Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

"Sorry, I forgot to turn off the alarm. Didn't it scare Kanzaki?"

"......"

"If possible, could you please help Kanzaki turn off the alarm on the cell phone that's on the kettle next to you? Otherwise, it seems like it will keep ringing."

Kanzaki didn't respond immediately, but the quiet friction sound told me that he had already turned off the alarm on his phone. Since I didn't save the ID and key to my phone, I wasn't worried that he would make any other unnecessary moves.

“…What was that just now?”

"A conversation between the three of us on the day the photo was taken."

"So you actually didn't have anything to do with Class B... No, wait. What's going on here, Luo? How did you know that I received this email photo, and how long it would take for our conversation to last, even to the point where I would be so close to my phone... No, I don't understand the meaning of thinking and acting this way."

"Please don't think too much. Many things are just coincidences. They are the result of a series of [intuition] collisions."

"So even recording it and using it as an alarm tone was an accident?"

"Probably. I'm not very clear about it myself."

"How far did you see......?"

As a result, the combination of many coincidences and accidents brought about an effect that was enough to surprise Kanzaki.

"What exactly are you planning to do?"

You can feel the subtle fear in the other person's heart.

But I don't intend to respond to this statement because the time has almost come.

The next moment, the doorbell rang.

"What is it, Kanzaki? Didn't you say you had something to take care of and that's why you're not coming?"

Okabe's voice came from the door.

"Things... probably have been dealt with in advance."

He responded.

Chapter 213 No Response Required

The fairy tale world is beautiful and it reflects people’s yearning for a better life.

We have all had expectations, we have all had fantasies, we have all been disappointed, we have all been hurt, but that's how life is. Only fairy tales are perfect.

So, it's probably like that - black and white. When you simplify the real world, you get this distinctive feature, which is the fairy tale that is praised by the world.

The real world is far more complex than one can imagine, and the so-called absolutes will become blurred in a chaotic position. The same is true for good people, they all have a bad side, and the beautiful love that makes countless young people impulsive is also mixed with greed and traps of harm.

If I could fully understand what the other person was doing, if I could fully experience the complex emotions, would I still be able to maintain a clear sense of self?

Childishness and maturity are the natural changes in a person's direction. However, under the distortion of design, people use shortcuts to quickly achieve the most important, most critical and most difficult point - that is, the so-called "truth".

[Looking at oneself objectively and drawing conclusions] is a luxury for people today, and I am no exception. What kind of existence am I, right or wrong?

Do I generally like myself now? Can I allow myself to be aware of my shortcomings and allow them to exist? Even if I can do this, can I ensure that my self-perception is relatively stable and will not be influenced by the outside world or others?

In other words, I have never respected my true feelings and emotions since the beginning. The most important and difficult thing is [truth], which has been restricted since birth.

So one can easily come to a conclusion that one is a distorted being.

The more you iterate your cognition of yourself and the world, the clearer this conclusion becomes.

"I seem to be interested in fairy tales lately... Is that normal?"

Although the four of us had no prior agreement, we all chose to get up early on the morning of Friday, November 11, and even our time to go out accidentally coincided.

This is probably what [Fate is wonderful beyond words. It is all before our eyes.]

"Are you suddenly interested in fairy tales? What's going on?"

Rather than being confused about how to solve the problem, Takashima seemed to be more concerned about whether the origin of the question was real. I didn't know if the other party was deliberately avoiding answering this question. At present, it seemed that I could only get the other party's answer by confirming the correctness of my question.

Unfortunately, however, it is difficult for me to explain this issue.

"That should be it. I feel like I've been reading a lot of fairy tales lately. Maybe it's because I'm interested in them, so I just keep reading them............?"

"Ah, could this be that?" Takashima made an expression of sudden enlightenment, "Well, actually Luo has been doing a lot of things recently, and has read a lot of different kinds of books. Life has become more complicated than before. Among them, the most meaningful and simple and easy thing for me to think about is reading fairy tales. Therefore, when I think back on it now, they are all related memories, which makes me think that I am interested in them."

"Why do you say it's like your memory is broken? Obviously your problem is more serious, right?"

"I'm sorry. To be honest, this is the first time I've gotten up so early. Although I've washed my face, I still feel like I'm still sleepy. Please treat my words just now as nonsense."

After Shiratori stood up, Takashima immediately returned to his sleepy look, with bleary eyes.

