Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

“Hmm, um….”

I stroked Ichinose's scattered pink hair, and the fragrance that permeated it was self-evident.

[At least take a good rest now.]

Ichinose leaned inwards to avoid the discomfort of the glaring light.

Chapter 193 Absolute Rationality - Mourning

"In the end, you still have to attend the study session."

Okabe sighed and put his hands around my neck.

"............Why are you sighing? Does my study disturb you?"

"Ah, I didn't mean that. I was just lamenting that we are not as talented as others."

"You just don't put your heart into it. If you use the time you normally spend on games to study, I think you'll get good results."

"Are you the devil?"

"I'm not making a suggestion, I'm just stating a possibility."

"That's just a fantasy, okay? A fantasy with zero possibility, just like traveling to another world... In the end, I just want to satisfy my sense of accomplishment."

Victory in games can bring immediate rewards but learning cannot... Is that what you mean?

When people around you talk about themselves, they always speak the truth about various possibilities.

Although there are common characteristics among students, differences among individuals are also inevitable.

"Also, if I remember correctly, you are Himeno-san's tutor, right? Even so, are you going to attend the study session?"

"Asking Himeno to teach and participate in the study session, the two don't seem to be mutually exclusive."

"Uh........Is it possible that Himeno-san will also come to the study session?"

"Yes. In conclusion, that's right. After all, I've already accepted Ichinose's request, so I can't refuse."

Although when I talked to her about this, she still had that reluctant expression on her face......

"It's been hard... Come to think of it, I haven't had any conversation with Himeno-san since the beginning of the school year. Hmm, there seemed to be one sentence...? Hmm. And she seemed quite cold... Do you know what kind of girl she is?"

"It's not nice to talk about other people behind their backs."

"What does it matter? It's just mutual understanding between classmates."

"I see... But I've only communicated with her twice."

I tried to politely refuse Okabe's discussion on this topic, but unfortunately, Okabe didn't understand what I meant.

“But they definitely respond to each other more than I do.”

"You can't build friendships without a few genuine conversations, or are you expecting me to be the type who instantly warms up to a handful of people I interact with?"

"Haha, sorry. It suddenly occurred to me that I have never given a long speech. It's like I rarely speak at small gatherings on ordinary days............"

After smiling, Okabe suddenly fell silent and his expression became slightly serious.

"Luo seems to be the type who doesn't like to talk normally, but makes a splash when he speaks? Hmm, it doesn't seem like that............?"

If I understand it this way, then wouldn’t that make me the kind of taciturn person who, even when I speak, talks a lot of nonsense?

Although I don't know whether Okabe, who was lost in strange thoughts, got this guess, I think it's better not to say this idea out loud, otherwise my status in the eyes of others might be further reduced.

I adjusted the position of the cross-body bag on my left shoulder with a sense of heaviness. The large movement just happened to distract Okabe's attention. He then released his left arm that was around my neck, and his sight shifted to the library we were about to enter.

Execution successful.

I was secretly pleased with myself for not failing, but it only lasted for a moment.

Just last night I informed Ichinose of my intention to withdraw from the study group. Although Ichinose felt that she had no pressure, she still agreed to my request under my threat of [despicable means].

However, due to the special circumstances, Ichinose hoped that I could at least attend the joint study session held by the AD and B classes this afternoon, and I couldn't resist the temptation and agreed.

Now that I think about it, there isn't much that is unreasonable about it.

The establishment of a joint study group between the two AD classes, if it is based on reliable mutual assistance, is likely to improve efficiency in this exam. Exchanging information held by the other class and increasing the number of people can also increase the perspective of thinking, which is very helpful in making test questions.

However, if there are people in Class D who are in contact with Class B, this information may be completely leaked. However, Ichinose agreed based on this understanding, and I think he has his own considerations.

The boys who needed to attend the study session were expected to reserve seats in the library, so we left the classroom the moment the teacher announced the end of school.

Although school had just ended, the library was already packed with students and looked quite lively.

Of course, the liveliness here does not mean that the students are so focused on their own discussions that they make noise.

If you observe carefully, you can find that most of them are still breathing heavily, which must be because they are running. Although this can give you an advantage, it is difficult to calm down your mind for a while, which will affect your subsequent learning efficiency.

So we are not advised to do this.

During the weekend, not even 10% of the seats in the library were occupied, but now nearly half of them were occupied by students. They were not reading, nor chatting with their friends because the library required silence, but were concentrating on reviewing for the exam.

Before this, my understanding of the library was limited to [borrowing books], [reading books], and [buying books]. However, after coming here a few times, I noticed something [special].

There are separate spaces for seniors and juniors. It has become a default rule that seniors have priority in using spaces such as windows with nice views in coffee shops and seats around free drinks in the library.

This seems to be the case in other schools as well.

Under the zone division, the first-year students are allowed to use the noisy area near the entrance that is close to the outside world.

In this study session, our A class has 4 males and 10 females, and with Ichinose and Himeno, there are exactly 20 people. The situation of D class is not clear, but the number of people is probably about the same, which means we need to occupy a position of about people.

Although it may seem a bit overbearing, considering the [chaos] in the library and the victory in the final exam, this is also an inevitable competition between classes.

Judging from the empty seats, we were one of the first batch of first-year students to arrive at the library. There were a few students from Class C scattered among us, but no students from Class B and Class D were seen for the time being.

This way our [occupation] operation will be much easier...

After having a clear assessment of the current situation, I decided to be a little lazy.

"Okabe, could you please take my bag over to reserve a seat for me?"

I put down the messenger bag on my left shoulder, took out a book from it, and handed it to Okabe.

Judging from the expression on the other person's face, it seemed that he didn't understand what I was saying.

"Oh...wait, what are you going to do?"

