Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

Fortunately, this problem disappeared soon after Bai Bo mentioned me. Because this was a large gathering of 40 people, we could not guarantee that the topics on the table would be consistent at all times, so we were divided into several small groups for conversation.

Although they were scattered, the whole was surprisingly coordinated, or it could be said that the lack of boundaries was even stronger. And because I was mixed in with the male and female groups, the people I talked to were constantly changing.

"Can I interrupt?"

Just when the celebration banquet was reaching its climax and everyone was chatting and laughing, Ji Ye classmate suddenly raised his hand.

I have just been silently observing the class atmosphere. She is a girl who seldom speaks in our class, and at most she only agrees occasionally.

"Xiaoxue, what's wrong?"

"Ah, that migraine seems to have come back, and I feel a little weak. Can I go back first?"

Ji Ye briefly informed the reason for his discomfort and expressed his wish to go back.

At the same time, she covered her temples on both sides of her head. The pain in her head didn't seem to be fake.

Since it's 'a migraine attack again', it means that the girls should also understand the difficulties faced by Himeno-san.

"Of course. Can I come back with you?"

Upon hearing that Jiye was not feeling well, Wangcang and other girls hurriedly expressed their concern to Jiye.

"Ah~ That's not necessary, no need for that. I'm not a child, I can still go back by myself. Besides, the class celebration party still needs to go on, right........."

Faced with the girls' overprotective behavior in public, Ji Ye showed an embarrassed expression and stood up.

I didn't find any other problems from it.

"Um, Xiaoxue, are you full? If necessary, we can help pack it and send it to your room."

"Thank you, but I'm full, so I don't need it."

"Then remember to have a good rest."

"Ah."

Although his face showed a slight look of annoyance and distress, Ji Ye still talked to us politely.

I guess the migraine must have given her a very bad experience.

We watched Ji Ye leave, and I sensed a subtle sense of relief in her departing figure.

The conversation among the class fell silent for a moment due to Ji Ye's departure, but soon returned to normal and became quite lively.

"Does Ichinose know Himeno-san?"

I would like to take this opportunity to get to know more about my classmates. Although the atmosphere for making friends in the class has always been good, my actual interpersonal relationships are only among a few people.

Ichinose, who was sitting in a cute posture, was stunned when she heard my question.

"what?"

"Why do you ask this question suddenly?"

Ichinose, who was holding the juice, stopped and looked at me in confusion.

"From what Himeno-san said just now, it seems that she has had migraines for a long time. So I want to ask if she was like this before?"

"Ah, are you talking about this?"

Ichinose suddenly realized what was going on and started drinking the juice in small sips.

"Xiaoxue's health has not been very good. In many previous gatherings, she couldn't continue because of a headache. Although I am concerned about her condition, she always pretends to be strong. I am also a little distressed........."

"I see... maybe she did this so that you don't have to worry about her. Ichinose, don't think too much about caring about your classmates, otherwise your mental stress will increase."

"I don't think so. After all, I have ways to relieve stress. Besides, I will only help within my ability."

Ichinose had a cute smile on his face.

Faced with such a pure smile, even I feel powerless.

Ichinose's appeal was so strong that I had to give up thinking at that moment.

"........Don't push yourself too hard. I can help if you need it."

"Well, I will."

1

It is somewhat hard for me to imagine how long the climax of this celebration party would last.

If I didn't have some kind of belief in my heart, I don't think I would have been able to endure it until now.

Perhaps from all aspects, following Himeno-san and leaving first is a good choice, but I have my reasons not to do so.

While I was escaping, I washed my face with cold water in the bathroom to sober up my mind which was overwhelmed by the excitement of the celebration party.

I decided to go back and continue fighting, after all, the temptation of delicious food is hard to resist.

I walked back to the party room at a leisurely pace.

Night is always a time for calm thinking.

It can be said that there is no time of the day when we can see things more clearly than at this time, so it is also the most unbearable time for people.

People who are troubled by many facts in life during the day can abandon all distractions at night, calm down, and think carefully about the development of the problem.

Even someone like me who thinks I am not limited by time can feel an indescribable subtle state of mind at night...

If what I feel can be called real.

The autumn night brought a cool breeze that blew on my face. Because the dew on my face was not wiped off, it was terribly cold.

But at this time I think the night view is so beautiful.

