Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

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"Wait, wait, what are you going to do!?"

"I'm sorry, but I have my own reasons, so please just take the blame for me."

"no, do not want!"

"pain!"

Although I struggled hard, I was unable to break free from Ibuki's restraints. After a struggle, she threw me to the ground.

My chest felt extremely constricted and breathing became increasingly difficult.

The pain in my wrist was more than just pain; it felt like it was about to break.

"Ishizaki, bring buckets of water. Two buckets first. If it's the toilet on the floor below, probably no one will use it at this time. There are two buckets for cleaning in the men's room."

"Huh? Water? Where do you want to use it?"

"Even you want to resist me?"

"No, no. I'll get it right away!"

Ishizaki acted like this under the devil's order, without even a sympathetic look at me, and just ran past me.

Then, Ryuuen slowly walked in front of me and squatted down.

"In that case, let's just enjoy some idle chat while Ishizaki is back."

"No! Let me go!"

I know demons.

Demons don't just exist in literary stories...I know that demons exist in this world, too.

This is the devil.

What will happen next -

What's going to happen next -

The reason why I had a premonition of what was actually going to happen to me——!

I made my last futile struggle under Ibuki's suppression.

"If you dare to touch me, I will definitely report this to the school!"

"Haha, now it's useless no matter how strong you are. Not showing this attitude at the beginning is your failure. Or... do you still think X will protect you? There is no such thing as a Prince Charming in reality."

"No matter how many times you ask, the answer is always the same!"

As a result, even after coming to this school and this completely new environment, I haven't changed at all.

No, maybe Ryuuen is right.

It is because I had no intention of changing from the beginning that things are like this now.

For better or worse, I am exactly the same as I was then.

But, that's how it is.

I know myself well, I know all my strengths and weaknesses, so I also know that neither boys nor girls like me, that's it.

The scars of the past reappeared before my eyes.

"Although this is my own reasoning, X, who secretly manipulates Class D, should have promised to protect you in an emergency, right?"

There is no such thing, there is no such thing at all, I know nothing about it.

"It would be illogical otherwise. A strong personality like yours that is easily alienated by girls from other classes can easily lead to bad consequences. It is understandable that you are targeted by Manabe and others. I think that except for girls like Ichinose in Class A who have a good personality, I'm afraid not many people will indulge you."

"If others knew the truth about you, you should feel very uneasy every day. However, you have not been exposed by anyone until today, and you have not suffered much injustice. Why is that? The reason is nothing more than because of the people who stand behind you and help you, or they respect that person to some extent."

It shouldn't be like this, there is no such thing at all.

This matter has nothing to do with other people!

A strong sense of inferiority suddenly arose in my heart, the kind of inferiority that I could not express openly in front of others. Then it replaced my consciousness.

What dominates me now is the feeling of tense muscles all over my body.

"............And that's X?" Ibuki said easily.

"Well, that's what's going on now. But it's not entirely true. After all, I don't think I've heard any rumors about Hirata and Karuizawa breaking up."

"............What does this have to do with her boyfriend Hirata?"

"Don't you understand after all this?"

I didn't say anything to stop Ryuen's approaching words. I stopped my so-called struggle and was held down by Ibuki without moving. The only sound echoing in my mind was the thumping of my heart.

The pressure in my head began to rise, and I felt a rush. My body would be completely immobilized because I used all my strength to repel Ryuen's words.

The truth that will soon be revealed——

"X has only recently used her as a pawn. No, it should be relatively early, although not at the very beginning. In addition, I think only a very small number of students in Class D know X's true identity, and with similar strategic plans as mine, it is impossible for them to give him such open protection. So I thought... you should treat Hirata as your boyfriend to protect your safety all the way, right?"

“Gu! No, no…it’s not like that…”

"Well, this is the so-called truth. Don't underestimate my ability, Karuizawa and Ibuki. There have been no major problems with the plans I have carried out so far."

"babble............!"

Ryuen forced me to look into her eyes, and I could feel the malice and excitement gradually overflowing from his sarcastic words. This made me feel even more terrified.

"............How do you know this?"

"That's a matter of rule of thumb, Ibuki. Your junior high school life is probably just like those of other students. So far, I have witnessed the downfall of many students."

demon.

This is the devil.

This is exactly what I fear the most.

My body seemed to be tied up by an invisible string. In fact, my body was being controlled, and my mind was bound, and the things that were stuck together with tape were falling apart.

Then the door to the rooftop was suddenly opened. I hoped to see someone I could seek help from immediately, but the reality was not as expected.

