Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

"No, that kind of thing is not allowed! Two-timing or something like that!"

No, no, no, this is too exaggerated!

The possibility that the girl likes the boy is denied, so the roles are reversed to [Luo Jun secretly has feelings for Xiao Xue, but can't bear to part with Fan Bo, so he uses soliloquy to numb himself. ]

Although it has been a while since school was over and there are no other students in the hallway except us, I still hope that the conversation can be lowered. At least, I hope that what I just said will not be heard by Ji Ye.

"Two-timing............? Xiao Mazi, what are you talking about? What a weird topic, and Mu Ye, you are silent............"

"Woo, woo, the name, the name has changed!?"

Wangcang seemed to be shocked, and the figures who kept retreating made me feel at a loss about the current situation. I really didn't try to control the other party's emotional fluctuations in love.

You should let the other person understand that you are immature in love, but what is the method?

I understand the necessity of doing this, but there are basically no clues to prove it.

I was self-righteous, and the previous question was not clear, so I can only answer the following question. Because of the actual deviation caused by the strongest emotions I have ever experienced.

"That was something I blurted out involuntarily. So please don't misunderstand me any more. There is no relationship between Ji Ye and I that goes beyond boyfriend and girlfriend. At most, uh... maybe we help each other?"

I can't explain the reason very well, but my answer is absolutely firm.

Originally, the motivation for confessing to someone was pure love, a courtship action to make the person you love become something that belongs only to you. But blurting out words involuntarily means that some of your thinking directions have undergone qualitative changes in the field of thinking.

Something is about to break out of its shell. — It feels like that.

It is difficult to deceive yourself, let alone others, with an answer that comes from the heart.

"I see. After all, Xiaoxue helped Luo Jun before the final exam... But I didn't expect Xiaoxue to be willing to build a good relationship with the boys in the class."

Although there was still some hesitation, Wangcang seemed to recognize my determination and provided sufficient evidence.

“…What on earth are you talking about?”

Wangcang seemed to be in low spirits when Ji Ye's tone became a little rough. Of course, he was only mentally relieved. Then he acted a little cautious.

"Because, you see... Isn't Xiaoxue usually very quiet and doesn't talk much? It's okay for girls, but it seems that the boys don't communicate at all. At the beginning, I doubted whether Xiaoxue could assist Luo Jun..."

"Wenjing............?"

I was shocked to hear this new word used to describe Jiye. My voice did not escape Jiye's hearing, and she glared at me fiercely.

"I just find it a little bit troublesome, it's not to the point of [manphobia]."

"Haha, that's true... Xiaoxue seems to have changed a lot."

The sentence she added at the end was just Wangcang mumbling to herself, and she herself didn't seem to realize that we had heard it completely, but neither of us responded directly to it.

If you insist, Ji Ye turned his head away a little embarrassedly.

"I know that the relationship between the two has not developed to that level yet, even though everyone says so, but regarding that sentence just now......"

Wangcang drew a few circles with her fingers in a meaningful manner, but I was not quite sure what she wanted to express.

I really wish I could have the ability to tamper with other people's memories at will. Although it is physically possible to do this, the content that is forgotten is uncontrollable. Maybe the other person will forget everything in the end.

There are also certain risks......

"Ah, could you please keep this a secret? Otherwise, I'll be very troubled and even unable to sleep at night."

"It shouldn't be that serious. In fact, if I say it to your face... do you need me to secretly remind you? I won't say it directly."

"Please don't do this. It would be more appropriate for me to do this, and I need to take responsibility for my actions. Also... I have a lot of troubles here, and I hope Wangcang can keep it confidential until I figure it out."

"I see... That's right, it's really hard. Anyway, I'll help."

"............What on earth are you two talking about? Why don't I understand a word you said? Did you say anything weird just now?"

"Uh, I didn't say anything weird, did I? What I wanted to say is, well, it seems like Wangcang knows a lot about love or something."

"Not at all! Please don't talk nonsense. I have never been in love... I just read a lot of novels about love. Other than that, I have no practical experience, that's all."

"Oh? So do you have a crush on someone?"

"Well, there must be some, after all, we are all high school students."

Wangcang waved absentmindedly.

