Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

I can see it clearly, whether it's Ji Ye or our Class A.

Where is good enough and where is lacking. I know our A's strengths and weaknesses.

In the class led by Ichinose, openness and transparency are important and the key to success in the future. As a member of the class, I should have such thoughts.

No matter who will be the class leader in the future, a student who can speak his mind is essential. Currently, the only one who can do this is Kanzaki.

Maybe I am one of them? This is really confusing.

But that doesn't matter.

"If you don't try to change it, Himeno might end up in trouble."

"Don't make it sound so simple."

As if letting out a sigh, Himeno's gaze began to escape.

"I understand what Luo said. But there is a strong pressure of conformity in our class. Even if I think it is white, if the majority says it is black, then it will become black. It doesn't matter whether it is right or not. In a class like this, it is meaningless for the minority to speak."

"Even if I say I think it's black, the people around me will keep persuading me until I change my mind and say it's white. This process is nothing but pain. So I haven't said anything until now, and I don't plan to say anything in the future. It's better to keep it like this............"

I reached out and cupped Ji Ye's cheeks, forcing her to meet my gaze, but she still avoided it.

"So, Himeno wants to pretend that nothing happened tonight? Even if I, as a [friend], suggested that Himeno do this?"

".............Don't you think that what you did to me was too much as a [friend]?"

"I see. I'll help you then."

"This is not a question of whether to help or not. Even if I am determined, I can't do this kind of thing. If Luo can step forward and lead the class, maybe I can give it a try. If that's the case, I will do as Luo says. Is that okay?"

"I'm sorry, but I don't agree with Himeno's compromise, and I won't do it. So what is Himeno going to do?"

The other party tried desperately to lower his head and grab my wrist at the same time, but all these were in vain. In the end, he was just exerting force on my wrist and had no intention of struggling.

".............Before good or bad, it is more important for me to protect myself. So............I will not be good friends with anyone, nor will I have a bad relationship with anyone. There are times when I am invited and times when I am not invited. I don't want to destroy this sense of distance and atmosphere."

It is better to have less trouble than more, Ji Ye advocates.

"As long as I still exist in this school, this sense of distance and atmosphere will be destroyed."

“Gu…!”

After I said this, Himeno was incredibly shaken.

So I decided to press on with my victory.

"It's not too late to take action now. It's only the second semester of the first year. If you don't want to continue to feel so heavy."

Biting his lower lip, Ji Ye closed his eyes tightly.

"No, I can't do it. There's no point... our resistance will be meaningless. The minority will be defeated by the majority in the end no matter what. I'm already confused..."

"There are many ways to attack, and gaining the majority is one way. If you lose your direction, I can point it out for you."

"Then...why not just rely on Luo? Just like before, rely on your own means to win in the dark. I can also not tell anyone..."

"Himeno should understand this. This approach has its limits. If it continues like this in the future, the outcome will undoubtedly be a disastrous failure. Not only for me, but for this, I need the class to make changes."

"It's impossible. This doesn't make any sense at all............"

"Doesn't Himeno want to graduate from Class A in the end?"

"Of course I do. So, so... so what has Luo Jun been talking to himself about since just now?"

The deafening sound echoed throughout the riverbank.

The volume was several times louder than I expected, but it didn't scare me.

"Luo Jun is a bastard who talks to himself!"

Letting his emotions burst out, Jiye vented his inner dissatisfaction.

"Changing classes or something! What on earth do you want to do? Aren't we in Class A right now? We are Class A right now! So what needs to be changed?!"

It has reached the point of gibberish.

The change of the class doesn't matter to me, and I don't have any thoughts about the class. All I did was just for Ichinose. Since I chose to trust, no matter what the answer is, I have to save the other party's ideas and values.

Then, my lower abdomen was hit by a straight punch without any preceding movement.

From the momentum, it seems to have the tendency to kill all the enemies, but in reality, it is very weak.

This was indeed a powerful blow delivered by an ordinary girl.