Is that really the case?

"Last weekend, I borrowed a book from the library. I don't want to be punished for missing the return date. I heard it's 100,000 personal points."

"Wow, is this true? One hundred thousand?"

"That's it."

When I learned about this rule, I was also shocked.

When you borrow books, you need your student ID, so that the other party can easily find you if you don't return them within the specified time. Conversely, you don't need to show anything when you return books.

Originally, I hoped that other students in the class would be interested in the book I had, and that they would help me complete the necessary procedures to return the book to the library while selling it to me.

But after knowing this, I decided to handle the procedures myself.

"This is the first time I've heard of such a thing... But then again, you still go to the library on weekends - ugh, it's so heavy!"

Okabe complained after taking over my messenger bag.

Although the backpack did not contain any other items not related to study, it felt a little heavy in Okabe's hands. Perhaps it was an exaggeration or it might be because he had to carry two cross-body bags at once.

"After all, there are times when I just can't fall asleep no matter what, and I can't think of anything else to do except read."

If there is nothing to do in your spare time, the waiting time will seem extremely long, and the mental torture it brings to you will be unbearable.

Fortunately, the library of this school has a considerable collection of books. Even if I study hard for the next three years, I might be able to graduate in the blink of an eye.

"Games are also a good choice... Anyway, I understand. But you'd better come back as soon as possible, otherwise our actions will become difficult if there are too many people in the library. Class Leader Ichinose and the others will be here soon."

"If it's just returning the books, it won't take long."

Although that’s what I said,

"Since you have to return the book, why not take this opportunity to borrow some other books............?"

I stopped at the fork in the bookcase.

There is only about a month left until the final exams, and it would be great to indulge in studying during this time in order to win this special exam, but there will always be a time when you get tired of it............

After several rounds of hesitation, I finally decided to give up borrowing books.

Few people returned.

After completing the book return procedures at the library's lending desk, I took the books to the mystery novel section bookshelf.

Normally this should be the job of the librarian, but it seems a little different in this school, as it is assumed to be something that students need to complete.

Because of this, books are often misplaced in the library.

Just as I confirmed the number and prepared to push the book in, a female voice suddenly sounded beside me.

"Have you finished reading it, Luojun? I thought it would take longer."

Although I could confirm the other person's identity based on the voice alone, I stopped my action out of politeness and focused my sight on the girl next to me.

"I barely finished reading during my lunch break yesterday. It's not easy to find time during this special period."

Loud noises are prohibited in the library, and the surrounding area is also very quiet, but it does not mean that chatting is completely prohibited.

Of course, the conversation must be kept low. If it disturbs others, there will be relevant regulations and penalties. Because we are now far away from the reading area, chatting is not very noticeable. In addition, the music flowing in the library perfectly covers the conversation.

Judging from the music track, it is probably Symphony No. 6 in F major, one of Beethoven's masterpieces.

Although I don't know who chose the song, this song doesn't fit the quiet background music of the library, but it came at the right time.

“Although the main theme of this book is [love and sin], the ending and the design of the mystery are the biggest charm of this book.”

Whenever we talked about mystery novels, the girl in front of me would smile a smile that could be described as happy, and I didn't want to ruin her mood at will.

“I personally think that it fully demonstrates the story, unexpectedness and rationality of the layout of detective novels.”

"That's right, but in this case, the only characters we can discuss are probably the characters in the book... What do you think of Ishigami, Luo Jun?"

Tetsuya Ishigami is one of the protagonists of the book "The Devotion of Suspect X" in my hand.

In the 20s, Japan's economy was stagnant and society was indifferent, but during this period women's consciousness was advancing and rising.

With Japan's continuous advancement of democratization and the influence of the world's third women's movement, Japanese women's self-awareness has begun to awaken, and women's issues have received widespread attention from society.

Women in this period have changed a lot compared with the past. They are no longer dependent on men either in life or in spirit, and have become independent social people. They demand to be on an equal footing with men in marital relationships, family status and social life.

However, it is precisely because of this demand that new difficulties have been created for women's survival and it has been strongly opposed by the male society.

Some people attribute the root cause of female crime during this period to the male-dominated society.

This book came out against such a creative backdrop.

"Well, should I say he is a representative of absolute rationality?"

The changes that happened to Ishigami made me feel very familiar, but I couldn't figure out where this sense of familiarity came from.

"Huh, even absolute rationality cannot resist the sensibility of love. Rather than repaying a favor, it is better to say that it is a kind of spiritual sustenance. The loneliness caused by rationality gave birth to love at first sight. I personally think that Goethe's words can perfectly interpret Ishigami's final cry."

"Is it [I love you, but it has nothing to do with you.]?"

"Well, Luo Jun is also very knowledgeable about literary books."

"No, I just happened to read other people's book reviews."

I denied the other party's speculation and looked directly at the girl in front of me.

Shiina Hiyori, who was previously introduced to us by Kaneda Satoru in the special test for survival on an uninhabited island, is another student in Class C who is also one of the few students in the class who is outside the control of Ryuen. Or it would be more appropriate to say that she is not interested.

Because of the impression of a literary girl, Shiina has a light and soft aura.

Her appearance is also cute, and her long silver hair and purple eyes are quite dreamy.

The reason why I had any contact with her was not out of any personal initiative. In fact, she was the one who approached me first without my permission.

I forgot the exact time, but it was a weekend.

I was borrowing Raymond Chandler's book The Long Confession at the time. Shiina recognized that I was in the same grade as her and tried to start a discussion with me.

At first I thought that this was the behavior of Ryuuen from Class C who was behind it, but as the conversation progressed I realized that the girl in front of me probably really wanted to exchange experiences, and she was doing this simply because she loved books.

[No one in Class C likes novels, so I have no one to talk to.]