Real teaching, hypocritical gray life

"You're the one who talks the most all day, and you're a little suffocated? I don't even feel that way."

"I can just sing by myself in my own bed in the dorm. Don't embarrass myself. And I don't want to sing with three grown men."

"How can you say they are three grown men?"

"what--"

Bai Niao unceremoniously turned me over, holding my neck with his armpits while pinching the flesh on my cheek with his other hand, "Isn't there still this thin and handsome man Luo? You can try to imagine him as a weak girl. Even though he has a flat chest."

"Disgusting, huh? If you want to disgust me, don't come and disgust me. At least I will go if you wear women's clothes."

"Luo, for our——"

"Excuse me for refusing!" I broke free from the restraint of his arms and made the quickest and most firm refusal in my life.

"I am offended in every way."

"Don't mind. I'm looking forward to it, too."

"A gentleman can be killed but not humiliated. It is impossible for me to compromise."

"Tsk, you really aren't going?" Bai Niao said unwillingly.

"You can go by yourself if you want to. The three of us will go to Okabe's room and play 'Ozmir World'."

“Wow! Is that out already? I’ve been looking forward to it!”

“It went on sale three days ago.”

"Ohhhh—! I want to play! Meet in Okabe's room right after dinner!"

"........"

It's not a voice-controlled game, what about the panic you said you would have when you hold it in?.......

Empty playgrounds are in operation.

There was no one on the seesaw, but it kept swinging up and down regardless of itself; the colorful carousel carried the air and played joyful music; the bungee jumping machine made a creepy friction sound as it fell rapidly, and the Ferris wheel next to it was frightened and slowly drew a graceful arc in the sky.

I wandered around this deserted playground with a cone of white snow and a drink made of tomatoes, while gazing deeply at the ordinary scene...

Or maybe weird would be a more appropriate word.

This is not normal, everything here is not normal.

Obviously, no one visits the amusement park, and it is as desolate as a bankrupt factory, but these machines are still running on their own to pursue their own happiness.

I tried to investigate the truth behind this amusement park, but found nothing and ended up leaving me hungry.

Since the investigation is unclear, just participate as much as you can.

Faced with such a ridiculous idea, I was extremely excited. The impulsive pleasure was as pleasurable as if I were being torn apart.

However, it was not until I approached the entertainment facilities that I realized there was no entrance to the venue, no queues of tourists, and no service staff to collect tickets.

So how can I catch this last train that is about to collapse?

Such a ridiculous question made me rack my brains. I licked the snow cone anxiously, constantly using the cold touch from the tip of my tongue to stimulate my brain to stay awake, while wandering around the playground restlessly.

This shouldn't be the case. This place shouldn't look like this. Something must have gone wrong.

I paid to enter the park but was denied access because the machines kept running.

This is not fair. This is very unfair.

In anger, I threw the entire cone into my mouth and chewed it, the sound of crunching accompanied by the smell of blood. Because the taste was unbearable, I drank the tomato juice in the cup. It doesn't matter how strong the smell of blood is, until the concentration continues to increase, we will not feel it, and we will get used to it.

If the drifting snow gets heavy enough, we will lose our eyes.

While wandering anxiously, I suddenly found a castle that I could enter and exit freely.

Its doors were wide open and ocean balls were everywhere, colliding and bouncing wildly, with some even rolling freely on the slide.

I hurriedly dropped all the valuables in my hands and rushed to the castle regardless of everything.

The scene inside made me happy, my body trembled with excitement, and tears kept flowing from my eyes.

Just as I was trying my best to suppress the joy in my heart and stepped into the castle, the loudspeaker above my head emitted a shrill electric sound.

I covered my ears in pain to block the attack of sound waves, but the sound of electric buzzing easily broke into my mind.

"This place does not belong to you, please leave immediately."

"I'm broadcasting again. This place does not belong to you. Please leave immediately."

Then the castle closed its gate, and that gate was like the iron bars of a prison, locking me tightly.