Having achieved this, a considerable amount of the pressure that Himeno had accumulated in his heart until now should have been released with the straight punch.

"But right now, I can't do it no matter how hard I try! I can't do it!"

"............Don't rush to draw conclusions. It's hard to do it alone, but there are many students in the class who keep their true feelings deep inside. Kanzaki is a companion who can help."

So, my lower abdomen was [badly hit] again.

Even though I made a painful expression, Ji Ye ignored me completely.

"Guwaa! It's going to hurt."

"At this point, why can Luo Jun still stay calm? You lousy bastard!"

Ji Ye shouted in anger.

Chapter 223: The Emptiness in My Heart

The clouds dispersed, the night deepened, and the moon and stars were sparse.

The impact of emotions is as obvious as the temperature difference between day and night on the moon, so memories will probably begin to reorganize, separate, and deform at the moment when the sound of emotions resounds, and then converge in the direction they should go. That is, the brain's [recognition system] - [looking back at the past].

Impulses are not based on rational or intellectual emotions, so it is easy to calm down.

Almost all the vending machines in the school provide cold drinks, and none of them are dedicated to hot drinks. Hot drinks are only sold in autumn and winter. There is nothing strange about this, and it is a common phenomenon across Japan.

Among the drinks sold in vending machines, the ones marked in red as [warm] are warm, while the ones marked in blue as [cold] are at normal temperature. The difference is obvious.

"Heno said before that he likes sweets, so his taste in drinks should be similar... So after all, I still have to choose between [Soy Flour Condensed Milk] and [Rice Cake and Red Bean Soup]." I faced the small spotlight inside the vending machine and murmured to myself.

But if you want to calm the other person down quickly, cold drinks are better.

However, since both have two different temperatures, [cold] and [hot], you still need to make a choice.

While I was hesitating, I caught a glimpse of the words [Cold Red Bean Rice Cake Soup] - [Sold Out], so I decisively chose the [Soy Flour Condensed Milk], one cold and one hot.

[I put the gift in Luojun's dormitory room. ]

[I'm a little tired today, so I'll go back to my room and rest. ]

【So Luo Jun doesn’t need to rush back. 】

When I took out my phone and was about to pay, three messages popped up on the top of the screen. The sender was Ichinose. In addition, the class group chat tonight was unexpectedly restless.

Did something happen to make him change his mind? I wanted to find out quickly, but it was difficult for me to get away. Fortunately, Ichinose turned down the appointment with me at the party.

[Are you okay? Are you okay? ]

Because the other party was just sending a message, the status of [Read by the other party] was instantly displayed on both sides, so the message can be replied to in a short time without wasting too much time.

[It's okay. I seem to have overestimated my physical strength. This is the last study session, and the study time is much longer than before. My body is more tired than I thought. So it's okay, just take a night's rest. Thank you Luojun for your concern. ]

[Do you know about those letters? ]

Chat messages between Hoba and Kanzaki popped up on my screen. Although they were in different windows, I was unable to distinguish the contents of the chats for a moment.

Letters............? What are they?

I am a little concerned about what happened during the movie, but I will ignore Kanzaki's news for now. It is more important to understand Honami's condition.

[Um, what is the gift? ]

【Luo Jun understood after seeing it. 】

Immediately afterwards, Ichinose released another small sticker illustration.

It's a super cute little white rabbit, acting cute.

For a moment, my heart was melted by the other person, but I still had to hold back this heart-pounding feeling. The current situation required me to calm down.

How should I reply to messages like this one with stickers and illustrations in a more natural way?

Should I respond with a sticker or illustration to express my joy, or will ordinary text be enough? I have never faced such a critical situation as this one.

However, what I didn't expect was that Ichinose, who was far away, saw through my concerns.

[Luo Jun, you don’t have to force yourself to reply. It’s okay on my end.]

In that case, I had no choice but to tell the truth.

