Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

"No.............."

The situation of this special exam might be beyond my expectations. The pain that was supposed to be like being tortured to death might be triggered in the second semester of the first year.

What kind of situation will we be facing by then?

Is the end the future I can see?

No, no one can see the future. What I see and hear is just a prediction and preparation for the future.

When you want to do something you have never done before, you will feel uneasy.

This is human instinct, but mine is surprisingly functioning perfectly.

"Lord Luo, do you still remember the deal between us?"

"Promoted to Class A............"

Although I can get the chips to escape immediately if I want, I should at least humble myself for now.

"So what exactly does Luo Jun want to do in this exam?"

Hoshinomiya-sensei asked this with an ambiguous smile, and I sensed the presence of another person through this slight feeling.

“It’s not about what I should do, but how should I respond.”

I refuted what Mr. Hoshinomiya said.

"Is that so? Then I'll try to look forward to it."

"......"

Only once,

This is just one time I won't take revenge on him.

I exhaled slowly, turned around and left, and that's when I saw Ichinose standing at the door waiting for me.

"Um...are you still not leaving?"

"It's Luo Jun, right? Why are you still here when we're all leaving?"

Although the wording does seem to be a reproach, it actually sounds like a joke when you listen to it.

"Sorry, I was distracted just now."

"Well, since Luo Jun said so, I will reluctantly believe it."

"This is a fact."

"Yeah, that's what I understand. Let's go back then."

It was passed over perfunctorily......

Chapter 190 Desolation

"......"

I stared at myself in the mirror in silence.

If I remember correctly, this was probably the first time in my life that I cared so much about my appearance.

Grayish-white hair and pupils, long eyelashes, thin lips............

I tried to evaluate myself based on what I had learned, but after moving beyond the monotonous words for colors and shapes, I discovered a fact about my literary literacy.

This is the extent of my description.

I can't imagine how other students came up with the comment that my appearance was "harmless" shortly after I entered the school, and I also don't know to whom words like "handsome" and "romantic and suave" should be used to describe.

There are no real examples around me, or perhaps even if they exist, I have never noticed them.

Until now, I have maintained the idea that [most people see me as harmless], which is indeed the case, but there are always a small number of people in the world who have a clearer understanding.

After having some guesses about my true appearance, Ichinose and Kanzaki's views on me changed slightly. Especially Ichinose, who had noticed me many times and my position in her heart rose to an incredible position.

The truth that should not have been discovered is always exposed due to my negligence. I would never have done such a thing in the past. Perhaps I have changed in the year since I left there.

Although she is dead and cannot see this, she is changing in the direction she expects...

"......"

Given a specific goal, then achieving it by any means necessary.

This is what I have always done.

Because of this, I don’t want to be controlled during the process, but... I also seem to be looking forward to others’ evaluation after they know my true self.

then--

"Do I look like someone with bad intentions......?"

I stroked my cheek with such confusion, but after observing carefully for a long time, I still couldn't come to a conclusion.

In the end, I could only apply clean water to my face, clear my mind and leave it at that.

I took the disposable wet mop with the dirt in the room off the mop head and threw it into the trash bag.

It seems that even a room like mine with very few things needs a thorough cleaning during a holiday at the end of the year.

I haven't really done this kind of thing yet, so I hope it won't be that troublesome when the time comes.

To make the floor in the room dry faster, I opened the window.

After washing my hands, I lay flat on the bed.

Even club activities have ended at this point, and it is now time for students to have dinner. Except for the period of willfulness at the beginning of the school year, I usually have dinner in the cafeteria provided by the school.

Today I unexpectedly don’t want to do that.

After confirming this, I just stared quietly at the white ceiling of the room.

The kettle began to make a scalding sound.

By the way, students have the right to choose the color and style of wallpaper in their dormitory rooms before entering the school. This is to prevent students from making arbitrarily modified versions of their dormitory rooms.

Of course, if students miss this opportunity, they still have the ability to apply for modification, which will be taken actively by the school, but it will cost extra points.

I looked at the white ceiling and felt a little dazed.

"......"

What would have happened if I hadn't shown my talent at that time?

The past that I never had time to imagine has now lost hope.

The kettle made a beeping sound to indicate that it was boiling and automatically turned off the power.

The sudden noise interrupted my thoughts.

"..........Would you like to move your body for a bit?"

I hesitantly got up from the bed, undressed myself and threw my shirt on the sofa.