Having said that, I still feel that the attitude of Wangcang is somewhat worrying.

However, it might be impolite to ask further, after all, it involves the other party's privacy. If Himeno was not present, he might be able to use the fact that "Netkura knows that I like Ichinose Hono" as a threat to force the other party to reveal the person he loves. If he does this now, the emotional and impression damage will not be recovered in a short time.

If I want to kill time and do some more explorations later, knowing similar information may help me gain some experience in love......

"I still can't understand the strange conversation between you two."

After pondering for a while, Ji Ye came to this conclusion, and at the same time, he covered his forehead with a headache.

"Haha. It's just a casual chat, nothing special. Xiaoxue, don't worry about it."

"Even if you say that... I can't just turn a blind eye to it if you talk to me right in front of me, right?"

Ji Ye said this with a bit of annoyance, which made Wangcang look surprised.

"Is that so? I think Xiaoxue is rarely interested in these things. Last time when we talked about the first couple in the class, Xiaoxue seemed to be uninterested."

"I just felt a little uncomfortable at that time............"

I was not able to express my emotions frankly at that time, so now I can only continue the lies I told then. I will make different plans for the words I use, because I can't be sure how crazy the final rampage will be, at least there is no better way than to continue the lies.

Of course, I am saying this on the premise of excluding the truth......

Wangcang showed a caring expression.

"How are you feeling lately? If you need any help, please let me know."

"At least in terms of my health, I don't have to worry about it anymore. If nothing unexpected happens............"

"It seems like there's no cure for migraines, right?"

"Ah, it's just similar. It's not that serious. I said that because I didn't know how to express it, so I borrowed the name."

"Oh, so that's how it is... But you still have to be careful."

That being said, the human body is still vulnerable to various external attacks. Almost no one can avoid getting hurt or sick.

If you get caught in the rain or blow a cold breeze, you are at risk of catching a cold and fever, which may even be life-threatening in severe cases.

However, thanks to my good physical condition, I haven't been sick for many years.

Maybe never?

I think that's probably the case. At least I don't remember myself feeling uncomfortable, and the only thing I remember is the handle of the knife on my abdomen.

"By the way, what are you going to do with Luojun, Xiaoxue? The final exams are over, and the battle with Class B has come to an end. Tutoring or something, based on Luojun's grades alone, shouldn't be necessary... Ah, if it weren't for the rules of this special exam, I wouldn't have known that Luojun was so amazing."

"Well, that's all thanks to Himeno. It wasn't a big deal for me."

But after saying this, Ji Ye was met with strong disgust.

What? I was praising you! Besides, compared to my current achievements, I really wasn’t that great…

"At first I thought Luo Jun was just an ordinary boy, but I didn't expect that he had so many attractive points. He is a potential stock~"

“Although I know it’s just a false compliment, it still makes me happy to hear it.”

"I'm not complimenting you, this is the truth. Especially after the sports festival, there were big changes in the rankings that students made on their own, including Luo Jun. The high rankings seem to have improved a lot, although they also lost a lot. For example, the gloomy list and the inconspicuous list... Do you need me to find them and show them to Luo Jun?"

"No, I think it's better not to do that."

In a sense, this is probably a good thing. But I always feel that I have seen some unpleasant things. There are all kinds of student rankings and some alternative things.

"When chatting with senior students, I heard that they would occasionally talk about Luo Jun."

"Well, this is really... scary. Speaking of which, I'm planning to go to the cafe with Ji Ye for a while. Would Wang Cang come with us? If there's nothing else..."

Although Ji Ye didn't show much, I could tell from her profile that she seemed to be slightly interested in this kind of thing. In order to avoid strange disputes over this kind of thing, I quickly spoke up to interrupt Wang Cang's thoughts. In addition, we should also leave the lobby of the teaching building.

"Hum, is that so? Well... I don't have anything else to do next, so let's go together."

"I remember Xiao Mazi had club activities, right? Don't you have to join today?"

"Oh, about this matter. I asked for leave from my senior. I didn't really want to be active anyway, so I said this."

"Your reason is that you don't want to be active...? Is it really okay to use this as an excuse for taking a leave?"

