Why do you always want to be my Taoist partner?

"Yes."

"Aren't you going to explain?"

"What's there to explain? If I say I'm not you, will you believe me?"

This is the truth. Even if Jiang Li said it was not true, Ye Linglong probably would not believe it. She wanted to say something more to Jiang Li at this moment, but Jiang Li stood up and said, "I'm going to rest now. Please do as you please. If you have no place to sleep at night, take this jade token and find someone. He will arrange it for you."

Jiang Li threw his identity jade token to Ye Linglong, then returned to his room. When he opened the door, Jiang Chuyue had already curled herself up under the quilt, with her little head sticking out, waiting for him.

"Are you still asleep?" Jiang Li came to the bed and began to take off his clothes. Jiang Chuyue closed her eyes subconsciously at first, but after a while she opened them a little, looked at him quietly, and whispered, "I'm waiting for you."

"What are you waiting for me to do? Just go to sleep first."

Jiang Li came to the bed and lay down beside Jiang Chuyue. Jiang Chuyue moved carefully and rested her little head on his shoulder. Jiang Li stretched out his hand and let her head rest on his arm. This sleeping position was very comfortable for her.

"I thought you wanted Ye Linglong to like you, too."

"Do you think I look like someone who would want to hook up with a woman when he sees her?" Jiang Li sighed helplessly, and the girl next to him replied in panic, "No."

"I didn't mean to hook up with you."

"I know." Jiang Chuyue muttered softly, "I don't know why I like you either."

"Okay, okay, I don't want to hear this." Jiang Li said hurriedly. Jiang Chuyue nodded obediently. She moved closer timidly and pecked Jiang Li lightly on the face.

The girl's lips were soft and warm, but Jiang Li found that he was actually indifferent.

How pitiful.

"You seem a little unhappy." Jiang Chuyue said in a low voice.

"Ah, a little."

"what's wrong?"

"It's okay." Jiang Li replied.

He just felt a little empty, but didn't know how to describe it. He himself didn't have too many pursuits. The goal of his efforts over the years has been to improve Jiang Jin's Xuanmai. Now that the Blazing Fire Spirit Ginseng has been obtained, the next step is to find a Fire Phoenix Fruit.

He still has no clue at the moment, but he is not in a hurry. He will go down the mountain soon and go to the secret realm related to the Dark Moon Immortal. If he can find the relics of the Dark Moon Immortal, he will have a chance to open up more limits on his cultivation.

"Go to bed early." Jiang Li lowered his head and kissed Jiang Chuyue gently on the forehead.

The little rabbit in her arms began to tremble slightly. She became a little flustered and wanted to say something several times, but didn't know how to say it. When she finally uttered the first syllable, Jiang Li had already closed his eyes and fell asleep.

She had no choice but to shut her mouth again, remaining silent. She carefully raised her legs and hooked them around his waist, holding him tightly. She liked this sleeping position very much, it was very comfortable, and Jiang Li wouldn't hate it anyway.

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Early in the morning, Jiang Li woke up early.

He took off Jiang Chuyue who was hanging on him, got up and made breakfast. Ye Guixu was now reading the experience book with Ye Linglong. Seeing Jiang Li coming down from upstairs, Ye Guixu looked up and spoke hurriedly.

"Brother Jiang, please accept me as your disciple!"

"...Get out." Jiang Li said lightly, and then went into the kitchen. He had soybean-flavored pancakes for breakfast today. After breakfast, he said he was going out for a while and left his bamboo house.

But in fact he didn't know where he should go, so he had to wander around the Xuantian Dao Ji Sect.

When passing disciples saw him, they would always respectfully call him "Senior Brother Jiang". Only then did Jiang Li realize that he had been greatly promoted. Originally, he was the junior brother of Hidden Sword Peak, but at this moment, he had become the undisputed number one of Xuantian Dao Ji Sect.

All the disciples he met along the way were very respectful to him, which Jiang Li found quite joyful because in the past few years many disciples looked at him as if they were laughing at a joke.

Two years ago, some people thought it was funny because he was rejected by Mu Bingning when he confessed his love to her. They thought he was a toad wanting to eat swan meat. Why is everyone treating him with respect now? Because he defeated the saints of the other two major sects. Even the disciples who didn't come to watch yesterday have heard the news.

When Jiang Li passed by Jijian Mountain, he was stopped by a girl whose memory was a little vague. The girl, wearing a green radish skirt, jumped in front of Jiang Li with bright eyes, "Where are you going, Brother Jiang Li?"