[I'm not forcing it, I just don't know how to respond. ]

【In short, please go to bed early at night. 】

Shortly after I sent two messages in succession, [Little White Rabbit's Confusion] popped up on the screen, which scared me. I have never come across anything of this type before.

【Why is it honorific? 】

[Because I think this will make Ichinose more obedient. ]

[Even though this is the case, I always feel like Luo is treating me like a child. ]

[It’s obvious that I’m the child here. ]

Although the [Angry Little White Rabbit] expression was quite attractive and prompted me to continue the conversation, the other party seemed to be aware of the situation on my side and could not interfere too much, so he took the initiative to say good night.

After ending the chat, I stared at the screen for more than ten seconds, and after confirming that there was no more news from Fanbo, I put my phone away. As for Kanzaki's news, I thought that since the other party could hold back for so long without sending messages continuously, it probably wasn't something particularly important, so I put it aside for the time being.

There is not much difference in time between dealing with this matter tomorrow morning and tonight. What has happened cannot be undone, and there is no way to regret one's past actions............

I should imagine how to deal with it next.

I returned to the long wooden chair under the street light with two cans of [soy powder condensed milk], one cold and one hot.

[It is because of the hot summer that we should eat hot food, and it is because of the cold winter that we should eat cold food.]

No matter what choice the other party makes in the end, I have reasonable reasons to use as an explanation, so I am not worried about the other party's accountability for the temperature of the drink.

If it is targeted at the types of beverages, that would be too arbitrary.

Although Ji Ye's expression still showed troubled feeling to outsiders, I personally felt that the cold wind of late autumn had almost cooled her previous "enthusiasm".

After reaching a conclusion, I handed over the [Hot Soybean Powder Condensed Milk] in my hand. After noticing the movement on my side, Ji Ye looked at me vigilantly. When her eyes shifted to my face, her cheeks quickly turned red. I don’t know if it was because of the rubbing just now, but both ears were abnormally red. Finally, she quickly took the [Soybean Powder Condensed Milk] in my hand and lowered her head shyly.

I sat down next to Ji Ye, but she was still a little resistant, so she moved away, holding her head and covering her ears............

Although this can effectively reduce the volume, you will still hear the outside sounds. The best way to deal with hostile speech is to lose your attention.

"Have you calmed down enough to communicate normally?"

"............No. No."

Ji Ye stubbornly refused to respond to my invitation for a conversation, so I had no choice but to talk about the incident casually.

"By the way, Jiye's voice just now was really deafening. The entire river bank was filled with Jiye's echoes. If there were people along the far bank, they would probably have heard it clearly."

I deliberately raised my voice so that every word I said could be clearly heard by Ji Ye. As expected, after hearing what I said, the other party covered his ears even harder.

"He even punched me again and again, which is really rare. I almost got -"

"Shut up, Luo! Can't I admit that I lost control of my emotions just now?!"

Jiye said this and punched my arm again.

As a result, a lot of the [soy powder condensed milk] that had just been opened spilled onto my fingers, and because I didn't wipe them dry in time, my fingertips became dry and sticky. This feeling was quite uncomfortable, and it felt like my actions were restricted.

Seeing Ji Ye's shy and timid look, I became more certain of one thing.

For the first time, Ji Ye fully revealed his true nature in front of outsiders. After coming to his senses, he felt ashamed of his past actions, and was even more unwilling to face me who knew about his [shameful behavior].

In a sense, I am a [sinful] friend.

However, a so-called "friend" is probably someone who knows each other's "jokes" but can get along with each other normally... Without a definition, it is difficult to understand the existence of the truth.

"Don't worry, I won't deliberately make fun of Ji Ye's previous behavior--"

“That’s why I told you not to talk about it anymore!”

“…Sorry, I understand.”

I was clearly in the driver's seat, but once it came to shame, women had an absolute overwhelming power. In the current situation, apart from abruptly destroying the relationship, I couldn't think of anything more appropriate than an apology. I wasn't very good at this either.