Huh? Are you kidding?

This doesn't belong to me?

So what's the point of me coming here?

I went through so much trouble to get here, but you just said this place doesn't belong to me and sent me away?

I laughed heartily at this joke.

"Ha ha ha ha--"

"Ha ha ha ha--"

I felt joy, happiness and warmth from the bottom of my heart. It was such a warm feeling that I shed tears.

Hahaha, what a joke!

I slammed the door of the toy castle into pieces, ignoring the sirens and brazenly stepped into the play area.

Look, what can you do to me?

I grabbed the ocean balls and crushed them one by one, so that they could no longer repeat those annoying jumps. I casually broke the colorful slides, making them unable to be spliced ​​and operated, and then the plush dolls...

I frantically destroyed everything around me until the entire castle was in ruins, but I still couldn't feel satisfied. However, the corners of my lips couldn't stop rising.

After destroying everything, I ran wantonly, jumped out of the castle gate towards the stairs on the right, passed by the green grass and gushing springs, dolphins with ocean balls on their heads were performing hard, sickle weasels carried wooden buckets and poured hot water on the backs of mountain cats, and monkeys in suits talked to the bananas on the table...

Interesting, everything here is so interesting.

The more I wandered, the more excited I became, and the more excited I became, the crazier I became, until finally I met him on the uphill way.

The man pointed a gun at me.

"You will bring about your own destruction sooner or later."

"Wait and see."

The corners of my mouth opened and I could even feel the pain of torn skin. Before I could savor the pain, he pulled the trigger, and a gunshot rang out.

"boom--"

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I jerked awake in bed, quickly tilting my head to avoid the bullet's path as I comprehended the situation.

Then I fell heavily to the ground because I didn't use equal force when I stood up.

hiss~

it hurts.

I rubbed the part of my body that hit the floor for a long time before I slowly stood up and turned on the lights in the room.

"........."

One hour and sixteen minutes.

Looking at the clock on the wall, I calculated the time for this break.

I was quite surprised by this result, because it had been a long time since I had slept for more than an hour at a time. No matter how hard I thought about it, I couldn't imagine letting my guard down.

And...is this a dream?

The dream that I had interpreted as impossible, which people had experienced as children, had only just appeared in my life. And unlike the sweetness and horror that people often say, it was filled with things that I could not understand.

I glanced at the dim sky outside the window, then squeezed my temples hard, walked to the desk, and took out a book from the drawer.

[Dreams are divided into manifest dreams and latent dreams. Dreams are the expression of the subconscious mind and the satisfaction of desires. - Sigmund Freud]

The expression of the subconscious, the satisfaction of desire...

what is this?

Do I want to go to the amusement park?

Speaking of which, this facility doesn’t have an entertainment venue like an amusement park, so I can only go there after graduation…

Also, the dead man who pointed a gun at me in the dream at the end

——What was his name?

Chapter 45: Hoshinomiya Chie's Inner Monologue

There is no absolute loyalty in this world. If there is, it is simply because there is not enough temptation and the chips for betrayal.

I had been through the same thing, but I was still blinded by the supreme interests in front of me. And it was too late to come to my senses at this time. I committed a heinous crime.

Mathematics is my teaching subject and it is also my best subject among the five major subjects.

There is no doubt that it takes talent to learn mathematics well.

In addition, logical thinking is also of paramount importance.

But I know that my math talent is not good, and I can even clearly sense the bottleneck and thinking defects. Even though I have made many efforts to make up for these defects, I still can't break through that thin film in the end. This feeling is the same as when you want something within reach but can't get it, it's right in front of you...

That being said, my math scores were among the best at the time. The reason why other people were not better at math than me was mostly because they did not work hard enough, not because they were talented.

Just like Xiaosai now, she always looks like she doesn't care about students at all, doesn't pursue the evaluation after the class graduates, and doesn't care about the number of class points. But I know that all this is just her pretense, she has always been thinking about rebelling against her superiors and trying to climb from D class to A class.