The changes are so fast............ On the other hand, Shiratori is quite energetic, and Okabe is also unexpectedly full of energy. After walking out of the dormitory hall, the four of us were all shocked by the cold wind that day.

"The temperature has dropped... The weather forecast seems to report that the temperature will get lower and lower, whether in terms of the highest temperature of the day or other aspects..."

I opened the app on my phone to verify Takashima's confused words. He was almost awake.

"But, speaking of which, generally speaking, if high school students are interested in fairy tales, they will be called childish by others." Okabe thought about my question. "Although the word 'childish' means that the person who is evaluating the world does not have enough understanding of the universe and therefore cannot see the enlightenment brought by the story, I would still choose to say that. It's like they still have a childlike innocence or something like that."

"........................"

"Hey, at least give me a response. Why are you three silent?"

"Because you just said something really amazing, but the result is so crude... This is what you usually call a sense of contrast, right?"

"It's amazing, I think so too. Why do you think I recall hundreds of famous quotes from GalGame every day? Also, I want to correct you. The word [sense of contrast] should not be used in this kind of place. At least it should be used for beautiful girls."

"I really don't know whether to praise you... The final exam is approaching, and Jieren should stop being too obsessed with Galgame. If our class loses to Class B in this special exam, I will report it directly to the class."

"Yoji, are you a devil? You have destroyed my future life?!"

Whenever we talked about this topic, Okabe would get very excited. But this was only when we were alone together, not in front of the class.

Unconsciously, I was also accepted by this small group. I became the person with whom the other three could exchange ideas, and I might be able to learn more about the meaningless topics through them.

"Hey, Kaito. If Luo is really interested in fairy tales, do you really think that he is still childish? If it were any other student, I wouldn't think it would be a big deal, but when it comes to Luo, the idea of ​​"still childish" feels a bit weird."

Even in front of me, Shiratori could make comments without restraint, which surprised me. Or maybe it was because I took the initiative to bring up this topic. I just wanted to respond casually, but I didn't expect the other party to think so seriously.

"What? I don't quite understand what you mean..."

"Well, what did Yoji feel about this sentence?"

"Hey, are you asking me? Even if you say so, I'm a little uncomfortable with you being so serious all of a sudden." Takashima scratched his cheek a little embarrassedly, looked at me, and slowly fell into thought.

There is no need to go to this extent, I was just saying it casually......

Just as I was about to say something to interrupt the four people as they continued to debate this topic, Takashima spoke.

"That [childishness] refers to the fact that a mature person still has the innocence of a child in his heart. If that's the understanding, then it's a bit wrong to use it on Luo. But if it's just a simple understanding of childishness, I don't think there's anything wrong with it. After all, you can keep a childish heart no matter how old you are. Being interested in fairy tales doesn't mean that the other person's IQ and EQ are childish."

"After all, we are all high school students, so we should have some understanding of society."

"I see...but what you said doesn't seem to match my question, right?"

"If that's the case, you might as well just say what you want to say."

"I don't think there's anything wrong with Luo being interested in fairy tales, but do you feel that, on the other hand, it would be strange if Luo wasn't interested in fairy tales?"

"........................"

I see. What Shiratori meant was that I was meant to be interested in fairy tales.

"So, Luo is actually a giant baby............?"

Okabe frowned slightly, and it was easy to see that he couldn't understand what Shiratori said, and the same went for Takashima.

"Why is your understanding so biased? Be a little more normal."

"Even if Naoto said so, you didn't explain it clearly yourself, right?"

"If I can explain it clearly, your thoughts won't be so different from mine... Anyway, it doesn't mean that Luo's mind is still at the infant stage. Well, it seems to make sense to think this way...?"

"Wait, I don't understand what you are saying, but this sentence is actually quite excessive."

"Ahaha, don't worry about these details. Who can really explain feelings? Besides, Luo is interested in fairy tales only because the final exams are approaching and the psychological burden is increasing. He wants to restore his peace of mind through fairy tales... Look, isn't there another possibility? Maybe Luo's emotions and thoughts are also inclined to aesthetics."

"I can't imagine it at all~ Naoto, you're becoming more and more unreliable."

"That's not the case. I am your most trustworthy partner."

Shiratori believed Takashima's joke, but I was thinking about Shiratori's excuse, which was a direction I had not thought about.

Restore peace of mind and a tendency toward perfectionist emotional thinking…?

Who can figure out why they keep thinking about these questions?

The three of them walked in the campus in late autumn with laughter.