Jiang Li seemed to remember her name was Wenwen? Or Leya? Damn, there were too many previous strategies for girls with this kind of attributes, and he couldn't remember clearly. He had to pretend that he still remembered what she looked like and replied, "Go see Mu Bingning."

The girl raised her head, her eyes full of confusion, "Why did Senior Brother Jiang Li go to see her?"

"See how she's injured."

"That woman is so proud." The girl's voice was a little sour.

Jiang Li smiled helplessly, reached out and touched her head, "Everyone has the right to choose the person they like, right?"

"Why did Senior Brother Jiang Li want to participate in her martial arts competition to find a bride? I remember Senior Brother Jiang Li told me a long time ago that he didn't like her."

"To get the Blazing Fire Spirit Ginseng for my sister's treatment." Jiang Li answered softly.

"So that's how it is. Can I tell other sisters about this?" The girl looked at her expectantly.

"Is it important?"

"Some sisters are very jealous. They think that Senior Brother Jiang Li is still thinking about Mu Bingning." The girl stuck out her tongue at Jiang Li. "We helped Senior Brother Jiang Li secretly scold her."

Jiang Li was more and more confused, "Why do you care about this kind of thing?"

"Because of the reputation of Senior Brother Jiang Li."

Perhaps it was the girl's innocence that made Jiang Li feel so cute. Jiang Li even reached out and pinched her face. "Even a puppy doesn't care whether others say it's good or bad, so why should people care so much?"

"People and dogs are different." The girl answered stubbornly.

"People don't live for the opinions of others. It's more important to be yourself and have no distractions. Focus on your cultivation. When you have a high level of cultivation, you will find that everyone is gentle in front of you and everyone speaks nicely in front of you. But you still can't stop people who are jealous of you from saying bad things about you behind your back. If you are troubled by this, it's not worth it."

"I don't quite understand."

“So I’ll slowly understand it.”

Jiang Li smiled at her, said goodbye to her, and walked towards Hanyuan Mountain.

Chapter 124: Chapter : Which you are the real one?

Hanyuan Mountain.

In fact, Jiang Li didn't think of coming here at first. He was thinking about going to see Bai Sheng, or going to chat with Yue Ji for a while, but suddenly an idea popped into his head to come here and take a look.

So here he is.

When standing at the door, he suddenly felt as if his heart was a lot calmer. The leaves of the tree in front of him fell. Jiang Li reached out and knocked on the door. The door quickly opened and Mu Xuezhi walked out of the room.

She was wearing a white Taoist robe. Jiang Li looked into her eyes and felt that they were not as beautiful as before. They seemed to have become empty and a little tired.

"Why are you here?" Mu Xuezhi asked.

"I came to see if Mu Bingning's injury has healed." Jiang Li answered simply.

"You're so weird."

"Why am I weird?" Jiang Li shrugged. "I don't hate her in the first place. If you hadn't interfered four years ago, she and I would have been Taoist couples. Although we lack some fate, we don't have any hatred. She got into this mess because of me, so I wanted to come and see."

Mu Xuezhi was silent for a moment, "Her injuries are much better, but her body is still a little weak."

"Can I go in and have a look?"

Mu Xuezhi turned sideways and said, "Please go ahead."

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Mu Bingning was lying on Mu Xuezhi's bed at this moment.

Mu Xuezhi's room was very simple and especially monotonous. Mu Bingning was only wearing a simple snow-white petticoat and she had the quilt covering her body. When she heard footsteps, she bit her lips lightly and subconsciously tried to avoid his gaze, but Jiang Li had already walked to the bedside and moved a chair to sit down.

"how?"

Jiang Li looked at Mu Bingning who turned her face to the side and couldn't help laughing.

"How did you come."

"I can't come?" Jiang Li asked with a smile.

"...No." Mu Bingning's voice was very soft.

Jiang Li liked her voice very much, because it was clear and cold, and had the ability to make people feel at ease. Mu Bingning still didn't turn around, so he didn't care and just asked, "Are you feeling better?"

"Ah."

"That's good. Don't do such stupid things next time."

Mu Bingning was silent for a long time, and she suddenly said, "I'm sorry."

"Why are you apologizing to me?"

"In the competition for marriage... doing this will embarrass you."

Jiang Li couldn't help laughing, his eyes became more playful, "You didn't care about this kind of thing before, and you know I don't care about these things."

Mu Bingning slowly turned her head and stared at his cheek.