After that incident, I knew she would never give up.

But I won't let her climb up.

Regardless of whether the leader is lying or not, in order to eliminate hidden dangers, I must use this boy, at least let him assist Ichinose...

Black Emperor.

When I met him for the first time after learning about his abilities, I somehow thought of ancient foreign history. Perhaps it was because I felt that this period of history was very relevant to the current situation after comparing various aspects. But after I understood his thoughts, I immediately knew that I was wrong, fundamentally wrong.

He is more cruel than the Black Emperor, and his methods are even more ruthless.

I was able to know that period of history thanks to Kosae. Although my main interest is in mathematics, I became friends with Kosae because we were both curious about history. It was from Kosae that I heard about the ancient history of the "Black Emperor".

In the past when we could still talk happily...

Although the Black Emperor was honored as an emperor, in fact he was just a general under the Emperor Wenren of the Song Dynasty.

No one knows the real name of the Black Emperor, and it is not recorded in any history book. Only the "Records of the Qing Dynasty" briefly mentioned that before he became the Black Emperor, he was called "Duanmu" by others. The word "Duanmu" came from the fact that someone saw him propping up a broken tree, so the term "Duanmu" came into being.

Maybe he himself has no name.

It was rumored that strange things happened on the Black Emperor's birthday, and that a black dragon was roaming around. When everyone in the village thought that he was a rare talent, they forgot about the black dragon's dark face.

His mother died in childbirth, and his father passed away out of grief. A few days later, a fire broke out in the village, killing and injuring countless people. He became helpless since he was a child, and was fortunately taken care of by a military commander, so he was able to survive. However, the commander also died in battle soon after, leaving only Duanmu alive.

From then on, no one in the army dared to have a close relationship with him, as everyone was afraid of the fate of death.

The Army of Life and Death—this name is not given for nothing.

Friends and enemies, though despised by everyone, his strength is so untouchable and unforgettable. Enemies both at home and abroad are all afraid of his bravery and fighting skills. Whenever they know that the Black Emperor will participate in the battle, they are filled with fear. Not only because of his fighting, but also because he is a butcher and a killing god, and he cannot understand his mood even if he kills a hundred times.

You are the king of the army, holding power over life and death, yet no one admires you, no one pleases you, and no one likes you.

Three years in the army, three years of fighting, three years of complete fear living in the hearts of others. Soldiers in the army hope not to hear his voice, hope not to hear his name, but fame cannot be stopped from spreading.

The great reputation he created was heard by Emperor Wenren. The emperor was delighted, but also felt sorry for him, so he continued to promote Duanmu despite the opposition of his ministers. In order to repay the emperor's kindness, Duanmu also decided to serve the Song Dynasty until his death. He continued to report victories to the court, and Emperor Wenren's love for him continued to deepen.

After World War I, his position was continuously promoted. Finally, he was granted the title of Marquis of Zhenbei for successfully saving the capital from fall on his own, and was sent to the northernmost area of ​​the border to suppress the chaos.

This was not because Emperor Wenren was afraid of him. In fact, it would be easy for the Black Emperor to initiate political reforms at this time, but he did not do so. Emperor Wenren did this simply because only Duanmu could ensure that the northern border was worry-free.

Everyone was against it, and they told Emperor Wenren that he was a dark dragon, and that he would harm the emperor in the future, if not now. However, the emperor did not take it to heart.

There is no reward to be given. Duanmu is now almost at the top of the world. If he continues to reward, I am afraid that the world will not be able to be kept in his hands. The Black Emperor also knows this truth and voluntarily took over the position of "Zhenbei Hou".

"I have led the army for more than ten years. I have defeated all who I have encountered and conquered all who I have attacked. Although I have fought hundreds of battles, I have never been defeated. I have done so because of your majesty's kindness. I am willing to conquer the world for your majesty."