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In the end, I still found the difference in the behavior of the four of us before leaving. Except for me, the other three did not have breakfast before leaving. Because we were walking on the road without realizing it, we walked towards the road leading to Class A, which was far away from the direction of the school cafeteria.

Finally, they decided to quickly buy something at a nearby convenience store, so I was asked to carry a messenger bag for four people and set off on a solo journey. The image of two bags on each shoulder made me attract a lot of attention. Fortunately, there were not many people in the school at this time in the morning, otherwise walking conspicuously would become a problem for people like me.

Perhaps in a sense, I am an avoidant.

The students were still scattered around Class A's classroom. I placed the bags of the three students on their respective seats, and then returned to my seat in the corner of the classroom.

Ichinose arrived at Class A's classroom early as usual, but he was fast asleep due to a stiff neck.

This is normal. Most girls don't have the athletic ability or passion of boys, so they tend to be a little sleepy.

Of course, if there is no school requirement to arrive at school on time.

I slowed down my movements and suppressed the noises of various collisions to the minimum, which gave the other party some time to rest. After making sure that no one noticed the situation here, I first tiptoed to check Ichinose's breath, and after confirming that the other party was in a deep sleep, I gently placed the back of my right hand on Ichinose's cheek.

Although I can feel the tenderness on the back of my hand when I relax my body and mind, my attention is not on that at the moment. I am more concerned about the warm breath of the skin.

If things remain the same now, nothing unexpected will happen later.

After successfully achieving my goal, I withdrew my hand. However, what caught my attention was that the moment my right hand left my cheek, Ichinose suddenly grabbed my hand.

I also concealed my breath and movements at the first moment, staring closely at Ichinose's sleeping face. Her eyes were still closed, but there was a slight tremor.

Did I make a wrong judgment?

"........................"

No, it was just a nervous reaction to sleep. I felt a slight itch on my cheek and it was an unconscious action, but the scratching action was blocked after I touched a foreign object.

In other words, my actions were too deliberate.

But what should we do next?

If I wake up Ichinose, not only will it disturb her rest, but Ichinose will also be troubled by her current situation; struggling to break free will also have the same effect. If I continue in this position, if a student suddenly comes to the classroom during this time, I will also be exposed.

The final solution is for Ichinose to let go............

Just as I was still feeling troubled by my current situation, I felt the strength in my fingertips gradually weaken, and Ichinose slowly loosened my right hand until it was completely relaxed. I took this opportunity to break away, and after confirming that the other party was still asleep, I pretended to be calm and returned to my position.

Fortunately, my obscene and perverted behavior was almost discovered by the other party.

I couldn't help but feel relieved about my situation and tried to pretend that I was studying hard. This way, I would probably be able to fit into the learning atmosphere of Class A.

Shortly after I was out of danger, Shiratori and his group arrived at the classroom. Because they also noticed that Ichinose was sleeping soundly, they just expressed their gratitude for my help with gestures and eyes. I tried to respond, but the meaning of my expression seemed to have changed, which added to their confusion, so I had to give up.

As more and more students arrived at school, the noisy voices from the teaching building could be heard even through the glass, and Ichinose slowly woke up. The first thing he did after getting up was to rub his cheeks, and then he stared at the class notes on his desk without any movement.

When life is completely occupied by learning, there will be nothing else in that experience. Even emotions can be forgotten, and if there is nothing else to pay attention to, you will gradually lose your thoughts.

However, at this time, Ichinose turned his head and glanced at me, as if to confirm whether I had arrived at school. Because of the relationship between the front and back desks, this kind of thing was inevitable.

I was standing behind Ichinose, so he half turned around and greeted me.

"Good morning. Luo-jun has been arriving at school very early these days."

"It seems to be the case, but it would have been the case long before Ichinose was around."

"If you're like me, it might be hard... No, it's nothing. It's hard to get used to a sudden change in your daily routine."

"A little bit. Walking on campus feels different, too."

It must be very hard. Didn't I say it directly because I didn't want the other person to feel sympathy? I didn't understand the origin of this emotion and the deep feelings.

"Um............"

Ichinose habitually agreed with my words, and then stopped talking. From the movement of her throat, it seemed that she wanted to say something else, but she couldn't find a topic to continue.

Afterwards, a strange feeling emerged in my heart. It was as if I knew I was going to catch a cold, but I couldn't find out where in my body I felt uncomfortable.

There is a difference between language and words. If even Ichinose cannot express what he wants, then this is the limit of his realm, just like hitting a cliff and being unable to move forward.