"Hmm, should I say that the seniors take good care of the juniors? It's also okay to say that the club activities are relatively loose."

"Can I ask what club Wangcang joined?"

"Calligraphy Club... This is a famous club in this school. Haven't you heard of it?"

"Ah, no, I did listen carefully to the club briefing."

"Me too."

Wangcang felt a little strange because of the sudden silence between the two of us. Maybe she herself hasn't realized it yet, or maybe she is used to it. But as a famous club, the club activities are relatively loose. Could it be that all the members of the club are gifted students?

"By the way, I heard from Fanbo that Luo Jun's handwriting is also very beautiful. Did he practice calligraphy?"

"Well, that's probably it... Instead of that, let's go to the cafe first, otherwise we won't be able to get a seat."

"Oh, sorry, I talked a lot all at once."

"It suddenly became a lot of topics for small talk."

"Xiaoxue is fine, but she doesn't usually get the chance to communicate with Luojun, so she must seize the opportunity."

Wangcang showed a happier smile.

Chapter 3 Class C takes action

The December weather was chilly against my skin, but even so I didn't want to go through the effort of going back to my dorm room to put on more clothes before having my coffee.

There was pain in the fingertips, and a slight warm itchy feeling in the palms of my hands.

I shook my empty right hand, trying to relieve the heaviness in my mind. As for my left arm, I didn't want to move it freely because of the weight of the messenger bag.

From here, you can see the Keyaki shopping center standing not far away. Although I have visited it many times as a "guest", it still feels like I am looking at something new when I look at it carefully.

I breathed the cold air into my lungs and slowly raised my head.

The clouds were moving towards us quickly, as if in a movie.

The exhaled white breath drifted away with the wind.

All kinds of landscapes and scenes turned into light signals and flew into my optic nerves, but left nothing behind.

Next, we were in a corner of the Keyaki shopping center after school. Himeno, Amakura, and I gathered in the rest area reserved for students.

We originally planned to sit in the cafe and enjoy a leisurely time, but the full house and noisy atmosphere urged us to leave. Although there are three or two other coffee shops as options, we are not sure about the conditions inside the shops and they are quite far away.

So we bought our own coffee and sat down in such a loose place.

If the coffee shop is still [crowded] when we arrive at our destination, we will have violated our original concept.

"If there is even a slight deviation from the ideal, it will certainly make people feel unhappy."

Sipping the milkshake, Wangcang complained in front of us with a slight resentment.

"Don't Luojun and Xiaoxue have similar thoughts, like being upset or something......?"

"Everyone has experienced this feeling. Judging from reality, the extreme score difference between 100 points and 0 points is something that no one can easily accept."

I pulled up a seat and sat down. Although I really didn't feel anything, I still gave a general standard evaluation considering the other person's mood.

However, this easy explanation, a part of me that had been deeply rooted in my heart and had never been understood by others, was now seen through...

"Is that so? But I can't tell from Luojun's expression at all, and the same goes for other things. Ahaha, Xiaoxue often has this kind of expression............"

In fact, similar things have happened more than once or twice. There is a big gap between my actions and words. For students who clearly realize this, the impression in their hearts will immediately blow up a tornado.

"I can't control this type of person very well. Also, although I am a little dissatisfied with [not being able to sit in the cafe and enjoy the warm atmosphere, but having to endure the cold outside], most people would not ask others to get a perfect score in every exam, right?"

"As long as it doesn't reach a point where a storm of restlessness breaks out in my heart, I should be able to accept it. At least we are not standing or chatting while strolling, but sitting at our seats and enjoying our coffee, which is something to be thankful for."

I was a little surprised that I could say so many words in one breath. I thought the long paragraphs and few abstract descriptions would cause both parties to feel strange, but they gave me a sense of familiarity............

Is this what you call [friend]?

I was surprised by the understanding of this relationship, and could not see it as a value other than [interest]. At the same time, I gradually had the urge to do whatever I wanted, and even felt pleasure.

"A poker face and energy conservationism... I don't think he's trying to be cool by labeling himself as mysterious, but Luo Jun's thoughts are hard to read sometimes. I feel like it won't be surprising what he'll do next~"

"I am still abiding by my moral bottom line... for now."