The moment the clothes were taken off, the sound of a door opening was heard from the entrance.

Ichinose's familiar face appeared behind the door.

I was frozen in place because of the sudden change.

“Excuse me…”

After greeting me, Ichinose locked eyes with me.

Tired, dazed, surprised, shy............

In an instant, I saw several standard expressions change.

Ichinose's face turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye, and he turned his head away, but his movements were still a little dishonest and he looked back from time to time to make sure.

Finally, after more than ten seconds, Ichinose closed his eyes tightly, as if he had used up all his strength.

"Why, why aren't you wearing a shirt?!"

"......"

I see. Will such an accident happen when the conditions are met?

I was a little shaken.

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"S-Sorry for coming in so suddenly......"

At the table, halfway through dinner, Ichinose sat opposite me and whispered something.

"It's okay, I don't care."

"Were you planning to take a shower just now......?"

"That's it."

"Next time I will knock on the door first to notify you, and then come in after Luo Jun gives a positive reply."

"There's no need for that. Even if you accidentally caught me undressing, a boy's upper body isn't a private part that needs to be covered. Otherwise, the school wouldn't have required boys to wear swimming trunks of that style."

"This is of a different nature—"

Ichinose retorted with a red face, speaking so quickly that even the ramen was still hanging from the corner of her mouth.

"And if you have to knock on the door to get my approval, wouldn't that go against my original intention of giving the spare key card to Ichinose? If the trouble increases instead of decreases, then wouldn't it be completely meaningless?"

"But, but I would be troubled if I saw such a scene, that figure is too foul............"

Because Ichinose's voice was getting lower and lower, I couldn't hear the second half of the sentence clearly. Even if I wanted to read her lips, I couldn't tell whether Ichinose's lips, which seemed to be coated with lip balm, were moving because of chewing ramen or because of making sounds.

"So it's totally fine. I just didn't expect Ichinose to bring dinner today... I didn't plan to have dinner but it was a sudden decision, how could Ichinose have predicted that?"

Although I often rely on the feelings brought to me by [intuition], this kind of unexpected behavior that humans often have makes it difficult to calculate the true development of the future.

"Well, it's just a vague feeling."

"This is really amazing............"

Ichinose gave her reasons vaguely, and I was once again surprised by the woman's "intuition".

First, Himeno explored my rude thoughts, and then Ichinose speculated about my future.

Although the former is a bit scary, the reasoning is not without clues; the nature of the latter is completely different. Ichinose even took action against this uncertain future.

"No, I didn't do this on purpose because I wanted to have dinner with Luo in the evening. It was just that after the inspection of the library, I passed by the Zelkova Shopping Center and suddenly had this idea... The idea was just in case, um..."

After finishing his guilty remarks, Ichinose nodded in affirmative manner.

Doesn’t this completely expose the idea?

Although there was a bit of selfishness involved, the result of my [intuitive] judgment still shocked me, but my attention was not focused on this point.

"Library inspection............?"

"Well, I went to the library to check the availability of seats. If it's not too crowded, I think it will be useful tomorrow."

"We need the library as a venue for tomorrow's study session. In other words... Ichinose is planning to hold another study session?"

"Well, it's like this. I was just about to tell Luo about this when I came here."

"But if I'm not mistaken, Ichinose's problem with the partner combination has not been solved, right?"

"That's right."

Although we talked to Mr. Hoshinomiya during the afternoon break and learned the reason for the unexpected situation in the [Paper Shuffle] special exam, the problem was not solved.

What Kanzaki and Ichinose have now confirmed is that the total score of Kanzaki's group will be the sum of Kanzaki's own score and the score of the 41st account in the class, while Ichinose will need to take the exam alone.

"Ichinose is not going to tell everyone in the class the true results of his exam?"

I suddenly remembered the sound of my phone ringing with messages and roughly guessed the content of the messages.

"Nyanhaha, I hid this from everyone, and Kanzaki-san also helped to announce to the public that the school has adjusted the group to just Kanzaki-san and me."

"Then holding the study session again is also to prove——"

"Well, to put everyone at ease."

"Wait, this is a bit ridiculous. This special exam will undoubtedly be a long battle. If you take the exam alone, you need to improve your academic performance to at least 90 points in each subject. The study workload itself is heavy. If you add the study session, the study efficiency will decrease. And Ichinose also has the task of setting the questions."

"But if we don't do this, we won't be able to rest assured."