Perhaps this is what people often say: human hearts are unpredictable.

I turned the corner with such a confused thought. What came into view was Shibata standing outside the corridor of the room, looking at the night view.

"............Aren't you going into the room? Why are you standing alone outside the corridor?"

I came to Shibata's side and stood side by side with him.

Although he seemed to dislike me because of my performance in the sports festival when we set off earlier, I still need to maintain the mutual care between classmates.

The scenery in the distance is not that impressive, and even most of it is blocked by the silhouette of leaves. So we can infer that Shibata is thinking about something.

Shibata was also startled by my sudden visit, and after showing a look of alert, he quickly turned into relief.

"Did Luo Jun just come back from relieving himself?"

"Hmm........I guess I didn't spend too much time on it?"

Shibata smiled and shook his head.

"That's not the reason. I just wanted to get some fresh air."

"Ah, sorry. Because Shibata-kun's expression looks a bit troubled right now."

As expected, Shibata was suddenly stunned after hearing my speech, and finally smiled helplessly.

"Is it that obvious?"

"At least he seems to be in a low mood... So what happened?"

"It's nothing........."

"If there are some problems that cannot be solved, Shibata-kun should find someone he can trust to talk to. At least it can relieve the pressure. Maybe you can get some unexpected answers."

An inadvertent silence visited us. Perhaps Shibata was further thinking about the credibility of my words. Unlike the depression at dusk, the heaviness now suddenly fell to the ground.

"...Luo Jun is indeed an incredible person."

I couldn't understand the hidden meaning of this sentence, so I kept silent and waited for Shibata's next words.

"Actually, I'm quite envious of Luo Jun."

"Envy.............me?"

I started to feel confused.

"Yeah. Because you have something I don't."

".......If that's the case, does that mean Shibata-san can no longer hug that thing?"

"Well... after all, this is a matter involving two people, and the strength of one person is really too much."

“There are actually many things in the world that can be obtained by any means necessary.”

"But that would only destroy the beauty I had in the beginning. Even if I get it, it will no longer be the same as it was before."

"That's it..."

Although I don't understand what Shibata is referring to, he seems to have a deep understanding of this matter. In this case, I can't speak recklessly without considering Shibata's feelings.

"Is that thing important to Shibata?"

"I think so... it's a bit of a fantasy."

Shibata spoke the reality in a way that is difficult to describe in words.

Yet I did not realize that I possessed something so valuable.

What Shibata wanted the most was in my possession. But for me who had that thing, it was not of much value...

Of course, it is also possible that I am not aware of it now.

"If it's so important, you can't just give up easily... Why do you think you can't get it?"

"The reason is simple, because people's eyes can't lie."

"........."

"Looking at that look, there's no way I could possibly intervene."

"Yeah..........?"

Shibata now gives me a rather unfamiliar feeling. He is not as lively and enthusiastic as usual, and I am feeling increasingly disappointed.

I don’t feel that the eyes of people around me are so precious.

All I know is—

Nothing that happens in the world remains absolute.

"Well, can I ask what my eyes look like to Shibata-kun?"

Suddenly, I wanted to get the answer immediately.

"........."

I turned to look directly at Shibata, but he just glanced at me, that's all.

I originally thought he was disgusted or even disdainful, but his answer was somewhat beyond my expectations.

"I don't know........." Shibata said, and paused, "I dare not look into Luo Jun's eyes."

"........."

"Even if I just take a casual look, I don't dare to delve into it."

Shibata came to the final conclusion as if sighing, and I was also a little disappointed that I didn't get a result.

Don’t you dare to delve deeper…?

"Hey, you two, what are you doing standing outside the room? If you don't come in, we'll eat all the food."

Wangcang greeted us who were staying in the corridor through the open door.

It's hard to say what Shibata-san's current situation is. I thought silence would be his only option, but I didn't expect him to respond before me.

"Come here-"

After turning around and agreeing to the other party, Shibata took a last look at the scenery outside the corridor.

"Thank you, Luo Jun, for taking the time to chat with me. I feel much better now."

“I’m honored to be able to help.”

Shibata shook his head in relief.

"You don't have to be so polite... Luo Jun would be very popular if he behaved more naturally."

"That's it..."

After leaving these meaningful words, Shibata walked into the party room alone and entertained everyone as usual.