the person she wanted to be and keep some ambition, that's all.

His request was simple.

Now Ichiri knows exactly what kind of person he wants to be.

Although she felt sorry for Hayabusa, what she wanted to be most now was Ishikawa Ichiri.

Compared with this ultimate goal, all other thoughts pale into insignificance.

Unable to find a short-term goal, she could only continue along her original path, practicing guitar and trying her best to improve her social skills.

But as she did so, she noticed something.

Falcon has changed recently. He is not as casual as before and cares more about their affairs than his own.

For example, yesterday, if it was the old Hayabusa, she would have happily shouted in the street that she wanted to see everyone's maid costumes, and would have directly said that she didn't want to wear a maid costume in front of others.

Even the pranks have been restrained a lot more.

She didn't feel disgusted or even happy about Falcon's change, because Falcon was her favorite person anyway.

She was just worried that he would be under too much pressure to maintain the family.

She - Goto Ichiri wanted to do something for him.

...

In the morning, Yili greeted his classmates and sat down at his seat.

She now has some friends in class whom she can say hello to, but of course, she still can't chat with them.

When she met other people's gaze, she still didn't know what to say, just like before.

After putting down her schoolbag and guitar, she hesitated for a moment, then stood up and walked towards the podium.

After she took two steps, she could feel more and more eyes focused on her, and she unconsciously bent her back and retracted her hands.

But realizing that she was the same as before, she took a deep breath, adjusted her posture and stood up straight.

After she became what she is now, any unnecessary move she makes would easily attract attention.

After taking a performance application form from the box on the podium, Yili quickened his pace back to his seat to prepare to fill out the information.

This is the task assigned to her by everyone.

But as soon as she sat down and picked up the pen, the student in front of her turned sideways in surprise and looked at the application form on her desk.

"Goto-san, are you going to perform?"

Because the other party's words were too abrupt, he froze for a moment.

“Ah…ah, that…”

"Just take your time."

The girl sitting in front of her said this to her with a smile.

Ever since the incident where she was blocked in the toilet last semester, her classmates have been much more respectful to her. After she changed her image at the beginning of this semester, some of her classmates have been quite gentle to her.

Yili responded by nodding and lowering his head.

"Well... our band is planning to perform."

"Really?! I've been interested in Goto-san's band for a long time. Will they really come to perform?"

"Ah... then... it's decided."

An awkward response.

Hmm, I really want Falcon to be by my side, it's too hard to talk to others alone...

"That's great, I'll definitely go and see it."

The other party seemed to have noticed Yili's embarrassment. After he finished speaking, he left briskly to talk to other people about the matter.

Yili breathed a sigh of relief.

But when she saw the classmate's happy expression, she soon started daydreaming again.

Could this be the starting point for her to become the queen of rock?

"Hey hey hey..."

The girl was immersed in a beautiful dream.

During lunch break.

She took her lunch box and left the classroom, heading towards Ishikawa Hayabusa and Yuyo's classroom.

As she turned a corner on the way, she saw herself in the mirror in front of her because of the light.

Her delicate figure was straight, her long pink hair fluttering in the wind, her bangs stopping just in front of her eyebrows, her eyes bright, and she was wearing a short-sleeved school uniform and a pleated skirt that reached her knees, looking very decent.

She didn't have any thoughts about her current image, but she was still not used to, or rather, she didn't like wearing school uniforms.

It's not just school uniforms. She doesn't like clothes that are troublesome to wear or look cute.

But if Falcon wanted to, she thought it was okay.

When she arrived at Ishikawa Hayabusa's class, she went to the door and looked inside.

Ishikawa Hayabusa had already noticed it and looked at her. He raised his hand and greeted her with a smile. She also raised her hand happily and waved.

"Then I'll go first."

Ishikawa Hayabusa patted Yuyo's shoulder as he walked towards her.

Yu Dai turned around and complained softly.

"You don't have to tell me this every day."

Ishikawa Hayabusa smiled and walked towards Yili without saying a word.

You can see it from one mile.

Just now, Falcon actually wanted to say something, but he didn't open his mouth.

Maybe... he teased Kita-san and said that she was jealous. Hayabusa is a very direct person, he should point this out directly.

But because he had a friend named Yudai in the class, he didn't say it.

While Yili was thinking, Ishikawa Hayabusa walked up to her and saw that she was thinking, so he stroked her head.

"Yili, what's wrong?"

"Ah... nothing..."

Ichiri remembered what Yudai had said to her last night and told Hayabusa her thoughts directly.

But wouldn't it be too arrogant for someone like her to tell Falcon that she hoped he would relax a little?

Ishikawa Hayabusa let out a light breath, smiled and put his arm around her waist.

Feeling her lover's embrace, she temporarily put aside her thoughts and leaned happily into his arms.

The weather was not very good today, and the sky was a little gloomy. She and Ishikawa Hayabusa did not go to the rooftop to eat, but had lunch in the classroom where they had their last tutoring session.

Sitting in a classroom with no one else in it, facing only Falcon, Yili felt completely relaxed.

"What's today's lunch?"

Ishikawa Hayabusa said expectantly.

Yili smiled happily and told the story without any hesitation.

“The one with tempura, broccoli, egg rolls, braised pork...”

Egg rolls and braised pork are both sweet, so she and Hongxia have to estimate Ishikawa Hayabusa's sugar intake every day.

It’s really great to have Hongxia’s help in the mornings recently. When she was alone, she didn’t know what the appropriate amount was. After the two of them discussed it, she felt much more at ease.

"Great!"

Ishikawa Hayabusa opened the bento with a smile.

Yili also happily opened the same bento as him.

Come to think of it, Senior Liang doesn’t seem to like sweet things that much.

At this time, in another school, Liang opened his lunch box and looked at the dishes inside, then glanced at Hongxia's dishes across from him.

“Why don’t I have braised pork and egg rolls…”

"Then Liang, do you want something sweet?"

"Hey..."

Back to the Xiuhua High School club building.

"I like "The Record of the Mountain and the Moon"..." Ishikawa Hayabusa said after taking a mouthful of rice, chewing it and swallowing it.

"'Success lies in achieving the joy of life, not in high office and high salary.' I like this sentence."

"what..."

Yili paused, not knowing what to say.

Her favorite sentence is:

“I am afraid that I am not a beautiful jade, so I deliberately do not work hard to polish myself. But I still have a little hope that I will become a beautiful jade, so I cannot live a mediocre life with rubble.”

But this sentence was too heavy, so she didn't say it.

The two chatted while eating.

Thanks to Ichi-ri's considerable reading, even if there is nothing interesting in daily life, the two can still have a great time chatting about books, music, and family life.