It seemed as if nothing had changed. He was still the same as he was four years ago, with a faint smile on his face as if he didn't care about anything.

Jiang Li knew what she was thinking, so he tried to make his voice softer.

"You are not to blame for what happened four years ago. If I were you, I would have chosen to do the same. You don't have to think too much. Besides, I am a bastard. I took the opportunity to run to Yue Ji to seek comfort and take advantage of you that night when you rejected me."

Mu Bingning suddenly whispered, "I know."

Jiang Li was startled, "You know?"

"The next day, Yue Ji showed me the photo stone." She answered softly.

This was something a jealous person would do. Jiang Li couldn't help laughing as he looked at Mu Bingning in front of him. After a while, he said, "If that's the case, there's no need to be unhappy. You don't owe me anything."

Mu Bingning lowered her head slightly, "You are always like this."

"What am I always like?"

"You always make fun of yourself for being stingy, selfish, and dark, but most of the time you are very tolerant of others." Mu Bing stared at her hands that were clutching the quilt and said softly.

"I feel embarrassed because of your praise. You haven't seen me being selfish."

"For example..." Mu Bingning's eyelashes trembled slightly.

"For example, this may very well be the last time we meet." Jiang Li was still smiling.

But his words probably sounded a little cruel.

Mu Bingning's body became a little stiff. After a long, long time, she turned her face away and hummed softly.

Jiang Li saw her shoulders trembling slightly, and he asked, "Aren't you going to ask me why?"

"If I ask you...will you...tell me?" Mu Bingning's voice became a little choked.

This scene is really not harmonious. The woman who seems proud and cold all day long is now crying while talking and turning her face away so that you can't see.

"Because I have always been a selfish person. Four years ago, I wanted to give myself a chance to focus on loving someone for the rest of my life. I know you were under a lot of pressure and I know you were in pain, but you didn't give up everything to choose me. For me, I am very sad. You made me sad."

"That's why I call myself selfish."

Jiang Li took out his handkerchief and handed it to Mu Bingning in front of him.

Mu Bingning didn't take it. Jiang Li put the handkerchief on the bed sheet. Then he fumbled in the storage ring for a long time and found a handful of colorful candies in his hand.

"Don't cry, here you go."

Mu Bingning finally turned her head, her eyes red. The candies in front of her reminded her of those distant memories. Those memories always appeared in front of her eyes over the years. She had clearly thought about forgetting them, thinking that as long as she forgot they would not be painful, but she couldn't do it no matter what.

Only Jiang Li knew her little secret that she liked to eat candy.

Jiang Li tore open the candy wrapper and put the candy close to her mouth.

This is also an interesting little detail. If he asked Mu Bingning to eat it, she would definitely not eat it, but if he handed it to her mouth, she would still open her mouth and hold the blueberry-flavored candy.

"It's my own fault. I've done some wrong things in the past, which has led to some small flaws in my character. I hate people around me who silently endure the pain without telling me."

Mu Bingning looked at him in a daze.

"If you had told me this, I would have found a way. Mu Xuezhi rejected me because she thought I was fake and didn't really love you, but I might have a way to convince her. You could have told me this and we would have shared the responsibility, but you chose to bear it alone. Even if you failed, it would be better than you suffering alone. I have always felt that as long as two people are together, nothing in this world is a big deal."

The smile on Jiang Li's face gradually disappeared, and he lowered his head slightly, "But this is really not your fault, you really don't need to blame yourself at all."

His sadness was due to those distant memories of the past. He knew that he was a person who could not get out of the memories. He still remembered the last time he met her in his previous life. Seeing the antidepressants on her floor, Jiang Li realized how seriously ill she was at that moment. He was still complacent about the fact that she rarely asked to sleep with him late at night, rarely asked him to go shopping with her, and gave him enough freedom. Later, he suddenly realized that every time they dated, the girl tried her best to choose a time when she was in a particularly good mood.

Only then did he understand why she liked to wear long pants regardless of summer or winter. He actually believed what she said, that it was because she was afraid of the cold, but in fact it was just to cover up the scars on her thighs that he had left when he was in pain late at night.

She was not afraid of pain, because pain made her feel that she still wanted to live, but when did she start to collapse? Was it when she found out that he was still having ambiguous relationships with many girls?

Why don't you tell me about your pain? Why do you choose to bear it alone? Is it because you want to take care of my feelings?

Please don't be like this, please tell me everything, we can bear it together and share it together. Even if you are really in pain so much that you want to give up everything, I will be with you until the end.