“Huh…Huh…I’ve been waiting for a long time!”

The one who came back here was Ishizaki, who had hurried to fetch water a few minutes ago.

From the corner of my eye, I could see that the bucket was about eight-tenths full of water. The water level was rising and falling violently, and water droplets would splash out and hit my cheek from time to time.

Just a little bit of coldness, before everything started, my heart ushered in the darkest era. The bullying in the past flashed in my mind strongly, strongly, and powerfully.

My whole body began to shiver with cold, but they were still chatting among themselves.

"There are two buckets in the toilet...Although there are also buckets in the girls' room, I can see them, but why did you investigate even such a thing?"

"Ibuki, I don't think you even know how many surveillance cameras there are in this school."

"Huh? Who would care about such things?"

"Haha, I'm different from you. I know this school inside out. My sight and the range of my vision almost represent this school. Of course, all this information is obtained through my investigation."

"One of the experiments to confirm this was to have Ishizaki and the others attack Sudo. Although stupidly, there seemed to be witnesses in Class D......"

Ishizaki lowered his head.

"I should have said it, Ishizaki. I said never to admit your mistakes. And you almost fell for X's fake camera tactics."

"Yes, yes... I was, that is, because... I became a coward without realizing it..."

"Well, we can't put all the blame on you... After all, our battle plan from the very beginning, no, it should be said that my battle plan from the very beginning was completely exposed."

"X?"

After Ibuki asked this question, the atmosphere remained silent for a long time.

Obviously, Long Yuan did not intend to answer this question.

"In short, the structure of this school seems to be operating according to the rules at first glance, but the actual situation may not be like this. In other words, depending on the method, even the most forceful methods will be recognized. Although you may not understand this principle, there will always be people who continue to try and experiment. Whether it is theft, intrusion, or non-existent third parties, the final conclusion will only remain - [No one can punish something that [did not happen]]."

"For example, don't you find the structure of the special exams a bit strange? Whether it's the deserted island survival, the special exam for favored students, or the [Paper Shuffle] that just ended a while ago, you can know the details in advance by confirming this with the seniors. At first glance, the process seems so simple, but even if you want to find out, you have no way of knowing, and there is not even a senior who can answer it properly. What do you think it is?"

"............Like the exams are different every year? Or maybe the rules are different."

"That's right, Ibuki. It's not likely that all exams will be the same every year. However, if I were to put it more strictly, the rules for each grade would be different."

"............I don't understand what this sentence means."

"If the rules for each grade are the same, then once we freshmen realize there's a special exam, we'll start to have boring arguments about currying favor with seniors. To prevent this from happening, we need to rely on absolute rules to restrain us. So, how about adding a rule like "Students who leak exam content will be expelled immediately" after we enter the second grade?"

"This...can't be told to anyone."

"That's right. So even if a junior asks us to do something, we can't take it for granted. After all, we have fought all the way through the year, risking expulsion, and we can't make careless remarks and risk expulsion. In fact, I have negotiated for the personal points of several students in Class D, but I was unsuccessful once. This shows that there is a certain risk."

"It seems to be like this... I wanted to get some tips from my seniors, but they didn't want to tell me. It felt like they didn't want to ask."

"Ah, I'm always keeping an eye on the line between what's allowed and what's not."

Ryuuen said this complacently, but I couldn't easily understand such remarks. It's not that I couldn't do it, but I was caught up in one illusion or another and couldn't extricate myself.

Finally, I woke up at the end of Longyuan and faced the powerless reality.

He looked me in the eyes teasingly.

"Even what we are doing to Karuizawa right now is just one of the experiments."

The cold wind blew across my cheeks, and only then did I realize how warm it was. It was so much warmer than the coldness deep in my heart.

However, this was not enough to warm my body from the inside out.

The scars on the soul were opened again.

"Things like psychological trauma can only be more specifically and strongly described through direct experiments rather than using words to awaken it."

Ryuuen stood up and took a step back while muttering to himself. At the same time, I gradually felt the restraints on my wrists weaken and disappear. I tried to support my body with both hands, but was knocked to the ground by the impact of the icy water.

"Goo!"

At this moment, I turned off my thoughts, like a strange machine.

The cool wind brushed across my skin and through my clothes.

So cold......

It’s so cold!

The nausea and shaking of the arms continued.

He held his body tightly with both hands.

Can't control it.

Then starting from the fingertips, starting from everywhere, the body is becoming stiff.

"Do you recall the baptism you received along the way in your previous school?"

"don't want............"

I covered my ears.